Date: December 30th, 2011-12-30
I created a snow angel today for the first time in years. It wasn’t perfect; it had that hand print in the wings. My mark on my imperfect piece of art, no signature was needed. Jasper enjoyed the snow, he bobbed in and out like a groundhog and it was rather funny.
We made it home safe and sound, a small interruption but that was easily ignored and disregarded with a shrug of my shoulder.
The realm is calling me diary; I can feel it in my bones. When I turn the lights off and darkness consumes my body it’s like release, a type of freedom from this soap opera. If I wanted to sign up for a dramatic series I would of become an actress, thank you so much. If I wanted to be back stabbed, rejected, excluded, talked down too I would of stayed in the Hell Hounds. Come on people vampires, get a ******* life you have enough time to live on, let’s not jerk about for hours just for pleasures sake, alright?
Let’s see who i’ve not spoken too in awhile shall we.
Chase
Chad
Temp
Vaughn – Zwei once and awhile
Dimi
Vincent
Zaph
Reyna
Scratch – Who might I add I miss so ******* much... My Ol’Loon always kept me sane.
Rocklin
Jac
Nix
Mal – Rare occasions now
Shamus
Riley One
Stefano
Nick
Silver
If I missed someone, oh pardon my lack of memory towards you, we might of only spoken once.
Family is truly a fallacy. When times get rough, the people get rougher. I understand people have rough edges, I have mine. But yell at me for caring once that will be the last and final time I come running to your side offering my shoulder. I will hold someone up as long as they let me, but push me away you deserve to fall. My thoughts anyways, this might be my shifter side coming to surface but hey, who the **** cares? Not anyone in this city, apparently.
I might just be venting, finally in weeks but venting is healthy I’m told – So I’m going to vent until I have nothing left to talk about.
I think men are ridiculous excuses for a human shell, each male should wear a bag over their face because each male is nothing but a fake web of lies. You can open yourself up to someone so willingly and yet they continue to put up this front, and wear this mask around you it’s like you’re not really even having a conversation with them but more so a brick wall.
There is one male though, one I trust so completely it even scares me. He is so brave, so smart and so true. He keeps my eyes open to face the light of the moon each night I awake from my slumber. Plus I promised Hel I’d never leave the way I did again; unlike the liars, users and abusers in this **** hole I keep my promises to the ones I love and cherish; which the numbers have dwindled down greatly.
FYI: I love Hel, he is my brother from another motha. He’s my best friend and if I was a man, I’d want his body sooooo badly. He’s hot. He’s bad and so utterly perfect – He’s like my better half in a none creepy sisterly way. I’m looking forward to seeing my brother again; and I can actually say brother since he’s done me no wrong or harmed me in anyway. Booklet, he’s a great guy. End. Of. Story.
Zodi is one of the most wonderful woman I’ve ever met, next to a few others who I have managed to stop talking to – Somehow. She is so... amazing, I can’t even find words to describe how this woman makes me feel. She makes me feel at home, like I’m a part of a family I feel I’ve lost. She can make me smile in my darkest moments and bring my back from the edge over and over again. Last night I snapped and broke into many pieces... I think I scared her and well that is one of my biggest regrets here in this city. I love her, and I’m sure if I was a lesbian or bisexual she’d be the first person I’d chase down and steal. Though... She has kissed me a few times and without knowing I’ve kissed her back. Sounds dumb but it just happened naturally. Weird right?! I don’t know what this means but without her I’d be lost more than I am currently. Yesterday she gave me a glimpse of the light she brought into my life, and when I turned and left... I saw the darkness that followed.
I guess with all said I’m having mixed emotions, stay or leave is basically what it comes down too. I feel like people and peaceful darkness are pulling at my arms and trying to rip me down the middle. Having your cake and eating it too is most defiantly not going to happen.
I can sit here for hours and try to catch you up on how I’ve been feeling but that is pointless because it’s only getting out my feelings to booklet full of line paper. Maybe someone will find it and read it one day, maybe they will understand and come find me to say, “You know what, you’re not alone and I love you.” Maybe they’ll even mean it. I can’t tell you how long I’ve been waiting to hear those words. “I love you, Aura. I truly love you.” And for them to actually mean what they are saying. I know I’m a handful, I know I’m energetic, and outgoing, vivacious, random and affectionate more than need be. I can’t help it though, this is me and I can’t change that fact no matter how much I wish I could.
I’ve loved men I thought I could be happy with. I love men I thought maybe could one day love me back. Am I that hard to love? Am I that complicated – Well, I can answer that one, yes. Yes, I am...
