3:16am [Clover]

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3:16am [Clover]

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3:16AM
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OOC: Backdated to January 6th
<Clover> I think I need to remove this armlet.

Sunset had occurred almost thirty minutes ago. Even though she’d slept peacefully, she felt as if she’d tossed and turned for hours on end. Her body seemed heavier and awkward to move, from her head to her toes. While she might have remained still, allowing the dark room to slowly coax her from her dreamless slumber, she forced movements. As soon as she’d opened her eyes, she’d gone for her journal. Clo had lifted up the top corner of her side of the mattress, raising it just enough to slip her journal free. She’d reclaimed it and tucked it away, not that she’d hid it very well. No, she hadn’t meant to hide it at all.

Her entry had revolved around her depression, yet again, but the most important part came at the end of the four-page entry. Clover wasn’t even sure if she wanted to end it there, on such a foreboding note. Blood. How much she needed blood. How much she depended on blood. Clo still had the book open. She still had the pen in her hand. Her dark brown eyes never strayed from the blue-lined paper, from the gentle curves and sharp lines of her fair handwriting. Even looking at her small letters and the shrinking distance between words, she sensed detachment. Clo felt as if the armlet had some connection to her problem, and blood represented a cure.

Clo dropped the pen between the pages and flipped the front of the notebook closed. She sat there, with the notebook in her lap, and looked over at Jesse. Had her movements woken him? Had the incessant sound of the pen scratching against the paper drawn him from his slumber? He could have been pretending. The thought struck her that he might have been awake the whole time, that he might have been the first to open his eyes. Perhaps he’d fallen into her typical routine, where she allowed herself time to adjust to a new night. The bedside table had an open spot for her journal, so Clover picked her book up by the corner and deposited it there. She ignored the fact that the pen rolled from between the pages and clattered to the floor.

Turning onto her side, she slid down farther beneath the sheets and moved closer to Jesse. She pressed her bare body against his and wrapped an arm around him. Even then, her armlet made its presence known. The white-gold snake wound its way around the upper portion of her arm, its sightless eyes facing up toward her head. The simple piece of jewelry was actually a powerful relic, a relic that left her stomach empty and her throat aflame.

“Jesse,” she tested, still unsure if he’d awoken or not. She leaned in and brushed her lips over his. The kiss was chaste, too light and too quick for her usual taste, but her goal wasn’t to lose herself to his lips. “Jesse,” she repeated, “come hunting with me.”

<Jesse> Sleep was not something that Jesse should enjoy. At least, not so soon after his illness within which time he had spent days in bed. He didn’t think it compared, however. Those days had not been restful. If that had been rest, it was the most exhausting rest he had ever experienced. Even his dreams had been exhausting; a never-ending cycle of darkness and negativity. These days, however? He slept as if he hadn’t slept for a year. Whenever it was close to sunrise sleep would take him, swift and fast. And he wasted no energy making himself comfortable - whether he had the bed to himself or not. These days, he rarely had the bed to himself, which was not something that he would complain about.

As soon as the sun set below the horizon, Jesse was awake. Whether he got out of bed straight away or not was another question. The restfulness one feels between sleep and consciousness was a precious thing that should not be taken for granted. There was nowhere special he had to be, and he was still enjoying the fact that he could lay there without feeling any kind of pain. Without wanting to throw up. Without feeling as if thorns were growing in his bloodstream. Without being overwhelmed by thoughts of suicide.

It was the most satisfying thing in the world to be able to lay there, awake, but with his eyes closed. To doze as he felt Clover stir; as he heard her pen as it made its mark on the lined paged. Of course he was curious. The woman had given him the book to read and there was rarely a frivolous entry; she wasn’t wont to write down things that made her happy. Not often. So what was going on with her, now? Would he be whacked over the head with it as a wake-up call?

But he didn’t move. Not yet. Sleep still clung to him like broken cobwebs drifting in a breeze - still holding tight to the leaves they’d been secured to. He should get up, he told himself. His sketch book was around, somewhere. While she wrote, he could sketch. Get some work done, while the night was still young. In that half asleep state, he imagined that he was sketching. Believed that he had actually got up and was doing what he had thought of doing, except he hadn’t moved at all. His body was a dead weight in the bed, and it was only as he felt Clover’s smooth, tantalizing skin slide so easily against his that he realised he was dreaming. He didn’t have a sketchbook. He had lips against his, and eyes blinking open to dim light.

Hunting, she said, and he swallowed. Yes, there it was. That familiar thirst, that ever-present hunger. Hunting, she said. Not for rabbits or deer, but for dinner. He hummed under his breath, pressing his lips lazily to Clover’s. Better than chaste, but not urgent, either.

“Yes,” he said, the word touching her lips. Except with his arm now thrown over her body, and his own body still a dead weight, it didn’t seem as if he were prone to much movement.

<Clover> His lack of movement made her reconsider her desire to hunt. For a moment, Clover seemed content to linger, to enjoy their close proximity; however, her journal entry hung heavy on her mind. She’d only just attributed a great portion of her depression on the fact that she couldn’t feed, as if blood would knock some sense into her and force her away from the proverbial edge. To feed, she had to leave the comfortable bed and abandon such their position.

“We actually have to move,” she whispered, her voice weak from hours without use. Even she heard the underlying amusement in her tone. Instead of trying to whisper words of encouragement, Clo brushed her fingers over his thigh and trailed them up over his hip. She pressed her palm flat against his side, pausing in her motions, and then rubbed at his lower back. Her hand dipped down, and she delivered a sound slap to his bottom.

With a grin on her face, she slipped away from him. The only indication that she’d left the bed was the quick dip from her side of the mattress, and then she went to gather some of her clothing. Hunting meant dressing nicely. She had to abandon her usual attire in favor of something more appropriate, something with a little more color. First, she put on a bra and panties, but she hesitated on selecting a dress or going with jeans. In the end, she went with the dress. The colder temperatures made no difference. People were more likely to approach her, or less likely to run from her, if she wore a dress. The dress, all black and falling just above the knee, should have been worn for something other than hunting. At one time, she might have worn it for a special occasion, but she chose to repurpose the garment.

She had to switch out to a strapless bra, but the dress looked nice. Clover stood there and looked down at herself. In the back of her mind, she heard Jesse calling her vain. Was it vain to appreciate the fact that she looked nice, that she looked better than presentable? Clo wanted to turn around and force Jesse to comment on the dress, just to drag a long string of compliments from him. She really wanted to make him think she needed his approval, that she needed each and every compliment. If he thought he vain, then she could play the game. But she decided against poking fun at him. She went back to searching for a jacket, one to play along with the other humans and avoid suspicion.

“Do you want to watch?” Clover knew her question was vague. She didn’t try to clarify until after she’d located her green military jacket. The coat still smelled brand new, almost like she’d just purchased the item. “I mean, do you want to feed, or do you want to slaughter? Do you want to watch? I don’t have to. I mean...you want me to tell you when I’ve written something troubling. Well, I’ve written something troubling.” She turned toward him, her lower back pressed against the side of the dresser, and focused on his body language. After a long moment, she turned her gaze to her journal, the journal that she’d left on the bedside table.

<Jesse> Jesse was of two minds. The way her hand travelled over his bare skin, he would have been quite happy to stay in bed. Just a little while longer. They didn’t even have to do anything. He liked the weight of her there, beside him. The presence of her. The scent of her. He was about to curl into her, to tuck his face down against her neck; to nibble and nip, but before he could even move he felt the sting of a slap against his backside and the dip of the mattress. The sudden coldness of an empty bed, even if the two of them had no body heat to begin with.

Ice-blues opened to watch Clover as she moved backwards and forwards, getting dressed. He watched her play of indecision, before she finally decided what to wear. He knew he should get up and out of bed to start getting dressed himself, but for the moment, he enjoyed watching her. It wasn’t a normal start for them. Normally they didn’t linger so much in bed; they were up and about and doing things. It was nice, sometimes, to linger. To linger and to watch. Jesse didn’t have the ability to remember everything without trouble. He had to realise when he was within a moment he wanted to remember, and he had to focus in order to make it happen. These small moments of ordinariness - of waking up slowly and getting dressed, these were the things he liked to remember.

When Clover was mostly ready, she offered him the choices. The uncertain questions that had him wanting to laugh, until she finished. A tiny glance was spared for the journal he knew so well; should he read it now, or should he just go? Go, and do, and support. It was better, he decided, to go in blind. The ready smile was replaced with consternation, and he finally pulled himself up and out of bed. There were no wounds and no broken bones. There was nothing but health, dexterity. Eternal youth.

The smile that he offered now was indulgent. Standing, he sauntered over to Clover, his hand curling behind her neck as he pressed a kiss to her forehead. She was ready to go and he was still naked. It seemed far too awkward to slip into silence, to read her journal while she waited. Jesse thought he could guess. She had the relic that she’d given to him for a while. She didn’t need to hunt, but she wanted to. It was something that she suggested. He understood her reaction to blood; it was something that they shared.

“You can watch me all you like. I want to watch you…” he said, leaning away only to open one of the drawers to find a pair of jeans.

“You remember when… when you said I needed chaos but I wouldn’t let myself?” he said. He couldn’t remember the words exactly, but he figured the gist was there. “Am I right in assuming that you need a little chaos? We can go to the slums...” he said, quietly, as he buttoned his jeans and fished out a belt to thread through the loops.

“Is it wrong that I’m excited when you’re feeling troubled…?” he asked, tightening the buckle of his belt though he waited for Clover’s response before he fished for a t-shirt.

<Clover> He moved, and Clo felt the beginnings of a smile. His movements were always so smooth, as if every step were calculated. Her eyes followed him, tracing his steps as if she were the one drawing him closer, luring him. While she’d wanted his lips on hers, she reveled in the feel of the kiss on her forehead. Soft. Rough. Fast. Slow. His kisses were just as intoxicating as his movements, and she had the sudden urge to tell him, to reward him with yet another truth, yet another admission. Instead, she bit her tongue and allowed the moment to pass.

Clover closed her eyes and listened to the sound of the drawer opening. The wood grinding against wood soothed her and reassured her that they were leaving the comfortable confines of the bedroom. They were one step closer to a release. “Mhm,” she hummed, the noise one of agreement. Yes, she meant to watch him, just as much as he meant to watch her, or so it seemed. And yes, she recalled her comments revolving around his repressed urges, his needs for complete and utter chaos. “I remember.”

When her eyes opened, she looked at him and watched him as he dressed. She’d eyed him as he put on his jeans and as he buttoned them, but she remained silent. Had she truly meant to cause such a mess, to escalate things to a level worthy of chaos? One word immediately surfaced: Yes. Of course she meant to cause a mess. She meant to cause such a mess, an absolute slaughter. Just the thought had her fingers twitching. The armlet warmed against her flesh, almost as if it were reminding her that she had no need to feed. Her body required no more blood, but the armlet knew nothing about her. The inanimate object lacked any sort of understanding.

“I need more than a little chaos.” As she spoke, she recalled the times she’d had Jersey by her side. Jersey had said she could handle Clover and all of the baggage that came along with the dark-haired woman, but what about Jesse? Clo, once again, let her eyes roam over his form. She’d seem him in a number of positions, so the odds were in her favor. They both deserved some fun; they both deserved the freedom associated with taking human lives, and murder was so freeing.

Clo finally moved away from the dresser and grabbed a pair of combat boots. Seated on the edge of the bed, she slid her sock-covered feet into the boots and began to tighten the laces. “I want you to enjoy yourself too. I want you to be excited. I can’t wait to get this armlet off. All I want to do,” she stopped and licked her lips. Clover looked as if she could already taste the blood. To keep her fangs from appearing, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. The exhale had such an emphasis that she counted the beats from the moment her chest stopped rising to the moment her chest finally fell.

When they were both ready, when Clo had regained some semblance of control, she led the way out of the room and to the fadeportal that transported them to the slums. The number of times she’d been to the slums rivaled infinity, but her past trips had been for specific items. The slums promised gun parts and used needles; the rundown crack dens offered drugs and money. But bloodshed. Jesse had gone to the slums in search of bloodshed, but not Clover. Clo had gone in other directions. To show her commitment to the chaos, she’d left her gun behind. Clover had a short blade and her bare hands, and she meant to use her bare hands for some of the killings. Nothing screamed intimacy more than a weaponless killing.

