Dearest Maggie,
So we landed back into Harper Rock only a few moments ago. Honestly, I do not think that the trip was long enough and I was better being away from here. Never thought it would be so refreshing to get away from the drama. Even being in England did not give me the dread that I suddenly feel being here but who knows...I have Erik, Mother, and Aure, that is all I need...I guess.
I will state that Rome was my favorite. I even purchased the suite that Erik and I stayed in so that way I could go back whenever I desired to escape. Odd thing though...I ran into the messenger that I sent here to Harper Rock to deliver a birthday present to Isabella for her turning anniversary which was on Halloween. Well anyway...he was acting strange after his initial greeting, which mind you is weird being called 'Princess' again, I could not help but dive into his mind. You know that stranger that everyone keeps mentioning...that Regan guy...well the messenger met him. I sat and stared at the images and I do not have the slightest clue who he is and yet for some reason there is unfinished business he has with me. I do not know what I did to him and I really hope that I did not run over his puppy because I am a crap driver since I was never taught to drive. I will replace his puppy if that was the case. Oh shoot...that sounds awful.
"Oh, I am sorry I ran over your puppy, Sir...since I can not bring them back, here is a replacement."
Oh that is terrible. I should be shot for even thinking it. Horrible...absolutely horrible. I will talk with Mother about it before I do anything but I feel terrible and worse off that I do not know this man. She keeps telling me that there is nothing to worry about but I think I will talk with her again about it, see if she could take care of it by either talking with this stranger or even his sire to figure out what could be done. I just want everything to be okay and right as rain because everyone deserves to be blissfully happy. Though there is this constant tug in my mind every time he is mentioned. I do not understand it. Like there is a memory that is missing or locked away but that does not make sense given I am a telepath...I do not forget Faces, Names, Sounds, or even the spoken word be it spoke verbally or mentally. Everything remains as if it was burned to disc and preserved for a life time only to be watched later like old classic black and white movies but sometimes there is color.
I probably should stop by and see Isabella. Despite how she may feel towards my marriage to Erik...she is still my grandsire and I want to see how she is doing. I also want to see if she had received the gift. I do not know...this might make to be a rather interesting meeting but being calm, collected, and respectful is always a wonderful start. I just pray that we do not fight like we did a few months ago before Mother took her family and left.
So I would like to state that my sire...Serendipity Croft...is an evil woman. We were talking on the phone last night while Erik was out and I was packing to come home. She decided to share some rather inappropriate memories with me. I do not know if I was being punished or what but here is how it all started. I was bored reading my book while we were in Rome. It was the night before Erik and I left for Germany. I decided to peek into Mother and Aure's mind just to see what was going on and what I was possibly missing. Do you know what I saw...Mother in a wedding dress and Aure in a tux...at a church. So I decided that I was going to help things along so I played 'Going to the Chapel' in their minds. Suddenly there was a shotgun in the preacher's face then suddenly nothing. After turning the images in their minds to show the movie 'Misery' from Stephen King to show my disapproval and then closed off the connection. -WELL- Mother decided to share more with me...her in a wedding dress on an alter or over...either way, doing things that would make even a Nun blush was uncalled for. One you do not do that in church...do you want to be damned to Hell for all eternity and two...really...go home and keep it from my mind. I feel like I am scared.
Well...I know that I did not talk about my amazing husband much but I will later. I am a bit jet lagged and I am tired so I am going to unpack a bit before getting some rest. I need to rest before Erik comes home...we have a world to face together. Wish us luck.
Always yours,
Elizabeth Constance Stryker
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Dear Maggie,
I know that it has been nearly a year since I have written to you but you can not even begin to understand all that has gone one. Well you might if I wrote but I miss placed the last journal and after months of looking, I gave up and just bought a new one. So this is you in a new book. Nice beautiful leather bound yet vintage looking journal. I will make sure to keep this around more often. It would be better not to lose this one.
Anyway...summary of the last year. This is terrible and I know that I am going to miss something, somewhere. Erik and I started off great like any normal married couple but that went sour. He ended up cheating on me with Emily who was apart of Isabella at the time. Long and crazy story that still makes my mind feel dizzy thinking about it. He promised that he would be better but things never got better. Erik had this addiction to the Realm of Shadows and remained there. I was devoted and waited. It was not until I got a visit from Katya that I decided to cut my losses and leave. I publicly declared that we were no longer a couple and kicked him from the Unwavering Rapture board that Mother and I own. I eventually need to get around to revoking his keys from the house but I am sure that he or Katya will leave me alone. I am just done with his infidelity. I deserve better. I know this and Mother reminds me all the time.
Oh I should probably tell you that because of Erik's infidelity with Emily...Mother took the family out of DC. Emily was protected by Aunt Elizabeth and Liam for her actions when she deserved to be punished. I am over it but that was another part of the chapter. We went from Noble to Worthington to DC...all we have left. It is better for us. We do not need a family like them, so full of drama and so completely wrapped up in themselves...we are better on our own so Mother created the Croft bloodline and life has been grand.
I will admit though that I went on a bender. Coming out of my shell so to speak. That innocent, naive girl that Serendipity brought to Harper Rock from Wales. I think it is for the better but Mother worries way too much because I have become more bold on the CrowNet, I have joined an amazing religious group (Solace) that I love and shine in, I am feeding Necurats and I am helping as many people that I can find. I am incredibly happy to the point that Mother has even asked about it though my boldness still has her concerned that she tries to keep me from posting on the CrowNet. I can not blame her though, she is trying to make sure that I do not see the Realm of Shadows again but that was nearly six months ago and because it was a war between the Grigori and DC. I think that I am safe there but I humour her as she does not need to worry about me...she has Aure to worry about given that he is careless sometimes and a Necurat on top of that.
Rituals are around now. They were a blessing from the Light. The Light of Lux has blessed us in so many ways and she continues to bless us. Robert Pratt...the leader of Solace has been teaching me rituals but I do not seem to understand them. I understand the mind and technology. That is my speciality but I am willing to try new things, I just dislike things that I do not understand. I think I might stick with hacking but I will still try rituals every now and then...just hate the injuries that come from failing.
Well...I am going to go for now Maggie and I know that I was pretty vague but there was so much that happened. I do not want to live in the past. No sense in it. The past makes us who we are but they do not completely define us. I am looking straight ahead and taking what the Light of Lux provides for us.
Always yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
P.S. Forgot to tell you that a few months ago I purchased my custom gun and named it after you. I thought it was fitting since you have seemingly become my best friend.
I know that it has been nearly a year since I have written to you but you can not even begin to understand all that has gone one. Well you might if I wrote but I miss placed the last journal and after months of looking, I gave up and just bought a new one. So this is you in a new book. Nice beautiful leather bound yet vintage looking journal. I will make sure to keep this around more often. It would be better not to lose this one.
Anyway...summary of the last year. This is terrible and I know that I am going to miss something, somewhere. Erik and I started off great like any normal married couple but that went sour. He ended up cheating on me with Emily who was apart of Isabella at the time. Long and crazy story that still makes my mind feel dizzy thinking about it. He promised that he would be better but things never got better. Erik had this addiction to the Realm of Shadows and remained there. I was devoted and waited. It was not until I got a visit from Katya that I decided to cut my losses and leave. I publicly declared that we were no longer a couple and kicked him from the Unwavering Rapture board that Mother and I own. I eventually need to get around to revoking his keys from the house but I am sure that he or Katya will leave me alone. I am just done with his infidelity. I deserve better. I know this and Mother reminds me all the time.