Is it weird that in this city all I want to be, all I want to achieve is being a wife? I can’t be a mother, but I can be a wife. A strong, supportive, loyal wife for a man to come home to every evening. I have achieved a lot, I’ve gotten powers coming out my ying yang and I’ve got great, adorable animals but nothing compares to that feeling of belonging. Not just in your environment but to belong to someone else.
I think I’m going to give my animals a bath, dry them off and curl up and watch the movie UP! Something about that movie makes me smile, whether its the dedication of the husband to his wifes dreams or the power of building friendships and relationships where you least expect it. It doesn’t help I want a bird that loves chocolate just as much as me.
It’s time to take off on my next adventure in the near year.
-Sue.
A new book, a new beginning
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Re: A new book, a new beginning
Date: December 4th, 2011
I don’t know why I’m here anymore. My family is being slaughtered right in front of my eyes and by each other too. Siblings killing siblings, kind people turning into worthless pieces of slum. I’ve lost 3 brothers. ******* 3 males in my life. I don’t know how to go about feeling, I feel so many things at once and it might cause my head to explode.
Hel, killed my Mal, hit by Rocklin and others over a bounty. My brother, my loyal, respectful and wonderful brother. He might be rough around the edges, he might enjoy sex... and tease me over it but that is what makes him special, and himself. I love who he is, how he is. He is strong, got so many kills and yet he continues to stand by my side in all forms. He gives me comfort and support, I am so grateful. He may always want me to not be sexually active but I will give him that piece of mind. I still cannot believe things have fallen this far as to Mal hitting him and being the final blow... Of all the times I asked them to be kind towards each other, for my sake because I loved both of them... hearing this has brought me great sadness.
X, that stupid, low life, jerk is dead too. He’s blunt, an asshole but true. He calls me pink, and it’s a rather fitting nickname but Mal killed him also. Two brothers now taken from me by one person, two. X might not of been fair but he was strong and from what I’ve been told, he was ganged up on by people he didn’t know. Sickening, can people not fight one on one anymore? I don’t know, I really don’t know anymore when it comes to this city. I’m trying to stay away from the drama, I don’t talk about it, I write about it. My feelings for my own eyes only, in my booklet where it will stay hidden.
Vaughn, my first love. Dead again for the second time in what seemed like less than a month. He came back as another from the realm, a man who said he loved me, but he wasn’t sure in which way. I continue to put a rose under OUR tree. A rose for each day he is gone, a rose for each day I hope he returns. We’ve had our in and outs but I still care for him greatly. He will always be someone I treasure, I just hope he returns soon, very soon. There are so many people in the realm I heard it normally takes forever to come home... I send my thoughts to him, in hopes they guide him home safely and quickly.
Merc... My sister, one of my best friends is also dead, again. Jesus ******* crist I was told she wasn’t back a day before she was sent back to the realm. It breaks my heart that time isn’t on her side, on our side. I was looking forward to spending some much needed girl time with her. A movie night with biggie, a hunting trip, zombies maybe... I hope she returns soon, I need my sister by my side once again.
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On a sunny note I met another male the other day. I was at the beach with Jasper playing in the snow when a male looking rather stylish approached me. Long dark hair... A suit and haunting eyes that seemed to see right through me. His name is Ciro, he was Italian. He called me Bella, and another name I forget. He said my beauty was to radiant to ignore, a man surely wanting alternative motives, but never the less it made me smile to think he thought my looks were appealing. We spoke some time about being a vampire, powers, our lives but nothing to in depth. He met Jasper but wasn’t too fond of animals, which was okay as long as he didn’t hurt him. I hope to see him again, I hope maybe he can pull me from this shell I’ve kept myself in far to long. Maybe a new face and bring back the light, a new friendship seems promising.
I hope I can find myself soon. I hate being this shell, I'm trying to change but I can't seem to bring myself to trust anyone anymore...
Hurry up Aura and come home...
-Aura.
I don’t know why I’m here anymore. My family is being slaughtered right in front of my eyes and by each other too. Siblings killing siblings, kind people turning into worthless pieces of slum. I’ve lost 3 brothers. ******* 3 males in my life. I don’t know how to go about feeling, I feel so many things at once and it might cause my head to explode.
Hel, killed my Mal, hit by Rocklin and others over a bounty. My brother, my loyal, respectful and wonderful brother. He might be rough around the edges, he might enjoy sex... and tease me over it but that is what makes him special, and himself. I love who he is, how he is. He is strong, got so many kills and yet he continues to stand by my side in all forms. He gives me comfort and support, I am so grateful. He may always want me to not be sexually active but I will give him that piece of mind. I still cannot believe things have fallen this far as to Mal hitting him and being the final blow... Of all the times I asked them to be kind towards each other, for my sake because I loved both of them... hearing this has brought me great sadness.