<Jesse> Clover may or may not have noticed the way Jesse watched her. Every single movement was lodged in his brain and examined, compared to the last and to the next. Without having read the journal, he had to try to piece together the bits and pieces by himself. If there was something that Clover needed that she wasn’t telling him about, he would find out the old fashioned way. By watching. She had done the same for him, hadn’t she? Those months ago, she never had to ask. He never had to tell. She knew what was going on without having to read any journal. The least he could do was try to do the same.

As soon as they landed in the slums, Jesse stretched and took a deep breath, as if he could smell the blood from here. Before they could get very far, Jesse stopped Clover, stepping in front of her with a hand against her torso. “Wait,” he said, before his fingers slid up beneath her jacket, slipping the one sleeve off a bare arm. Beneath, against her inked skin he could see the gleaming relic. It was so familiar to him now, that metal object that was both a blessing and a curse. Calloused fingers pushed and nudged at the armlet until it slid neatly from her skin, down past her elbow and over her wrist. It gleamed in the light of the streetlights as he held it up between them.

“I’ll keep it safe,” he said, tucking it into his pocket. If he wasn’t wearing it, it wouldn’t affect him. At least, he didn’t think it would. He didn’t think it mattered. Even if he was technically full he was always hungry. Always. He helped Clover tug her jacket back into place, before he started wandering down the street again, hand resting against the small of Clover’s back.

“These houses… some have families,” he said with a mild shrug of his shoulders. “But some are just… dens. Drug cartels. That’s what we’re looking for…” he said. A house full of men and women interested only in peddling drugs. They could be picked off one at a time, or in a mass slaughter. It was always a challenge to get them all, to disallow any to slip away. No witnesses.

“It’s my favourite kind of chaos. The panic,” he said with a sideways glance. He was following Clover’s lead, even if he was now trying to overtake her, to take a lead of his own. He wanted to help. He wanted to be there for her, just as she had been there for him. He wanted to provide.

<Clover> The armlet stood for absolute mastery over her bloodlust. The gold jewelry had wound its way around her flesh in the way that it wound its way around her hunger. Clover should have welcomed such an easy solution to her problems, but the armlet never truly solved her problems at all. The relic became a band-aid, one that pinched and pulled at her flesh. If it weren’t for Jesse’s overwhelming depression, Clo might never have realized her own predicament and the importance of a vampire’s nightly feedings. But was she truly thankful? Had she really solved any of her problems?

After knowing the ache in her gums and in the pit of her stomach, Clover didn’t want Jesse touching the armlet. He’d worn the relic once, but he’d worn it out of absolute necessity. The stopping and starting, the messy cycle associated with wearing and removing the armlet sent her body into shock. Every single time, she felt as if she were reintroducing herself to her immeasurable thirst all over again. To watch him slide the gold coil down along her tattooed flesh, to hear him reassure her that he’d keep it safe, left her feeling as if she were stepping back into her body for the first time in weeks.

Heartbeats seemed louder. Voices seemed clearer. She tried her best to focus on his voice, but she could hardly separate it from the rest of the sounds and their surroundings. If it weren’t for his hand on her back, she might have lost contact with her own body. Her steps were slowed, the bottoms of her boots dragging along the pavement. A few times, she almost tripped. Too preoccupied with putting one foot in front of the other, she only caught bits and pieces of Jesse’s words, the words that surfaced from the white noise of the rest of the world.

“Families,” she echoed. Admittedly, her voice was softer, so much smaller than she’d anticipated. He spoke of dealers and crack dens, but his first words ignited something inside of her. Images of happy families. Images of children. Images of endless possibilities. “Sometimes, I like to sneak up on my prey,” she spoke, turning her head to look at him, “but sometimes I like them to know I’m coming. I want them to look at me and know me.”

Deciding on the first option, she pressed her index finger to her lips, leaving it there for a moment, just long enough to indicate that they needed silence. She turned away from him and motioned to one of the rundown houses, one with light from a television drifting through a large picture window. There was the shadow of a recliner and the shadow of a pine tree, a Christmas tree that had been forgotten, left up for too long. Clo made out the outline of a person, a man, sitting in the recliner. Whether asleep or awake, he’d slumped in the chair, his head leaning to one side. If she listened closely, she heard the faint sounds of heartbeats coming through the thin walls of the home. Five of them.

“This one.” Clover closed a hand around one of Jesse’s and gave a small tug, encouraging him to move with her, to follow her, toward the home.

<Jesse> Although Jesse was merciless, he’d never been intentionally cruel. He didn’t kill to instil fear; it wasn’t the process that he enjoyed, but the outcome. The walls painted in blood, the taste of blood. The gluttonous feeling of being too full, but wanting more. Always wanting more. He liked to feel his blade sink into flesh; to see limbs severed. But what he liked best was to rip throats out with his teeth, to feel the life eke from his victim one large gulp at a time.

He had met people who had other preferences. Some vampires liked to play with their food; they liked to torture them for a little while before finally moving in for the kill. In that moment, Jesse realised there was something about Clover that he did not know; something that he was about to learn. Although he was aware that she, too, enjoyed a bit of a blood bath, that she too enjoyed chaos, he was not aware of the extent. He was not aware of the how. He was not aware of the who.

The house that they moved toward was not a den. There were no drug dealers in this house. There was a bike in the front yard, and it didn’t belong to an adult. It belonged to a child. There were children in this house. She wanted the children to know that she was coming. She wanted them to see her and know her, to fear her, before she killed them.

Jesse had never killed a child before. They were innocent. Adults were corrupt. Just like he wasn’t ever cruel to animals, he’d never be cruel to a child. Clover had wanted help; she’d wanted chaos but Jesse had never imagined this. She wanted to watch him, but he wasn’t sure he could do it. Could he?

And yet he didn’t pull away. He overtook Clover, letting them both into the house with shadow abilities. When the door was quietly closed behind them, he moved around the hall table that was right beside it. He pushed at the furniture until it barred the exit; this was what he liked to do, before he alerted anyone to his presence. He made sure they couldn’t escape. This scenario would be no different. A nod of his head was shown to Clover, to indicate that he was going to find the back door; his blue eyes would be unreadable, shadowed - bereft of their previous gleam as he tried to figure out whether this was something he wanted to be party to.

<Clover> From the moment she stepped through the front door, Clover knew she couldn’t turn back. She didn’t want to turn back. Five heartbeats drew her in several different directions, each one punctuated with the promise of fresh blood. The easiest kill lay in the living room, but she wanted something more than a deadbeat slumped in a recliner. Clo wanted the second floor of the household. She took her first steps toward the staircase, but she didn’t want to wander off and leave Jesse to wander around the house on his own. She’d invited him, and she wanted to share with him, even if that meant making him watch her do what she did best. Destroy.

From the living room, a late-night commercial encouraged viewers to give a woman named Veronica a call, because she knew how to show them a good time. When the commercial ended, the television went to a mixture of black-and-white spots. The loud noise that followed stirred the man. He jerked and the recliner snapped shut, sending chips and beer right onto the floor. He jumped out of the chair and grabbed the can off of the floor, but most of the beer had already soaked into the carpet. Even from the front hall, Clover smelled the warm beer. She heard his swearing and the crunching of potato chips.

“Goddamit! ******* TV!” He stomped over to the old television and slapped the side of the box. He repeated the action a few times, distracted by the change in the picture. While he fought with the television, Clover slowly made her way into the room. The flashing Christmas lights, the white, red, and green, created small designs on Clo’s body. She moved up behind him, taking in the smell of stale cologne and beer, and then she moved back. Careful not to step on the spilled potato chips, she fell back to his chair and just watched. She admired the way he created such a scene over such a trivial matter.

“Maybe you should turn it off,” Clover offered. By then, she had her short blade out, and she wanted to jam the blade right into his gut. She ran her tongue over her parched lips and watched as he stumbled forward. He hit his side off of the television and the screen cleared, revealing the same commercial as before. A beautiful brunette winked and blew a kiss at the both of them: Veronica promised to show them a good time. “Have you ever called one of these?” Clo took slow steps toward him, blocking him between herself, the television, and the Christmas tree. “Tell me the truth,” Clo teased, prodding a finger at his side, “have you called one of those lines?”

He stuttered and then opened his mouth to yell, but she pressed the sharpened side of her blade against the crotch of his sweatpants. His mouth snapped shut and he began to sweat profusely. Neither of them needed to know what he had to say. They understood. What did she want? What did he have that she could possibly want? Take everything. Let him live. The words were so familiar. “I normally look for couples,” Clover sighed, “but I saw this place, and I saw your Christmas tree.” There was a long pause. She’d let the blade drift up toward his midsection. “Don’t you know what day it is? You should have taken your ******* Christmas tree down.” It had nothing to do with the tree, and maybe he knew that too.

<Jesse> Stealth was part of Jesse’s make-up. He made no sound as he went through the house - past the staircase, down the hall, into a kitchen where the back door was already locked. Crouching down, he made note of the door handle, the design of it. It was easy enough to remove with a bend and crack of metal, to twist and render useless. The door remained locked, with no handle with which to unlock it, or open it. Standing still, he closed his eyes; he heard the dulcet tones of Clover’s voice in the front room, but only because his hearing was superior to that of a human’s. There four more people upstairs; one more adult, Jesse assumed, and three children. Children. Really, Clover? Still, knowing they were all upstairs and the father was the only one downstairs, Jesse was free to scout the remainder of the lower floor, assuring that there was no other way out.

I normally look for couples, he heard Clover say as he reappeared in the doorway to the lounge room. He crossed his arms over his chest, one ankle over the other, as he leaned against the doorframe. If he were a cat, his ears would be twitching; they’d be angled toward the staircase, toward upstairs. Waiting for movement. For recognition that their house had been invaded.

As he watched, he was fascinated. He’d never had the patience for this kind of game. His hunger was a beast, a devil living inside of him, insatiable and, once let off the leash, uncontrollable. If it were him in Clover’s place he’d never have initiated conversation. He’d have attacked without provocation. He didn’t care for the fear, he just wanted the blood. Even now as he wondered at Clover’s tactics, he resisted the urge to stride forward and take the knife even as Clover held it; to close his fingers around her grip and thrust upward, right through the underside of the loafer’s jaw. Or even straight into the neck. Straight through the vein. Though, Jesse didn’t particularly like to see the blood wasted.

Although it was possible that Clover’s questions were asked only to inspire fear in her prey, Jesse half wondered if she herself was seeking justification. Did she hope that he was evil? That he had crude thoughts about women who were not his wife? That he did these things while his children were still in the house? If that was the case, what would she do once they got to the children? Would she find reasons for them, too?

For now, he just watched. He didn’t try to interfere; she had asked if he wanted to watch. He took that to mean that she wanted him to. And so he would - because he was curious. Because this was another step toward knowing each other completely. Without fault. Without barriers. Jesse would do anything, would watch anything, to achieve that goal. He wanted to skin Clover of all her layers, all her masks, to see what was at her core.

<Clover> Clover recognized Jesse’s presence. She knew then, as soon as he reappeared, that she expected him to participate in the killings on the second floor. No, she expected him to show his talents on the other adult. She didn’t know whether or not he had it in him to kill the children. Of course he had it in him to kill the wife. Her attention had strayed from the husband to Jesse, and the husband attempted to duck to the side and run. It was a good move, one that Clover admired, but he didn’t get far. She grabbed him by the back of his neck and dragged him back. When he opened his mouth to scream, probably a scream meant to alert his wife and children, Clo ran the sharpened edge of her blade along his delicate flesh. She slit his throat and he choked on his own blood.

Because of his sudden act of bravery, or his rush of cowardice, he’d ruined Clover’s fun. Before he went limp, Clover tightened her hold on his body. She moved around him, locked an arm around his waist, and closed any distance between them. She ducked her head and pressed her lips to the wound on his neck. The blood coated her lips and rushed into her mouth. She imagined how he would have tasted. She pretended she were drinking fine wine, a glass of a wine so wonderful that she wanted to taste it all on its own. When the flow of blood began to slow, she lengthened her fangs and tore into his throat. She searched for more of the same. She sucked and tore at his throat until she knew that he had nothing left to offer, and then she let his body crumple to the floor.

As if to add insult to injury, Clo turned toward the Christmas tree and ripped the plug from the outlet. The lights flicked and went off, ending the colorful show. The television followed. And even though she knew she’d taken all the blood she could, Clover looked down at the man. The blood that she’d missed had gathering on the floor. There were still flecks and droplets on his skin, not to the mention the wide red stain on the man’s shirt and sweatpants. The air told her a lie, promising more blood where none remained. When Clo heard the familiar creak and pop of bedsprings, she jerked her head up and looked toward Jesse. He’d heard the same noise. He had to have heard the same noise. He must have.