Oh I should probably tell you that because of Erik's infidelity with Emily...Mother took the family out of DC. Emily was protected by Aunt Elizabeth and Liam for her actions when she deserved to be punished. I am over it but that was another part of the chapter. We went from Noble to Worthington to DC...all we have left. It is better for us. We do not need a family like them, so full of drama and so completely wrapped up in themselves...we are better on our own so Mother created the Croft bloodline and life has been grand.
I will admit though that I went on a bender. Coming out of my shell so to speak. That innocent, naive girl that Serendipity brought to Harper Rock from Wales. I think it is for the better but Mother worries way too much because I have become more bold on the CrowNet, I have joined an amazing religious group (Solace) that I love and shine in, I am feeding Necurats and I am helping as many people that I can find. I am incredibly happy to the point that Mother has even asked about it though my boldness still has her concerned that she tries to keep me from posting on the CrowNet. I can not blame her though, she is trying to make sure that I do not see the Realm of Shadows again but that was nearly six months ago and because it was a war between the Grigori and DC. I think that I am safe there but I humour her as she does not need to worry about me...she has Aure to worry about given that he is careless sometimes and a Necurat on top of that.
Rituals are around now. They were a blessing from the Light. The Light of Lux has blessed us in so many ways and she continues to bless us. Robert Pratt...the leader of Solace has been teaching me rituals but I do not seem to understand them. I understand the mind and technology. That is my speciality but I am willing to try new things, I just dislike things that I do not understand. I think I might stick with hacking but I will still try rituals every now and then...just hate the injuries that come from failing.
Well...I am going to go for now Maggie and I know that I was pretty vague but there was so much that happened. I do not want to live in the past. No sense in it. The past makes us who we are but they do not completely define us. I am looking straight ahead and taking what the Light of Lux provides for us.
Always yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
P.S. Forgot to tell you that a few months ago I purchased my custom gun and named it after you. I thought it was fitting since you have seemingly become my best friend.
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Dear Maggie,
I should have written again to you last night but I had way to much to think about. I shot Owen. Granted it was not in the shoulder or the groin that I am known for...no it was in the back. That is the worst place possible and he probably thinks that I am a coward for doing so since he did not get the chance to see me. Aure found him and told me where he was. I supported this lynch mob and now...now it is the first thing I have ever regretted. I say this because Liam and I met up to talk about all the stresses going on and yet Owen was the topic. My mind is slipping and the Darkness is moving in. I am not sure if it is because all of my studies lately has been the shifter studies as I make my way into killer? Or if I am just weak enough to slip into my old habits. A telepath trained killer from nearly the start of this vampiric life. There would be some slip-ups...right? Possibly...we are essentially human given we still have our body and minds, we are just immortal. Mistakes happen. No...they can not happen. I am hurting people around me. I am almost positive that Robert might be a bit upset but I am not entirely sure but if he acts anything like Liam...I will take the scolding as it comes. I even put my gun away. Well I gave it to Molly, she is hiding it from me. It is better this way. I will be able to think more if I am swinging to punch a person.
I just never thought that this would be so hard. I mean...I walked into Solace and instantly embraced the Light of Lux. Everything has been great...I had no slips though I have had the thoughts when those I care about are in danger...recently the issue with Ripper off hitting Serry, Aure, and Gambat. I have always been the voice of reason...talking people through their choices, I just do not understand why I can not do that myself. Maybe I should just retreat to the Vathiá...people can not get hurt with me there. Will give me time to think of my repentance and come back to the Light like I should be. I just do not want anyone to worry about me but I think it is too late for that.
Anyway...Owen. Pi had spoken to me for the first time since I accused her for giving out Robert's location to those vultures. It was wrong of me and I should have known better. Who would in their right mind would have two different conversations to set up healing for their child if they were not going to help. I keep giving her money...that is the only thing I could think of to try and make things right but she spoke to me...said thank you and yet...I can not stop thinking about how Robert is going to react. I will talk to him when I get home...I need to go buy flowers for Owen and stop by to see him. Talk to him. Apologize. Though I would not be surprised if I was met with a gun and yet...I would let him shoot me as many times as he felt was necessary... I owe the poor chap. I was clouded by Darkness and I need to make up for it.
I will talk with you later, Maggie...I have flowers to purchase.
Always yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
I should have written again to you last night but I had way to much to think about. I shot Owen. Granted it was not in the shoulder or the groin that I am known for...no it was in the back. That is the worst place possible and he probably thinks that I am a coward for doing so since he did not get the chance to see me. Aure found him and told me where he was. I supported this lynch mob and now...now it is the first thing I have ever regretted. I say this because Liam and I met up to talk about all the stresses going on and yet Owen was the topic. My mind is slipping and the Darkness is moving in. I am not sure if it is because all of my studies lately has been the shifter studies as I make my way into killer? Or if I am just weak enough to slip into my old habits. A telepath trained killer from nearly the start of this vampiric life. There would be some slip-ups...right? Possibly...we are essentially human given we still have our body and minds, we are just immortal. Mistakes happen. No...they can not happen. I am hurting people around me. I am almost positive that Robert might be a bit upset but I am not entirely sure but if he acts anything like Liam...I will take the scolding as it comes. I even put my gun away. Well I gave it to Molly, she is hiding it from me. It is better this way. I will be able to think more if I am swinging to punch a person.
I just never thought that this would be so hard. I mean...I walked into Solace and instantly embraced the Light of Lux. Everything has been great...I had no slips though I have had the thoughts when those I care about are in danger...recently the issue with Ripper off hitting Serry, Aure, and Gambat. I have always been the voice of reason...talking people through their choices, I just do not understand why I can not do that myself. Maybe I should just retreat to the Vathiá...people can not get hurt with me there. Will give me time to think of my repentance and come back to the Light like I should be. I just do not want anyone to worry about me but I think it is too late for that.
Anyway...Owen. Pi had spoken to me for the first time since I accused her for giving out Robert's location to those vultures. It was wrong of me and I should have known better. Who would in their right mind would have two different conversations to set up healing for their child if they were not going to help. I keep giving her money...that is the only thing I could think of to try and make things right but she spoke to me...said thank you and yet...I can not stop thinking about how Robert is going to react. I will talk to him when I get home...I need to go buy flowers for Owen and stop by to see him. Talk to him. Apologize. Though I would not be surprised if I was met with a gun and yet...I would let him shoot me as many times as he felt was necessary... I owe the poor chap. I was clouded by Darkness and I need to make up for it.
I will talk with you later, Maggie...I have flowers to purchase.
Always yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
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Dear Maggie,
So...I went to see Owen. He was sleeping so I waited for a little bit before Pru showed and shooed me away. I am really getting sick of her because she has no particular reason to dislike me and yet...I have a feeling it stems from all the animosity between the Nobles and DC. I do not care. The Croft line if far better than to be under them and we are damn proud to be the first family to break ties from the overly dramatic bloodline. Calm and Quiet it perfect. Jesus...I derailed my own journal. Sorry, Maggie. Anyway...Owen. I left the large vase of sunflowers for him with my phone number. I am just going to wait for him to call. Well...I hope he calls though Robert does not seem to think that is a good idea. He worries. Feels that if the cops had been contacted (which I failed to tell him that they were but I was careful) then I will get harmed. He is just looking out for me. I appreciate it because he is amazing and the support from Solace is great.
