I'm not who you think I am... ~Journal~

[Kira]

April 22nd, 2012

There is still something seriously wrong with Dru. She couldn't get up to the second floor so I had fix that but while she waited, she decided to keep chatting in my head about Jarrett. Damn annoying...though it was an interesting poem thing.
Let's see if I can remember it all.

'Jarrett has eyes so deep its like they are sucking up your soul
It makes you weak in the knees. When he talks it freezes your blood to a boil.
Yeah my blood is dead now but it pumps like it was alive. Washing over me is Jarretts voice like waves.
Making my heart drum like a drummer boy. He is superman and he only sees me as supergirl.
When I could be his lois lane.' By Drusilla

It's kind of sweet...in a creepy stalkerish way I suppose. I guess she'll always have an obsession with him.

Then later David wanted to see if he got any better with his gun. He sucks with a moving target. Thought cops were suppose to be better then that. I got bored waiting on him to land a hit, shot him with my paintball. He did get my leg, and stomach and then I got distracted and he shot me in the back. But I got his eye and cut up his arm. Jarrett isn't going to be happy...

[Kira]

April 23rd, 2012

Ending of the dream...

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"Robert, you have been coming up with one reason after another. What are your motives?" Kira asked as she turned a dagger over in her hands as the carriage moved onto another town.

Robert looked over at her hurt. "What ever do you mean, mo pheata?" he replied.

Kira glared at him. "I am not your pet." she said, holding the blade end of the dagger as if she was going to throw it at him.

Robert just smiled and put his hands up. "Don't damage the carriage." he said.

"Who says I'm going to hit just off my mark?" Kira replied with a grin.

"Now that isn't nice.." Robert replied but the carriage stopped. "Seems we are here."

"And where would that be?" Kira asked as she put the weapon back at her side and looked out the window. "Whose house is this?"

"Èze and...ours.." Robert said simply before getting out of the carriage.

Kira blinked before quickly getting to her feet and followed him out of the carriage. She hadn't expect him to be right there with his hand to her. She grabbed his hand and jumped to the ground. "What do you mean ours?" she asked, poking him in the chest with her index finger as she looked up at him.

Robert grinned as he rubbed his chest. "Just as I said." he replied before heading up to the house.

"Stop dancing around the question. What is the meaning of this?" Kira growled at him, chasing after him.

"Tell me Kira. What exactly did you plan on doing now that you have a quite a bit of wealth to live off on?" Robert asked as he opened the door and headed inside.

Kira stopped at the doorway and stared at him. "I don't know." she replied. "Just something...mean I'd think of something...as I travel...I guess." she said. She never thought about what exactly she wanted to do with her life.

Robert smiled, "See, so isn't this as good as place as any." he said. "Now come in and look around."

"I don't understand.." Kira said as she went inside. "You should be wanting to get rid of me the first chance you got.."

"Why is it such a problem with me wanting to keep you around?" Robert said as he moved a chair around in what seemed to be the living room.

"What for..?" Kira muttered as she looked around. "Isn't it improper to be living together?"

Robert sighed but smiled. "It will be alright." he said, dancing around her first question.

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"For someone who said it was improper to be living together, you sure have made yourself at home." Robert said, eyeing her as she was sprawled out on the sofa.

"You shouldn't be looking at me like that.." Kira replied simply as she focused on the book she was reading, or at least trying to. They weren't too keen on women education unless you were of money but she was trying to improve on it, it was at least something to do. The town was awful boring.

"Then maybe you shouldn't dress like that.." Robert muttered as he pretended to fix some flowers on the table.

"Just wearing what my people used to wear long ago. As far as those dresses are concerned, the light weight ones are okay but those thick heavy ones are just awful. Rather put them in the fireplace." Kira said before putting the book down. "I wish you had picked a town with more crime. There's not much to do here."

"That is the point.." Robert replied simply.

"For you maybe. It just makes me restless. I need more to do." Kira said.

He tried to make it more entertaining for her, but fencing wasn't exactly her kind of fighting.

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Kira spent her time in the woods, being with nature, it was relaxing to a point. Otherwise she was running in the woods to try to get rid of the restless feeling she had. During the full moons, she just danced. Hoping that the Goddess would hear her. She needed to be guided.

She heard movement behind her. She turned and looked at Robert.

"Sorry, I know this is your time. I'm just curious." Robert said. The man tried to understand.

"You're lucky I wasn't running around naked." Kira said, not that she could see him minding any.

"Is...that a normal thing?" he asked.