The wife was awake. She called out quietly, saying a name that must have belonged to her husband. When soft footsteps reached the top of the stairs, Clover felt as if her heart were beating out of her chest. Not with fear, but excitement. Her next prey approached. Or maybe Jesse’s. Clover slowly shook her head from side to side. She lifted a hand to point toward the staircase. No, she wasn’t going to get the wife. She wanted to watch him then. She wanted to see him. It wasn’t a choice. She almost demanded. And yet, if Jesse chose not to act, Clover had every intention of picking up the slack. Her tongue, her throat, her stomach, already begged for more.

<Jesse> As soon as the blood gurgled from the man’s neck, as soon as Jesse caught sight of it, caught a whiff of the heat of it, he was lost to his blood lust. They were in a locked house, their prey easy to pick off, one by one. The frenzy was something he allowed himself to give in to. And yet, when he took a hungry step forward, his way was blocked by Clover. She swung herself around, the buffet offered to Jesse stolen from him as she turned her back to him, as she closed her lips around the gushing wound and fed until the heart gave out.

Jesse had lurked nearby - but he didn’t take what was hers. It took a few seconds but his urges abated just a little, just enough to help him understand that she had claimed this man. This human was hers - her meal. And it was her need that had brought them here. Besides which, she was Jesse’s. She was his progeny; she was his other half. She was someone he cared for. Even his instinct told him that he should allow her to go first; he had to take care of what was his.

And yet, his pupils had dilated; his canines were sharp. The moment the blood had hit the air, he had become more predatory than what he had been previously. Now, the remaining heartbeats in the house did not belong to children. They did not belong to humans, women, mothers, fathers, or grandparents. They belonged to prey. When the floor creaked, when the voice called out, his head snapped in the direction of the wife. His nostrils flared, as if he could smell her from here. Turning back to Clover, he held a finger to his lips indicating quiet; he waited. Five seconds. Ten. The wife called out again, before muttering something to herself and beginning to descend. The footsteps were getting closer. The room was bathed in darkness, now without the lights of the tree or the flickering play of the television. Jesse quickly moved to the window and pulled the curtains across, the light from the street snuffed so that the bloody scene of her dead husband would not be immediately obvious to the wife.

He then went to the doorway; the entrance through which the wife would come in search of her husband. Jesse flattened himself against the wall, waiting for her. When her soft, sleepy footsteps crossed the threshold, he struck. Like a viper, his hand whipped out to grab the woman’s throat. Before she even knew what was happening she’d taken Jesse’s place against the wall. His hand shifted from throat to mouth, pressing palm against lips to keep the scream from surfacing. With the same grip he wrenched her head to the side, the other hand pinning her flailing arm to the wall, his body trapping hers to keep her from struggling.

Not that she could struggle for long. Jesse didn’t play with his prey. Maybe Clover would think it was boring, but his bloodlust was far too demanding to wait. His teeth ripped into her neck, jaw clamping down, biting through muscle and sinew. Once upon a time he’d been able to be gentle; he seduced the women. He made them think they were getting lucky. His bite was a kiss and they didn’t realise what was happening until it was too late - sometimes they didn’t realise at all. He used to take his time; used to let the blood pump down his throat at the whim of the heartbeat. Now, he sucked and pulled impatiently, the woman’s screams of anguish and pain muffled against his palm.

She was not a virgin. But blood was blood. It can’t have been more than two minutes later when the body slumped, held up by Jesse’s weight pinning it to the wall. He took hold of either side of the corpse’s head to give it a sharp twist until there was a satisfactory snap of bone. He couldn’t risk any accidental turnings.

<Clover> She saw Jesse lift his finger to his lips to signal her silence. Her turn at play had come to an end. Clover wanted to focus on the snap of the curtains or the creak of the stairs, but she found herself looking down at the corpse. Before the wife had the opportunity to reach the bottom of the staircase and discover the dark room, Clover brought the heel of her boot down on the man’s head. She repeated the action over and over until she heard a satisfying crunch. She’d crushed his skull, the brain matter staining the bottom of her boot. Her reasons were many, ranging from the fact that she wanted to clear the pained expression on his face to the fact that she wanted to let out some more of her frustration. Bloodlust never seemed to stop with blood; bloodlust transformed into something greater, something more violent and more demanding. Maybe that was why she treasured the unique smell offered by the man’s newest injury, the wound that served as the icing on the cake.

The air still stunk of blood, but the wife had no idea. The woman had no idea what she approached, what she had the misfortune of stumbling across, and Clover felt a great deal of amusement. The woman was walking right into the snake’s den, so to speak. Again, Clover felt a rush, a rush that she attributed to the upcoming scene. She could just imagine Jesse’s motions; she could imagine the quick movement and the slaughter. She wanted him to seduce his prey, or at least to tease, but he played with stealth. He remained quiet. While he hid, Clover claimed the recliner for herself. She turned the chair, angling it more toward the doorway, and sat down. One leg folded over the other, she watched the slow approach of the wife as if she were watching a weakened animal stumbling upon the apex predator.

The moment he pinned the woman to the wall, Clover knew she wasn’t going to see the show she expected, but she continued watching. She tipped her head back and breathed in the scent of blood. The air had been thick, but the scent was fresh then, the introduction of new blood like the introduction of a fresh ingredient. Clover wanted to get up and punish the corpse of the husband. She wanted to continue ruining the man’s body. Her prey had been drained, but Jesse’s prey was still very much alive. The muffled screams seduced Clover in the way that she’d wanted Jesse to play with his prey. She wanted to punish the woman for being alive. She wanted more.

Without the armlet, Clo remembered her insatiable thirst. Some might have described the thirst as a steady burn at the back of their throats, but she recognized the thirst as more of an ache, like the dull ache of a painful wound. Her stomach felt empty, as if she were starving. She felt as if she were weaker, and blood represented the cure. Clo was jealous of Jesse, jealous of the way he fed, jealous of his prey, and jealous of the snap of the woman’s neck. If Clo were alone, she might have sunk to her knees on the floor and licked at the pool of blood, but she refrained. Clo had to use every ounce of restraint to keep from sinking to such a low level, not wanting him to see her in such a light.

When she got to her feet, she moved over to Jesse and ran her fingers along the length of his spine. He might have hunted in a different way, but she still enjoyed the show. She’d found someone that hadn’t run away, someone that hadn’t scolded her or ruined her fun. Clo kissed the corner of his lips, her tongue darting out in an attempt to taste the woman’s blood, and then she moved. She couldn’t wait for more, more than remnants of blood. Where there had been five heartbeats, only three remained. Clover waited for Jesse, or she tried to, but she took the stairs two at a time. She moved with such haste, driven only by the promise of more blood. She followed the strongest heartbeat to a door just to the left of the staircase. If Clo had to guess, she guessed that the inhabitant was awake, probably by the wife’s quiet calls of the man’s name.

It was Clover’s turn again. Clover wanted every remaining member of the household. Clover wanted every pint of blood, every muffled scream. Placing one palm flat against the door, she turned the doorknob and let herself into the room. The darkness of the hall and the darkness in the room provided all the cover she needed. Adjusted eyes or not, the child stood no chance. And that was when Clover realized she was dealing with a teenager. The fact made everything much easier. The girl stared, her mouth open, and let out the beginnings of a scream. Clo crossed the room, grabbed the girl by the neck, and lifted her from the bed.

“I don’t understand how you can’t talk to them. Just a little. You’re going to kill them. You might as well have a little fun. Like this one. She’s probably sixteen? Are you sixteen?” The last question was directed at the girl, but the girl just started crying, the noise cut off by Clover’s chokehold. “Seventeen?” There were more tears. “You’re eighteen. Am I hot or cold?” Clover laughed, the sound quiet, just as quiet as she wanted the girl. There was a slight nod, and Clo grinned. “Jesse, I won.”

<Jesse> Jesse was quick on Clover’s heels.

He didn’t ruin the bodies as much as she did - not until he let the fire lick at their skin. He liked to watch them cook; liked to watch their eyeballs burst, boiling beneath the heat. He liked to see their skin peel back and turn to ash - to see the body reduced to something mangled and unrecognisable. There’d be time for that later. There were still three heartbeats to take care of, and somehow it was easier, now. It was easier to deal with the children now that he had the taste of their mother’s blood on his tongue, coating the back of his throat, barely satisfying his thirst. He didn’t swallow it all down immediately. He allowed the thick cruor to linger between his teeth and beneath his tongue. So long as there was a drop of the taste of it on his tongue, he felt somewhat sated. But only as much as a man who still had a feast in front of him, and delicious, juicy feast that could not go to waste.

Clover went into the teenager’s room and Jesse followed. There were two other children who could wake up at any moment, and he knew he ought to do something about it. He ought to close their doors and try to lock them in, but he was far too interested in the pretty thing that Clover had held tight in her grasp.

The room was a typical teenage girl’s room. The kind of teenage girl that Jesse had never known; there’d always been a great divide between the miscreants and the well-off. Not that this girl was well off, per se, but she still had both parents under one roof, and still had dinner waiting for her every night. She still had stuff; a dresser against the wall beside an open closet brimming with colourful clothes. Was that a hockey stick? A sporting girl, rather than a cheerleader. But there was still a mirror bordered by haphazard photos. Friends and family. There were posters on the walls and a chair covered in stuffed toys - things she’d probably get rid of as soon as she went to college somewhere. As soon as she got a job. Maybe a scholarship. Not anymore, though. She wouldn’t live past tonight.

Jesse easily slid onto the bed beside Clover. The girl’s mother’s blood coated his lips and chin. The girl could see the blood - on both Jesse and Clover. The whole bed shook with her fear. It was as if a waiter had brought out dessert on a gleaming silver platter - crisp, golden waffles overflowing with strawberries and rich chocolate sauce, or a lava cake split open to reveal red-velvet innards. Something so decadent that he could not help the rumbling, needy moan. His hand slipped behind Clover’s back, fingers finding her skin so that he could caress the curve of her hip.

“Please… can we share this one?” He asked. He hadn’t answered Clover’s question - he couldn’t think of an answer. He couldn’t focus on why he hunted the way he did. He was far too thirsty. It was an answer in and of itself. He grabbed the girl’s hand, bringing her wrist to his lips, parting them only so that a sharp canine could scrape across the tender skin. Just a scratch, but deep enough to cause a welling of blood to the surface. He caught a taste of her blood on the tip of his tongue before he hummed, and offered the morsel to Clover. The girl was frozen with shock and fear; it was a rare delicacy.

“...she’s a virgin. She’s so completely untainted, Clo…” he said. He was almost pleading.

<Clover> No. The answer started at the pit of her stomach and traveled upward, stopping at the back of her throat. Word vomit. Just like word vomit. She wanted to tell him no, to shove him away from her and rip into the girl’s throat. Clo wanted to shove her hand into the girl’s stomach and slowly tug out her insides. She was jealous again. Jealous of the fact that Jesse seemed too interested. She should have left him downstairs; she should have gone to the room with two heartbeats, the one with younger siblings, or so she assumed. Instead of blurting out a response, she growled, the noise low and threatening. No, she wanted to snap at him.

But his touch softened her exterior and warmed her from the inside out. Clover wanted to believe that his touch cured her of her jealousy and dismissed all of her possessiveness, but she would have been lying. She wasn’t a virgin. She hadn’t been untainted. He hadn’t enjoyed her as much as he would enjoy the girl in her grasp. Unknowingly, she tightened her hold on the girl’s neck, squeezing until she felt the bones threatening to shatter. Virgins. He liked virgins. Clo loosened her hold on the girl until she’d completely released the girl, and then it was Clover’s turn to slap a hand over the girl’s mouth, Clover’s turn to muffle noises.

Clo took the offered wrist, but she purposely exposed her fangs. All of her teeth sharpened, she glared at the girl. The silence turned to screams, screams muffled by the hand planted so firmly over her mouth. Clover kept glaring at the girl. The fangs had been a silent threat. No, the fangs had been a promise. How dare the girl be anything less than a whore. Of course they would stumble upon such a delicacy. Clo ran her tongue over the blood that bubbled to the surface of the girl’s open wound, and she closed her eyes and savored the taste. There really was a difference, however slight, but Clover maintained that jealousy outweighed purity.