The talk with Robert...well that went well. I thought it was going to go terribly sour because he did not seem happy at all. I talked with him and explained to him...then I mentioned that Liam scolded me about my actions. Boy did that take an interesting turn. I am not entirely sure if I know how Robert feels for him but he sure got an eye opener today. I told him...he knows that Liam and I have a dodgy past. He questioned when I told him that I meet Liam in public. I have a feeling that he thought this was an odd move on my part and asked if I was uncomfortable to be in private with him. Yeah...private will not happen between Liam and I. I will make sure those conversations are always in the public eye. Cafe, bar, airport, bank...something. I think everything is sorted now but I need to talk to Isidora. Liam is going to hate me but Robert had a point, she deserves to know what she would be getting into with an Allurist. I just hope that I can make things remain stable but who knows.
Things are better now though with Robert and I. The talk eventually went well and we started talking about real estate. Solace needs a place for everyone and we have a few ideas. Which gave me the chance to also look around because well...I am buying a new place. My place is not one that I just want companions of any sort to stay at because well...there are all the messy memories of when I was Jacob and then Erik. On top of all that there is the memory of those vultures coming in and ripping Robert and Heather out of my care for bounties they did not give them a chance to work down. So frustrating. No...I need a place that is going to be safe and you would not believe what happened. Mother was trying to scold me about coming and going in the house all the time because I refuse to stay in my own place so I was staying in my bed at her place (which I kind of had now choice since being teleported out by Habren at the library). Well, I explained to her that I was coming and going like I was so I could train and sell everything I had for the new place. She asked why I was getting the new place. I explained it to her and then...BAM!!! 13K in my bank. She gave me the amount that was needed for the new place. Now I am going to work on getting the other currency needed so that I can give a set of master keys to another. So given that I have this money now...I will talk to you later because I am going to buy home!!
Always yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
So...I went to see Owen. He was sleeping so I waited for a little bit before Pru showed and shooed me away. I am really getting sick of her because she has no particular reason to dislike me and yet...I have a feeling it stems from all the animosity between the Nobles and DC. I do not care. The Croft line if far better than to be under them and we are damn proud to be the first family to break ties from the overly dramatic bloodline. Calm and Quiet it perfect. Jesus...I derailed my own journal. Sorry, Maggie. Anyway...Owen. I left the large vase of sunflowers for him with my phone number. I am just going to wait for him to call. Well...I hope he calls though Robert does not seem to think that is a good idea. He worries. Feels that if the cops had been contacted (which I failed to tell him that they were but I was careful) then I will get harmed. He is just looking out for me. I appreciate it because he is amazing and the support from Solace is great.
The talk with Robert...well that went well. I thought it was going to go terribly sour because he did not seem happy at all. I talked with him and explained to him...then I mentioned that Liam scolded me about my actions. Boy did that take an interesting turn. I am not entirely sure if I know how Robert feels for him but he sure got an eye opener today. I told him...he knows that Liam and I have a dodgy past. He questioned when I told him that I meet Liam in public. I have a feeling that he thought this was an odd move on my part and asked if I was uncomfortable to be in private with him. Yeah...private will not happen between Liam and I. I will make sure those conversations are always in the public eye. Cafe, bar, airport, bank...something. I think everything is sorted now but I need to talk to Isidora. Liam is going to hate me but Robert had a point, she deserves to know what she would be getting into with an Allurist. I just hope that I can make things remain stable but who knows.
Things are better now though with Robert and I. The talk eventually went well and we started talking about real estate. Solace needs a place for everyone and we have a few ideas. Which gave me the chance to also look around because well...I am buying a new place. My place is not one that I just want companions of any sort to stay at because well...there are all the messy memories of when I was Jacob and then Erik. On top of all that there is the memory of those vultures coming in and ripping Robert and Heather out of my care for bounties they did not give them a chance to work down. So frustrating. No...I need a place that is going to be safe and you would not believe what happened. Mother was trying to scold me about coming and going in the house all the time because I refuse to stay in my own place so I was staying in my bed at her place (which I kind of had now choice since being teleported out by Habren at the library). Well, I explained to her that I was coming and going like I was so I could train and sell everything I had for the new place. She asked why I was getting the new place. I explained it to her and then...BAM!!! 13K in my bank. She gave me the amount that was needed for the new place. Now I am going to work on getting the other currency needed so that I can give a set of master keys to another. So given that I have this money now...I will talk to you later because I am going to buy home!!
Always yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
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(title of tonights journal events provided by Serendipity...Thanks to Aure we both want to watch the 'Wizard of Oz'. Also posted with Zietsef's permission, Though note this is the result of Lizzie and Aure passing $1500 back and forth to each other for the last 24 hours.)
aurelius.zietsef: *Sent Lizzie a text.* I AM WINNING!
11, 01 Zietsef transfered $1500 into your account
aurelius.zietsef: Give up!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: No!
11, 01 Lizzie Llewellyn transfered $1500 into your account
aurelius.zietsef: Yesssss!
11, 01 Zietsef transfered $1500 into your account
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *growls upon his mind as she stops texting and invades his head.* "NO!"
11, 01 Lizzie Llewellyn transfered $1500 into your account
aurelius.zietsef: *Stuffs his phone into his pocket and yells out loud.* Yeeeeesssss!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *hears him clear in Honeymead.* 'You have a big mouth, Aure.' She hopped the transit making her way to Wickbridge.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *Walking up behind him.* Try me Aure...I dare you!
aurelius.zietsef: *He turned around when Lizzie walked in the door and flashed her a wide grin.* You can't beat me Lizzie!
11, 01 Zietsef transfered $1500 into your account
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *Perked her brow and crossed her arms.* Oh...but I can.
aurelius.zietsef: *Continued to grin and crossed his own arms.* Nope. I wont lose.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Have you forgotten how I get when I am angry? Would you like to see a repeat?
11, 01 Lizzie Llewellyn transfered $1500 into your account
aurelius.zietsef: I don't think I've ever seen you angry.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Then you have forgotten the meeting with Erik, you, Mother, and I...
aurelius.zietsef: Oh yeah! You shot him! We all shot him. >>
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: And then I gave him Nightmares...
aurelius.zietsef: You did? Scary~
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Try me, Aure!!
11, 01 Zietsef transfered $1500 into your account
11, 01 Zietsef transfered $1400 into your account
aurelius.zietsef: Ill freeze you!
11, 01 Lizzie Llewellyn transfered $2900 into your account
11, 01 You were skirmish attacked by Lizzie Llewellyn , but you avoided their attack!
aurelius.zietsef: AHH D: NO!
aurelius.zietsef: Bad!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *growled* That was a warning, Aure.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: I happily paid your debt to Robert. I do not need you to pay me back a single dime let alone extra. I warned you and you kept pushing...now you got a physical warning...please for the Love of Lux, do not keep going. I already have to began for forgiveness from Mother Lux and repent my arse off...
