The Little Black Book

[Lylith (DELETED 5045)]

The book is stained on the outside of its black, soft, leather cover by almost anything you can imagine... It's worn, scarred, and even torn on the edges where it looks like a suitcase was closed on it... But, even through all the age, and wear, you can see the scroll work on the spine, and where the brass used to hold the corners... Where the gold was inlayed on the cover, but was worn, scratched, and rubbed off by years and years of use...

It was an old diary. Given to Lylith when she was younger... Since then, she'd learned to keep a good record of her life, but only recently had she refurbished it with new sheets of crisp white paper replacing her old life, of boys, highschool, and dreams, with reality, and the future... The old ones were removed, and rebound, to be put in a safe for remembering or even scrap booking, but this was a new story... A new story for a new time in Lyliths life, but she couldn't know that this new chapter, might just signal the last chapter of her life...

:: Lyliths Diary ::
Page One

My first day in Harper Rock in a word? HORRID... Not only did I discover that Canadians are NOT all nice, but I learned that Murphys Law? Yeah... It's true... My bags were stolen, not TEN minutes into the station, but THEN, with NO bags, and NO passport or wallet... It started raining. Of all things.

Thankfully, I met a few new people (A man and a Woman), and they WERE nice, and helped me out of the cold/wet. I went to the local cafe and submitted a few applications to the local doctors offices, and banks... (Cross your fingers girl!) Hopefully, I'll get a job as a teller at this ONE big bank I went to... There was this... Big, buff, security guy there... I'm pretty sure he was checkin' me out! (Cross your fingers, again!)

Now, I'm laying on a bed roll I was loaned by the younger woman... She seems nice enough, but, where she lives... Sheesh! I'm pretty sure there's a drug dealer or something downstairs! So much noise! I can't imagine how she gets to sleep! How am I going to get to sleep?! Ugh! Whatever... That's about it, adn I don't want to keep her up with my light... So... Yeah... Day one of Hell...

[Lylith (DELETED 5045)]

:: Lyliths Diary ::
Page Two

Today was... Long, I suppose? I went shopping earlier this morning, trying to get new clothes that would look appropriate for an interview... I actually found LOTS on sale! There was a great party dress (just a little small in the chest) just my size for 80% off for some reason! It has these sequins like scales all over it... Black, and sheer... I had to wear a body stocking under it, and a coat over it... (A nice big one, with grey ish black fur on the edges!) And the SHOES! The best part... I got like, five pair of heels for about thirty dollars each! And not the cheap ones, that break in a few weeks, either... All in all, I spent about three hundred dollars on new clothes, and got about four outfits... More if you count the jeans and tanks as an outfit...

After the shopping was done, I went back to the apartment... On the way there, I saw a nightclub, only one block from where I was staying. Even at 6pm there was a line. I figured it couldn't hurt to check it out, and I REALLY wanted to show off my new outfits... So... I squeezed into that dress, and went!

Turns out, the bouncers are feminists and let me in almost as soon as I got to the front of the line. I went to the bar as soon as I walked in, and met this AMAZING guy... He's really nice, and didn't really hit on me at all, but I could tell he was interested. He gave me his "Signature Mix" and we chatted for HOURS... His eyes glowed from his contacts, and his smile was so white it glowed under the black light... It was mesmerizing... I really hope I get a chance to go back and see him again. Maybe I'll even remember to ask his name...

[Lylith (DELETED 5045)]

:: Lyliths Diary ::
Page Three

First day of work! I wasn't really excited about getting the call at first, because I wasn't sure what club the man on the other end of the line was talking about... But when I got to the address he gave me, my heart jumped! Apparently, I sent in an application to the night club I went to, the one with the hot bartender, and got accepted! I'm so excited to be able to possibly meet that guy again, and maybe even ask him out. Bad idea... Can't do that with co workers... Stupid...

I had an interview with one of the under managers who told me to be back in a few hours, for the evening shift. He seemed really... Off... I think I was imagining it, but he couldn't seem to focus on the interview. He kept trailing off, and looking between the bathroom and my boobs... Kinda freaky... At least I wasn't in that cocktail dress today... I think he might have actually USED the bathroom.

First night of work wasn't too bad... I never heard the same song twice (A nice change, from working at an office all day). And on top of that, I never really got bothered, though I did notice a few looks... Like, I was the only one not supposed to be in the club... NEWSFLASH... I WORK here... I was disappointed the hot bartender wasn't there, but there was someone else, who might as well have been his brother... He was gorgeous! He left before I got off, so I didn't' get to say hi, but I'm SURE he noticed me...