“I’m torturing this one,” Clover declared. She reached out with her free hand and brushed her fingers through the girl’s hair. “Don’t you want to be tortured?” There were muffled pleas, which Clover listened to and nodded to, but the petting continued. Fingers traced along the girl’s cheek and along her jawline. Clo realized then that jealousy even outweighed the thirst. “You can go first. When I’m done with her, she won’t be recognizable.”

Did he know that it was jealousy driving her words and her desires? She had never elicited such a reaction. She’d been a blip on his radar, just a case of being in the wrong place at just the right time. Virgins. What a waste of time. Couldn’t he have found something equally as tempting in women with piercings? Clover could have lived with such an addiction. But no. He chose something that she could never be, that she hadn’t been when they’d first met. “So completely untainted,” she repeated his words.

Clo moved her free hand to her blade and she brandished it for the girl to see. She already had imaginary lines drawn across the girl’s body. She meant to sever limbs first, and then she meant to go for the gut. Clover had every right to take her frustrations out on the girl. They could share.

<Jesse> Jesse’s soothing touch wasn’t initiated on a whim. He knew that there was a possibility of unhappiness. Had she shown disdain before at his preference for virgin blood? Ariadne sold the stuff - he had no idea how she procured it, but it didn’t taste quite the same from the bottle as from the source. This blood was laced with fear and adrenaline, too, making it that much sweeter.

No, Jesse’s touch had been a reassurance. It wasn’t as if he felt anything for the girl; he just liked the way her blood tasted. He didn’t want to sleep with her. He didn’t find her attractive. And he wanted to share her with Clover. He didn’t want her to be jealous. He wanted her to enjoy this as much as he could. The Adam’s apple bobbed in his throat as he swallowed and took a deep breath in. He released his hold on the girl’s hand seeing as Clover had such a tight grip on her, and instead trailed fingers along Clover’s cheek, down over the line of her jaw, clawing at her chin to turn her lips to his. When he kissed her, it was with a rabid, passionate kind of hunger. He could taste the blood of the husband still lingering in the cracks of her lips, just as she would taste the blood of the wife still lingering on his.

“No turns,” he said when he broke free, breathless even though he didn’t have to breathe. “At the same time,” he demanded. “I’ll hold her while you cut…” he said. He wanted Clover to agree, to concur. If she let it go, it could be glorious. “If you want to play, let’s play. Slowly,” he said as he slipped behind the girl, tugging at both her arms until he had her wrists secured behind her back; two thin wrists grinding together in the grip of one larger hand. With the other, he curled her hair into his fist so that he could pull her head back, exposing the slender length of her neck. He let go only so that his hand could replace Clover’s over the girl’s mouth, primed for a ragged scream. It would free both Clover’s hands. She could do what she wanted. Jesse was happy where he was, the girl’s neck within biting distance.

As he moved, as he held the girl tight, he didn’t take his eyes from Clover. Bright blues held her fast, the depths burning with an avid frenzy - he could feel it, too. Coupled with his insatiable thirst it often meant he could only tear the necks from his victims, one after the other until they were all dried husks. His body thrummed with it, now - but he was happy to watch. Yes, Clover could help him with his frenzy, just as he could help her with hers.

<Clover> The kiss served to soothe her, far more than Jesse’s touch. His touch only made her want to lash out at him. The blood had her on a high, one fueled by a basic need for more. And yet when they’d introduced an element that stirred her insecurities and ignited her envy, she felt the need shift from a need for blood to a need for unadulterated violence. Before his lips met hers, she felt as if she’d wanted to lump him in with the girl and punish him in the same way; after the kiss, he was forgiven. He’d disarmed her with the feel of his lips against hers.

She’d tasted the blood on his lips, her tongue darting out as if to capture more of the captivating substance. If it weren’t for the girl in the room, Clover might have allowed her focus to shift from blood to body parts. But the kiss ended, as all kisses do, and he offered her something she hadn’t been expecting. He wanted more than his turn at playing with their food. Usually, Clover taped the person’s mouth, stuffing in a rag or some other cloth beforehand. To have someone--to have Jesse--offering to help made things different. She didn’t have to worry about choking her victim. She didn’t have to worry about tape. He kept surprising her.

“Fine,” she answered slowly, her voice laced with suspicion. He seemed more than eager to help, but no one had been so eager before. Clover wondered if he had some hidden agenda, or if he truly found something wonderful, something so freeing, in dismemberment. “I used to like it slow, but now,” Clo began, running the tip of her blade down along the girl’s right leg, “now I don’t see the point.” The blade went up into the air and came down on the girl’s leg. It took another swing to completely sever the lower portion of the leg.

Clo moved quickly to rip a section of the topsheet apart. She made one long strip and applied a tourniquet to the right leg, just above where the knee should have been. Her hands coated in blood, she licked at her fingers and her palms as if she were a cat cleaning up after a feast. One leg down. The girl’s screams had started out high-pitched, as if she were trying to wake the two children just down the hall, but the noise died down, replaced by a series of quick inhales. One leg and the girl was going into shock. She wasn’t as much fun as she seemed.

“She’s not going to last long. So much for drawing it out,” Clover frowned, talking as if the girl weren’t present. Clover lifted the blade again and brought it down on the other leg, the wound mirroring the previous one. And again, Clover created a quick tourniquet, trying to draw out the fun for as long as possible. “I hate it when they die before I’m done.” The words were muttered to herself, her lips then pressed tightly together.
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<Jesse> Jesse wasn’t sure what the point was. She used to like it slow, but now there was no point. No point, why? But now was not the time for discussion. Now was the time for action. Positions comfortably against the girl’s numerous pillows, Jesse was all set to watch. Of course he’d seen dismemberments before; he’d been the executor of them. This was different. Jesse felt no disgust or discomfort. He felt no guilt, so far, in what they had done. It might be a different story once they got to the bedroom down the hall - though he might suggest they leave the children where they are, to burn along with the house and the dead bodies of their family. Or maybe he’d just follow Clover’s lead.

Although Clover made good use of the sheets as tourniquets, the blood still pooled and soaked into the sheets. At first the girl screamed; Jesse felt her teeth sink into the palm of his hand, and he knew they would have to dismember her. And in the end, he would have to show Clover how he liked to create an inferno. This girl had probably just ingested some of Jesse’s blood. And there was no way he wanted her turned. Just as Clover said - she wasn’t going to last long. She was not cut out for the life of a vampire.

Before the body could completely drain of blood, Jesse tore his gaze away and sunk his teeth into the girl’s neck. Her body twitched beneath his hold, gone into some kind of shock, the pain too much. His feeding probably wasn’t going to please Clover. It wasn’t going to help keep her victim alive before she was done. But it was the rarest kind of blood, and Jesse couldn’t let it all go to waste. Now that the girl was missing her legs, she wasn’t going to go anywhere. She was far too weak to struggle much. He didn’t risk moving his hand from her mouth, but he did let go of her wrists. He grabbed hold of one limp arm and moved it around to the front of her body. His eyes were glazed as he held the arm out to Clover.

“No. She’s not going to last. I think you should try some, though, before she goes,” he said with the slurred voice of a glutton.

<Clover> For the past weeks, possibly months, Clover had slowly devolved from an organized killer to a disorganized killer; or rather, Clover had begun to show tendencies more in line with a disorganized killer. The time it took her to find a victim had changed from days and weeks to hours, possibly even minutes. She still enjoyed taking her time slaughtering her victims, dismembering them and dissecting them, but sometimes, when the urge struck her and overpowered her, she acted hastily. She moved without regards to perfect lines and angles. Sometimes, Clo just wanted to hack her victims to pieces and scatter the remains across the city. One, that prevented her victims from turning, and two, that gave her the notoriety she craved, even if her identity remained unknown.

The nights of organized killings still outnumbered the nights of disorganized killings. When she’d said she used to like it slow, she’d only been referencing the current kill. She didn’t want to take her time. She didn’t want to stretch it out. Even after she’d begun a slow, ritualistic kill, she had the chance to change her mind, and she knew the temptation well, as if she were welcoming an old friend. Her constant thirst and the frenzy that lay just beneath the surface always urged her to make a mess of her victims, to disregard her self-made rules and her stereotypical maneuvers. The reason for her recklessness was her jealousy, which worked just as well as her bloodlust. Clover wanted to make a mess. She wanted to quickly sever limbs, make a Y incision--oh yes, she knew the proper incision technique--and go right for the organs. Every now and then, her victims survived to the incision.

Jesse’s presence made her want to go above and beyond. He made her feel more alive; he made her want to be reckless. He disturbed her routine, just as he inspired her to reach for new heights. Clover closed her eyes and breath in the smell of the girl’s blood. She savored the scent just as she would have savored the taste. When she smelled the familiar scent of Jesse’s blood, she knew the girl had bitten Jesse. The fact made her chuckle, a soft sound that paled in comparison to the girl’s muffled screams. Offered one of the girl’s arms, Clover took the girl’s wrist. Fingers curled around the slim wrist, Clo felt the dull sensation signaling the transformation of her teeth to fangs, and then bit down on the girl’s arm. Clo didn’t have to be rough, but she didn’t see the point in being gentle. She tore through layers of skin, ripping through flesh and going right to the bone. Blood pooled in her mouth and dribbled down her chin. In the back of her mind, she made a mental note that the blood did seem different, something about it seemed different.

When she’d had her fill, she pulled back and made eye contact with the girl. Pupils slitted, Clo smiled when the girl let out a shrill scream and tried wiggling away. The girl’s attempts were in vain, exhaustion having set in, and Clo busied herself breaking the girl’s fingers, one at a time. That would teach her.

“Snap her neck and let’s go. I want more. Unless you’d rather keep this up,” Clo trailed off, her inflection indicating some uncertainty, some question of his intentions.

<Jesse> Jesse watching Clover drink with a kind of twisted adoration. They were sharing their meal, which wasn’t something they’d really done before. Not quite like this. Not in a way that was so revealing of each other’s characters. He wanted to reach out and tuck Clover’s hair behind her ears, and when she finished, he wanted to crush the girl between them while they kissed. Clover, however, had other things on her mind. The girl tried to scream as Clover’s pupils morphed, but Jesse was enthralled; and with each break of the girl’s fingers, her body jerked, but she no longer screamed. She no longer shouted. She no longer had the energy to even bite the hand clamped over her mouth. Even with the tourniquets in place, blood seeped from the stubs of her legs. The sheets were thick with it.

Clover’s demand could have been construed in many different ways. One thing was certain, however, and Jesse wasted no time in grasping the girl’s jaw and twisting her head sharply to the left; another satisfactory crack as the bones were broken. Except he didn’t stop there. He slid out from behind her now very-dead body, which slumped heavily against the pillows, and approached Clover only so that he could slide his fingers down her arm, to twine with her fingers, to take away her blade. To borrow it.

The girl had consumed Jesse’s blood. It might not have been much, but he didn’t want to take any chances. He didn’t want that broken neck to start healing; and even when they burned this place down, he didn’t want her to die and come back. It was doubtful that she would - she didn’t have the strength for it. But just in case. He took the blade and hacked at the neck, sawing and chopping until the head came clean from the shoulders. He dropped it where her legs had been left.

Only then did he turn to Clover; to try to figure out what she meant. More. More here, or more elsewhere?

There was one thing he realised was wrong with his relationship with Grey - something he realised after the fact, though he must have known when he was in the thick of it. There were things that he had asked her to do but which he didn’t ask as often as he could have. He’d been ashamed. He felt like she couldn’t possibly accept that part of him, and he tried to control it. He went out to slaughter houses full of delinquents and he didn’t take her with him. Maybe she would have accepted it. Maybe she wouldn’t have cared. But he hadn’t been open with her. Things were different, now. Clover accepted everything about him and more - she mirrored him, in many ways. Now they were here in this house, and there was so much worse they could do. And he didn’t want there to be any walls.

“This is your house. I’m going to follow your lead,” he said with a sinister grin that told her she could do what she wanted, and he would accept it. “So long as you let me show you how to start a raging fire when we’re done…” he said, his voice sultry and thick with the blood they had just consumed.

<Clover> The sickening crack of the girl’s neck signaled so much more than the end of her life. The crack sent a pleasurable chill down the length of Clover’s spine, and yet it set her whole body aflame. If Jesse meant to soothe her, to quiet her bitterness and lull her into a sense of security, he achieved the goal. She wanted to crawl over the girl’s body and plant a kiss to Jesse’s lips, but he’d moved. Her lips parted, she watched through heavy eyes as his fingers brushed over her arm, as his fingers made contact with hers. He’d rewarded her with the breaking of bones, and such simple, physical contact had her frozen.