Kira shrugged. "It depends on what you want to do I suppose. I personally would never go around naked." she said, "Would really have to be out in the middle of no where to really consider it."

Robert didn't say anything but walked off back to the house. Kira did the same moments later.

That night Kira had a dream that troubled her. She sat up in bed, taking in a deep breath before letting it out. She would take it as the sign she needed, or maybe it was just an excuse. She packed her things was prepared to leave that night. She didn't want to say goodbye to him, she just wanted to leave. Why would it be that simply?

"Where are you going?" Robert asked, coming from the living room and into the hall leading to the front door.

Kira froze before slowly turning to look at him. "Anywhere but here. I think something might happen if I stay any longer." she replied. "You should find someone else to live in this house." It was the first time she saw what seemed to be anger cross his face. She turned back to the door, moving towards it. She heard his footsteps after her, felt the tight grip on her shoulder as he spun her around and shoved her against the door. She was caught off guard by his actions, he had never been much of a fighter or violent in any way.

"You were going to leave without saying anything?" Robert asked. "What must I do to make you understand that I want you stay."

"I thought it would be better this way.." Kira replied, "Why do you want me to stay? I don't understand. Someone else would provide much better companionship then I."

"But you are the one I want...for companionship." Robert said softly. "I know you never thought much on the subject of love but I wish you would allow me the chance to show you how to care. I wish you could feel what I feel."

Kira stared at him. "What do you feel?" she asked.

"Love.."

"For me..?"

Robert sighed. "No for Peter the carriage driver." he said, "Of course you."
"I have tried to treat as a lady, and give you the time to realize what was going on. I'm sorry to have gotten rough with you. I can't stand to see you go." he said.

Kira looked away. She always had that thought in the back of her mind, but she couldn't understand, why her. "I will bring you nothing but trouble. It will end badly." she said.

"Can you at least give me a chance?" Robert asked, "After all of this, don't I at least get that?"

Kira looked at him. He was by far the best man that had showed any interest in her. The rest even though they were an adult, they were still immature, going after every pretty little thing they saw which seemed to be most men in general. But not Robert, in fact she couldn't remember him looking at any females at all. If it wasn't for the fact she did notice how he looked at her at times, his comment about being in love with the carriage driver may not have been so far off. "I'm sorry.." she said. "I don't think it is a good idea."

It took some convincing, but she stayed. Robert simply saying it was a dream and to give them a chance. Kira tried to be open minded about it, as much as she didn't mind his company, she wasn't sure if being with anyone was wise to do.

By time she was comfortable with the idea, it was too late. Peter, who Robert still paid him even though he wasn't really needed, came rushing in. The man had taken up to living in town. He ran into the living room where Kira had taken up to resting her head on Robert as they went through a book's meaning.

"Whoa Peter. What's wrong?" Robert asked.

"Mob..." Peter said, "They are accusing Lady Kira as having dealings with the devil." he added, through trying to catch his breath.

Both Kira and Robert were on their feet.

"What.." Robert said.

"I don't even believe in the devil. Can't have dealings with someone you don't believe in." Kira said upset.

"They don't care. There's no trail. They just going to kill you. There's too much against you." Peter said, "You two got to go."

Robert took Kira's hand and ran from the house. Seeing the mob using the only road that came by and they were close enough to see them, he went straight for the woods. They ran without saying anything, only hearing the shouts of the mob.

Kira's dress got caught on the branches on the ground, having to stop to pull it free, simply ripping it. "I told you dresses bad." she said. "Robert, you need to leave me. Repent, tell them I put a spell on you, whatever you have to say." How she was had done her in. Lack of emotion, dreading the sun. She didn't see anything evil about it all. Though the biggest thing was not going to their Church, she was sure. Spending her time out in the woods, dancing under the moonlight. Why was it so wrong to live in the old ways? Why couldn't people just believe what they wanted to believe in, it wasn't harming anyone.

"I can't do that." Robert replied, pulling her along. The trees ended but so did the land. There was a cliff that went straight down to the ocean. "No, this can't be. I swore this was the way towards the main road."

He kept her behind him as there was no point of trying to run from the mob now, there were there.

"Step aside!"

"Never!" Robert replied.

"He's too far under or he works for the devil to. Kill them both!" a moment later an arrow came from the mob, striking Robert's chest. He fell to his knees, before falling backwards, grasping at the arrow.

"I'm sorry...we...should have moved.." Robert said softly as Kira was at his side.

