The Musings of Keara Aithne

[Keara Aithne]

15th December 2013

Another night, another gift. If continues he does this way for eternity believe I do that small island I might need acquire for all the things that buy me he does. Assured him I have several times that gifts unnecessary are, yet listens he does not. Still, mind I do not, as shows it does that he of me thinks. And…nice it is for jewellery to wear in this life. More common is the practise now, for cheaper pieces available are. Fashions too quite individual are meaning more choice there is also. Least seems this way to me it does.

Enver and Deanna still issues with one another having are. Sent her I did for him to find when in the raid he was. Now tells me does that she corrupted by him believes me to be. Perhaps correct she is, as understand I do her views but then, nothing have I done that not of my own free will was. Corrupted for me wrong word would be. Awakening in some sense I am and intend I do for my experiences in this world to enjoy.

[Keara Aithne]

16th December 2013

Strange night it has been. Realised did too late last eve that camera broken was. Decided did the footage to review, footage that previously recorded had been. Family last were that into the domain came. So started did with one that last captured was; Sara. Noticed I did her injuries, so knew already that she the culprit was. Angry I was not, am not. But asked I did the reason for her this to do. Said she did that investigating camera she was when exploded it did. That possible is. Know I do not how volatile they are, as tend I do not the item to touch once installed it is. Still made it known she did that she wished the item self to replace. Lions too helped in this he did. Sara the pieces procured and Lions a new camera for us made. Gave he did too some extra ones so that some available I would have if situation e’er repeats.

Introduced I did, albeit briefly, Enver to my blood. Several members home this eve did return and like I would for them one another to recognise. Enver comes and goes as pleases he does, as well he should in home that his is, but think I do that it important is that he my family does know and recognise. Think perhaps Sara in private we need address, as believe I do not that she him easily will trust. Perhaps help there I can through the common ground to be that between them lies.

[Keara Aithne]

18th December 2013

Worry I do for him. Enver feeling odd is today. Sure I am not what wrong with him is but blames he does the paladin that him did try to wound. Know I do not if that correct is, but watch him I shall for this to see. Like I do not the idea that harmed he might be in some way.

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Leif me more cameras did bring. Very kind of her that was. Sure I am now that enough we have for our home to monitor. Though cameras everything do not pick up. Perhaps next sensory system required might be, though difficult it is every movement to monitor and ways around such things there are.

~#~

Added I did Enver to the family forum. Most welcome I believe he is through the responses that received I did. Though…his reaction a little strange was. Unexpected he said it was, yet access to his lineages forum for a while I have had. Strange his behaviour was, perhaps poisoned he was by paladin. Though suspect that not the case to be. As landed a blow upon him the creature did not.

More talk of binding tonight there was. Thought I did that that conversation behind us was. For now. No thought had I the subject given since spoke of it last we did. Deanna responsible for this is. Know that. But believe I do not that she wishes for us to bind. Foolish she thinks me for with Enver to be. Learn she shall in time that right I am in this. Feelings so strong wrong cannot be. Wish I do that I her this could make to understand. Odd it is, if truthful I am, of binding to another to speak. Perhaps think on it I should, as thought I never did another to find. To bind again a plan of mine never was. Idea unpleasant is not though. Nox only knows. Leave that to the future I shall.

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Sara me too does worry. Walked she did this eve into the wilderness. Believe I do that she herself wished to harm. Thinks she does that she Grace will once again see if dies she does. That true cannot be. Frequent the Shadow Realm such spirits rarely do. Brought her home I did but mauled by fae she already had been and a limb she missing was. Hope I do that stays she does in her cell. Impulsive she is. Like her ideas always I do not. Thinks she does quite different to me. While wrong I cannot say she is, as each upon their own paths must tread, hope I do that her path soon she does find.

[Keara Aithne]

19th December 2013

Arguments between us strange are. Always argue we do over things that perhaps argued over need not be. Misunderstand one another a lot we do. And yet…change I would not the way we with one another are. Asked him I did for his feelings to verbalise. Then when verbalised them he did, felt I it necessary to say that more natural his words should be. Like I do not to think that forced him I did these words to say. Though perhaps natural it seems not, as know I do that these words to him do not naturally come. Least think I do that that the problem is. See I shall. As sure I am that he used to it shall become if means the words he says he does. Which believe I do he does. Know I do how he feels. Only wanted I did the words to hear when felt them he did, instead of when angry he was. Resolved our issue now is. Agreed we have that true to ourselves we should be. I shall endeavour the words to speak more too, as apparently more comfortable I am with the words to write. Which reminds me does. Need I do his email, and mine, to encrypt. Worries he does that others our words may read.

[Keara Aithne]

20th December 2013

Last eve slept I almost did in the raid. Away from him I have not slept since acquired my power for in the day awake to stay I have. Worry I do that sleep I shall not without him at my side to have. See perhaps I shall if that happen in future. Thankful I was when ended early it did, so that return to My Love I could. Things strained between us had been, as wrote yesterday I did. Our communications always better in person are. Written word true sentiment does not always carry.

