Silhouette Soliloquy

[Sammael (DELETED 4097)]

17 AUG 2013


Where have I been?
What have I been doing?
The many nights seem to be melding together in a cohesive unison of rhythmic fusion, leaving me with but a single blended memory that often seems to become lost in itself...
No. The memories are here. I recall all that has transpired.... but my memories seem to be losing any meaning. I remember them more as a transcription than as an emotionally involved event...
However, even more so...I am not bothered by this. The mere fact that any feeling seems to be fading..slowly at first, but now more and more rapidly, leaves me un-phased. Why should it be upsetting? The vast majority of the conflicts seem to be shrouded and distorted by the emotionally charged speakers that present them. The theater of debate has then lost all logic and is simply a cauldron of hate, discontent, venomous bias, and untethered prejudice. I see no benefit in this.

Over time, society as a whole has been left to tend to it's own order with the Old Code still presenting it's guidance, rules and regulations to the same measure as they had originally been presented. Any logical being could understand that while the exact context may have changed... the concept of it's precept and construction had not. Adjust and adhere. This is too much for some, as it has been made evident. The most trusted of the Tytonidae within their wisdom, just decisiveness and confidence to revise and pass to the masses; they have rewritten the Old Code to become more relevant to the present culture. While a simple thank you, for doing what none had gotten off their *** to pursue, would have sufficed... now there is an ever drifting rift between those who would simply guffaw at the audacity of anyone to lay down what was needed... simply because their opinion was not requested. And then there are those who would rather rant and pass snide commentary and suddenly find a spark of motivation to do the same in their own way to bring credit upon themselves. This seems nothing more than a desperate attempt for these individuals to try and retain some form of relevance, in my opinion. They're too far gone to even realize that they are simply being entertained and their vain attempts at leadership is little too late.

The social idiocy is increasingly amusing, I am finding. Yes. I am young in comparison to the many. Certainly, I have little to no first hand knowledge of many events that have transpired. But I would ask... does it matter? Does my age make me any less relevant while I speak with my actions and they can do little more than act out with their empty words? Does it matter that I was not amongst the first who suffered under the holocaust and became lost within the Fade? I know well enough what the events that have been left to transpire within the present and what is happening now. I pity those acting on the simple-minded half-hearted hopes of the "What If" mindset, hoping that what is occurring will not suddenly become terrifyingly apparent and ruin their comforting delusion. I care not who or what I have been. I care not where I may end in this eternity that has been placed before me. There is only the reality before me. I am what I am... and I am proud of this. I am a Delacroix, childe to Amaranthia and hers in all that I am for time immortal. I am an owl of the Tytonidae, protector of the Masquerade and defender of the society of our kind. I know well the dangers that those such as the Paladins and Blood Thieves present. I know that there are rules to be abided, honored and followed... and that if I break these laws, then I will become a victim of my own brethren and rightfully so.

Much has faded... but I know this...