Kira stared at the arrow before looking at his face. She reached up at her face, feeling for the first time what she assumed were tears. "I...told you I bring nothing but trouble.." she said, she could not feel him there no more. "I'm sorry.." she said, leaning down, kissing his forehead.

She got to her feet, walking backwards towards the cliff. "The only ones of the devil as you so put it, is you!" Kira said, "I'd kill you all if I didn't think it would displease him. I leave by my own terms.." she added as her feet balanced on the edge. She then leaned back, falling backwards, disappearing from sight.

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Needless to say, that's when I woke up. At least I know that dream is done.

[Kira]

April 25th, 2012

Spent some time at the Met, Lexy and her Water-balloon Launcher. She wore white just so my paint balls would show up better. She dodged better than David though, which is kind of odd. Mean, he's a cop. He should be used to dodging.
Then something strange happened. I've heard of people being drained by this one wraith. Pikachu from some anime. Mean I had to look it up to know what they were talking about. Kind of cute for a mouse that can fry you. Hmm...well I can see the entertainment value on that one. Anyway, it finally got me. I've joined those who have been touched by the Pikachu. Though it makes me wonder if I ever got a wraith, what would it be.

Later on after I returned home, Puppet came to me with a message. Neither one of us was expecting that. I don't rightly remember having Puppet attack him during that whole 'Oh your wraith took my mojo, keep it on a leash. Even though a summoned spirit would fix it all.' ordeal with Mama and Roho. But since he's friends with the one who I did have Puppet attack, I would assume his name was passed around. I know when I gave him his name that it was backwards. Should have referred to him as Dave or Puppet, keeping Kui Lei to myself and those I trust with it. Though I didn't think I'd ever have him attack anyone. His uses have only been to gain money and for me to be able to feed on, or others close to me.

I told him I was sorry for putting him in danger. It may seem like I'm going to kill him at times but I plan on keeping him around as long as I can. He can be annoying at times but he's been there for me, even if he kind has to, to a point.

Giving him a daybed at the house was getting to his head, so was my concern for him.

So to keep up with appearances, I asked him about his brothers. I heard that they well, they look alike. Might make a good replacement if something where to happen to him. Should have seen the look on his face. It was priceless. He walked off to sit with Mshangao.

[Kira]

April 27th, 2012

How to train your fadebeast

• Step 1. Keep as much distance between you and it. Having a thrall to hide behind isn't a bad idea either.
• Step 2. LOTS of meat for 'treats'.
• Step 3. Keep your eyes on it. Watch for any movement that might mean it is coming for you. In other words, get to know its body language.
• Step 4. Be faster then it if you need to run. Make note of the nearest exit.

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Alright, so it started out with me training Tucker. The basic dog stuff, sit, stay, roll over. He does what he is told, gets a treat, easy enough. However Kipingu, I don't know. Maybe it wanted food or didn't like the puppy getting all the attention. It kept inching closer and closer, scared Tucker off who hid under the bed. It repeated the damn tricks which is so not cute when you have something that big rolling on your floor. But to be far, it got the same treats. Didn't want it attacking me if I tried to leave to get the meat that is set aside for them. I can see it thinking '*****, where's my treat? I can do the same **** that furry thing can.' Then bites my arm off or something. Can't be that tasty though, it would turn to ash.

So later on, I took them all outside, minus the fadebeast...

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Kira sat on the front step, throwing a ball out for Tucker to go chase and bring back. Sof had trotted off somewhere. The cat soon returned with a bird in her mouth. She stopped in front of Kira and set it in front of her, before looking up at Kiraa, looking all proud.

"Is that for me?" Kira asked, and Sof just stared at her, dipping her head a moment and meowed. "Aw thank you, just what I wanted.." she said.

Sof purred and climbed up on Kira's shoulder, or at least tried to. "You're a little big to get up there.." Kira said which made Sof growl at her softly. Kira wasn't sure if the cat was growling because she may have called the cat fat which really shouldn't be an issue. Did it really understand that and why would it be bothered by body image...well suppose an unfit cat would be a problem. Sof instead forced herself between Kira's arm and leg, settled down on her lap.

Kira heard a crash from inside the house but before she could turn to look, Tucker had taken off and hid behind a tree and soon enough another crash as the front door was taken off as Kipingu went through the door and ran out away from them.

"Damn it! Really!?" she hissed. She got up, looking at the broken door. She expected the door breaking from Mshangao. "That does it. I'm replacing it with a steel door." After a moment, her mind settled on the fact that the fadebeast was now loose among the people. She wasn't too sure about going out and trying to get it back. She didn't think Mama would be upset, that one was mostly hers, the other two were Mama's.