Thinking he meant to do more, she’d inched forward, but she stopped herself before she moved too much. He’d slipped the blade from her hand and claimed the weapon as his own. Clo didn’t understand why he needed the blade. Brows furrowed, she watched as he raised the blade and brought it down, over and over, on the girl’s neck. Clover closed her eyes then and allowed the noise to build the imagery. She saw the sharp edge ripping through flesh and shattering bone. She saw the destruction of layers of tissue. When she opened her eyes again, she opened them in time to see the final strike, the strike that severed the girl’s head.

Clo didn’t know what to say. There were different options available, each one describing the reason why her lips were still parted, or why her tongue darted out to collect the remnants of blood that clung to her mouth and chin. He’d surprised her. He’d shocked her. Clover was in awe of his motions. She’d never seen him in such a light, and she’d never been able to imagine the extent of his slaughters. Clover pictured homes engulfed in flames. To some degree, Clo could imagine the living engulfed in flames. But she’d never taken Jesse for the type to--well, to resort to such brute force and raw violence.

Nothing about the space between them allowed for enough thought. There were unanswered questions and accusations, though they would have been spoken with the same adoration. He was like her! They weren’t so different, were they? He walked the same beaten path, although in different shoes. Finally, Clover pressed her lips together and smiled at him. He’d pleased her, with his involvement and his dedication to the night’s requirements, but she still felt the thirst, the overwhelming hunger. Clover wanted more, and maybe she lacked a complete understanding of what it was that she wanted, but she understood the basic need.

Clover nodded at him, hesitant to speak. If she spoke, she would have admitted to the awe that shouldn’t have existed. They were alike. She should have known. Instead of saying anything, she let her eyes rake over his body, and then she left the bed. She took care to shift her weight and try to avoid the squeaky floorboards, but she knew there were only two left. Three down. Two to go. Clo paused at the doorway, waiting for Jesse, and then she made quick work of the hallway. Impatient, thirsty, both for curiosity’s sake and for the sake of her stomach, she shoved open the bedroom door that separated her from the two heartbeats. Children, both of them sleeping soundly.

“I target men because it’s easy to target them; they underestimate me. I think it’s more fun. That moment when they realize the mistake? It’s filling, all on its own. I like reducing them to tears. I want them to cry and scream and beg. Because they deserve it,” Clover explained, moving inside of the room. She pressed her back against the wall just beside the door. “Couples. Now couples...I want what they have. I target happy couples. I like killing one while the other watches. I do what I do because it gives me a sense of control. I’m powerful. To them, I’m God.”

There was a long pause, the silence broken by the squeak of bedsprings. Clo waited to see if either of the children were awake, but a soft snore answered the question. “Children,” Clo hummed.

<Jesse> Following Clover down the hall, Jesse could only assume that she meant to go after the children, too. Whether she intended to dismember them like she had the teenger, Jesse didn’t know - nor did he particularly want to think about it. On occasions he might have called himself evil. To the world at large, he was one of the monsters that the hunters purported to hunt. He killed without mercy, and for his own gain. He had a thirst for blood which was not exactly conducive to good behaviour.

But good and evil was not black and white. There were levels and grades. There were things that certain ‘bad’ people would do that others would not. Each to their own, all unsavoury for different reasons.

Passing over the threshold to the children’s room felt like stepping over an invisible line that Jesse didn’t realise he’d drawn for himself. Rather than focusing on that line and what it meant for him, Jesse instead focused on the explanations that Clover felt the need to give. First, men. And then couples. Both explanations stirred questions - he didn’t know whether to ask them here, as the children’s door closed with a click behind him. He leaned against the door, watching the dark shapes in the beds.

Was that why Clover liked to hurt Jesse? She wanted to eventually reduce him to tears. Did she think he deserved it for some mistake that he didn’t know he’d made? Or was the mistake just being male? And then the couples. She wanted what they had, which was why she targeted happy couples. Happy. He could only assume that meant she wasn’t happy. They weren’t happy. The room suddenly felt like a flimsy lifeboat - and not only because he had stepped into territory that he was unfamiliar with. He swallowed the questions, the rising argument - maybe she had more to say, and he didn’t want to ruin their night by jumping to defensive and unfair conclusions. He was aware of Clover’s depression, so he could concede that any unhappiness she might feel didn’t necessarily have to do with him, or any failings that he was unaware of.

He shrugged.

“I’m happy,” he said, before he nodded toward the children. There was another rustle of linen at the sound of his voice. He wasn’t concerned about the children getting out - even if they screamed, children scream all the time. And this neighbourhood, the sound wouldn’t be out of place. There was no one left in this house that could help them.

“Children?” He repeated the word as a question. Maybe if he heard Clover’s reasons for going after children, he might be able to understand them. He might be able to use them to help him overcome his aversions. More rustling. One of the shapes sat up, hands rubbing at tired eyes.

“Daddy?” The small voice asked. A male voice in her room. Of course she would assume it was daddy. Jesse sighed, eyes on Clover even as he answered the small girl’s enquiry.

“No. Not Daddy. I’m the monster from under your bed…” he said. The little heartbeat immediately picked up the pace, thrumming in the chest of the small girl, like a rabbit in a race. Her breath hitched, breathing increased - he could almost imagine the thoughts running through her brain. A joke, maybe. A trick played by Daddy. But she also believed in monsters under her bed. He didn’t think it’d be long before she screamed.

<Clover> His statement showed a lack of understanding, one born from her failed attempts at explanations. Her obsession with happy couples had nothing to do with a perceived shortcoming in her own relationship. At least, not anymore. At one time, she’d been suffering, struggling to weave her way through the intricacies involved with sharing a life with someone, but things had calmed. They’d reached a balance, or as close to a balance as possible. Clover was more than content. And yet she still chose to pursue her two favorite parties, men and couples.

The fact was that her choice of victims had nothing to do with Jesse, not really. Perhaps her fixation dated back to her childhood, to a lack of a meaningful relationship with her father, or the lack of a steady male figure in her life. Or perhaps her fixation had to do with Zach, her failure of an ex-boyfriend. There were countless possibilities. Before Clover had the chance to finish what she had to say, to explain why it was she had such a grudge against men, against couples, and against families, she heard the rustling of sheets.

The soft snoring continued, but the rustling of sheets played like a steady bass rhythm. One child slept, but not the other. The other sat up in bed and began rubbing at her eyes, rubbing at her eyes as if to wipe the sleep away. And Clover didn’t know what to do. It hit her then that she had absolutely no idea what she wanted to do, whether she wanted to scare the child, spare the child, or kill the child. Jesse’s response saved her time, but she knew that she needed to answer the question. He’d said he would follow her lead, but she no longer felt like being the leader. She felt like being the observer. She felt like holding the room in her hands, shaking it, and watching the fake snow settle over the space. If only they were part of a snow globe.

“Do you really want to wake your brother?” From in the darkness, Clover made out the short hair and the chubby cheeks. The rest of the boy’s body was hidden beneath sheets, his face covered with one arm. The girl seemed to reconsider screaming, but no. She let out a shrill scream that had Clover gritting her teeth. Clo marched forward and slapped the girl on the cheek, effectively cutting off the scream, but the crying followed, the type of crying that Clover knew well. The girl had slipped into the inconsolable crying. “If you don’t shut up, I’m taking you away, and you’ll never see your Mom and Dad again. Got it?” Clover growled the words out, rushing through them just as the brother threw his blankets off and rolled onto the floor.

“What is it?” The boy shouted, but his speech was slurred. He couldn’t have been older than nine, and he probably thought himself some sort of protector. “It’s okay! I’ll get Dad!” He moved to dart out of the room, but Clover snagged him by the back of his pajama pants and dragged him toward his sister’s bed, where she deposited him atop the comforter.

“I’m going to strangle that girl,” Clo scowled. “Shut her up,” she directed the boy. Once the girl had quieted down, Clo ran her hands over her face. “I don’t usually target women because I find it harder to lure them in. And children...I never know. I’ve never really tried. Her? I could kill her. I want to crush her throat. Him? I couldn’t.” Clover placed a palm atop the girl’s head and smiled, though it was a smile that didn’t reach her eyes. “I can stand kids. With Zach, I was at the point where marriage was being brought up. And kids. We could have been a family.”

<Jesse> The children were both awake. The boy around nine years of age, the girl probably seven. Maybe six. Somewhere in between. Siblings, one protectie of the other. Jesse remembered that. He remembered going to school with his brother, the two of them never leaving each other’s sides. They stood up for each other. It was the kind of bond that Jesse had sought with his progeny - a natural bond, a natural urge to protect due to shared blood and shared space. It had never quite clicked.

Watching Clover stand there with her hand on the girl’s head, and he words she spoke - it struck a chord. The first time he had ripped a fadebaby out of a womb had been with Grey, and it was only after the thing had been destroyed that Jesse felt the pang of regret. It was the first and only time he’d ever regretted becoming a vampire - this was the one sacrifice he had not factored in. He’d never known that he wanted children. As soon as he realised that he did, he knew that he couldn’t. The pain of it had been a brief spark, a momentary grief that he buried. What was the point in indulging when it wasn’t something that could ever be changed?

Although Clover and Jesse were similar in so many ways, their reactions to this pain differed. Clover wanted to destroy the things she couldn’t have. Jesse, on the other hand, briefly wondered what it could be like to take these two home. Lock them away in a basement somewhere and raise them as their own. But that wouldn’t be reasonable. That would not be logical. It would be completely insane.

He approached Clover and the children; the girl started to quake, and the boy whimpered. They could feel the aura rolling from this man who was not their father. The monster from under the bed. They were terrified. He pressed a kiss to Clover’s cheek, to the line of her jaw. “You would have made a good mother,” he said. And he was almost certain he would have made a good father, too. If they’d met when they were human. Now, if the two of them tried to raise children, he wondered if they’d turn out as monstrous as their parents.

“Let’s go,” he said.

Now that they were there with the children in their hands, he knew that he didn’t want to do it. He didn’t want their blood - it’d be like eating a banana before it was ripe, or drinking wine before it had even had a chance to mature. But they couldn’t let them go, either. Slipping from Clover, he went to the closet. Opening it, he saw there was room down the bottom.

“Get in,” he said to the children. They stared at him wide-eyed, in shock, unmoving. He sighed, rolled his shoulders, and almost snarled as he shouted the words for a second time. “Get in!”

They scurried into the closet, huddled in close to each other. Jesse closed the doors and used one of the boy’s belts to tie a secure knot around the handles, locking the children inside. A box from which he doubted they would be able to escape before the flames swallowed them whole. From his pocket he pulled a lighter; he flicked it open, the flame bouncing to life. He started with the curtains. And then the sheets on the bed. Striding from corner to corner, he lit anything in the room that was flammable. Even as the flames started to climb and the heat pushed at them, Jesse curled an arm around Clover’s waist. He stood there with her, his body pressed up against hers - a kiss lingering on her lips. They’d have to move, soon. They’d have to quickly set the other bodies on fire, before someone called the fire brigade. But they could enjoy this one moment together, first.

<Clover> Her clothing wet with blood, hands smeared in the liquid, Clover left an imprint on the girl’s hair. She marked the girl, as if blessing the crybaby with the family’s blood. And then Clo slowly withdrew her hand. The night had turned into something she hadn’t expected. Feeding wasn’t supposed to involve disclosing such personal information, but the words fit perfectly to the tune of the cadence. Clover thought it appropriate to explain why she reacted the way she reacted, and she had a feeling he appreciated her words, as she would have appreciated his. She’d already appreciated his actions.

Her words hinted at a desire for children, but she didn’t know whether she held onto the same desire, as if she wanted to claim a child for her own. Clover didn’t know if she blamed him. She didn’t know if she held anything against him. Vampirism had stolen a good deal of things from her, or so she’d assumed. But had it honestly stolen her life? Zach wasn’t much to lose, given their tumultuous relationship. Their marriage probably would have ended in a messy divorce. Their child probably would have been involved in a nasty custody battle. If the first child, a mere accident and a miscarriage, was any indication of her future, she would have been just another number, another statistic. Two kids, small house, and a dog. Clover couldn’t forget the ******* dog.

Blaming Jesse meant spitting on what they had, and Clover couldn’t do that. Despite what Jesse had implied, what she’d accidentally implied, she was happy. She didn’t know when she’d gone from uncertainty and steady levels of unhappiness, but she accepted the good just as well as the bad. The extreme depression that came and went was something that she could handle. Her relationship was stronger than that. What she had with Jesse was more important than what she had with Zach. And so she kissed her thoughts of family goodbye.

