.IT'S MY LIFE.

[Aura]

Dear ___________,

It's a quiet night, the nights I've loved for so long and have craved for months. A night of peace, a night of quiet, and a night of movies.

I've collected my pets that have been living apart for some time and have brought them to my secret place. My secret place is small, but very cozy. Only 4 people know about it but it's home. A kitchen for me to cook and a bed for my to sleep. A fire place to keep warm and a couch to watch movies. My dog Jasper is here, my cat Storm, My snake Blanc, and my little kitten Zandra gave me named Tank. We're all here, one big happy family back together and free.

I have a few movies lined up for tonight, I'm rather excited about catching up on some titles:

The Help.
A little bit Zombie.
Tower Heist.
Seven Psychopaths.
Brave.
21 Jump Street.
Ted.
Silver Lining.
And...
Game of Thrones - a TV show but a great one at that.

Lately my chest has been hurting, a sadness has washed over me. I laugh, I sing, hell I've even been drawing lately. I haven't painted or drawn in such a long time, nearly a year I believe. A positive sign maybe... I don't know. My muse is somewhat back but my emotions are not matching.

Recently I've given up attempting to have conversations with people. The less I try the less disappointed I am when they don't answer. That, or they always have an excuse to be busy. I've done my part in trying, I know I've put in the effort it's their turn now; if they need me they'll find some way to contact me but until then my efforts will be nonexistent. I will no longer be hurt by this.

I am tired of being myself in front of people. I am to easily judged by people who don't know me. There is no point is even attempting to meet new people when before they even get a chance to see you their opinion is morphed and mutilated. They don't see me. They don't see the person I am, nor do they hear the tone of my voice. They assume my tone, they assume... everything. If only they knew me. If only they saw my shy side, my soft side. If only they knew my true emotions, my feelings. I wonder if they'd notice my eyes and how they no longer sparkling the same honey hue they once did.

Alas, that's all I can do. I can only wonder, and hope that someday they'll see me. Maybe one day...

A.

[Aura]

Dear D,

Uhm... Right now i'm debating about life and death. I want to get the bakery and steak house running before I leave so Conner has something to do... I suppose I have some work a head of me for that but we'll see how the day goes and where it takes us.

I have to hire new hires for the cupcake shop, make a job board, dates and times... Possibly create new menu items. I'm considering holding a competition for getting an item named after them if they can create a good product to sell... It might be worth at least trying, I mean everyone was human once right... They must have a favorite baked good, cake or pastry...

Money cash prize - Named item dedicated to the creator and 6 dozen free cupcakes to send to anyone of their choice... Might be good... We'll work out the kinks

Now for the steak house I'm waiting on the floor work to get done. I'm thinking for the menu since it was a gift to honor my husbands childhood and past we do old fashioned steak, ribs, chicken, good southern BBQ, homemade sauces, fresh cut fries, sea salted and sweet potato... Grilled veggies, corn on the cob, hell it's all making me really hungry... Good ol'beers too... peanuts maybe. Hell i'm just tossing around idea's but it's a start.

Anyways, I have lots to do and handle once we get everything sorted I'll debating upon asking someone one final request or not... Murr.

A.

[Aura]

Dear D.

Contest posted. I can only hope people get involved and get creative. We'll see, I'm crossing my fingers.

A.

[Aura]

Dear D,

Walking the dogs was fun today, we went for a run in the woods since I got work some of the beachs were not as safe as they once were.

My husband. Amazing. He's making the feeling of wanting to vanish... Vanish from within me. I love my adopted childe, Lions. He's a smart ***, and a corny perv too. Can you believe he gave me a fish named Pussy. Now if I want him to feed the fish I'd actually have to say, "Go feed the pussy." But that's just funny so I'm amused.

The menu is coming along great for the steak house and I can't wait for it to be finished so I can show Stefano. I hope he likes the finish product, I created it for him after all. Plus I want to introduce Lions to Stefano, I hope they get along... HOPE they get along... They better or I'll give them both a firm whack with a rolling pin.

A.

[Aura]

Dear Diary,

All in all, ******* amazing day.

A.

[Aura]

Dear Journal,

Hello, hello again my old and gentle friend. It has been some time since we’ve seen each other and been this close. I am sorry I’ve been gone so long I fear my businesses and husband have kept me away from the home far too long.

Things recently have been heavenly, and I say this with the utmost honesty. Let me first start off by telling you about my businesses. Cupcake Corner is doing wonderful, it is flourishing into a beautiful and reparable business both vampires and human alike are taking too. I’ve gotten nothing but compliments in regards to the production of the company and how everyone seems to enjoy all the baked goods I’m bringing out.