X, that stupid, low life, jerk is dead too. He’s blunt, an asshole but true. He calls me pink, and it’s a rather fitting nickname but Mal killed him also. Two brothers now taken from me by one person, two. X might not of been fair but he was strong and from what I’ve been told, he was ganged up on by people he didn’t know. Sickening, can people not fight one on one anymore? I don’t know, I really don’t know anymore when it comes to this city. I’m trying to stay away from the drama, I don’t talk about it, I write about it. My feelings for my own eyes only, in my booklet where it will stay hidden.
Vaughn, my first love. Dead again for the second time in what seemed like less than a month. He came back as another from the realm, a man who said he loved me, but he wasn’t sure in which way. I continue to put a rose under OUR tree. A rose for each day he is gone, a rose for each day I hope he returns. We’ve had our in and outs but I still care for him greatly. He will always be someone I treasure, I just hope he returns soon, very soon. There are so many people in the realm I heard it normally takes forever to come home... I send my thoughts to him, in hopes they guide him home safely and quickly.
Merc... My sister, one of my best friends is also dead, again. Jesus ******* crist I was told she wasn’t back a day before she was sent back to the realm. It breaks my heart that time isn’t on her side, on our side. I was looking forward to spending some much needed girl time with her. A movie night with biggie, a hunting trip, zombies maybe... I hope she returns soon, I need my sister by my side once again.
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On a sunny note I met another male the other day. I was at the beach with Jasper playing in the snow when a male looking rather stylish approached me. Long dark hair... A suit and haunting eyes that seemed to see right through me. His name is Ciro, he was Italian. He called me Bella, and another name I forget. He said my beauty was to radiant to ignore, a man surely wanting alternative motives, but never the less it made me smile to think he thought my looks were appealing. We spoke some time about being a vampire, powers, our lives but nothing to in depth. He met Jasper but wasn’t too fond of animals, which was okay as long as he didn’t hurt him. I hope to see him again, I hope maybe he can pull me from this shell I’ve kept myself in far to long. Maybe a new face and bring back the light, a new friendship seems promising.
I hope I can find myself soon. I hate being this shell, I'm trying to change but I can't seem to bring myself to trust anyone anymore...
Hurry up Aura and come home...
-Aura.
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Re: A new book, a new beginning
date : Jan 15th, 2011
Oh what a shitty day. I've come to terms with two things.
1. He hurt me more then I thought anyone could have.
and
2. I will never be what he needs in order to be happy.
-Sue.
Oh what a shitty day. I've come to terms with two things.
1. He hurt me more then I thought anyone could have.
and
2. I will never be what he needs in order to be happy.
-Sue.
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Re: A new book, a new beginning
Date: Jan 20t, 2012
When we parted he took a piece of me with him, the feeling of incompletion is slowly eating me alive from the inside out. I miss him more than words, more than anything I’ve come to find in this city; he is the hidden treasure in this shitty city; the one person I trust most above others.
It’s so natural being around him, showing my affection towards him. He accepts me, always has.
It’s been days since i've seen him and I feel like every day I don’t I’m losing a bit of my sanity – At least what’s left of it.
So I will watch, and wait from a distance, it’s the only way I can see him and hear him. It’s all I have left.
-Cherry.
When we parted he took a piece of me with him, the feeling of incompletion is slowly eating me alive from the inside out. I miss him more than words, more than anything I’ve come to find in this city; he is the hidden treasure in this shitty city; the one person I trust most above others.
It’s so natural being around him, showing my affection towards him. He accepts me, always has.
It’s been days since i've seen him and I feel like every day I don’t I’m losing a bit of my sanity – At least what’s left of it.
So I will watch, and wait from a distance, it’s the only way I can see him and hear him. It’s all I have left.
-Cherry.
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Re: A new book, a new beginning
Date: Feb 08th 2012.
I've been hiding lately, only replying to texts but I am still here.
What's been going on in my life? A lot but some things I'm really excited about.
I got a new snake, her name is Blanc and she is beautiful; I can't wait to show her around to everyone I treasure.
I will get into more detail tonight, I'm so excited!!
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Well Vaughn poisoned me with Arsenic I’m told and I spent the entire night and most of the next day barfing up my breakfast and all the blood I had consumed that morning, joy right? It was not pleasant I am so thankful he was there to comfort me in my time of pain and confusion. He promised to protect me, to look after me and make sure I was alright – I love him, he is truly the most gentle person I know, well that’s male of course.
