Harper Rock Journal [Grey]

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December 24, 2013

I made it here to Harper Rock. I have $11.27 to my name, which will get changed out at the bus station shortly for Canadian money. I am not nervous. I am not scared. I am cold. I need a job.

It wasn't long before I stole someone's wallet. They had $235 of what I can see as Canadian money. Enough for dinner and a motel room. I could find a shelter, but I don't want to draw too much attention to myself right away. I will start walking the city tomorrow.

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January 3, 2014

I got a job today at Auto Doc. It is a place where I'll be a mechanic and help out in the front of the store when it is needed. The pay is more than I ever expected. I accepted the job before the owner could get the full question out of his mouth.

I promised to be a great employee.

For once, I didn't lie.

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January 6

Met a woman by the name of Solene. We collided on a street corner and she crushed my hot chocolate. It was the first thing I had bought myself since taking money from my paycheck. I was on the way to the shelter, but we stopped and had a nice chat.

I really hope to see her again. But, I have a feeling she was just being kind about the incident. Even if she gave me her scarf.

Time will tell.

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January 7

Met a tattooed artist by the name of Jesse Fforde. I ran into him by accident. I needed to get to the shelter before it would run out of cots on the super cold night. He was intriguing. He sketched my face. I touched his hand.

We spoke about a lot. He walked me to the Wickbridge bank. I thought I lost him. I thought I gave him an out. Not once. Not twice. But, three different times I tried to tell him that I was no one to spend his breath on. It didn't work.

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January 9

Touching Jesse. Touched his nose. The edge of his ear. Run a finger along his jaw. Lean into him. Nudging his chin. Antagonizing him into action.

The kiss. Touching his tattoos. Sex discussion.

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January 18

Sexy selfie of Jesse. Delayed gratification.

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January 24

Jesse came to pick me up. Too tired to move.


G: "M'tired"

J: "Don't expect me to sing you a lullaby."

I smiled. Hugged him.

G: "Stay with me then."


First overnight experience with a man.

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February 3, 2014

At Jesse's apartment. Quiet evening, making out gone wrong. Walked away from me when I used the excuse I was cold not to have sex. It was stupid, I know.

Went to watch some of his porn stash after he walked away. I told him I didn't want to disappoint him. He told me 'there is beauty in flaws.'

I fall more for him.

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February 10

Distracted by missing Jesse. Conversation with him regarding a woman throwing herself at him.

Flipped him off for telling me that such an action is no way to catch a man.

He sucked on my flipped off finger. We ended up kissing. I want him. I need him. Jealousy inside me flares. I have my first orgasm by a man's fingers on Auto Docs floor.

I gave him my virginity. I am his now, he tells me. I am okay with that.

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February 20

Jesse offers me to stay at his apartment. I accept.