Clover couldn’t explain why she still clung to the idea of family though, the idea of having what some humans deemed a meaningful accomplishment. Perhaps the idea was hardwired into her being, carved directly into her soul. Jesse’s words wiped the slate clean and sated her hunger. She would have made a good mother, and maybe he would have made a good father. Maybe they would have met on the street, each of them pushing a screaming child. Maybe they would have met in a doctor’s office, each of them trying to get their children to stop coloring on the walls. Instead, they had each other. They’d surrendered their possible futures for rivers of blood.

His kiss hadn’t broken the spell, but his words cut right through the haze of her thoughts. “Yeah,” she mumbled. “I think we should go.” Her words mirrored his, a verbal agreement that showed her fill. And yet, she just wanted to move to another location. Clover wanted to take her frustrations out on others. She wanted to show transference.

As Jesse scared the children, corralling them into the closet, Clover felt a pang of guilt, a small feeling that blossomed into an overwhelming urge to disagree, to let the children grow up without parents. They would have been lost in the foster system, but they would have lived. Clover kissed him back, the blood on her lips mixing with the taste that lingered on his own. She tasted him and savored him. But as soon as they parted, she voiced her guilt. “Jesse, I don’t want them to die.”

<Jesse> It wasn’t long before the children began to scream. Before they started to cough, as the smoke bled through the shutters of the closet. Clover had agreed that they should go, and Jesse was already making a move. But before he could get very far, she stopped him.

I don’t want them to die.

The words weaselled their way into his brain and caused him to narrow his eyes, mouth open in incredulous surprise. Out there on the street, casing the houses, Jesse had been looking for somewhere meaningless. Somewhere crawling with thugs and lowlifes. People whose deaths could be easily explained. Gang related. Everything could always be gang related. Except Clover had decided otherwise. She’d chosen this house with its five quiet heartbeats. She had picked this house specifically because of what it was. The home of a family. It implied that she wanted to kill them all. If that wasn’t her plan, then why had she brought them into this room at all?

“Are you kidding me?” He asked. It was a whiplash reaction. He didn’t want to kill them either, but now they were witnesses. They were old enough to give statements and descriptions. Letting the house burn down with them inside would give the police more work, less things to find. No hair, no fingerprints. They’d find the mangled body of the teenager, the only one who’d suffered the most. Maybe they’d conclude that it was all her doing, and that she was involved in something unsavoury. Let the children go, and the whole story would change.

The fire was crawling up onto the roof. The heat was building. And yet, for three long seconds Jesse stood still - he teetered between yes and no, between anger and relief. He shook his head and tossed Clover’s blade back to her, assuming she would catch.

“You let them out, then. I have to go make sure the other bodies burn,” he said. Now that the fire had started, they were racing against a clock. He stalked from the room and went down the hall. He repeated the same motions as he had in the childrens’ room, setting fire to anything that would catch. In one of the teenage girl’s drawers he found half a bottle of vodka. She wasn’t as pristine as he had formerly thought. The vodka was splashed around the room and trailed out the door, the fire happily catching onto it and running after him like a puppy after its master.

In every room on the top floor, Jesse lit fires. This house was going to be reduced to ashes. He assumed that Clover would have her affairs in order; the children out of the closet. Though, he didn’t start setting fire to anything downstairs until he was sure that she was down here, too - or out of the building. Frustrated as he might be, he didn’t particularly want to reduce Clover to ashes. He wouldn’t go that far.

<Clover> The words had tumbled out of her mouth, and she assumed he would be as disappointed as she fet. She’d been set on murdering every soul, on setting fire to the remains, but she’d stumbled across two kids, one of whom she didn’t despise, one who struck such a chord in her that he’d, unknowingly, saved his own life. The boy. Clover had fallen in love with the way he held his sister’s hand. No, she’d found something reminiscent of the way she’d held so tightly to June’s hand, back when they were locked in their bedroom, trying not to attract too much of their father’s attention, trying to escape his drunken destruction. And she’d found something promising in the way he’d remained quiet, up until the fear of burning alive captured both children.

Her mind reminded her that she could have been a mother, that she could have had a boy. And that warred with the part of herself that didn’t care, the one that drove her to dismember the teenager. Almost ten years’ difference made a difference. If the two were older, Clover wouldn’t have felt the sense of guilt that drove her to utter such words. At Jesse’s expression, Clover averted her eyes. The guilt she felt for the children’s suffering multiplied and transformed to a new kind of guilt. Clo felt terrible for dragging Jesse into such a situation. She knew by his facial expression that he hadn’t expected her to say such words, and she hadn’t expected herself to say such words.

They were different, at least in the sense of the masquerade. Clover didn’t care if the children had seen their faces. Clover didn’t care if the children reported such things, if the children recruited the weight and attention of law enforcement. Some things mattered less than others. But when he asked her such a question, a question that confirmed her assumptions and made her feel so very small, Clover wondered if she should have just walked away and kept her thoughts, and her guilt, to herself. She wanted to lie to him, to tell him that her words were spoken jokingly, the kind of sick joke that would have ignited anger, rather than disbelief and irritation. She really wanted to reclaim her words and lie. The truth was such a fragile thing. Yes, a thing. Whenever she spoke, the truth took on a physical form.

Unable to voice a response to the rhetorical question, Clo just shrugged her shoulders. She looked at him and watched him until he threw her the blade, and then she cherished the weight of the weapon. The weapon kept her grounded, as if she needed it to keep from floating away. When he left her, she thought about following after him and eating her own guilt, swallowing the bitter pill and moving on. But the screams and the coughs--she just couldn’t. Clover freed the children from the closet, but she chose to kill them. As they screamed, she swung at them with her blade. Their blood splattered on the back wall of the closet and fanned out across the floor. Maybe that was it. Maybe she just couldn’t stand the thought of them being burnt alive! No. Because with every swing, she felt as if she were cutting out more and more of herself.

When she made her way through the smoke, she wiped the bloody blade on her dress, cleaning it just as much as smearing it. “There,” she spoke to him. “Let’s just ******* go. We can watch it burn.”

<Jesse> Jesse expected to see the two children scurrying ahead of Clover. Maybe he imagined he’d see her carrying the smaller one, the child clinging to her as one might cling to a saviour. Maybe the children wouldn’t remember the way their lives had felt threatened; maybe they’d see these two vampires as unlikely heroes. Maybe it would turn out for the better.

Except there were no children as Clover emerged from the smoke wearing a filthy expression. The blood that covered her was fresh. If it weren’t for the acrid smoke filling the air, Jesse might have inhaled to gather the scent of it. But he didn’t have to smell it to know who it belonged to. It belonged to the children. The blade was wet with their blood, smeared as Clover had tried to clean it. She had killed them. Had she misunderstood? Jesse hadn’t been clear - he knew that much.

She hadn’t wanted them to die. Jesse’s mouth fell open, his body slack, the agitation suddenly dispersed as he was suddenly aware of the ramifications. He should have felt horror for the death of the children, but he was instead focused on Clover. She hadn’t wanted to kill them, but she had. What would that do to her? What kind of guilt would she feel? Now was not the time to question her, or to ask why. Instead, he followed after her. He did what he needed to do to complete the blaze downstairs, focusing the flames around the bodies of the deceased, before exiting the building and joining Clover on the footpath. With a hand at the small of her back, he guided her across the road and down the street a little, where there was a grassy pathway leading between two houses. He summoned the shadows up and around them both, hiding them from view of witnesses.

The fire leapt and danced, curling out of the windows - some of the glass had already smashed. The next door neighbours were on the street, standing and staring in horror - what if the fire leapt to their houses? Surely, by now, someone would have called the fire brigade.

The culprits stood in the shadows, Jesse’s hand still resting at the small of Clover’s back.

“This isn’t what you had in mind…” he said. He should have just let her take the lead. He should have just let her make the decisions. If he went home to read the journal entry that had prompted their escapade, would he realise that he’d just managed to make things worse? He peered down at Clover. Although this was generally his favourite part, watching the fire consume a house, he didn’t watch the fire. Instead, his frown was focused on Clover.

<Clover> There.

She’d said the word as if she were delivering everything at his feet, as if she were finally finished and the two of them could bask in the satisfaction of a job well done. If that were the case, she might have felt differently. As it was, she felt like she had to throw up. She didn’t know when Jesse had initiated contact, but she finally noticed the hand on her back. Clover needed the contact to keep moving. He might have thought his touch a small comfort, but it was more than mere comfort. She felt as if he were doing so much more than guiding her. Jesse carried her, in his own way.

When Clover saw the red bike in the front yard, she remembered the expressions on the children’s faces. Their eyes had been so wide that she felt as if she were staring into nothing but white. Their screams had pierced her ears, leaving behind haunting echoes that she carried out of the house. Showing mercy to children would have been a huge sign of weakness, but some part of herself argued that it was an acceptable weakness, a flaw that she should have welcomed. Instead, she felt another wave of self-hatred and another wave of the children’s leftover fear. The bike looked so lonely there, the red paint chipped and the tiny bell dented. The bike must have belonged to the boy, possibly a birthday gift or a Christmas gift.

Even though she forced herself forward, she felt the stirring of thirst. She hated herself. After the thoughts and reasonings, she’d still given in and killed two children that were merely born into the wrong family, raised in the wrong household. When she finally stopped, her boots firmly on the grass pathway tucked so neatly between two other homes, Clover closed her eyes. She bent down, placed her hands on her knees, and threw up. Red blood coated the green grass, clinging to individual blades and pooling on the saturated ground. At least she managed to miss her boots. That thought swam to the surface, lingering and overpowering, until she felt another wave of nausea. Clover dry heaved for a few minutes, her muscles alternating between contracting and relaxing.

After she’d regained control, she lifted her head enough to look over at the smoke and flames that rose from the burning home. Jesse had spoken to her, and she’d answered him. She’d answered him by throwing up a good bit of the blood she’d consumed. “I thought you wanted me to kill them, so I did. I ******* cut them into pieces. They just kept crying. He wouldn’t move from in front of her. I had to cut through him to get to her.” Clo didn’t know whether she wanted to cry or scream or vomit, yet again, but she felt something stirring. Instead of allowing herself time to process the reaction, she clung to the uncertainty.

<Jesse> As soon as Jesse knew what Clover was about to do, he laid a hand on her neck. He leaned forward to make sure no hair would get in the way of the vomit - though what did it matter? They were both covered in blood. What was a little vomit added to the mixture? It was mostly blood, anyway. In that moment, Jesse knew that Clover wasn’t just a little bit unhappy, she was distraught. Her guilt at having done what she had done had caused her insides to want to reject her. Jesse’s jaw clenched. He should have been more specific.

She went on to tell him just how she had done it; she made him complicit in the murder - in the slaughter of children. She believed that he had left her there to do it on her own. Maybe, deep down, there was a cold, heartless part of him that had done just that. She’d chosen that house for her own reasons, and at the last hurdle she had stumbled. She’d made them both complicit in the slaughter of a family, and so she should be the one to clean up the mess.

And yet, the cold heartless part of him was overwhelmed by his understanding. Not everything was so black and white and people were allowed to change their minds; to think that they were capable of something, only to realise that they were not. To admit to that weakness was strength. Instead of getting angry and tossing her blade, he should have sighed in relief. He should have admitted to that weakness, too. He should have cut the know himself. Instead, he had left her there in uncertainty. This was his fault.

To admit to it now would only make her feel worse. Wouldn’t it? She’d know she’d done something that she didn’t have to do. If he let her keep believing it was what he wanted, then at least she could hate him rather than herself. So he squared his shoulders, his grip on her neck just a little tighter - whether out of reassurance or out of tension, he didn’t really know. He wasn’t quite aware. He was admitting to something that he didn’t believe. He was channeling the cold, heartless sire - the one that would protect their secrecy.

“I did. You could have let them burn. They saw too much,” he said. It’s what he had thought, wasn’t it? It wasn’t entirely untrue. “They knew what we looked like - they’re better off dead,” he said, quietly, now turning his eyes to the flames, his vision glazed. With the life they would have lived, without their parents and knowing how their sister was maimed, perhaps they were better off dead.