Lord Dee and I have been hunting each other like cat and mouse giving each other little love taps here and there without a weapon. I gave him a fractured skull but I kissed it all better so it should still be good and it should heal quickly! He is pretty wicked, pig like, egotistical but again I say pig like. He seems to fancy my legs, psh they don’t belong to him booklet, nope, nope! All mine Lord Dee, but I will say this he gives me great piggy back rides. He calls me the pink-she-hulk. I guess I’m flattered by that since he normally doesn’t spit out compliments to just anyone.
Love you Lord Dee!
OMG DIARY OMG DIARY!!!
Scratch is back!! My old ******* loon is back! I’m so excited, so, so, so excited. He’s been gone so long I was scared my little old man wouldn’t come home because well... it had been forever. When I saw him I was going to give him a good smack with his own cane! But, in the end I sadly ended up giving the old **** a hug and told him he better not leave.
Anyways he took me out shopping to get something sexy for a little someone special. He picked out a lovely black number and I gave it a try on and bought it right away. It was then I got some amazing news. OH DIARY all I say is finally. F-i-n-a-l-l-y-!!!! VEL AND LOON ARE GETTING MARRRRRRRRRRIED! Phew, there I said it. Buahaha, Dairy I can’t wait. Loon said he wants me to be a groomsman... I have to wear a tux! I mean, I might look good in a tux, possibly? We’ll have to see...
I’ve been talking to Vel more, she’s ma princess. I might be tempted to take Vel from scratch and steal her away for myself! She’s wicked, totally sweet and amazing. She gave me the BEST gift I could of asked for... But, to get the inside of this gift I have to.... DANCE!! I can’t dance, I mean dancing at the clubs are fun but dancing, that kind of dancing .... sdjnvosdjbvidubvsdoungvsa9udbgaowdbvgs!! I just don’t know if I can do this. I mean, like... That, isn’t me but she wants me to dance too sooo I said yes. Hel is going to kill me, I’m so dead! Oh well, what can be done now. NOTHING!
Alec and I had a girl’s night. Thank. God. I had so much fun, we talked about lots of things mostly boys and secrets. I told her my secret, it was pretty big and I was so worried I made myself sick with it... I love that woman, I hope she keeps her promise and I believe she will. We need to have another girls night soon. I will be texting her with lots of fun stuff, plus she brought me the most delicious ice cream I’ve ever eaten. Ever!
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More to come my darling diary, I will catch you up and write in you soon!
-A.
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ovdm2yX4MA&ob=av2e[/youtube]
I've been hiding lately, only replying to texts but I am still here.
What's been going on in my life? A lot but some things I'm really excited about.
I got a new snake, her name is Blanc and she is beautiful; I can't wait to show her around to everyone I treasure.
I will get into more detail tonight, I'm so excited!!
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Well Vaughn poisoned me with Arsenic I’m told and I spent the entire night and most of the next day barfing up my breakfast and all the blood I had consumed that morning, joy right? It was not pleasant I am so thankful he was there to comfort me in my time of pain and confusion. He promised to protect me, to look after me and make sure I was alright – I love him, he is truly the most gentle person I know, well that’s male of course.
Lord Dee and I have been hunting each other like cat and mouse giving each other little love taps here and there without a weapon. I gave him a fractured skull but I kissed it all better so it should still be good and it should heal quickly! He is pretty wicked, pig like, egotistical but again I say pig like. He seems to fancy my legs, psh they don’t belong to him booklet, nope, nope! All mine Lord Dee, but I will say this he gives me great piggy back rides. He calls me the pink-she-hulk. I guess I’m flattered by that since he normally doesn’t spit out compliments to just anyone.
Love you Lord Dee!
OMG DIARY OMG DIARY!!!
Scratch is back!! My old ******* loon is back! I’m so excited, so, so, so excited. He’s been gone so long I was scared my little old man wouldn’t come home because well... it had been forever. When I saw him I was going to give him a good smack with his own cane! But, in the end I sadly ended up giving the old **** a hug and told him he better not leave.
Anyways he took me out shopping to get something sexy for a little someone special. He picked out a lovely black number and I gave it a try on and bought it right away. It was then I got some amazing news. OH DIARY all I say is finally. F-i-n-a-l-l-y-!!!! VEL AND LOON ARE GETTING MARRRRRRRRRRIED! Phew, there I said it. Buahaha, Dairy I can’t wait. Loon said he wants me to be a groomsman... I have to wear a tux! I mean, I might look good in a tux, possibly? We’ll have to see...
I’ve been talking to Vel more, she’s ma princess. I might be tempted to take Vel from scratch and steal her away for myself! She’s wicked, totally sweet and amazing. She gave me the BEST gift I could of asked for... But, to get the inside of this gift I have to.... DANCE!! I can’t dance, I mean dancing at the clubs are fun but dancing, that kind of dancing .... sdjnvosdjbvidubvsdoungvsa9udbgaowdbvgs!! I just don’t know if I can do this. I mean, like... That, isn’t me but she wants me to dance too sooo I said yes. Hel is going to kill me, I’m so dead! Oh well, what can be done now. NOTHING!
