The Musings of Keara Aithne

[Keara Aithne]

26th July 2014

Charlotte “Goodbye” on the forum today did write. Know not why. Wondering I am if she on vacation is going. Imagine I cannot that she us desires to leave. Jonah has she does. Imagine I cannot that she him would leave. Difficult find it I do from Enver for the duration of a raid to be separated. A holiday without him unbearable would be. Try I shall for her to catch before she leaves she does. Sit outside her cell I shall this eve. Remember I must for Enver this to tell. No doubt suggest he shall that we a camera and sensor there do set. And that perhaps a good plan would be but gone she could be before I of the alarm aware was.

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Better plan had I did. Wanted I did for her words to hear so connected to her mind I did. Asked her I did what wrong was. Jonah her has left. Now says she does that she a mistake was. Believes she does that she an annoyance to me is. Preposterous that is. Know I do not why she such things would say. Difficult it is for to leave that Jonah her so distraught too would leave. Perhaps he time requires for his thoughts to gather. Enver and I sometimes away from the other must walk for our minds to collect when argue we do. Thankfully argue all that often we do not. At least not true arguments. Mainly misunderstand done another we do. Things always well do come once talk we do. That all that required here is, surely. Talk Charlotte and Jonah should.

[Keara Aithne]

28th July 2014

New raid in the city there is. Write of these I do not always like to but Thomas us in this did join. Love I do for Thomas to see. He possibly the first reason that had I did for not back into that realm to sink. Besides the realm itself. Without him, know I do not what in that first year happened would have. Strange it is. Seems at times it does as if I but one childe in my life at a time may have. Just as Charlotte disappears does. Another home does come. Love I would one day for this not to think.

Oh. Ask Enver I must where Crash been has. Mentioned he did that he into a home did break and that he shot at was. Though he not always easy to understand is. Perhaps means he does this place. As paranoid seems he does to be of the guards. Think I do that Crash paranoid is. Wonder I do what taking he is, as sure I am that this self-inflicted is. Know I do not of what use he is sometimes. Fetch and carry he does. Gizmo and Leeloo such errands trained for to do could be. Though like Crash I do. He funny is for to watch at times. Past entertainment though, little use does he seem to have.

[Keara Aithne]

29th July 2014

Thinking now I am that Crash something let slip did. Enver up to something is. Said he did that going out he was but told me he did not where and to whom. Need I do for to find out what going on is. Think I do not that it something bad is. Likely something mundane. But maddens me does when vague he is. Ask Deanna I should for him to follow. Suggested she did that I a tracking chip in the collar of the puppies do place but that a little extreme does seem. Besides, she far more effective tool is. Puppies with us everywhere do not go.

[Keara Aithne]

31st July 2014

Hmm. Deanna Enver no more can follow. Able he is for her to see. While means this does that she his business now for me cannot learn, means it does that perhaps less suspicious of her in time he will become. Now knows he does where she is and what doing she is. Like I would if they a friendship could form. And possibly next time that I upon my husband wish to spy, write it in my journal I should not. Not when he permission has for my words to read and my thoughts to know. If reading this you are My Love. Need I would not for my sister to employ if less secretive at times you were.

[Keara Aithne]

1st August 2014

Thomas good luck to us did bring. Able we were for the Matriarch to find and slay. Jonah this task did accomplish. If more energy had I did, of more help to him been I could have. Perhaps. Thankfully Leif of some support able to be was.

Support. This the word of the day is. Enver asked me has for him to support. Naturally wish I do for him to help. For him to please. But asking he is for something that able to do I am not. Well. That not strictly true is. Able I am for the task to perform. Only desire I do not for the task to do. Wants me he does for into that realm to go. For the darkness to explore. Wishes me he does for Lorde for him to find. Though know he does not if she there is. If going to the realm I was. Go I would for Charlotte. But she all too quiet is. Think I do that in time return she shall. If needs me she does. Ask me she may for to visit. Able she is for this to do. Lorde that power does not have. Perhaps there she is. Perhaps not. For Enver go there I would. Could. But go there for to be with him I would. He there is not. Still fear I do for in there to go. The desire strong must be for in there to go. Love Lorde I do but drawn to her in that way I am not. Know we do not even if she there is. Even if there she is, find her I might not. Know I do not if I my composure down there without good reason could keep. Enver others does know that this for him could do I am sure. As much as pains me it does for him to refuse. Refuse him right now I must.

