The Musings of Keara Aithne

[Keara Aithne]

9th April 2014

Enlightening I this raid am finding. Know I do that my husband brilliant is. That no surprise to me is. Only mention I must that love I do for him to watch and of this reminded to be. Deanna says does that he not my equal is but on days like this say that she cannot. He more than my match is. Enver my life complete has made. His weaknesses my strengths are and his strengths my weaknesses do overcome. Ask more of him I could not. Though while know I do that compliments me he does, not so sure am I that he the same would say. Feel I do that disappoint him I do for into these places to go…and stay. Quite injured this time I was. And help myself I cannot. Know I do that likes he does not for me this way to see. Notices he does that my scent stronger is when wounded I am too now, so hidden my injuries never are for long. Not that hidden well they were before. I his am, so noticed he always did before when wounded I was. Only now, now he knows that he my form must inspect. But from my point I have wandered. My husband amazing is and prouder of him I could not be this eve. And proud of him I am always.

[Keara Aithne]

10th April 2014

Wounds sway him not from me attention to pay. Perhaps knows he does that heighten they do my senses in some form. Speak of that perhaps I should later. Though likely read that here to he shall. No. Best is I think if I the words to him do say. Understand better then he shall. These pages the place are not for such things to write.

[Keara Aithne]

12th April 2014

Need I do out of that building to stay. No good for me such places are. This he tells me and know I do that he right is. Always right he is not but in this he is. Bad I have been for to allow myself into such a state to be brought. Focus I shall my skills in other areas I shall so that feel I do not the need for the floors of such places so thoroughly to explore.

[Keara Aithne]

13th April 2014

No words have I for this eve to explain so try I shall not. Only write I shall for to say that surprised me this eve he did and that if possible it was for to love him more, then that true also would be.

[Keara Aithne]

14th April 2014

Too much fighting of late I have done. Hmm…Never did I think that I those words would write. Sure I am now that my talents elsewhere best applied could be. Enver helping me is with one skill to explore. Crafts he does items for me safe to keep. Know I do that he nothing of this thinks, but to me it a statement is of how he for me does care. Not that need I do of that to be reminded...most days…Admit I must that I my moments have where doubt this I do, but that always a feeling of my own making is. Enver me no reason ever gives for him in this to doubt. Greater effort make I should for to show how feel I do for him.

[Keara Aithne]

15th April 2014

Gizmo acting odd is. Know not why. Wondering am if misses us he is. Not that I nor Enver far usually do go. But...hmm...when first acquired him we did, home we were day and night. Since Enos gone has been, changed that has. Much time in raids I...we...have spent. Likes perhaps he does not for alone to be. Know I do not what do we can for this to rectify. Perhaps teach him I can for to hunt. Though doubt I do that he quiet enough shall be for this to do. But try I can regardless. If hunt with us he can, then alone he need not stay. Speak with Enver on this I shall. Intelligent animal our dog is...but young still, wilful. Perhaps benefit more he would if both Enver and I with him do work.

[Keara Aithne]

16th April 2014

Love I do for to watch him with his hands work. Though perhaps bad is for him that watch I do, as distraction to him I am. Welcome distraction at times perhaps. But distraction all the same. Think you would that learned I might have, how to make the things that makes he does and yet doubt I do that I this could do. More attention to his form I pay, than to his actions. Every aspect of his countenance I could describe and yet doubt I do that recall I could what made has been. Power this male over me has and yet take it from him I would never, as far too happy I am for so enamoured with him to be. And this day my patience as tinkered at his table he did well rewarded was.

[Keara Aithne]

17th April 2014

A wicked wife I am. Wandering I was in the catacombs when spied I did a creature where a creature ought not be. Naturally investigated this I did. And then found I did a newly opened doorway. Within zombified creatures I found. Knows he does that resist such temptations I cannot and yet still...guilty I feel for in here without him to be.

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Miss him intently I do and yet force myself to go home I cannot. Something quite wrong with me is if will I do for at his side to be and yet force myself to leave I cannot. Healthy perhaps it is not that I so often of him think. Or that pains me it does for parted from him to be. Allow me alone to be he should not. Too much time have I for to think when with me he is not and thoughts quit maddening can be. Desires sated cannot be when apart we are. Perhaps that the crux of my issues is. That or...no...write that I should not. No reason have I for...that to be. This my doing is. Allow such thoughts within my mind to dwell I should not...And yet their home in there found they have regardless. Why do I this to myself do? Calmed such thoughts could be if I with him speak. If I home return. Instead here I sit for my frustration into words to put. Something wrong with me is. Of this quite certain I am.

[Keara Aithne]

19th April 2014

Home last eve returned I did. Drive myself quite mad in those places I can for of him to think. Far better is for home to return and at his side to lay. Even if rest with me all day he does not. Never have I a bed needed. Comfort in that way no sway upon me has. He the allure is of our room, our bed. Know that with all certainty I do. Still happy that me did make. Even if back I went to that place when the sun below the horizon did dip.

Eventful night been it has. Discovered I have new power, new form. Seems it does that change I can into a lion. Female lion that is. Lioness. Look up I should exactly how look they do. Enver this for me can confirm. Know I do a little of how look they do. Of course. But never did I much attention pay. Least if did that I did, subconscious observations they must have been. While in jest blamed him I did for form that taken was, true too that likely is. Easier for us is, if like forms take we can. Enver happy seemed with transformation. So that me happy too does make. Though think I do that people notice shall if lions the streets of this city do prowl. Stick to the wilderness we should. Hope that seen we are not as we through the forest of darkness creep. Doubt I do that we these forms often shall assume. Though entertaining it was. For tonight at least.

[Keara Aithne]

20th April 2014

Think I do that I Enver annoyed today. Noticed I did not that he a copy of himself in our home had left. So…well. Details unimportant are and noticed I did quite quickly. Very quickly. In fact. But knew I did not till after I upon its lap did sit. Strange things said were thereafter. Something about Deanna and her, her ideas from somewhere getting. No idea have I what speaking of he was and elaborate he would not further. Infuriates me does when he that way does act. Still. Rather than the situation with him to press. Press it further I shall with Deanna. When her temperament better is. Quite rude earlier to us she was. Wondering I am if Enver right was. Long ago said he did that she jealous is. No other reason can I see for why she my relationship so much does dislike.

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Think I do that the worst of what before us this eve went, over is. Asked him I did for his form to change and when tried he did, a different form than required I did he took. Mind that however I do not. Learned I did that I this power also have and that I his match am. Like that I do. Fitting it seems that compliment one another this way we should.