Alec and I had a girl’s night. Thank. God. I had so much fun, we talked about lots of things mostly boys and secrets. I told her my secret, it was pretty big and I was so worried I made myself sick with it... I love that woman, I hope she keeps her promise and I believe she will. We need to have another girls night soon. I will be texting her with lots of fun stuff, plus she brought me the most delicious ice cream I’ve ever eaten. Ever!
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More to come my darling diary, I will catch you up and write in you soon!
-A.
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Re: A new book, a new beginning
Feb 20th, 2012
Dear Dairy,
Mood: Timid
Thoughts: Clouded
Location: Bath tub
Deserved location: Out with someone else.
Food of Choice: Dark chocolate truffle cupcakes with a pink butter cream frosting, garnished with a fresh raspberry.
I managed to cover my entire kitchen with flour and bake a total of 8 dozen cupcakes. I haven’t seen anyone today but Alex, Temp, Zodi and Lord.
I sliced Lord Dee’s arm together in passing mainly because I wanted to. He is a super sweetheart but I’d never admit it to his face. He wants to collar me and that will never, ever, never ever happen!
Feel sort of ickish today since well I found out some piece of information that I never thought would happen so quickly. Should I be completely shocked at the fact I wasn’t told... No, I’m not really surprised that’s been my life lately. One surprise followed by another. I lied and said I was okay, I guess I got away with it since I smiled and managed to get away unnoticed or questioned. Just putting on a smile seems to mask the fact of what I’m truly feeling... Dually noted.
He found my tattoo, the newest one I got from Loon. He seemed pleased by its meaning and in truth I was thrilled at his reaction. I’m excited for my next, it will be small but it will hold such a strong and powerful meaning to me and frankly that is all that matters.
I don’t know what else to say, things have been seemingly alright from the eyes of others, recently things had been dark for me. I soon might need to by a flashlight to find my way out of this one. I pray I don’t lose my footing this time, and I hope my memory remains intact...
Right now I’m going to drown myself in chocolate, toss this book on the ground and listen to the song that gives me peace of mind... goodnight booklet, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight... Let’s hope I return to you tomorrow.
-Goddess.
Dear Dairy,
Mood: Timid
Thoughts: Clouded
Location: Bath tub
Deserved location: Out with someone else.
Food of Choice: Dark chocolate truffle cupcakes with a pink butter cream frosting, garnished with a fresh raspberry.
I managed to cover my entire kitchen with flour and bake a total of 8 dozen cupcakes. I haven’t seen anyone today but Alex, Temp, Zodi and Lord.
I sliced Lord Dee’s arm together in passing mainly because I wanted to. He is a super sweetheart but I’d never admit it to his face. He wants to collar me and that will never, ever, never ever happen!
Feel sort of ickish today since well I found out some piece of information that I never thought would happen so quickly. Should I be completely shocked at the fact I wasn’t told... No, I’m not really surprised that’s been my life lately. One surprise followed by another. I lied and said I was okay, I guess I got away with it since I smiled and managed to get away unnoticed or questioned. Just putting on a smile seems to mask the fact of what I’m truly feeling... Dually noted.
He found my tattoo, the newest one I got from Loon. He seemed pleased by its meaning and in truth I was thrilled at his reaction. I’m excited for my next, it will be small but it will hold such a strong and powerful meaning to me and frankly that is all that matters.
I don’t know what else to say, things have been seemingly alright from the eyes of others, recently things had been dark for me. I soon might need to by a flashlight to find my way out of this one. I pray I don’t lose my footing this time, and I hope my memory remains intact...
Right now I’m going to drown myself in chocolate, toss this book on the ground and listen to the song that gives me peace of mind... goodnight booklet, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight... Let’s hope I return to you tomorrow.
-Goddess.
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Re: A new book, a new beginning
Dear Diary,
So I’m on the train to Niagara Falls and I couldn’t be more excited. I have to get off at the last stop on and finished my journey on a bus. I hate buses, did I manage I HATE them with a passion. They smell like people who haven’t bathed in days. I have another hour on the train at least and there are stops every 10 minutes. The GO system seems like a rather decent function in the city of Toronto and I managed to snag myself a booster juice before the journey. They are actually quite delicious; I might have to start making fruit smoothies at home.