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: But I will gladly do so if you keep up with this nonsense.
aurelius.zietsef: Phew! Lucky you have no bounty!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: You doubted? I do not think you know how hard it is to get a bounty with me. There were 16 humans and my bounty is only $350.
aurelius.zietsef: I want to pay you for paying for my bill. You don't need to pay it for me.
aurelius.zietsef: Ahh! Now the cops are attacking me!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: And you do not need to pay me. Jesus Aure...you are my father figure....I am allowed to help out.
aurelius.zietsef: Okay, i won't pay you.
aurelius.zietsef: But i will buy you a teddy bear!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: What?
aurelius.zietsef: A teddy.
aurelius.zietsef: A gift!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Why?
aurelius.zietsef: Because i can! Fathers should buy their daughters gifts!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Are you serious? Because I will not take the money, you are giving it to me in the form of a gift?
aurelius.zietsef: Its not very much compared to the money.
aurelius.zietsef: So shh.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: >.> Then you are not buying the large teddy...
aurelius.zietsef: And now i wont pay you 1500.
aurelius.zietsef: ... >>
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: <.<
aurelius.zietsef: Ooops~
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *Perked her brow* Oops?
11, 01 Zietsef sent you a gift Huge Plushie. It has been added to your inventory.
aurelius.zietsef: I thought you deserved the big one because you are such an awesome daughter? <.<
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Awesome daughter...hmm...kind of helps that I am the only girl.
aurelius.zietsef: The most awesome childe~? ;x
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Now you are pulling straws. Are you trying to make up for the fact that I shot at you even though I missed?
aurelius.zietsef: I dont need to make up for anything. >>
aurelius.zietsef: You can't shoot me again. Lux will smite you.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Then let her.
aurelius.zietsef: Blasphemy!
11, 01 You were attacked by Lizzie Llewellyn , who used their Waking Nightmare power on you!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Soo...Aure...I think you might have a bit of an issue now. Do you want to be more agreeable now?
aurelius.zietsef: AHHH! NO!!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *Perked her brow* What is it like to have nightmares while you are awake?
aurelius.zietsef: *Flailed around and clawed at the invisible monsters in his nightmare!* I will curse you!!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: No you will not.
aurelius.zietsef: Willl!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: I can fix that...
aurelius.zietsef: *Cursed her!*
11, 01 Zietsef cursed your spirit!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: <.< Ummm...hmmm...the nightmares have confused you before I could Aure...I am not dead.
aurelius.zietsef: *Flailed around.*
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *snickered*
aurelius.zietsef: I WILL GET YOU LIZZIEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Here...I will make it easier for you...I will come to you.
aurelius.zietsef: Ahh! No! Go away!
aurelius.zietsef: *Tried to hide! D: *
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: You are not hiding very well. You are still sitting in the transit.
aurelius.zietsef: *Tried to hide behind a row of chairs but when the nightmares made it seem like the chairs were eating him he kicked them across the room.* NOOOOOO!!
aurelius.zietsef: *Aurelius dashed towards BT.*
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *snickered as she watched.* Will you fight with me next time?
aurelius.zietsef: You wont win! *Shouted back as her as he hid in the building.*
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Oh but I will, Aure...that is where you are mistaken...
aurelius.zietsef: No you wont!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: How do you figure? Who is the screaming and who is not?
aurelius.zietsef: I'll get you back!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Alright...I am waiting.
aurelius.zietsef: I have no magic!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: You are not entirely magic dependant are you?
aurelius.zietsef: ... Fine! I will shoot you!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: If that is what you wish to do. *Places her crappy gun on the floor since she made her human hide her custom one.* Unarmed.
aurelius.zietsef: That's not fair! You can't do that!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Why not?
aurelius.zietsef: It's mean to shoot unnarmed people!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Aure...this way you know that without a doubt, I will not shoot you back.
aurelius.zietsef: No!
aurelius.zietsef: I dont want to shoot you.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *Picked her gun back up and put it in her purse.* Alright.
aurelius.zietsef: *Glared!*
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: What?
aurelius.zietsef: Some day i will get youuu!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *frowns*
aurelius.zietsef: *Pounced and bit her!*
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: I am sorry...
aurelius.zietsef: Gotchu!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *fell backwards and squealed* Ah! *she giggled and hugged him* I think that is cheating but yes you did.
aurelius.zietsef: *Reached down and wrapped his arms around Lizzie, hugging her tightly.*
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *smiled and snuggled him* Sorry, that I hurt you.
aurelius.zietsef: *Snuggled Lizzie.* It's okay.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: (If it's okay with you...I would like to post this in Lizzie's journal.)
aurelius.zietsef: Sure)
"I'll Get You Lizzie and Your Little Dog Too"
aurelius.zietsef: *Sent Lizzie a text.* I AM WINNING!
11, 01 Zietsef transfered $1500 into your account
aurelius.zietsef: Give up!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: No!
11, 01 Lizzie Llewellyn transfered $1500 into your account
aurelius.zietsef: Yesssss!
11, 01 Zietsef transfered $1500 into your account
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *growls upon his mind as she stops texting and invades his head.* "NO!"
11, 01 Lizzie Llewellyn transfered $1500 into your account
aurelius.zietsef: *Stuffs his phone into his pocket and yells out loud.* Yeeeeesssss!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *hears him clear in Honeymead.* 'You have a big mouth, Aure.' She hopped the transit making her way to Wickbridge.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *Walking up behind him.* Try me Aure...I dare you!
aurelius.zietsef: *He turned around when Lizzie walked in the door and flashed her a wide grin.* You can't beat me Lizzie!
11, 01 Zietsef transfered $1500 into your account
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *Perked her brow and crossed her arms.* Oh...but I can.
aurelius.zietsef: *Continued to grin and crossed his own arms.* Nope. I wont lose.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Have you forgotten how I get when I am angry? Would you like to see a repeat?
11, 01 Lizzie Llewellyn transfered $1500 into your account
aurelius.zietsef: I don't think I've ever seen you angry.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Then you have forgotten the meeting with Erik, you, Mother, and I...
aurelius.zietsef: Oh yeah! You shot him! We all shot him. >>
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: And then I gave him Nightmares...
aurelius.zietsef: You did? Scary~
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Try me, Aure!!
11, 01 Zietsef transfered $1500 into your account
11, 01 Zietsef transfered $1400 into your account
aurelius.zietsef: Ill freeze you!
11, 01 Lizzie Llewellyn transfered $2900 into your account
11, 01 You were skirmish attacked by Lizzie Llewellyn , but you avoided their attack!
aurelius.zietsef: AHH D: NO!
aurelius.zietsef: Bad!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *growled* That was a warning, Aure.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: I happily paid your debt to Robert. I do not need you to pay me back a single dime let alone extra. I warned you and you kept pushing...now you got a physical warning...please for the Love of Lux, do not keep going. I already have to began for forgiveness from Mother Lux and repent my arse off...
