Journal Date: 5/29/2018

[Varo Ricci (DELETED 9075)]

I have made a mistake. The shade, it...it's just to much to deal with now. Every day it goes on a rampage it seems, more times then I care to consider it's gotten me, or a cop or soldier has. I just can't deal with it anymore, I don't know if it'll solve it, but i have to go back. I will...miss the sun. But even now, I'm not seeing it as often as I'd like, having to hide often in the forest to keep away from the soldiers. Only sometimes skimming into the city. It's time to go back, there is no other way around this, I have to become a vampire again.

I hate that idea, being forced to turn back after the chance I was given. But, truly, there is no other way around this. At this rate I'm going to die anyway, at the very least if I'm a vampire I can sort of come back from it. I don't know what would happen if I die as a human and I rather don't want to find out now that I've finally tasted what it's like to live.

If only I had gotten more time. But that's not going to happen. Life is cruel as death I suppose. Well I'm just blabbering now, scribbles in a notebook. Things I may never remember. But it doesn't matter. It's time to go, find a way to return to what I was before.