Storm seems to be handling the crate rather well; I was worried he’d get all pissy and throw a hissy fit. Get it... Hissy... Fit. Oh I crack myself up sometimes. Anyways, I have a few more stops until I wait for my bus. I’ll fill you in with things later. Time to plug in my iPod and think of happier things, like winning money at the casino and watching a few shows!
-Aura
I was right, the bus smelt disgusting and well it was no surprise at all. Some weird man sat next to me he seemed facinated with my hair and it being pink, he even asked me to touch it. Weird right? Anyways the bus let us off near the falls, the station was attached to the hotel but it wasn't mine. I'm staying in the Fallsview, the casino is on themain floor. Checking in wasn't hard, you blink you pretty lashes and the man melted, no power needed. I got a room on the 39th floor overing looking the falls, both Canadian and America.
Storm seems to enjoy exploring, I bet he's just glad to be out of that cage I had to bring him here in. I'm pretty much settled, cloths are away, soaps and make up are out on the counter and I have internet for the room. I managed to bring my laptop for those who need me. I've turned my cell on for 30 minutes to check messages and found 14. I can't believe it.
Someone managed to reach me via text and I was talking to them awhile. I'm nervous, can this be it? Can this really be the last place I stay. I miss them... Dear ******* god I miss them already. But, this is good. This is a good thing for me. I can do anything I want without being judged, I can be happy and sad without someone telling me I've changed. I can cry without being called a baby and laugh without being called crazy. I want to be in their arms. I want to take in their scent and hear their voice. But, I also want to be able to take an easy and relax.
I contacted Vel and told her I was okay. hopefully I don't miss Hel's return. I also need to send Alec and line too letting them know I'm fine and I'll be back again - Hopefully.
Anyways, I'm tired from my journey. It's time for me to close this book and well jump in a bath before I crawl into bed with Storm for a long days rest.
Tomorrows plan: Casino.
-Aura.
So I’m on the train to Niagara Falls and I couldn’t be more excited. I have to get off at the last stop on and finished my journey on a bus. I hate buses, did I manage I HATE them with a passion. They smell like people who haven’t bathed in days. I have another hour on the train at least and there are stops every 10 minutes. The GO system seems like a rather decent function in the city of Toronto and I managed to snag myself a booster juice before the journey. They are actually quite delicious; I might have to start making fruit smoothies at home.
Storm seems to be handling the crate rather well; I was worried he’d get all pissy and throw a hissy fit. Get it... Hissy... Fit. Oh I crack myself up sometimes. Anyways, I have a few more stops until I wait for my bus. I’ll fill you in with things later. Time to plug in my iPod and think of happier things, like winning money at the casino and watching a few shows!
-Aura
I was right, the bus smelt disgusting and well it was no surprise at all. Some weird man sat next to me he seemed facinated with my hair and it being pink, he even asked me to touch it. Weird right? Anyways the bus let us off near the falls, the station was attached to the hotel but it wasn't mine. I'm staying in the Fallsview, the casino is on themain floor. Checking in wasn't hard, you blink you pretty lashes and the man melted, no power needed. I got a room on the 39th floor overing looking the falls, both Canadian and America.
Storm seems to enjoy exploring, I bet he's just glad to be out of that cage I had to bring him here in. I'm pretty much settled, cloths are away, soaps and make up are out on the counter and I have internet for the room. I managed to bring my laptop for those who need me. I've turned my cell on for 30 minutes to check messages and found 14. I can't believe it.
Someone managed to reach me via text and I was talking to them awhile. I'm nervous, can this be it? Can this really be the last place I stay. I miss them... Dear ******* god I miss them already. But, this is good. This is a good thing for me. I can do anything I want without being judged, I can be happy and sad without someone telling me I've changed. I can cry without being called a baby and laugh without being called crazy. I want to be in their arms. I want to take in their scent and hear their voice. But, I also want to be able to take an easy and relax.
I contacted Vel and told her I was okay. hopefully I don't miss Hel's return. I also need to send Alec and line too letting them know I'm fine and I'll be back again - Hopefully.
Anyways, I'm tired from my journey. It's time for me to close this book and well jump in a bath before I crawl into bed with Storm for a long days rest.
Tomorrows plan: Casino.
-Aura.
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Re: A new book, a new beginning
Date: Feb 22, 2012-02-23
Mood: Excited
Scenery: The falls.
Plans for tonight: Casino
Hotel room: Sexy as ****.
The hotel room is exceptional and rather perfect for my liking. It’s large and well, like home. I enjoy being away from the city; it’s a relaxing vacation with little to worry about other then, “Where is that cat?” Breakfast was delicious; I managed to snag myself a bellboy to quench my thirst until dinner. I got dressed and went out to explore further area’s surrounding the falls. The lights that eliminate the falls every night are spectacular and breathe taking – Not to mention there is fireworks soon, a wonderful show I’m told.