[Keara Aithne]

22nd December 2013

Last eve a ritual perform I did in honour of Nox and Helios. Though in truth ritual more for Helios was. His time it now is for over us to watch. Even if Nox our true mother is. Helios important is. Reminded of that I was recently when tried I did my faith to explain. Balance in all things there must be and watches over the frail creatures he does when Nox and my kind mostly sleep do.

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New raid there is. Sent I had Deanna to investigate. Enver too the entryway did find and believe I do that first through the door her was, if discount Deanna I do, as told me she did that trap there was. And yet when entered I did, trap disarmed had been. Seems it does that he yet another skill possesses that I do not. Like that I do. That he gifted is in such things. Like I would that craft to learn but time have I and my efforts now best focused elsewhere are.

Trapped Deanna has become. Annoyed she is and understandably so. Sorry for her perhaps I would feel if thought I did that this permanent would be but know I do that she free shall be tomorrow. This her first time in such a contraption is not.

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Enver me a gift has given. Again. And while perhaps chastise him I should, came he did to the second floor of a raid for the gift on my finger to place. Ring interesting is. See almost I can when in peril I am. Time have I then such things that seen I have to avoid. Wondrous gift. Know I do not if he that knows exactly but like I do that he of my safety thinks. As told he was that ring me would help in such a place as this. So much confidence in my ability he has. Even if gift perhaps otherwise could be seen to indicate. Smiling I am now for of him to think, even if next to me he is. Company in such places I rarely have and nice it is to know that today alone I need not sleep. Staying with me he is. If knew better I did not, assume I would that dreaming of him I am. As so wonderful to me no-one has been since died I did. Easy he makes it for me him to love. Know I do that he such places does not like and yet found his way to me he did, regardless.

[Keara Aithne]

23rd December 2013

Brief this entry shall be as…well…better things have I to do. Good spirits I am in. Very good spirits. Enver amazing is. Say I cannot how much that love him I do. Without him think I do not that accomplished I could have what I did this eve. Even if with me he was not. Slew I did a creature upon the top floor of the raid and a new relic I did acquire. Need have it appraised I do, but again…wait that can. Oh and Deanna in another trap did step. Angry she is with me. Hope I do that pass that shall.

[Keara Aithne]

24th December 2013

Think perhaps found I have a way for Enver my rituals to accept. Issue seems he to have with such things but at least now no fear of the altar it seems he has. Though admit I must that method of persuasion in this unusual is. Seemed he did happy for my deities too to accept when explained I did a little more of their beliefs. Know I do not if such good favour in him will last but accept it I shall for so long as lasts it does. No need has he for me to fear, nor my practices. Learn this in time I’m sure he shall.

[Keara Aithne]

25th December 2013

Enver shot once more has been. Worries me does that so much negative attention he does draw. Seems it does that paladins celebrate Christmas not also, else believe I do that hunting our kind they would not be. Asked I would have if slain the paladin was that the wound did inflict but distracted me he did. Matters not I guess as injury slows him little. Accustomed to wounds I believe he is. So guess I do in that, that accustomed to it too I need become.

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Wonder I do if celebrated this day I did if more gifts I would need send? Sent enough today I did and celebrate I do not. Though gesture more for those that bouquet received did, as know I do that many of my family this day do celebrate.

Expect I did not gifts in return to receive but a number received I regardless. Most thoughtful was of them of me to think. No favourite gift can I from among them choose. However received I did one gift that a little odd to me did seem; Champagne. Think I do that realised not they did, that I such liquids cannot imbibe. Matters not though as Enver the gift for me can enjoy. If wishes he does such things to drink that is.

[Keara Aithne]

26th December 2013

Raid there is in the city today. Thought I did that Enver there would wish to go, as gangsters saw I behind the first door. That only raid is that he any interest in thus far has shown. Summoned him nearby I did, so that seek it out he need not. Know I do not how long in there he shall stay; bored of such things he soon becomes.

More talk there was of binding and believed I did that matter settled had been. Curious he was to know the specifics of handfasting. Thought I did that research it alone he could but too much information is there upon the internet. Link sent him I did to clarify my understanding and belief. Happier seemed he then. Calmer. Ready he is not for such conversations I believe. Odd he acted when added him I did to my family board. Strange that was; still issues have I with him to read, even if spend we do practically all our free time together.

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Acting strange he had been all day. Thought I did that perhaps injury he had sustained. Now know I otherwise. Planning something he was. Confused I was when handed me a broom he did. Forgotten I had conversation that we earlier had. Well…not forgotten so much as…presumed I did, that resolved it had been. Thought I did conversation to revisit in the future, as believed I did not that he ready for such a thing was. Wrong was I in that. Asked me he did for his wife to be. Mind I do not to write that this me did startle. No answer had I at first, as presumed I did that knew he did not what he of me asking was. Of course, accepted his offer I did. Love him I do. No other answer could there ever have been. Once realised I did that meant he did the words he said.