I hired a few new staff. I hired my brother Ryland, though biker looking his appearance is far from the truth of his interior personality. He is a wonderful man, a gentle man and one I have longed missed in the travels around the city. I am so pleased he accepted my job offer and it with me working daily. I also hired a sweet little lass I call Rain. Her sire Josslin got in contact with me in regards to her childe and wanting a job so keeping an open mind I gave the sweet little creature an interview; she is an absolute darling. I couldn’t be more pleased to have such a friendly face behind the cash and working alongside me in the back kitchen.

On a side note I am going to tell you I hired Asher. He seemed to be having a very public rough go of things after first returning from the Realm. So, all knowledge aside of what was going on I hired him. His outside life shouldn’t affect more reflect my business. When he comes to work every day everything outside Cupcake Corner gets dropped at the door – That’s the professional way to handle things and so far he’s proven to me he can handle not only the job given to him but to follow and understand the rules and regulations of the company. I am very proud of him, and I hope he stays with me and my company a long time.

Now, my smart *** Lion. What can I say about that pervy boy who happens to of captured my heart? He’s a strange creature but he fits in with the family well. He calls me MummaAur, Mum-Aur… Lots of things. The little **** even gave me a catfish… Sweet right? Well, wait till I tell you it’s name. My smart ***, pervy, dirty minded man named a fish Pussy… Now, hear me out. His job is to feed the fish, I only have a few but now every time he wants to do his job he says, “Is it time for feed your pussy?” I can’t help but laugh. I try, and try to keep a solid straight face but nooooo, I break down laughing every single time…

Now, for the Steak house it’s going. It’s a slow go for right now but it was starting off with Cupcake Corner too. Stefano moved from the Corner shop to the Steak house since I actually bought it to give him something to work in. Plus I created it as a gift, a little piece of his past that can be within the city instead of far away in Montana. I will speak more on the company when it really starts to take off, but for right now just know it’s moving in the right direction – I can’t wait to have it decorated and for everything to fall into place.

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Now for what’s been going on recently well there has been a raid going on forever… Literally it’s like never ending and it’s driving me nuts. I want that relic, but I fear I may not be strong enough… I’ve been working beside Stefano almost the entire time. He is my strength when it comes to battling and he gives me motivation… Not to mention he offers the best type of motivation a wife could want and let me say this, I am a VERY happy wife. :]

I’m planning on taking him away for another honeymoon, back to Montana where we had our first. I can’t help but smile at the thought of being away with the love of my life. I know for a fact the honeymoon stage will last a long, long time. He surprises me every day with things he says and does… He really is my other half, and the piece missing from my life. I’m happy, and for once there is nothing to complain about in my life.

Anyways, more tonight. I have some planning to do for the DoD. I will shed a little insight on that group too.

A.

[Aura]

Dear Diary.

**** my ******* life, mother ******* **** balls.

Okay, now that I have that out of the way and I can actually breath let me first start off by saying why.

WHY GOD DAMNIT.

This family is coming together SO well, I am so proud of them and I made a comment on the family board about stupid people and BOOM Killian is right there assuming I meant him. Why the **** would I mean him. I don’t even know him, I’ve never hit him [not that I can recall] and I’ve never really even spoken to him. So, I want to know how he can make a leap from “stupid people” to “**** you just called me stupid.” There is not bridge there to even connect the two, it’s like leaping from one mountain right to the other.

THEN!!!
Then…

He informs me he’s Irish. Hell if I ******* knew since he’s god knows where sitting his *** on the other side of a laptop screen. I love meeting people with accents. They are pretty ******* awesome and I just have a Canadian one the best I can do is say “Eh” or “About.” Which apparently in others opinion sounds like “A boot.” I don’t know, people these days.

THEN!!!
Then…

I say let’s go for a pint, meaning BLOOD or if he could drink BEER and he freaks out AGAIN! I didn’t know what path he was. I’m not a telepath. Arg, I’m frustrated. It’s like no matter what I could of said, or would of said there would of always been something wrong with it.

Rawr. I want my husband. I miss him… A lot. Like a lot a lot.

SIDE NOTE: I was talking to Malign today and restoring some blood and bandaging some wounds. She is SUCH sweetheart. She is so adorable it’s not even funny. I can’t wait to take her to Niagara falls, hell who knows some of the other BEAUTIFUL ladies from DoD might come along too. Road trip!! My god is it bad I squealed in my head? Oh well, I’m just a girl!

I want to spoil my lovelies with gifts and I want to take them to the casino, and out to a club! Holy hell can you imagine how awesome it would be if a group of 5 – 10 ladies walked in looking as hot as ever. Plus I wanna see Bee dance… And Every dance, and Malign dance, maybe even Prudence dance! It would be a great escape from everything… I need one of those, so stressed.

Talk to you later, give you more details on the getaway or just about the husband. I’m going to steal him away to, back to Montana!

A.