I went out to Clifton Hill and found myself in love with the stretch of street. So many trinket shops and haunted houses lined both sides of the street. I love a good scare but I have to admit the man doing the scaring seemed rather dull... So, I gave him something to be scared of. After that I went to the fudge factory, got myself a extraordinary candy apple with a mixture of dark and white chocolate drizzles; I couldn’t help myself that looked intoxicating.
After that I ran to the casino. It was huge and I managed to get myself lost at least a dozen times before I found a machine I felt lucky with. My gut feeling paid off and I managed to win myself some extra cash, like I need it.
I went home soon after and found my phone ringing as I walked in through the door. It was them. I tried to contain my excitement but I failed miserably and soon found myself jumping on the bed before I actually answered with what I believe to be a natural voice. “Hello?” I said in question when evidentially I knew it was them all along; caller I.D rocks. We talked for what felt like hours before the sun soon started to rise up and we were both growing tired. I sent him a departing text and we both hung up.
Sleeping was a little harder to accomplish, the bed felt so empty and well I needed the space to be taken up. I rang the front desk about 6:30 am and ask for 15 pillows to be sent to my room. After about 10 minutes 4 men showed up with 2 pillows under each arm; it was a rather amusing sight but I showed them the bed and they left. Still, it wasn’t the same – It wasn’t what I was used too.
I can imagine the rest of my time here to be comfortable during the evenings and horribly lonely during the day light hours... I am not looking forward to sleeping anymore, I can foresee myself being an insomniac while here.
Anyways it’s time for sleep, reluctantly I must turn off my nightstand light and close my eyes, until tomorrow.
-Goddess.
Mood: Excited
Scenery: The falls.
Plans for tonight: Casino
Hotel room: Sexy as ****.
The hotel room is exceptional and rather perfect for my liking. It’s large and well, like home. I enjoy being away from the city; it’s a relaxing vacation with little to worry about other then, “Where is that cat?” Breakfast was delicious; I managed to snag myself a bellboy to quench my thirst until dinner. I got dressed and went out to explore further area’s surrounding the falls. The lights that eliminate the falls every night are spectacular and breathe taking – Not to mention there is fireworks soon, a wonderful show I’m told.
I went out to Clifton Hill and found myself in love with the stretch of street. So many trinket shops and haunted houses lined both sides of the street. I love a good scare but I have to admit the man doing the scaring seemed rather dull... So, I gave him something to be scared of. After that I went to the fudge factory, got myself a extraordinary candy apple with a mixture of dark and white chocolate drizzles; I couldn’t help myself that looked intoxicating.
After that I ran to the casino. It was huge and I managed to get myself lost at least a dozen times before I found a machine I felt lucky with. My gut feeling paid off and I managed to win myself some extra cash, like I need it.
I went home soon after and found my phone ringing as I walked in through the door. It was them. I tried to contain my excitement but I failed miserably and soon found myself jumping on the bed before I actually answered with what I believe to be a natural voice. “Hello?” I said in question when evidentially I knew it was them all along; caller I.D rocks. We talked for what felt like hours before the sun soon started to rise up and we were both growing tired. I sent him a departing text and we both hung up.
Sleeping was a little harder to accomplish, the bed felt so empty and well I needed the space to be taken up. I rang the front desk about 6:30 am and ask for 15 pillows to be sent to my room. After about 10 minutes 4 men showed up with 2 pillows under each arm; it was a rather amusing sight but I showed them the bed and they left. Still, it wasn’t the same – It wasn’t what I was used too.
I can imagine the rest of my time here to be comfortable during the evenings and horribly lonely during the day light hours... I am not looking forward to sleeping anymore, I can foresee myself being an insomniac while here.
Anyways it’s time for sleep, reluctantly I must turn off my nightstand light and close my eyes, until tomorrow.
-Goddess.
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Re: A new book, a new beginning
Date: February 23, 2012.
Mood: Lively
Food of choice: Bell Boy #2
Scene: The falls.
Day three is heaven since I left Harper Rock and Niagara is proving to be one of my greatest vacations yet. I’m not quite sure I want to leave... I sure I’d get dragged back but we’ll see how long that takes to happen... I’m expecting my door to get broken down at any moment so my guard it up completely until it happens.
Anyways what did I do today, let’s see. I fed again on bell boy number two and he was exotic, very yummy. Storm seems to be enjoying himself; he is having a field day with the birds flying past the windows. He seems to enjoy the room to move around in and well, so do I. No surprise visitors, no knocking on the door in the wee hours of the morning, no wounds to heal, not body to please but myself and I LOVE IT!!!