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: But I will gladly do so if you keep up with this nonsense.
aurelius.zietsef: Phew! Lucky you have no bounty!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: You doubted? I do not think you know how hard it is to get a bounty with me. There were 16 humans and my bounty is only $350.
aurelius.zietsef: I want to pay you for paying for my bill. You don't need to pay it for me.
aurelius.zietsef: Ahh! Now the cops are attacking me!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: And you do not need to pay me. Jesus Aure...you are my father figure....I am allowed to help out.
aurelius.zietsef: Okay, i won't pay you.
aurelius.zietsef: But i will buy you a teddy bear!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: What?
aurelius.zietsef: A teddy.
aurelius.zietsef: A gift!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Why?
aurelius.zietsef: Because i can! Fathers should buy their daughters gifts!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Are you serious? Because I will not take the money, you are giving it to me in the form of a gift?
aurelius.zietsef: Its not very much compared to the money.
aurelius.zietsef: So shh.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: >.> Then you are not buying the large teddy...
aurelius.zietsef: And now i wont pay you 1500.
aurelius.zietsef: ... >>
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: <.<
aurelius.zietsef: Ooops~
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *Perked her brow* Oops?
11, 01 Zietsef sent you a gift Huge Plushie. It has been added to your inventory.
aurelius.zietsef: I thought you deserved the big one because you are such an awesome daughter? <.<
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Awesome daughter...hmm...kind of helps that I am the only girl.
aurelius.zietsef: The most awesome childe~? ;x
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Now you are pulling straws. Are you trying to make up for the fact that I shot at you even though I missed?
aurelius.zietsef: I dont need to make up for anything. >>
aurelius.zietsef: You can't shoot me again. Lux will smite you.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Then let her.
aurelius.zietsef: Blasphemy!
11, 01 You were attacked by Lizzie Llewellyn , who used their Waking Nightmare power on you!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Soo...Aure...I think you might have a bit of an issue now. Do you want to be more agreeable now?
aurelius.zietsef: AHHH! NO!!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *Perked her brow* What is it like to have nightmares while you are awake?
aurelius.zietsef: *Flailed around and clawed at the invisible monsters in his nightmare!* I will curse you!!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: No you will not.
aurelius.zietsef: Willl!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: I can fix that...
aurelius.zietsef: *Cursed her!*
11, 01 Zietsef cursed your spirit!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: <.< Ummm...hmmm...the nightmares have confused you before I could Aure...I am not dead.
aurelius.zietsef: *Flailed around.*
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *snickered*
aurelius.zietsef: I WILL GET YOU LIZZIEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Here...I will make it easier for you...I will come to you.
aurelius.zietsef: Ahh! No! Go away!
aurelius.zietsef: *Tried to hide! D: *
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: You are not hiding very well. You are still sitting in the transit.
aurelius.zietsef: *Tried to hide behind a row of chairs but when the nightmares made it seem like the chairs were eating him he kicked them across the room.* NOOOOOO!!
aurelius.zietsef: *Aurelius dashed towards BT.*
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *snickered as she watched.* Will you fight with me next time?
aurelius.zietsef: You wont win! *Shouted back as her as he hid in the building.*
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Oh but I will, Aure...that is where you are mistaken...
aurelius.zietsef: No you wont!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: How do you figure? Who is the screaming and who is not?
aurelius.zietsef: I'll get you back!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Alright...I am waiting.
aurelius.zietsef: I have no magic!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: You are not entirely magic dependant are you?
aurelius.zietsef: ... Fine! I will shoot you!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: If that is what you wish to do. *Places her crappy gun on the floor since she made her human hide her custom one.* Unarmed.
aurelius.zietsef: That's not fair! You can't do that!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Why not?
aurelius.zietsef: It's mean to shoot unnarmed people!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: Aure...this way you know that without a doubt, I will not shoot you back.
aurelius.zietsef: No!
aurelius.zietsef: I dont want to shoot you.
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *Picked her gun back up and put it in her purse.* Alright.
aurelius.zietsef: *Glared!*
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: What?
aurelius.zietsef: Some day i will get youuu!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *frowns*
aurelius.zietsef: *Pounced and bit her!*
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: I am sorry...
aurelius.zietsef: Gotchu!
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *fell backwards and squealed* Ah! *she giggled and hugged him* I think that is cheating but yes you did.
aurelius.zietsef: *Reached down and wrapped his arms around Lizzie, hugging her tightly.*
Elizabeth Llewellyn-Croft: *smiled and snuggled him* Sorry, that I hurt you.
aurelius.zietsef: *Snuggled Lizzie.* It's okay.
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Re: Diary of the Sweetheart
Dear Maggie,
So today has been interesting but I am not going to say too much. It would be terrible if you happened to get into the hands of someone that really should not have you. I mean I tell you everything but until things are for certain and made more public...I am keeping quiet. The new place is not even decorated yet and you just happen to be hidden behind the ritual alter so yeah...give me some time.
Mother found a new tome today. Tome: Home Bound. To be honest, I know how Robert is when it comes to rituals but the excitement in his eyes when she gave him the tome. I did errands for him to get what he needed. It did not work though but maybe tomorrow or the next day. He has to take the time to learn them. He will get it though as I have faith in him and in the Light of Lux. He is the best that I know at rituals so he will learn the ritual and be able to teach us all.
Oh, I stopped by the hospital again today. I am really starting to worry about Owen because he has not been released yet but he looked better than he did last time. (She used Appraisal to see that he was doing better with the blood gain.) I am hopeful that he will mend well. I brought him another large vase of flowers but this time instead of being sunflowers, they were white orchids. Orchids are amazing and always look perfect. I also brought him a coffee and Molly came with these amazing cupcakes that look way to pretty to eat. I am not sure if he was asleep or not but he did not respond while I was there. Molly eventually kicked me out and told me to go home. She stayed which she felt was better since she is a human. Give him a little comfort but I worry about her. She is one of my best friends and she is staying in the open where she is vulnerable. Maggie...what if she gets hurt because of me? I do not even know who all would be able to recognize her... Maybe I should go back but she promised to call should any trouble arise. I will trust her to contact if she was in danger.
So the new house. Is amazing and the contractors just finished with the additions. Now I just need to hire an interior decorator to help me set it all up. I have ideas for each room already and one room alone is going to be devoted to a ritual room...I better be thanked in a big way for this because I can not even do rituals. I was only able to do it one day and that was because a ritual was cast upon me and then I was slightly helped. Either way...I am looking at a bathroom, office with a garden, main entertainment room, ritual room, master bedroom, a bedroom, and a library with slight entertainment. I am thinking of having art work on the walls in the hallway. It is going to be amazing!! It will be homey and easy to relax in. Crisp and clean. Oh...I forgot to mention that I was adding a kitchenette like I have in my Beta Tower place because if Mother visits, she can get something to eat and drink. Besides...I need a stove so I can make the tea that I can not drink. Relaxing...the smell always relaxes me. Maybe it is a British thing. Anytime anything happens...happy, sad, scared, worried, stressed, etc...I make a pot of tea. Never fails.
I am going to get some rest, Maggie. I have to go and apologize to Mother when I wake. I was terrible to her and harm to her never should have happened though it was interesting to learn that I am jealous of rituals. Most are jealous of other men or women...nope I am of over rituals. I do not understand but meditation and a trip to the Vathiá are definitely scheduled. I just do not know how long it will take so I need to make arrangements for while I am gone. I need time with Lux. To repent and have her guide me back to the path of enlightenment.
Good Night, Maggie!
Always Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
So today has been interesting but I am not going to say too much. It would be terrible if you happened to get into the hands of someone that really should not have you. I mean I tell you everything but until things are for certain and made more public...I am keeping quiet. The new place is not even decorated yet and you just happen to be hidden behind the ritual alter so yeah...give me some time.
