Why do I even have this thing? [Killian's PRIVATE Journal]
Posted: 18 Jul 2013, 05:22
[Private means private. None of this may be used IC without permission.]
Why do I even own you? I never really use you for anything. I don't really record my thoughts, but maybe U should actually start to. Might keep me from being overwhelmed, with everything that's going on.
Where do I start?
Fifth Column. I've recently been 'elected' leader. I say it that way because no one else seemed to have wanted the position. But I'm comfortable with it. The group had lacked direction, but now I can make sure things move along nicely.
Robert seems to not want to shut the hell up about stupid ****, however. That's a problem that will be hard to solve.
Ivy is working her *** off, finding out what she can about The Order. She said she's going to start giving me reports on them. What they want, why the seem to want us dead, things of that nature. I'm worried that she's being used and will end up dead. I don't want to keep dealing with dead group members. It's not good for morale, and puts a wrench in the gears of progress.
Still no clue on how to further expose Crow as the Fae that he is. But we will find a way.
~
Now, the childer... I've been siring a bit more often than most over the last month. Some people might even consider it to be reckless. Four new fledglings in a month, sired by one of the most hated people in Harper Rock? Someone has to be paying attention and getting worried about it. Especially about Bernard, and that little Paradox that won't tell me his real name. They'll both be very useful. A hacker that asked to be turned, and a Killer that's grateful for having not ended up completely dead. Plus the pickpocket, Charlotte.. She's pretty good at what she does, but not quite good enough for me to have not noticed.
Then there's the other one, who hasn't said a word to me.. I'm not even sure what happened that caused him to become one of my childer. Probably botched a feeding somehow. But, if he decides to never speak with me, then that's fine. He'll be the one missing out.
~
And, saving the most important for last.
Alyss. My wife. We're nearing our one year anniversary of the day we took off to Vegas and became legally married by human laws.
But I want more. I want for the two of us to be bound as companions with that ritual. But god damn, those rings are expensive. I can get ahold of the other stuff easily enough, though. But the biggest problem, is finding someone that will perform the ritual for us.. So many people dislike me because of my beliefs. I'm not sure what bridges I've burned, and which are still open to me. Plus, I don't even know who the hell can do that ritual, other than what I've heard about Zodiac's ability to do it.
Of course, with her being former Tytonidae, I have no idea if she would even consider a conversation with me, let alone her actually doing something to assist me.
~
That's all I have for now, DiaryJournalLedgerThing.
-- Killian
7/18/2013
Journal. Diary. Ledger. Whatever the hell you are.Why do I even own you? I never really use you for anything. I don't really record my thoughts, but maybe U should actually start to. Might keep me from being overwhelmed, with everything that's going on.
Where do I start?
Fifth Column. I've recently been 'elected' leader. I say it that way because no one else seemed to have wanted the position. But I'm comfortable with it. The group had lacked direction, but now I can make sure things move along nicely.
Robert seems to not want to shut the hell up about stupid ****, however. That's a problem that will be hard to solve.
Ivy is working her *** off, finding out what she can about The Order. She said she's going to start giving me reports on them. What they want, why the seem to want us dead, things of that nature. I'm worried that she's being used and will end up dead. I don't want to keep dealing with dead group members. It's not good for morale, and puts a wrench in the gears of progress.
Still no clue on how to further expose Crow as the Fae that he is. But we will find a way.
~
Now, the childer... I've been siring a bit more often than most over the last month. Some people might even consider it to be reckless. Four new fledglings in a month, sired by one of the most hated people in Harper Rock? Someone has to be paying attention and getting worried about it. Especially about Bernard, and that little Paradox that won't tell me his real name. They'll both be very useful. A hacker that asked to be turned, and a Killer that's grateful for having not ended up completely dead. Plus the pickpocket, Charlotte.. She's pretty good at what she does, but not quite good enough for me to have not noticed.
Then there's the other one, who hasn't said a word to me.. I'm not even sure what happened that caused him to become one of my childer. Probably botched a feeding somehow. But, if he decides to never speak with me, then that's fine. He'll be the one missing out.
~
And, saving the most important for last.
Alyss. My wife. We're nearing our one year anniversary of the day we took off to Vegas and became legally married by human laws.
But I want more. I want for the two of us to be bound as companions with that ritual. But god damn, those rings are expensive. I can get ahold of the other stuff easily enough, though. But the biggest problem, is finding someone that will perform the ritual for us.. So many people dislike me because of my beliefs. I'm not sure what bridges I've burned, and which are still open to me. Plus, I don't even know who the hell can do that ritual, other than what I've heard about Zodiac's ability to do it.
Of course, with her being former Tytonidae, I have no idea if she would even consider a conversation with me, let alone her actually doing something to assist me.
~
That's all I have for now, DiaryJournalLedgerThing.
-- Killian