<Clover> Clover whipped her head to the side to look at him, as if she were seeing him for the first time. Yes, he called to the part of her that had already reasoned for the children’s deaths, but hearing the words, hearing them coming from Jesse, hit an unfamiliar chord within her, one buried so deep that she didn’t even know it existed. They’d seen too much. They knew too much. They would have been lost amongst the system, two children with no immediate family and scars that ran too deep. But Clover countered his words. No, she couldn’t have let them burn. No, they hadn’t seen too much. No, they weren’t better off dead. With every passing second, she created elaborate responses filled with examples she’d plucked from her own childhood.

Clo didn’t know if she hated herself for committing the murders. She didn’t want to kill the children, but she’d done it anyway. She could have ignored Jesse and let the children go. She could have stopped Jesse from lighting the fires. She could have stopped Jesse from shooing the children into the closet. There were times where she could have intervened, and yet she hadn’t made a move. Clover hadn’t done a damn thing to stop the course of events. At the end of the road, faced with the option of life or death, Clo chose death. Whether her heart was in the right place or not, she’d killed the kids. Vomiting wouldn’t bring them back. They were gone.

“Yeah,” Clo mumbled, “you’re right.” She was lying to him, but she didn’t have the heart to tell him the truth. She didn’t have the strength to yell at him for something that just wasn’t his fault. She’d failed herself, just as she’d failed those kids. And yet, she was a vampire. She wasn’t human. Not anymore. She wasn’t a wife. She wasn’t a mother. Nothing should have prevented her from following through with her most basic desires. Blood drove her, and so blood should have continued to drive her, even when faced with a moral dilemma.

“You can’t mean that, that they’re better off dead. I know you don’t mean that.” She didn’t know, not for sure, but she hoped to draw him out. Clo loved him because of the different parts of his personality, and she really didn’t like the response he’d presented her with, not in the least. She was so busy going back and forth between her own guilt and blame. She didn’t want to care, but she did. That was where the uncertainty dissolved. “You care, but you don’t want to. Am I close? That’s where I am right now.”

The roof on the home collapsed, sending a huge pillar of fire into the sky. The cracks and explosions of the structure rattled the windows of nearby homes. The neighbors that had gathered to watch the fire stood in small groups. When the truck pulled up to extinguish the fire, the people parted like the waves of a sea. Clover could only imagine the way the bodies looked as they caught fire.

<Jesse> At first he thought that Clover had accepted it. That they were going to leave it that way, and there’d be tension. There’d always be that one thing they did that they didn’t want to talk about; something that would come up at random moments in the future to ruin their nights, to sour their moods. That one time you made me kill children.

And then she called him out on it. At first, he had held her sharp gaze with a sharpness of his own, an impenetrable mask to hide how he really felt about the whole thing. Had she seen through it, or was she challenging him? For a few seconds more he held her gaze; he contemplated nodding, and telling her that he did mean it. Of course he meant it. They had to be careful, and letting two witnesses go was not careful. Not in the slightest. But Clover turned away and the challenge was dropped. Jesse sighed, his head bowed, his hand still resting behind Clover’s neck, fingertips playing with the soft new growth of hair behind her ear. His eyes closed as he shook his head.

“I didn’t mean it, no,” he admitted. With Clover, his resolve was a hard thing to keep. He was so accustomed to telling her the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth - the lie was hard to keep. Although when he opened his eyes it was half to watch the house collapse, his face was turned in Clover’s direction.

“I didn’t know why you took us into that house if you didn’t mean to kill all of them. I was willing to kill them because I thought it was what you wanted, even though I didn’t want to. I should have told you. I should have been relieved, when you said you didn’t want them to die. I acted out of frustration because we were in that position. I didn’t think you were going to kill them, Clo. I thought you were going to let them go,” he said. Again, he sighed, his grip tightening on Clover’s neck because he couldn’t foresee her reaction. He didn’t know how it was going to make her feel. He didn’t know whether he’d just thrown her off the proverbial deep end.

“I should have clarified. I should have let them go myself. I shouldn’t have put that on your shoulders. ****, I’m sorry. This can’t have made you feel any better. This isn’t the chaos you need, is it?” He asked. What good was he to her? How often had she been able to predict exactly what he needed, and followed through without a hitch? How often had she lifted his spirits and made him feel so loved and cared for? And here he was, making **** worse when she needed him. When she asked for his help, he had failed her.

“I’m so sorry…”

<Clover> Familiar with the course of events, she knew she had a choice to make. Clover had an opportunity to dismiss his apology and reassure him of her state. If she chose to forgo that option, she risked leaving him with the weight of what happened. She already knew the correct option, the third option, the one that she hated to acknowledge: Clo should have found a balance between the first two options, between dealing with her guilt and placing the blame. His words tossed her back and forth, as if they were both facing rough seas. She didn’t know whether to embrace flares of anger or wallow in the in-between stages, the blank spots reserved just for the lost moments between anger and sadness.

Clover had taken him into the house with the intent to kill the inhabitants, every single one, but she’d seen that boy, that stupid little boy, and his wide eyes became the proverbial wrench in her plans. She should have noticed something was wrong. When she fed, she witnessed vivid images and the ghosts of tastes and smells, but not there. The father and eldest daughter shared no memories. Even without the fiasco, the whole family would have been just as unsavory and unsatisfying. “It was the boy I wanted to let go. He reminded me of myself, in a way. And who knows who he could have become. He could have forgotten our faces. He could have blacked them out. And even if he remembered them, I wouldn’t have cared.”

She didn’t wait for him to interject, to say what he’d said on more than one occasion. She didn’t need to hear that it might have been putting herself at risk, putting him at risk, or putting the entire family at risk. They didn’t need to go through the meaning of the shadow realm and the rift. Clover skipped that portion and continued on. “I don’t like feeling anything for him. We’re vampires. I never have to worry about a family. I never have to worry about children. In this case, emotions are a hinderance. I should have been able to kill them. I shouldn’t have stumbled out of there and threw up in the grass. I hate it.”

Jesse didn’t need to apologize. He didn’t need to apologize for accompanying her, for sharing the best and worst moments with her. He only needed to say that they could try again. Clover wanted to sweep the mistake aside and continue on with the night. She wanted to find someone else. If she had the night to start over again, she couldn’t say that she’d change the course of events. Up until the last moments of their time, she’d enjoyed herself.

She didn’t want to kiss him, so she wrapped her arms around him and held him. The embrace could have communicated everything she wanted to say in one big gesture, but she didn’t want to leave it open for debate. “Do you think less of me because I did kill them, because I did find it in myself to not only kill them, but mutilate them? Do I need to try and defend myself? You’re apologizing to me, and I feel like I should be apologizing to you. You didn’t know I was going to do what I did. I’m sorry. For you, I’m sorry I picked the house. At the same time, I don’t think I’d change anything, at least not anything leading up to the closet. I had fun. And I’d like to have more fun, if you can handle it.”

As if on cue, the flames that had died down erupted into new life.

<Jesse> “No, Clover. I do not think less of you,” he said. He didn’t even have to think about it. He had his arms wrapped so securely around her, his words muffled and spoken directly into her hair, the thick mess of it hardening in spots with splattered blood. He thought that’s what the plan was all along; he had reassured her, even before they’d stepped foot in the childrens’ room. Whatever she chose to do, or not do, he wouldn’t judge her. Whether her feelings aligned with his or not, it didn’t matter. They were learning about each other, about their boundaries and their weaknesses, and he was glad that he had given up the lie. He was glad that she knew.

“They reminded me of my brother. The way we were together. The way we would… try to protect each other, even though we were far too small to protect much of anything. He died because he was trying to protect me. Because he got angry on my behalf. Because we both tried to take down a monster twice our size, and failed,” he said.

Who knows what that boy could have become? He could have become just like Jesse - if his whole family had died, he could have gone into the foster system. They could have threatened him to silence and he might, then, have become a selective mute. He might have turned to drugs and alcohol, he might have been a good artist. All his thoughts and feelings could have gone into that art. And, in the future, he might have met a woman, someone just like him. Someone who had the potential to be just as twisted and broken. All because of what had happened to them in their childhood.

“I don’t think you should hate yourself for feeling something. Just because we’re vampires doesn’t mean we have to be completely heartless, and you’re not a failure for… for letting this affect you,” he said, shaking his head as he stared at the grass. The heat from the fire across the street reached them even here, banishing the chill from the air. Even as the flames erupted, Jesse didn’t watch. He held Clover, and did his best to reassure her - even if she seemed confused, and lost.

“We can go somewhere else. If you want to…”

<Clover> More than anything, she wanted to escape any continuation of the conversation. He’d challenged her idea of vampires, her obsession with power and the predatory lifestyle. Jesse reminded that of the direct connection between humanity and her existence. Even if he didn’t use the word humanity, or a close variation, he explained himself in a way that left little to the imagination. Clover didn’t have to fill in the blanks, because he left no blanks.

When he shared a small clip from his past life, she became utterly enthralled. Of course it wasn’t as if he went to great lengths to hide things from her; she swore he’d shared things equally as revealing on numerous occasions. The timing made his words more meaningful, especially when she had an image burned into the back of her mind. Clo could imagine a young Jesse. She could imagine the transformation, from child to adult, from innocence to--well, they definitely weren’t innocent anymore. If the night’s actions served as an example, they were walking damnations. But she could still imagine a young Jesse being hidden from view, watching his older sibling take a blade to the gut. Perhaps she’d snuffed out two lights that had a bright future.

As she took a step back, Clover ran her hands down his arms. She wanted to rewind just long enough to maintain a hold on earlier feelings. Just as she’d imagined a scenario, she imagined the past events. Clo recalled the jealousy and clung to memories of admiration. “People take advantage of weakness. I’m just so used to trying to conceal my flaws,” she trailed off. The rest of the words were implied, or they were left up to him to decipher. The fact was that hiding came like second nature, criticizing herself came like second nature.

She slid her hands into his and tugged, trying to lure him toward her. Even as the fire lit the night sky, even as the heat seemed to touch her cheeks, she took the first steps away from their little hideaway. She’d wanted to escape any continuation of the conversation, so she led them in a different direction. Blood flecked her face, just as much as it stained her clothing and her hair, but everyone in the immediate area seemed transfixed by the burning house. Again, Clover didn’t have to scout out a location.

A tiny brown house called out to her. The front two steps cracked, the porch falling apart, the house looked like a stereotypical crack den. The thought of the tainted blood should have sent her on her way, but she wanted to feel the familiar rush of memories, the rush that had been absent during her first attempts at feeding. And even if she didn’t feed from them, she wanted to kill them. “What about this one?”

Clover looked at him as if she were waiting for his approval. She waited for him to be the one to make the final decision. Already, she heard the sound of footsteps. Thin walls amplified even the quietest of sounds.
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<Jesse> Jesse knew the sentiment well - though those who knew him at all knew what his weaknesses were. It was easy to tell. As soon as they got anywhere near his weaknesses he got defensive; the temper was let loose and the walls were stacked so high and so thick that no one could possibly hope to get over or through them. There were only a handful of people who’d been allowed inside that sanctum. Clover was the only one left in his life, and that was how he intended to keep it. Clover was the keeper of his weaknesses. She was the only one with a key.

The words were there on the tip of his tongue; she didn’t have to hide them from him, but the words didn’t need saying. She hadn’t hidden her weaknesses. Maybe she had started to, out of habit. But now he knew. She’d told him she was in the habit of hiding them only to explain her hesitance. Jesse could assume that Clover knew by now that she could tell him anything. She could do anything. And if there were still things that she kept hidden, it was only to be expected, right? Jesse had gone the long way around to realise that sometimes people you thought you could trust to the edge of the earth and eternity were those who would eventually hurt you the most. If he couldn’t understand Clover’s hesitance - regardless of how much they knew they could trust each other right now - then he would be remiss. He would be a hypocrite.

He easily went with Clover when she pulled him away. He didn’t even look back. And as the decrepit house loomed before them, Jesse knew it for what it was. He knew who lingered inside. They were prey. They were a den of warm bodies ready for the kill; Jesse didn’t take his time this time, however. There was an impatience in his step; a lack of a care and throwing of the caution to the wind. It only ever occurred when he was under the influence of his frenzy. He leapt up the porch steps two at a time and delivered a swift kick to the front door. Locked or not, the wood splintered. The men inside were at first surprised, shocked. ...What the ****…?

The air inside was thick with smoke. Not just cigarettes, but all kinds of unsavoury drugs. Or savoury depending on one’s taste. There were men and woman both upstairs and downstairs, and as the shock wore off, they all started to reach for their weapons. Jesse wandered right into the middle of them, as if he belonged there. Clover would be hot on his heels, he knew. He tossed her a glance. This was him. This was what he did. This was how he spent his nights, sometimes. Get them angry, and then slaughter them.

