The Musings of Keara Aithne

[Keara Aithne]

7th April 2015

Bound to one another again today we were. This our third ceremony of sorts is. Expected it I did not. Thought it impossible I did for us through this ritual to go. Now know I do why Enver so… excitable has been. We both very happy are. Alone, as always we were. No witnesses had we need of for this to do. Planned by me it was not. Enver this as a surprise did plan. Occurred to him it never did that refuse him I would, even though we our issues have had. That good is. At least think it so I do. Desire we do for with one another always to be. We together belong. Like that I do. Love him I do. Refuse him I never could. Now wishes he does for a second honeymoon to take. One that real is. One that us beyond the city limits take shall. Spain or Portugal his destinations of choice are. Allow him I shall for to decide. Mind I do not whereto go shall, so long as we together are.

[Keara Aithne]

8th April 2015

Serge working out well is. Like him I do. Polite he is. And efficient. Think I do not that Enver by him threatened can be. Though Enver threatened by no-one can be. His place in my heart ever assured is. True that was within months of when met we did. But he the topic of this entry is not. Serge my subject is. Kind he is. Patient too. This good is. The puppies much patience at times require do. Happy too he is, for with them to live. Said he did, that he already happy with us is. His duties pleasing to him are. A joy he said it is for over the puppies to watch. That good to hear is. Like that I do. He a good choice was. Worth he was the trouble, that went through I did for him to acquire.

[Keara Aithne]

10th April 2015

Like I do Enver’s mood of late. Playful he is. Happy he is. Good for us this is. Good also it is that nothing have I in his mind seen for me to upset. No lies between us there have been. None that seen I have. Silly perhaps it is for so suspicious of him to be. But one mistake made he has. One that truly hurt me did, that is. Sure I am that he many mistakes has made. Made some myself also I have. Name them I cannot. But sure I am that made they have been. Upon a tangent now writing I am. But important those thoughts are. Enver silly is. Back to the beginning go I shall. Told me he did that we need of sunscreen had, when on honeymoon go we do. Know I do not whereto going we are, though sure I am that no sunscreen have we need of. Makes me smile he does. And laugh. Adore that side of him I do. Adore every side of him I do. He My Silly Boy is.

[Keara Aithne]

11th April 2015

Date now have we do for when depart we shall. Thursday 16th April the date is. Still know I do not whereto going we are but trust Enver I do. Hmm… Wonder I do if trust him entirely I do. Or if only trust him I do for a destination to pick. Write it I could not if some aspect of that true was not. Trust an issue for us still is. Or was. Perhaps. See we shall. Want I do for him again to trust. Want I do for him to trust, as love him I do. So lost in him become I can when with him I am. Good use of the altar made we did. Habit of this making we are. Think I do that the family us shall begin to avoid if continue thusly we do. Want that I do not.

[Keara Aithne]

12th April 2015

Happier than ever I am. Told Enver this I did. Thought he did that excited I am for to travel. Silly boy. Yes. Happy I am for to travel but he the reason is that I so happy am. Liked I think he did what meant I had, after explained myself I did. More use of our cell make we should. Too comfortable in the attic becoming we are. Refuse him though I cannot. Will not. Desire not. Only need I do for into his eyes to look and lost I am.

[Keara Aithne]

14th April 2015

Soon time it shall be for the puppies to leave. Happy about this I am not. Talked to Enver about them I did. About the concerns that had I did. Said he did that we the puppies with us could bring. But then said he did that weird that would be. For them with us to bring. Think I do that wants them with us he does not. Compromise found must be. Camera’s. Live feed. Set that up I can. Then see them I can. Daily. Even if see me they do not. It that was or go not. Going not, no option was. Want this time with Enver I do. He my word is. Give him this I can. He right is. Puppies fine shall be. Two weeks not very long is.

[Keara Aithne]

29th April 2015

Home. Two weeks both too long and not long enough is. Left on the 16th we did. To Spain we went. Much did we see. Experience. Mind I do not for places in the night to visit. Places quieter are. Limited us it did not. Enver ingenious is. Money or skills all that needed are for doors to open. Good My Love in this is.

Missed of course the puppies I did. But forgiven I already have been. My absence so long from them was not. Treats bought them we did. This the secret to their happiness is. Anything that chewed upon can be, acceptable is. If swallowed too it can be then that more than they can ask for is. Delight I do for them happy to see. Missed the yipping I did.

Family quiet is. As always. Nothing new there is. Mind that though I do not. Better is that things quiet are, than for to hell to return. Trust my blood I can for to behave.

[Keara Aithne]

1st May 2015

My thoughts still in Spain are. While limited we were not for activities to do. Ashamed I am for to say that mattered not, it did not to me, whereto we went, as Enver my favourite pastime is. So long as he with me is, happy I am. Too happy. Perhaps. Admitted today I did how deep my desire for him runs does. Happy that made him. I think. Angry he was not. That good at least was. Feared I did that disgusted with me perhaps he might be. Desire of mine unhealthy is. Hunger for him I do. In all ways. His blood calls to me does. Perhaps ingested too much over time I have. Though even as write that I do, know I do that, that false is. His blood always pleasing to me has been. Crave it I do. Crave him. Tight rein on that desire kept must be. When confessed that I did. Enver asked did if pregnant I was. Understand that question I do. Worse that desire was then. Bit him often I did. Enos my desire did then magnify. Teased me Enver did. Says he does that I for something else perhaps hunger do. And that he good cannot taste due to lifestyle that lead he has. Silly he is. My silly boy. Told him I did that this a sin is. For me him so to desire. Countered my words he did. Said he did that everything we do a sin somewhere considered is. Perhaps right he is. But lose myself to this I cannot. Enough tenets for him broken I have.

[Keara Aithne]

4th May 2015

Home in time returned we did for into a new raid to walk. Worked with but a few Enver and I did. Xian quite something is. Always helpful he is. Leif too. Though quiet of late for her she has been. Worries me that does. Prefer I do when she more talkative is. Not that babbles she does. Ever. Just feel I do that distant she is. Like to feel thusly I do not. Still. Raid that started yesterday was, today competed was. The matriarch all too easy was. Wonder I do if tired she was. If perhaps welcomed death she did. Strange.

[Keara Aithne]

5th May 2015

Enver my weakness is. Nothing new there is. Though today scared perhaps we did Lorde by ourselves to be. Though this my fault was. Carried away I was. Kissed him I did as if compete alone we were. All too easy it is for so to believe when near me he is. Worse it is since away we went. No that wrong is. Worse it been has since bound we have been. Never was it my intention for to him bound to be. Not by magic. Thought it impossible we did. Desired it still I think we both did. This the only explanation is. Elated we are for together so completely tied to be. Still. Try I must for to remember that family us so together do not desire for to see.