I went out clubbing tonight. Well, more so a rave. Some young man approached me and handed me a flyer to attend this underground rave. I couldn’t be more thrilled to have plans this evening. I darted back to my room, grabbed some of my Florissant clothing and layered that **** on like I was in the 80’s. I managed to locate the rave and entered with a bunch of people, it was in all sense of the world, jumpin! The music was loud, booming and well perfect for the party. Instantly I joined in dancing until my eyes locked on the stage. Standing in front of me was a line of drums with glow in the dark paint on the surface. A dream ******* come true! Two men hoisted me up on stage and I got my turn on playing the drums, I got paint EVERYWHERE! It was the most fun I had in my life. Paint on my cloths, on my skin, in my hair – Everywhere.
By the end of the evening I had 12 glow in the dark necklaces, 30 bracelets – 15 on each arm, a glow in the dark mouth piece and a set of glow in the dark mouse ears. I had a few more nibbled before heading back to my hotel room in the early morning. I made it before sun rise and I got a few looks in the lobby as I strolled in like nothing wearing all my gear and covered in paint. I had a good laugh while explaining it to security.
Anyways, I’m in the room and showered. Squeaky clean and all ready for bed, I’m just waiting for my nightly conversation with them. I should most likely drop Alec and Vel a line letting them know I’m still alive and all. Goodnight Diary.
-Goddess.
Mood: Lively
Food of choice: Bell Boy #2
Scene: The falls.
Day three is heaven since I left Harper Rock and Niagara is proving to be one of my greatest vacations yet. I’m not quite sure I want to leave... I sure I’d get dragged back but we’ll see how long that takes to happen... I’m expecting my door to get broken down at any moment so my guard it up completely until it happens.
Anyways what did I do today, let’s see. I fed again on bell boy number two and he was exotic, very yummy. Storm seems to be enjoying himself; he is having a field day with the birds flying past the windows. He seems to enjoy the room to move around in and well, so do I. No surprise visitors, no knocking on the door in the wee hours of the morning, no wounds to heal, not body to please but myself and I LOVE IT!!!
I went out clubbing tonight. Well, more so a rave. Some young man approached me and handed me a flyer to attend this underground rave. I couldn’t be more thrilled to have plans this evening. I darted back to my room, grabbed some of my Florissant clothing and layered that **** on like I was in the 80’s. I managed to locate the rave and entered with a bunch of people, it was in all sense of the world, jumpin! The music was loud, booming and well perfect for the party. Instantly I joined in dancing until my eyes locked on the stage. Standing in front of me was a line of drums with glow in the dark paint on the surface. A dream ******* come true! Two men hoisted me up on stage and I got my turn on playing the drums, I got paint EVERYWHERE! It was the most fun I had in my life. Paint on my cloths, on my skin, in my hair – Everywhere.
By the end of the evening I had 12 glow in the dark necklaces, 30 bracelets – 15 on each arm, a glow in the dark mouth piece and a set of glow in the dark mouse ears. I had a few more nibbled before heading back to my hotel room in the early morning. I made it before sun rise and I got a few looks in the lobby as I strolled in like nothing wearing all my gear and covered in paint. I had a good laugh while explaining it to security.
Anyways, I’m in the room and showered. Squeaky clean and all ready for bed, I’m just waiting for my nightly conversation with them. I should most likely drop Alec and Vel a line letting them know I’m still alive and all. Goodnight Diary.
-Goddess.
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Re: A new book, a new beginning
Dear Diary,
Date: Feb 27th
Mood: Peaceful
Food: Chocolate, truffle milkshake.
I came home yesterday, early I know but it was worth it to see them. A lot ended up happening in Niagara Falls and someone came to visit me. They brought me back earlier than expected because things were apparently not the same without me. I also received a text from my brother asking me to return home soon for a movie night – Who am I to keep him waiting.
I saw Zan today. I missed that girl something fierce. Her and I ran to her recording studio and we sang a few songs together. Don’t know why I got the brilliant idea but I asked her to make me a penis that was bright pink in colour... And, she did. I can now officially say my dick is bigger than any males in the city. I can easily add to mine if that’s the case too.
But, that’s not what this Diary entry is about... This magnificent woman gave me the most beautiful gift I have ever received. It was bought, it was shiny, or cuddly, or alive. It was a beautiful, detailed painting she had created herself. I melted when I first discovered it, completely wept like a baby. This gift is something I’d treasure for all eternity, and well... I’d die protecting it too. I’d kill anyone who tried to take it, and go to all extremely to keep it in safe hands...
My day is complete... I can go to sleep knowing tonight, has been one to remember forever...
-Pinky.
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