"Tuck, come here. Going back inside." Kira said as she took Sof back inside as well. The pup came out and ran straight upstairs. Kira took out her cell phone, scrolling through the names. The damn hardware store was getting too much of her money because of these fadebeasts, not to say she was still not completely done modeling the two houses she was working on.

She lowered the phone. Was a steel door even going to make a difference? She could see the hinges giving out, or the wood in the door frame. She was going to have to think more on how to make this house fadebeast proof.

Kira heard the pat pat of the fadebeasts feet on the floor behind her. She turned towards it. It had something in its mouth and it wasn't until it dropped it on the floor, did she find out what it was. It was a whole arm. She stared at the arm then at the fadebeast in disbelief. "****.." was all she said at first. "Please tell me that was a killer's arm and not a human's.." she said but the beasts decided it had done a good thing, just like the cat had done and went upstairs again.

She was left with some random arm on the floor, which she wasn't too sure what to do with it. She suppose Fedha could eat it.

Moments later Puppet stepped up to the doorway, leaning against the door frame. He was breathing heavily and there was something off about him. One of his jacket sleeves seemed awfully empty. "Really...should keep an eye on that thing.." he said and slumped to the floor.

"Puppet?" Kira said, frozen for a moment before moving to his side. She had went straight for his arm, to see how bad it was only to find that his arm was still intact, just hidden under the jacket. Her face darkened. "Puppet..." she growled.

Puppet burst out laughing. "I'm sorry! I couldn't help it. I couldn't resist." he said. "I think it is a killer arm...no human would say 'Damn it! My arm!' the way that one did. It was just too good of a setup."

"I hope your prank was worth it.." Kira said, grabbing the back of his jacket and shirt and dragged him off towards the bathroom/spa area. "I'm going to tie you to the punching bag.."

"Huh? Hey wait! Aw come on! Don't hurt me!" Puppet said, struggling to get free. "Help!"

"No one is home to hear you scream, Mo Puipéad." Kira said with a grin, not that he could see it but he struggled more, not liking the tone of her voice.

OOC: *Mo Puipéad = My Puppet

[Kira]

May 9th 2012 (OOC Note: Threads not done but there is so much going on that I need to write for other days lol

http://www.mooncalfstudios.com/pathofth ... =14&t=7271

http://www.mooncalfstudios.com/pathofth ... =14&t=7295

So saving this for those threads.

)

[Kira]

May 16th, 2012

Something is wrong with me. I thought these pesky emotions would go away once my heart healed...its not as intense but...I'm still not me. I haven't heard the voice of Warrior, which I'm going to view as a good thing. Which might explain why I no longer feel the need to fight. It is just...weird. I wonder how long this will last. I want to be me again.

May 24/26th, 2012

David and I seem to be having a seduction war going on. Now the last time he had seduced me, it had no effect on me other then I couldn't hurt him. Now...because of whatever is going on with me, it did effect me. Though I don't get as crazy as David does.

His love letter to me for an example. I seduced him and ran off. I've learned not to stick around.
Subject: My Beloved
Message:
How I love you like the bee loves the rose. My heart beating to the sound of your pistol. Come to me my
beautiful queen and let us make fadebabies. Love the man whose heart you own, David

During my time talking with Warrior before she was silence, I had found out my name Kira has many meanings. Dark Lady, or Lady, Beam of Light (funny), Glittery, strong woman, ruler/leader of the people. So to be called queen just kind of made me remember what she said. Granted those are meanings of it around the world.

I...haven't told anyone of my conversation with her however. The truth behind it all, my other name. I rather keep it to myself for now, not that many would care to know more about me.

David had managed to seduce me and then he told those at the met that we were getting hitched. And of course now he has announced such on the family board. Worst part is that some believed him, well Mama says we need to make up our mind on it. I said easy, we're not getting married. Why would anyone think that or believe him.

(OOC: This is prior to his second seduction which just happened...shall have an entry after she is no longer under his spell...o_O )

[Kira]

May 27th, 2012

I really wish I would return to my normal self. Or at least let Warrior take over for awhile. David would be so hurting. Yes, he was spreading around that he and I were going to get married. Something that would never happen as long as I wasn't under his spell. So of course he seduces me again and I come to my senses wearing a ring.

Partnership of torment for all time? I know the marriages around here are pretty pointless. People just go "Oh we're married." and that's all it takes. Same when it comes to dissolving the marriage. This is more of a domestic partnership of torment...yeah sounds strange. This would be really hard to explain if anyone was ever seriously interested in me. Laughable I know.