Mother found a new tome today. Tome: Home Bound. To be honest, I know how Robert is when it comes to rituals but the excitement in his eyes when she gave him the tome. I did errands for him to get what he needed. It did not work though but maybe tomorrow or the next day. He has to take the time to learn them. He will get it though as I have faith in him and in the Light of Lux. He is the best that I know at rituals so he will learn the ritual and be able to teach us all.
Oh, I stopped by the hospital again today. I am really starting to worry about Owen because he has not been released yet but he looked better than he did last time. (She used Appraisal to see that he was doing better with the blood gain.) I am hopeful that he will mend well. I brought him another large vase of flowers but this time instead of being sunflowers, they were white orchids. Orchids are amazing and always look perfect. I also brought him a coffee and Molly came with these amazing cupcakes that look way to pretty to eat. I am not sure if he was asleep or not but he did not respond while I was there. Molly eventually kicked me out and told me to go home. She stayed which she felt was better since she is a human. Give him a little comfort but I worry about her. She is one of my best friends and she is staying in the open where she is vulnerable. Maggie...what if she gets hurt because of me? I do not even know who all would be able to recognize her... Maybe I should go back but she promised to call should any trouble arise. I will trust her to contact if she was in danger.
So the new house. Is amazing and the contractors just finished with the additions. Now I just need to hire an interior decorator to help me set it all up. I have ideas for each room already and one room alone is going to be devoted to a ritual room...I better be thanked in a big way for this because I can not even do rituals. I was only able to do it one day and that was because a ritual was cast upon me and then I was slightly helped. Either way...I am looking at a bathroom, office with a garden, main entertainment room, ritual room, master bedroom, a bedroom, and a library with slight entertainment. I am thinking of having art work on the walls in the hallway. It is going to be amazing!! It will be homey and easy to relax in. Crisp and clean. Oh...I forgot to mention that I was adding a kitchenette like I have in my Beta Tower place because if Mother visits, she can get something to eat and drink. Besides...I need a stove so I can make the tea that I can not drink. Relaxing...the smell always relaxes me. Maybe it is a British thing. Anytime anything happens...happy, sad, scared, worried, stressed, etc...I make a pot of tea. Never fails.
I am going to get some rest, Maggie. I have to go and apologize to Mother when I wake. I was terrible to her and harm to her never should have happened though it was interesting to learn that I am jealous of rituals. Most are jealous of other men or women...nope I am of over rituals. I do not understand but meditation and a trip to the Vathiá are definitely scheduled. I just do not know how long it will take so I need to make arrangements for while I am gone. I need time with Lux. To repent and have her guide me back to the path of enlightenment.
Good Night, Maggie!
Always Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
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Re: Diary of the Sweetheart
Dear Maggie,
Today has been a quiet yet interesting day. First off I should tell you that I gave my custom gun that is named after you to Robert. Molly was not holding on to it very well because she is far to devoted and gave it to me even after I warned her not to...I ended up shooting Mother with it. Once in the shoulder and once in the back. I feel terrible but I have talked with her and apologized.
I went grocery shopping today. I needed more tea (I really wished I could drink it...I miss it so much) and well Molly needed food and I am trying to get Mother for a girls night with movies and all. They need food. I even did a load of laundry. I simply can not have a mess in the house....not possible. It is funny though to watch Kaleidoscope follow behind me as I clean up. She pounces my shadow in between chasing her tail. She is the best gift ever and I need to thank Oria again. I will not lie though...I am waiting for the day that I come home and find her missing. Robert is sweet with her as long as I am around but I would not put it past him to give her and odd look while trying to figure out how he can get away with using her in one of his many rituals. Good thing he has my gun. I will not be able to shoot him.
I should let you know...Gambat finally woke today. He scared me when I went over to feed and take care of Noah. He was the best investment because he makes me giggle and he watches over Gambat so well while he sleeps. He is good for Gambat. Well we talked and ended our relationship. We are on good terms. Still friends and he is staying in Solace but I felt terrible talking to him about it. He feels that it was his fault but I told him that it was no fault of anyone...just that sometimes there are a chain of events that we can not explain but have to deal with them as happen. Maybe some of those events could have been prevented but it is a little late for that now. Everything happens for a reason... I am just glad that I still have a friend in him. He is an amazing man and he deserves better than me.
Oh...I should tell you...Mother scolded me for using Kaleidoscope as a "meat shield". Let me explain... She said that she wanted to have a little chat with me and I went running thinking that she was going to shoot me. Well my only thought on defense at the time (because I was caught off guard for her urgency) was Kaleidoscope. I scooped her up and put her in my purse as I ran over to Beta Towers. Well imagine those bad cop shows where they enter a persons home with their guns out in front of them as they walked cautiously through the home...yeah...mimicked that with I.D. (Kaleidoscopes nickname given by Robert). I do not think she was mad at me from that point on other than telling me that Lux would be disappointed in me and would not approve of my shield choice. She had a point. I think maybe I need to make a list of things that I need to repent to Lux over. It seems to grow each day. It is terrible.
Well...I will talk to you later. I have to talk Mother into coming over to watch movies with Molly and I. I need a distraction in a big way. I do not do well when I worry and yeah...I have been doing that all day for reasons that I have not stated. I might explain later.
Always Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
Today has been a quiet yet interesting day. First off I should tell you that I gave my custom gun that is named after you to Robert. Molly was not holding on to it very well because she is far to devoted and gave it to me even after I warned her not to...I ended up shooting Mother with it. Once in the shoulder and once in the back. I feel terrible but I have talked with her and apologized.
I went grocery shopping today. I needed more tea (I really wished I could drink it...I miss it so much) and well Molly needed food and I am trying to get Mother for a girls night with movies and all. They need food. I even did a load of laundry. I simply can not have a mess in the house....not possible. It is funny though to watch Kaleidoscope follow behind me as I clean up. She pounces my shadow in between chasing her tail. She is the best gift ever and I need to thank Oria again. I will not lie though...I am waiting for the day that I come home and find her missing. Robert is sweet with her as long as I am around but I would not put it past him to give her and odd look while trying to figure out how he can get away with using her in one of his many rituals. Good thing he has my gun. I will not be able to shoot him.
I should let you know...Gambat finally woke today. He scared me when I went over to feed and take care of Noah. He was the best investment because he makes me giggle and he watches over Gambat so well while he sleeps. He is good for Gambat. Well we talked and ended our relationship. We are on good terms. Still friends and he is staying in Solace but I felt terrible talking to him about it. He feels that it was his fault but I told him that it was no fault of anyone...just that sometimes there are a chain of events that we can not explain but have to deal with them as happen. Maybe some of those events could have been prevented but it is a little late for that now. Everything happens for a reason... I am just glad that I still have a friend in him. He is an amazing man and he deserves better than me.
Oh...I should tell you...Mother scolded me for using Kaleidoscope as a "meat shield". Let me explain... She said that she wanted to have a little chat with me and I went running thinking that she was going to shoot me. Well my only thought on defense at the time (because I was caught off guard for her urgency) was Kaleidoscope. I scooped her up and put her in my purse as I ran over to Beta Towers. Well imagine those bad cop shows where they enter a persons home with their guns out in front of them as they walked cautiously through the home...yeah...mimicked that with I.D. (Kaleidoscopes nickname given by Robert). I do not think she was mad at me from that point on other than telling me that Lux would be disappointed in me and would not approve of my shield choice. She had a point. I think maybe I need to make a list of things that I need to repent to Lux over. It seems to grow each day. It is terrible.
