Under lock and key

[Alexis Gainsborough (DELETED 4582)]

Well it looks like I find myself with another one of these stupid books. Why do I bother writing out all of this stuff... I guess it does help at least a bit. Maybe it will help me clear my mind and sort my thoughts.

Its so strange to think I might actually have a family but then again I haven't been around long enough to figure out what they might want from me, everything always comes at a price right. It is kind of strange that mom even bothered to turn me and help me out like she did. Mom really am I going to start calling her that. Ah well hopefully I won't have to file this one under D.N.A. in my phones. I will have to keep an eye on her though she seems to keep getting me out of a tight spot and I know she will have a favor to call in eventually. I've always managed by myself well enough but it is kind of nice to have her around sometimes. I don't know I really just hope I don't start feeling like I owe her one, I really all she really did for me was set me up in this place... damn it. I really need to stop thinking about all of this so much.

I guess I have a few other siblings, this should be interesting. I just hope none of them are like my real sister or I am going to have to put her in her place. I am not going to put up with all the ******** again. I told myself this time would be different and I mean it I really do. I have to be different this time...

Mason is what I would call a brother now I think. The only one of my 'siblings' I have actually met. He seems like a good kid but I haven't really figured him out yet. He has this look in his eyes that is just so sweet kind of like a puppy. He kind of reminds me of a puppy in a few ways... I wonder what he would say if I told him that. I might just have to try that some time. Something about him tells me he can be dangerous as well so I will have to keep an eye on him. Its just this look in his eyes sometimes, I feel like he is hiding something from me. He likes to be around a lot to. I feel like he is keeping tabs on me, maybe this is what a normal brother is suppose to do?

You know thinking about it its kind of strange that mom didn't get mad at me when I told her that I had been um... cleaning up the city a bit. She also didn't get mad at me when I told her I found a few dvd players just laying around. I don't really know what to think about that. I guess right now I don't really have to be doing this but its always nice to have a few extra bucks in my pocket, I think I would rather starve then go back to eating out of the trash again. I guess now I am feeding off of trash instead, Kinda nice to be on this side of the food chain.

It looks like no one has been in this place for a few months... maybe longer. There are a few footsteps in the layer of dust but those are covered in a thiner layer of dust so I think this little book should be safe tucked away behind this desk. I have always wondered what happened to a warehouse when no one uses it anymore. Does anyone have claim to these boxes? I think I will put this down for now. Time for a little sleep the sun will be up soon enough. I wonder what I did with that pack of cigarettes I lifted.

[Alexis Gainsborough (DELETED 4582)]

Well today starts off as a rough day ****. So I wonder around and what do I find, its a bunch of undead monsters, Lucky for me I have gotten a little stronger. So I kill a few of these guys and pick up a few interesting things. This ritual knife gives me the creeps but I think I am going to hang onto it for now. Anyway.... I kill a few more and then turn a corner what do I see a cop. I think well I have not done anything to bad in a while so I figure I can walk past them but no, they yell out stop and shoot at me. Really she freaking shot at me I didn't even do anything, what the hell. I manage to get away and not get shot this time. Damn that stung like a ***** last time. I get to some cover and wait for her to leave. Part of me really just wanted to shoot back but Mom did say I need to be good. Uh maybe this being a vampire thing is starting to get to my head. I am just so pissed off right now.

Focus Alex keep getting off track. They walk past me and vanish. I pull out my phone and take a quick look at my name get into the right places and such and low and behold my names not on any lists. No ones got a penny on my name. I have no idea whats going on, maybe she was just scared of the dark. Do I look like a monster or something? DO they just know I am different now. How?

[Alexis Gainsborough (DELETED 4582)]

Whats wrong with me? Sometimes I think I am stupid, decided to go back home like this. I just wanted to have a quick visit with someone who actually gives a **** about me. I Shouldn't have gone back. Family always does this kind of thing to me I Should have learned long ago. Shes always been there for me, every time I needed her so I had to go back now right? Thats how it works right? Well at least I managed to get away from there before any real damage happened. I learned what I needed to as well. Asshole got what was coming to him at least. I need to stop thinking of **** like that though. Thats not me anymore. I made my choices and I made up my mind... so why is part of me falling apart at all of this. Shes not a part of my life anymore, none of them are. None of them deserve to be anyway. There is nothing I can do anyway, no one can anymore. The ferrymen is coming for her and she has had her toll ready since before I was born. I need to learn to let go...