At least I know who is going to be my test dummy for my new weapon, once I have saved enough for it. And I soo hope I'm back to normal by then. I'm sure my hits would work better, the fight just isn't in me right now.

[Kira]

June 5th, 2012

Been a strange day, er night. Dru is not Dru no more, taken over by a different Dru. Confused yet? A spirit of a woman named Drusilla took over the body of my sister Drusilla. Dru 1 went to some kind of land of the telepaths...so then the second one took over. I ran into her while heading to the Met then David showed up. He had one of Jarrett's shirts, figures he would help the other Dru with her stalking.

It is getting so very annoying the way he keeps telling everyone that we are hitched, that I'm his sorta kinda of wife. Don't know how to stop that from spreading around.

(Thread still going on)

June 10th, 2012

So when I called Jarrett to see if he wanted to hang out with Lexy and I, all I heard was a meow. I just knew something was and if it was what I thought it was, I just had to see for myself. Sure enough, there's this cat that looks like my own but a different color and male running away from Noir, Jarrett's dog. So I cat napped the cat and took it back to Lexy and I's place. I had sent her a mind message, thinking she was out but no...she was home and ended up coming out in a robe. She thought the cat was for her, cuddled it way too much...man I bet he was blushing, just can't tell on a cat.

(Thread still going)

June 16th, 2012

Another interesting night. Met this guy named Anemoi, yeah the Greek Wind gods. One has to wonder if someone was born with such a name. Anyway, had just sat down and started to talk to me. He knew I was trying to avoid other people and I had ended up dancing with him. Though as soon as I fled because of the closeness, he had followed me out. Come to find out, the gangsters had hired him to kill me. And here I am, behaving myself because I just don't have that drive to fight at the moment and they still want me dead.

I didn't kill him, just made him freeze so I could get away. Though...I kissed him on the cheek. Warrior is still yelling at me for that, I'm not sure why I did it. Though I wonder if this shall be a game of cat and mouse...

[Kira]

June 21st, 2012 (Obviously done as a joint thing between me and Anemoi)

Conversations with an assassin

Unknown Number: Is this Kira?

Kira: Who is this?

Unknown Number: You have a habit of calling me Windy..

Kira: How did you get my number?

Windy: I have my ways. Was that girl you replied to a friend of yours? She sure seems to know the meaning of my name as well, so just wondering.

Kira: Like I'm going to tell you who my friends are. You are trying to kill me after all. And surely I'm not the only one who knows different gods.

Windy: True on all accounts. The people on there are weird though. That one girl talking about spirit ***.

Kira: Maybe she's high on something. Or talking about an outer body experience.

Windy: Maybe...but I keep going over that night we met over and over. There was something very odd about it. And put that with some of the other things I've seen around town. This town is very weird.

Kira: Well you could just leave now.

Windy: Why? I got a reason to stay. And that would be you.

Kira: Aw how sweet. Going to try and kill me again? Your luck won't be any better.

Windy: I don't give up.

Kira: Is this a throw away phone? Or are you keeping it for awhile?

Windy: Going to be keeping it for now, why?

Kira: Might as well give you your own ring tone, that's why.

Windy: Now I feel so special.

Kira: You should.

Windy: I need to go but we'll talk later.

Contact Added, Ringtone set to 'Beautiful Killer' by Madonna

[Kira]

July 1st, 2012

{Saved for the ball}

July 4th, 2012

The first and today made me think of the fact that I'm still unsure of where I truly come from. I woke up in New York but my roots are obviously further away then that. At least, in terms of my first life. But what of this one? Where was I born? If I was born. Warrior has no answers on that. Suppose it really doesn't matter. Just I can't help but dwell on what I don't know still.

July 21st, 2012

David takes this fake marriage far too seriously. Two times so far he has accused me of cheating on him. The first one, I don't even know besides figuring out why he hated David. I still don't know why but think its settled at least.

And of course the second one is the man who is trying to kill me. I don't know how a kiss on the hand really equals cheating or a real kiss. IF I was really with someone, I would never cheat.

July 23rd, 2012

I know Dru was kind of down on the fact that she had been unable to kill anything. David found her a really nice sword, then he tried to give me some rusty daggers. I told him I was insulted by the 'gifts' but after some research, they are not that bad. Not that I would tell him that.
I need some space for a Collection of Weapons and Museum. The first dagger isn't much to look at but it is old. The other one, after it was cleaned up, it looks pretty nice.

Anyway, after some training with Dru and her new weapon, she is able to kill things.