Well...I will talk to you later. I have to talk Mother into coming over to watch movies with Molly and I. I need a distraction in a big way. I do not do well when I worry and yeah...I have been doing that all day for reasons that I have not stated. I might explain later.
Always Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
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Re: Diary of the Sweetheart
Dear Maggie,
I have decided that I am done caring about what others might think or feel. Only those that matter are my family or who I look at as family. Every time I turn around someone is out to hurt those that I care for and I can not just idly sit by with a smile on my face. I can not pretend any more that everything is going to be okay. Each day I worry more and more because there is always something. With all of this mess dealing with Owen, then the Grigori possibly wanting to kill Robert over something that he has already died for, and then something is off with Hamlet.
The Grigori thing we are unsure of yet. It can teeter totter any direction, I guess it would just depend on what they find out but I honestly hope that it does not come to death. Robert still has two death wounds to work off. A third would just make it impossible to heal properly. Is it wrong that I want him to be healthy? Anyway, he reminded me that I am not to shoot anyone but that was all he said. Loop hole, Maggie!! Loop hole! I have powers that I can use. I even called Mother to warn her but she told me that Robert had already done so, so she was expecting my call. Well I met her in the Abandoned Warehouse that she took me too when she first turned me 18 months ago and came up with a plan. We will not last against Grigori...we know this as we have already been through it when Grigori and DC had their issues but we can try and take a few with us. It is only defensive measures...we are not going to actively seek them out, only should something happen.
Now another thing that bothers me is Hamlet. He seemed so calm and laid back. Eager to learn more especially about Solace. He asked so many questions that this was a good thing but Robert asked me the other day when he was telling me that he might possibly be sent to the Realm of Shadows again that Hamlet has been using Changeling to look like others. I feel terrible for Lancaster, Mick, and Robert especially if there is going to be a backlash from this. What I do not understand is why would he do this and why would it be a question if a telepath can manipulate minds. Honestly from all the training and studies that I have gone through for my path, manipulation is not an option. Those sort of powers are in the Allurist path such as Confuse or Seduction. The most I can do is read this chap's mind or send him messages. Well correction, I did take to the Illusionist path which means I can give him nightmares while he is a wake or even create illusions that would be harmful but that would not affect him in a way that he would harm others. I want to know why he would think to pin this on telepaths... I would like to talk to him but this really has nothing to do with me and I do not want to make matters worse. I will just sit and answer the questions as they come to me to help.
Oh! Robert used the ritual on me again and made it possible that I could do rituals. I will tell you now that I have confirmed my hatred for them. I get so close and when I have just a few words left, I fail. This time I got my arse kicked. Robert was not pleased and told me that if I was not careful that he would not cast the ritual on me anymore to keep me safe. I am just trying to understand the excitement with it. Though it will say that I was easily frustrated because once I would think I had it or figured out the pattern, the pattern would change and I would be screwed. Hate it! Oh well, Robert does not want me to do them alone anymore to ensure that I am safe, which means that he might help me. That would be bloody fantastic as it would be great to have someone helping that has clue as to what to do.
He was really sweet today though after scolding me in panic and worry over my wounds from the Demi-Fae (which I had to tell him that if he did not believe me then he could ask the Nobles or Mother that the Fae have not liked me since I came to this city as a vampire. They have been trying to eat and/or kill me from day one and the Demi-Fae are no different, they just do not hurt as much. I derailed again...sorry.), he had pulled from his bag six black roses and amazing necklace with orchids. I love orchids and it is so stunning. I will wear it every day. I love it!
Another thing...I had one more power left in shifter to get and then I was in the killer path. I was excited until a valid point was made...I need Untraceable. If those that I care for are being hunted...they can not track them through me and this will eventually be the case once everyone figures out what is going on...not that it is a bad thing and some would not be surprised but protection is always key. I will do what I can to protect him and my family...even if that means staying away from them should a hunt start. I would just hate every minute of it but then again...I am sure they will do as I can guarantee that I will not stay out of their heads, talking to them and making sure they do not get hit. Actually...maybe changing directions on my studies was a good idea...I will hit Summoner before I hit Shadow for Untraceable. It would be perfect. I will invade the minds of those that I hold dear, if they get attacked then save them. Though given the Obits recently...it will not save me...just do not tell him that. <.<
Well I am going to hide you quick because I think I hear movement in the other room and Noah is begging to be taken out. I will talk to you later and if I know more then I will let you know but here is hoping for the best and that everything works out for the better.
Always yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
I have decided that I am done caring about what others might think or feel. Only those that matter are my family or who I look at as family. Every time I turn around someone is out to hurt those that I care for and I can not just idly sit by with a smile on my face. I can not pretend any more that everything is going to be okay. Each day I worry more and more because there is always something. With all of this mess dealing with Owen, then the Grigori possibly wanting to kill Robert over something that he has already died for, and then something is off with Hamlet.
The Grigori thing we are unsure of yet. It can teeter totter any direction, I guess it would just depend on what they find out but I honestly hope that it does not come to death. Robert still has two death wounds to work off. A third would just make it impossible to heal properly. Is it wrong that I want him to be healthy? Anyway, he reminded me that I am not to shoot anyone but that was all he said. Loop hole, Maggie!! Loop hole! I have powers that I can use. I even called Mother to warn her but she told me that Robert had already done so, so she was expecting my call. Well I met her in the Abandoned Warehouse that she took me too when she first turned me 18 months ago and came up with a plan. We will not last against Grigori...we know this as we have already been through it when Grigori and DC had their issues but we can try and take a few with us. It is only defensive measures...we are not going to actively seek them out, only should something happen.
Now another thing that bothers me is Hamlet. He seemed so calm and laid back. Eager to learn more especially about Solace. He asked so many questions that this was a good thing but Robert asked me the other day when he was telling me that he might possibly be sent to the Realm of Shadows again that Hamlet has been using Changeling to look like others. I feel terrible for Lancaster, Mick, and Robert especially if there is going to be a backlash from this. What I do not understand is why would he do this and why would it be a question if a telepath can manipulate minds. Honestly from all the training and studies that I have gone through for my path, manipulation is not an option. Those sort of powers are in the Allurist path such as Confuse or Seduction. The most I can do is read this chap's mind or send him messages. Well correction, I did take to the Illusionist path which means I can give him nightmares while he is a wake or even create illusions that would be harmful but that would not affect him in a way that he would harm others. I want to know why he would think to pin this on telepaths... I would like to talk to him but this really has nothing to do with me and I do not want to make matters worse. I will just sit and answer the questions as they come to me to help.
Oh! Robert used the ritual on me again and made it possible that I could do rituals. I will tell you now that I have confirmed my hatred for them. I get so close and when I have just a few words left, I fail. This time I got my arse kicked. Robert was not pleased and told me that if I was not careful that he would not cast the ritual on me anymore to keep me safe. I am just trying to understand the excitement with it. Though it will say that I was easily frustrated because once I would think I had it or figured out the pattern, the pattern would change and I would be screwed. Hate it! Oh well, Robert does not want me to do them alone anymore to ensure that I am safe, which means that he might help me. That would be bloody fantastic as it would be great to have someone helping that has clue as to what to do.