Jesse didn’t even wait for the questions. His lips pulled back in a snarl, and he charged the closest male, his fingers lengthening into claws. They’d paint the walls in blood.


<Clover> Stealth no longer played a part in their little game. As soon as she pointed out the house, she knew she’d opened a different door and led them both down a different path. They were going for pure destruction, absolute slaughter. Where she led the way to the house, Jesse led the way up the stairs. Clo followed behind, content to watch him ascend the stairs and kick down the front door. His actions gave her more time to think over her own actions, both past and future, and she admitted to herself that she enjoyed watching him much more than lifting a finger to help him.

The startled inhabitants knocked over the coffee table and sent their piles of cash and drugs falling to the dirty floor. Some reached for the guns, while some dove behind the sofa or took off into the kitchen. Clo wondered whether she would have reached for a gun or went for cover. Before the dealers had a chance to fully enact their plans, Jesse and had thrown himself into the equation. Just like that, the humans were presented with something they’d never really encountered. Clover watched their faces as the first man fell, his body a bloody mess, and she decided she wanted more than destruction. She wanted what the security guards had offered her.

When they finally raised their guns, Clo walked forward and distracted them. Their hands were shaking, so their aim was awful. They hit the walls, the floor, and the ceiling. The first bullet that connected with her hit her shoulder, and she gritted her teeth to hold in a surprised yelp. She had to admit she didn’t expect the cowardly human to recover enough to hit the target, even though she stood at five feet and nine inches.

“Is that black--?” Clover cut off his words by closing the distance between them and wrapping her hands around his throat. She felt his pulse as if she were holding his heart in her hands. Quick, frantic, the rhythm reminded her of a rabbit. The more pressure she put behind her grip, the more she felt the rhythm, and she enjoyed the song. The man’s words were choked, so Clo relaxed her grip on him. She heard the noise before she felt the bullet. He’d been fiddling with his handgun, trying to aim it and steady his hands enough to shoot it.

Her automatic reaction was to shove him away, but she fought against it. Black blood escaping her midsection, she laughed at his reaction. He looked at her as if she were some sort of monster, a monster straight out of some twisted fairytale. When he readied to pull the trigger again, she felt the burn in her gums--her teeth transformed to fangs. He fired and missed, and she ripped into his throat. She shredded his flesh and feasted on the blood that poured from the wound. She didn’t fill herself on the man’s blood--not that she could contain her thirst--so she dropped his body onto the floor and listened to the crack of his skull against the floor.

Before she picked her next prey, Clover picked and prodded at her wounds. The bullet in her shoulder came out easily enough, but the one in her gut took much more digging, digging that had her swearing and muttering. A woman approached, a knife in hand, and Clo had to hurry through her attempts at first-aid so she could enjoy her next meal. She took the bullet pried from her stomach and lodged into the woman’s side. The screams that followed made Clo jittery, a happy sort of jittery that made her all the more curious about what else the woman could do. Clover pressed a palm over the woman’s mouth and used the other to pry the knife away.


<Jesse> When Jesse relinquished control and gave in to his frenzied thirst, he became a different person. There was no way he could focus on whatever wounds he had sustained, or what weapons his prey happened to be wielding. He didn’t listen to their pleas or their curses, couldn’t even hear their voices through the rush of blood in his ears - if that’s even what it was. He did not talk to his prey. He did not play with them. They were just food, water in a desert and he felt like he’d been walking for days. He became the monster that everyone assumed vampires were; the rabid beast that killed without mercy or remorse, just to satiate a thirst that never abated.

It wasn’t as if he consumed every single drop, either. He’d explode, if he consumed that much blood in one night. Instead, in this setting and with these people, the feeding was not neat. This was why, in the end, he always opted to burn the houses down. Less opportunity for evidence of vampirism to be found. If any investigator walked into a house after Jesse had been there, they’d think it was some kind of animal attack - only the most savvy of detectives would have known it for what it was.

Jesse used his sharpened claws as constrains; he tug his monstrous nails into the flesh of his prey to hold them close, so they couldn’t just slip away without tearing their own flesh in the process. Teeth tore into their necks in such a way that the blood did not flow in a concentrated gush, but instead sprayed and splattered as the vein was ruptured and all but pulled from the flesh. Jesse’s chin and neck were coated in the stuff; it clung to his hair, and soaked into his clothes. He could only get in a few gulps before the body sagged and bled out, before he moved on to his next victim.

He didn’t feel the knife as it slipped beneath his ribs, nor the bullets as they lodged into his thigh and chest. He did not know whether he killed men or women. His vision was red as he moved from one hot body to the next, his claws slashing and gashing at his prey to get them to cooperate. He was aware, on an instinctive level, of Clover moving through the house beside him; like she was his mate, and this was their dinner, and he was protective of her, too. If anything untoward should happen to her, he would be there to ward it off, to protect her, to save her. Any enemy of hers was an enemy of his - to an extent.

It didn’t matter to Jesse if any of those left in his wake still had beating hearts; he knew, soon, that they would all be burnt alive regardless.
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<Clover> It was a mess, a sight of utter destruction. He fed from his victims as if he meant to bathe in their blood, and she watched, as if hypnotized. A knife in her hand, she buried the blade in her prey’s stomach and cut upwards, creating a messy, jagged line. The blood. The guts. Everything spilled out and onto her combat boots. The liquid covered her leather boots and created a slick puddle on the floor. For a few moments, the woman just screamed, and then Clo snapped her victim’s neck and added the body to her growing pile. One. Two. And Clo scanned the room for a third, as if she were shopping for clothing.

Her dress clung to her form, the fabric heavy with blood. To humans, she must have stunk from the substance, but she found the scent alluring. All she wanted to do was share more of a meal with Jesse, and yet--no, that wasn’t all she wanted. Clover wanted to kill everyone there, destroying them to destroy any remaining feelings of doubt and guilt. Her eyes strayed back to Jesse and she watched the knife that broke through his clothing and his flesh. The metal slipped so easily between his ribs, but she didn’t make a move to stop the person. Jesse looked quite capable, if his actions were representations of his abilities.

A gunshot went off and another bullet buried itself in Clover’s back, just centimeters from her spine. Slowly, she turned around to face the man, and it was a man. He looked so cocky, as if he’d won the battle before it began, but he saw the irritated expression on her face, and his expression went from an arrogant sort of swagger to disbelief. Of course she wasn’t writhing in pain; of course she wasn’t disabled. Clo was on the man in seconds. She yanked the gun from him, grabbed him by the throat, and threw him across the room. The man slid along the floor and crashed into the wall. The plaster that rained down on his hand was show enough of the force she’d used.

She didn’t feel like talking, as she’d established from the beginning. Clo reevaluated, but the agreement on silence remained. Another man approached, but she still had the knife nearby. When he lunged, she grabbed the knife and cut off his own knife-wielding hand. The man opened his mouth to scream, but she slit his throat. Blood poured from the injury and he quickly choked on it. Three. When she turned back to her original prey, she saw that the man had begun to crawl toward the door. He moved so slowly that she only had to walk to catch him. The knife was abandoned--she’d tossed the blade to the side, the point burying itself in the back of a woman trying to sneak toward Jesse.

The man ceased his crawling and began stuttering out promises and apologies, but Clo tugged him to his feet, brushed the plaster from his hair, and broke his arm. The bone protruded from the flesh. And during the man’s screaming, she broke the wrist on that same arm. She wanted to break every bone in his body. She looked over at Jesse as if she were creating a beautiful work of art. Her eyes said, “Look at this. Look at what I’m making for you.” Then she continued up that same arm and dislocated the shoulder. Silently. Meticulously.


<Jesse> Jesse was always of two minds when feeding this way.

Yes, he did want to bathe in their blood. He wanted to be covered from head to toe in the stuff, warmed by it before it cooled and dried and flaked off. And yet, his thirst was of such an insistent and constant nature that he couldn’t bare to see any of it go to waste, either. After the first one or two the blood would spill more than he’d swallow; he was full, regardless of how thirsty he felt. And if he took too much, if he kept swallowing gulp after gulp, he started to feel like some kind of dark, ominous buddha, fat beyond reason and radiating not goodness and well being, but sinister intent.

A body dropped behind him, and he turned to see a knife protruding from a woman’s back. She was dressed all in denim, her hair like something out of a Madonna video, her nails long and fake and painted a blood red. She screamed and moaned and tried to grasp for the knife sticking out of her back, but her fingers could only just touch the cold metal. Jesse’s booted foot pressed against her shoulder to keep her down while he grasped the knife, twisted it, and yanked. Blood bubbled to the surface in its wake, quickly soaking through the denim in a gooey, gleaming mess. He rolled the woman over so that he could use that same knife to slash her throat; the blood spurted, spattering his face and neck, coating his hair.

The woman would soon be dead, and Jesse barely had the chance to lick his lips before his attention was drawn to the anguished screaming. Another male struck by Clover’s meticulous care. Breaking bones was clearly one of Clover’s favourite hobbies; she had a look in her eye that commanded Jesse to watch, and so he did. Although he could hear a few other moans and groans from barely-alive survivors, he could hear no one else moving in the house. Sure, they could still be there, hiding, but they could go and find them afterwards. It seemed unlikely that anyone would have called the cops; gangsters didn’t turn to cops for help.

Jesse leaned against a nearby couch, his arms crossed over his chest as he watched. From where he was leaning he could see the front door; but at this point, he’d lost all care. He knew that they had to be careful, that they shouldn’t leave witnesses. That there was a Masquerade to uphold. But he’d slowly been losing his grip on everything that had once mattered to him. For now, he was content to watch.


<Clover> In the back of her mind, she knew that her prey had a name; she knew that he had a history, and likely a family. But he’d taken the wrong path and ended up in the wrong place at just the right time. His presence in the crack den earned him the broken bones and the dislocated shoulder. His devious ways earned him the punishment. Clo let her eyes drift down the length of the man’s arm and linger on the open wound. The bone that protruded came with blood, blood that bubbled and pooled. The blood stained his sun-kissed skin a violent shade of red.

Clover felt Jesse’s eyes on her and she dipped her head and closed her mouth over the open wound. She licked and sucked at the injury, ignoring the human man’s groans of pain and his shameless sobbing. For the few minutes she cleaned his wound, licking at him like a cat gently cleaning its own fur, she controlled the extension of her fangs. It wasn’t time to kill him, nor was it time to rip into his flesh. Clo wanted the exploration of the man’s body to last. One arm wasn’t enough. And yes, yes she loved to break bones. She loved the sound, the crack and the grating, the deep thrum associating with the bones moving out of place and grinding against one another. Clover loved when the bones tore through the flesh, shredding skin like paper. Nothing compared to the sound, just as nothing compared to licking and sucking at the wound.

A shift of focus took Clover to the other man’s arm, and she repeated the same actions, although she went in reverse. First, she dislocated the shoulder, and then she snapped the man’s forearm. The wrist was last, like savoring the feel and devouring the sound. The man’s shrill scream and his sobbing only increased, but she knew he’d descended into a state of shock. Eventually, he wouldn’t feel a thing. His body would protect him, shielding him from the feeling of her torture, so she moved onward. Clo looked in Jesse’s direction as she readjusted the human. She moved the gangster so that his legs were extended, and then she slammed her foot down on the man’s thigh. The sickening crack that followed came with a crescendo of a scream, one that drew out so long that she didn’t think the noise would ever end. Blood soaked the man’s jeans, flowing in down his thigh and between his legs. The air, already filled with the fresh scent of blood, took on a new aroma. There was nothing quite like blood fresh from the source.

The man was bleeding to death. Rather than feeding. Knowing that he was bleeding to death, Clo grabbed the man by the collar of his shirt and dragged him up the wall until he hung there. He looked as if he were hanging by a hook, but she held him. Her grip tightened, her eyes raked over his beaten body, and then her fangs extended. With nothing more to do with him, she leaned in and sunk her fangs into his throat. She ripped out a chunk of his flesh, shredding his skin and exposing the bone. As he bled out, she licked at the wound. And when she could take no more, she loosened her grip and let his still body slide down the wall. That was her gift to Jesse. That was her idea of art. Clover didn’t need to say anything. She didn’t think she needed words to accompany her offering. Her steps slow, she made her way over to Jesse. Her mouth bloody, her appearance disheveled, Clo curled her arms around him and pressed herself against him. It was her way of saying she was content, and her way of saying that her last display was all for him.
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