[Keara Aithne]

2nd August 2014

Lorde. Enver quite frantic about her now does seem. Trying I am, for not jealous of her to be. Repeat I do to myself that she but his childe is. His creation. Loves her only as a child he does. She his childe is. Deep breath and then continue I may.

Okay. Says he does that Lorde in work in two weeks has not been. Joined us she did not in recent raid either. Seeming it is as if dead she is. Into that realm perhaps go I must. Strength require I do for that to do. Strength of mind. If Lorde there is, doubt I do that it through misfortune is. Intelligent girl she is. No trouble have we heard of. Think I do that if she in trouble was that she to Enver would have turned. Believe this I must.

[Keara Aithne]

3rd August 2014

Enver tinkering is. Upset he is, so best it is for him not to disturb. Gizmo hiding under his table is. Sensitive to his emotions he is. Know I do not if Enver notices this does. Or if he comfort from his companion does draw. Leeloo only sensitive to Gizmo’s emotions does seem. Least think this I do. Gizmo always the first to react is. Perhaps our emotions less easily the female does feel or understand. Gizmo’s emotions easier for her to understand are. But digressed I have. Think I do that the forum the source of Enver’s pain is. Thinks he does that someone me has insulted. Check this I should.

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Alanoth the reason for his mood is. Alanoth returned has but his mood quite altered is. Angry he seems and know I do not why. Knows he does how he me can find. Sure I am that talk with me he shall once calmed himself he has.

[Keara Aithne]

4th August 2014

My feelings right were. Knew I must have that Charlotte dead was. In my heart. Wrote as much several days past I did. That visit her I would in that place. Today confirmed for me she did that she there was. Speaking to me she is though. That good is. Checked I have her cell most nights since she me that strange message did send. Wanted I did for to believe that she somewhere better was. That she on holiday had gone for her mind to clear. Wonder I do how died she did. While trouble her does seem to find, rarely do the hunters much damage to her do. What should I do now that know I do where she is? Most within one week return do, if return to desire they do. If her message the day of her death sent was, then longer than one week absent she has been. She an odd one always has been. Perhaps know she does not how she that place can escape. Tell her I must.

[Keara Aithne]

5th August 2014

Charlotte killed herself did. Silly girl. That no solution to anything is. Know I do how felt she must have, but fear of that place me here does keep. When sane I am. Recall I do the feeling of despair that felt I did earlier this year, when believed I did that I Enver from me had driven; when I the solution to my problem did not have. Still. If in pain she was. To me she should have come.

Still some solace have I. Charlotte alone there is not. Jonah there is too. That not good news is in many ways. But of comfort to her it must be for him at her side to have. Since knows he there is she does, together they must be. Says she does that Wolffyn him did kill. Perhaps jealous of Charlotte she was. Know the reason I do not. Thought I did that Wolffyn dead was. Know I do not why I that did think. Obviously alive she is. Matters not though I guess. What important is, is that Charlotte believes does that she nothing to return for has. Perhaps true that is if Jonah with her is. Stay I would with Enver if I in that place with him was. Obvious it is that she ready as yet is not for home yet to return.

[Keara Aithne]

6th August 2014

Crash through withdrawal went. Forced upon him that was, as in hospital he has been. Poor thing. His life in danger in that last raid we did bring. Poor thing. Better care of him take we must. While useful I find him not, for the most part, a friend of Enver’s he is. Strange to me it is that he a friend would choose to enthral. Guess that then he his strengths and weaknesses would know. Perhaps that the reason is. Same thing had he did with blonde whose name wish to forget I do. No more have I to write today but she my last thought cannot be. Go and play I shall with the puppies. They my spirits always do lift. If Gizmo all his toys as indicated does bring, reward him I shall with something of Enver’s. His socks perhaps. Loves he does the scent of his father.