There's always tomorrow, Lyli... There's always tomorrow.

[Lylith (DELETED 5045)]

:: Lyliths Diary ::
Page Day Four

Just got back home FROM a massive party, TO a massive party... Seems the druggies downstairs invited all the goths, bikers, homeless beggars, and... Who knows what the rest are trying to look like... Right beneath my room. I could hardly get to the elevator, and when I did, found it "Occupied"... I decided to take the stairs and keep my boots clean.

My boss said I needed a different outfit for work... I'm pretty sure he implied that "I wasn't slutty enough"... So, I'm gonna go shopping tomorrow for some... I dunno... I guess I'll have to see what I find. I'm not too excited about having to dress up so that sketchy old ******** can look at me all day, behind my back... I guess that comes with working in a nightclub, though... Should have guessed that.

I DID see one shop I liked, though it looked more like... Witchcraft, and vampire stuff than a good place to look for clothes... I did see a dress I liked, though I wouldn't get it to work in, I thought it looked... Classy... In a morbid, black and white, Gothic, kind of way. I might even fit in when I walk through the horrid party scene below, if I'm not too careful... Haha... Still... It looked nice in the window.

I've decided I'll go see if they have it in my size tomorrow, and if I wear it, I'm wearing the blouse, MINUS the corset... I don't think it'd fit my bust anyways... Looked like it was made for one of those anorexic American models anyways... The boots, on the manikin, however... Would do just fine...

Sweet dreams... If you can...

[Lylith (DELETED 5045)]

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Page / Day Five

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Lylith what are you doing here... It's too late to look for adventures and a new home. What are you dreaming, girl? Half your life has passed you by, and you're trying to start fresh, leaving memories of the old behind? As if somehow distance will block out the loneliness... Stupid girl... The memories aren't in the land, or the buildings... You brought them with you, in your head. You'll never get away

(A tear blots out the next few words, making them run together into an illegible mess... )

It's Christmas morning. Daddy would have been up all night with mother, laying out the presents in the way only they can... Making plain boxes, wrapped in paper, look beautiful, beneath the glowing tree... Somehow, they always managed to make a perfect picture out of the presents every year... The tree branches, framing the boxes... The stocking beneath it as well, in front of the boxes, leaning against them, and filled to the brim with anything too small to fit in a box... Mother was such a lovely decorator... And father always knew what to get... I can see their faces, lit by the brilliant lights of the tree, smiling at me as I gaze upon their annual display of love and selflessness.

The noise downstairs is unbearable... I don't think the parties ever end, and somehow they even manage to get louder today... At least it blocks most of the pain out by distracting me from even my own private thoughts. In a way, I'm grateful to the 'ne'er do wellers', for trading a little discomfort for the agony of mulling over my losses on the one holiday my family never ever spent apart, or away from home... I'm almost tempted to go down and join them. They seem so happy. Always laughing, and always with company... Maybe I'm doing this to myself? Maybe I'm alone, because I don't want to get close to anyone else?

No... That's stupid Lyli... Get your head straight, woman.

You're a silly mess!

[Lylith (DELETED 5045)]

:: Lyliths Diary ::
Page / Day Six

I woke up and decided to write before the evening... I'm not sure why. I feel like my days and nights are backwards... Maybe that's what the guy meant when he said keep an eye out for vampires... Night life does seem like the way to go, here...

I finally fell asleep early this morning, after most of the clamor ceased from below. My guess is they either left to take their company to a less crowded place, or they drugged themselves to sleep with alcohol and other intoxicating substances... But it sounds like some of them are still up and about. I might be wrong... It may be other residents, waking up like me... I guess it doesn't matter... I still wish I had enough money to get a REAL apartment. Maybe I will soon... God knows that'll be my FIRST investment.

I've been thinking in poetry recently. It's hard to avoid... The rhymes and wordplay just wiggle through the cracks in my wall, and force their way to my tongue. I actually like putting my thoughts to rhyme, but it's not something I should focus on now, with all the things going on... Maybe someday I'll let it become a hobby... Maybe.

I think I'll go walking till I go to work. I kindof want to see the rest of the city while I have free time. I'm getting into the habit of waking up late for work, sometimes just a few hours before my shift starts. I can't really venture out to see the city just before work, and I can't wait till afterwards because it's creepy, not to mention dangerous, to walk around after I get off at four to five AM...

Yep... Going out today to go shopping... Might even find a new apartment! Who knows...