Chasing Butterflies

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I am so glad I've finally found time to put pen to paper and reflect on all that has happened in the past month and a half. My life has changed in ways I could never have imagined, or believed for that matter.

It had been an ordinary day: Go to work, go to the studio, go to the graveyard to chart stars. Except that last thing, I never did quite finish. Before I'd even made it to my favorite spot I was approached by a woman who I now know as Mischa, my sire. I died in the graveyard that night, then was awakened in the same. I am alive...but not in the way I was before.

Vampire.

I'm still struggling to identify myself by this word. If it weren't for the facts that I no longer eat or drink food, I hunt creatures, and have supernatural abilities, I think I could forget. I've tried to remain as close to my life as a human as I possibly can.

After that night I moved in with Mischa and her fiancee, Oria. They have been so kind to me, giving me more than I need. It's been nice to have people like parents again, though it forces me to think of my own, and the night I found them soaked in blood, surrounded by even more. It's painful, but I'm making it through...

A week after being "turned" as they say, I met a man named Tristan Collier. He is...simply amazing. I believe everything happens for a reason, though sometimes the reason isn't immediately clear. When Cris and I broke up I was devastated. It was a mutual parting, so there was no real unfinished business but...he was all I'd known for 5 years and I wondered if the love of my life had slipped past me. I was so afraid to trust again, to give myself again...but Tristan broke me down. It's only been a month and we haven't really spoken about "what we are" but I truly am content. I know he cares about me and I care about him, and it's enough. I'm in no rush and have more time than I need ahead of me. I hope only good things continue to happen for us. He bought me a gorgeous dress 2 days ago, he said for meeting his sire. I am so nervous, yet excited!

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How could I forget to mention that my wonderful Mischa blessed me with an apartment not long ago! I've never received such a large gift. Then again, it's not the sort of thing I'd ever ask for, with it being so expensive.

It has taken me quite awhile, but I think I'm finally going to submit my order to the interior designer I've chosen, sometime tonight. I fear she'll think I'm a little intense...but I like things a certain way and believe it'll be easier for us both if I am as specific as I can possibly. It's going to be wonderful having a place to call my own. I know M and O would never ask me to leave their place, but I did sometimes feel intrusive, and especially so when Tristan would visit. I can't wait to see everything on paper come to life!

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I am over the moon! It's been a few days since I last saw Tristan, and I'm so glad we finally got the chance tonight. It it almost unbelievable how much I miss him when he's away. Our time together was simply perfect. I'm a very happy Kitten-as he calls me- tonight!

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It's been awhile, I know. I've just been so busy...with a lot of something or a bunch of nothings, I can't decide. I recently dealt with inspired fae affecting the wolves around here. I felt horrible for the blood on my hands from slaying a number of them, but I had to see the positive side- the safety of those humans who can't defend themselves and are unaware, and those I care most about. Which brings me to Tristan. It's a little rough for us right now. We are perfectly fine, but finding time to spend with one another is difficult at present. We both have obligations that cause schedule conflicts. But I trust that all with be right soon and we will have plenty of time together. We did steal a few moments today at the cafe however. It was great, of course, and we exchanged plants and flowers.

I haven't been home to see Mischa and Oria in a spell. I've been so busy collecting, time has run away from me. I think I'll drop by today and let them know I still think of them often.

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Vegetarian.

There were several times throughout my human life I gave it a try, and I'm back at it again, though it's meaning now is so different...

Since my turning I've not felt fully balanced. I've come close, but something is holding me back. Feeding from humans I've never enjoyed. It's quite easy for me to do, but it always leaves me with feelings of guilt, and filth. So rabbits and poultry it is. Rodents if I'm desperate. Hopefully the transition isn't too painful.

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I know it's been awhile but life took a hold on me. That and I misplaced you for quite some time in all the mess of reorganizing!

I met Morghan yesterday evening, Tristan's sire. She was so lovely, everything I imagined a woman behind a man like him would be. It felt good to be with him and to be introduced as his. I find t somewhat hard to believe he's been in my life for over 4 months already. I honestly can't wait to see what's in store for us.

The tree is up with a few presents beneath so it's beginning to feel like Christmas for me. It's odd to realize I won't be in Kentucky for the Holiday, but I'll be sure to send a card and a ring on the phone.

I need to get going on my shopping list! 4 presents won't take long...will it? I guess we'll be finding out!