He was really sweet today though after scolding me in panic and worry over my wounds from the Demi-Fae (which I had to tell him that if he did not believe me then he could ask the Nobles or Mother that the Fae have not liked me since I came to this city as a vampire. They have been trying to eat and/or kill me from day one and the Demi-Fae are no different, they just do not hurt as much. I derailed again...sorry.), he had pulled from his bag six black roses and amazing necklace with orchids. I love orchids and it is so stunning. I will wear it every day. I love it!
Another thing...I had one more power left in shifter to get and then I was in the killer path. I was excited until a valid point was made...I need Untraceable. If those that I care for are being hunted...they can not track them through me and this will eventually be the case once everyone figures out what is going on...not that it is a bad thing and some would not be surprised but protection is always key. I will do what I can to protect him and my family...even if that means staying away from them should a hunt start. I would just hate every minute of it but then again...I am sure they will do as I can guarantee that I will not stay out of their heads, talking to them and making sure they do not get hit. Actually...maybe changing directions on my studies was a good idea...I will hit Summoner before I hit Shadow for Untraceable. It would be perfect. I will invade the minds of those that I hold dear, if they get attacked then save them. Though given the Obits recently...it will not save me...just do not tell him that. <.<
Well I am going to hide you quick because I think I hear movement in the other room and Noah is begging to be taken out. I will talk to you later and if I know more then I will let you know but here is hoping for the best and that everything works out for the better.
Always yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
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Re: Diary of the Sweetheart
Maggie~
You have to help me remember. I do not care how annoying that this journal is going to become...you have to help me remember. I am so scared that if my heart was beating it would ache in fear. I am petrified and there is nothing that I can do to stop it. Why have we not come out more about our relationship? Were we protecting others because it was so sudden? A surprise? Seem like a rebound when that simply was not the case? Us falling in love was accidental or I thought so at the time. God, if our families knew then maybe they would help but at this rate...my family will not help as Mother and Robert have been getting into it lately. I love him, Maggie. I will shout it to the tops of the city, let them change directions of their constant lynch mob to harm me instead of him, take a death that is nothing better suited than that of a beggar all because I love him. Please, please, please do not let me forget him.
Maybe I should explain though...You know how Robert is with rituals... Well his current favoured ritual is Unknowing. This is a ritual where the Demi-Fae picks at random who will forget about you. Granted this is a benefit for Robert because the more that forget about him, the safer he will be. Only problem to all of this is the random part...the Demi-Fae could be so cruel and make me forget. He says that he will do all in his power to try and make me fall in love with him again but it just makes me think of all those romance novels or movies where this sort of thing happens. It is not guaranteed to work. Yes, in the books and movies it does but that is all fiction, life does not always work that way. I am trying to be optimistic about this but I am also thinking realistically.
This is where my annoying entries to you are going to come into play. I have this idea but not sure how well it will work that this journal will give us a head start because it will prove that what he says is true unless I just end up lying to myself. Okay...now I am getting paranoid because honestly...I know my own handwriting so it would not be like he wrote this for me to give me false memories. Gah! This really is terrible. Anyway...Robert Pratt...do not let me forget about Robert Pratt.
Out of all the relationships that I have ever had...this is the best one yet. Maggie, you do not even know the full extent of how I feel. I kept it from you because we worried about the wrong people knowing that we were together...using me to harm him. We can not be bothered by that because you are going to help me remember him. Though you know what would be terrible is those that wanted to hurt him and get to him, get a hold of me to use me against him -After- I forget. I would not know what the bloody hell was going on. Oh sweet Jesus...that could ruin this whole remembering bit because what if they got ahold of you and I lost all that I have about him. Maybe I should make copies. There should be a Kinko's in town...right? I will look into this because if I convert this to the computer, I will not believe that I wrote these words...no, has to be in my handwriting so yes...copies, several physical copies. His enemies can not possibly find them all and destroy them. I am more clever than that and I have several places that I can hide them. I still have keys to some DC homes and Isabella's home but that is only for the moment, then there is my place in Beta, Gambat's place, Mother's place, Liam's place (god is that place huge, great for hiding important information), the several Solace buildings, and Robert and I's place. Yeah...there is no way they can find all copies. This will be good. A paranoid idea and action but a good one.
Oh God...I did not even explain how I think it is one of the best relationships yet because of my "I need copies" tangent. I need to learn to stop derailing my own journal. Anyway...everyone knows that my first love ever came as me being a vampire to Jacob Regan. I loved him with all that I could possess at the time. I thought he loved me and he did but not how he should have because of Isabella. Sadly a lot of those that I was in a relationship had a thing for Isabella. Is it sad that I was not trying to compete with my grandsire but did unknowingly? I think that had a lot to do with the betrayal from her...she knew they all loved her and yet...somehow they ended up with me while they still desired her. I sort of gotten used to it. I was always lost in her shadow. I loved Jacob and he loved me but half-heartedly because he wanted Isabella. He called off our engagement, she left her husband Nick Bowstrong and they hooked up. It was expected. I then later fell for Erik Stryker (though the city knew him as Erik von Koln who is now married to his childer, Katya. God I hate her.) That was terrible mix because he constantly cheated on me and one of them...Isabella. Should have known on our honeymoon that it would be a constant issue with him. Oh well...I am over it, he is Katya's problem now.
But Robert...see...Robert is amazing. He does not have feelings for Isabella and hell, he feels how I do about the Nobles. It is fantastic. He actually loves me. He has a heart of gold that no one truly sees because he keeps it so locked up but he shows me. Trusts me enough to open himself up in such a way that it would leave him vulnerable and yet...he does it willingly every moment of the day that he is with me. Maggie...I love this man more than I have ever loved Jacob and to tell you the truth...that was near impossible, at least a year ago. I love him with every fiber of my being that I would willingly die to keep to himself. There is nothing that I would not do for him just so that he would remain safe and allow me to love him each and every day for the rest of my life. Robert has given me a new hope and a new life and I want to share it with no one but him. Even as he sleeps next to me and write these words to prepare for the worst, I think nothing but the love that I have him. If he wants to try and make me fall back in love with him should I forget him then bring on the challenge because this feeling right here...now and always, I want that every day of my life. He gives me that happiness, joy, and love that I can not see being without it. Oh...he played a song for me the other day (the day before he told me about this ritual issue) and I can not get it out of my head. I know that he will always be there for me. Here...let me get the words for you.
I think it is one of the most beautiful songs that I have heard recently. I know this is his way to reassure me that everything will be okay. I believe him but it might take a lot of hard work. I am up for the challenge and maybe this will make us stronger together than what we already are but I am not entirely sure. Telepaths never forget...it is sort of impossible for us but these rituals and how they affect others. This ritual changes the components in ones mind...changing their memories...that is nothing that a telepath can prevent or at least I have figured out because this is beyond our abilities. This is not like a door being closed and hidden away...this is removing memories and that should never be a possibility. There would be no way that I could tap into the memories even with going to the Vathiá, they would simply be lost to me.
Help me Maggie!! Help me remember...you are the only one we have that can help here unless he tells others to help but knowing him...it will just be him and you on this venture of helping me remember or at least helping me fall back in love with him because remembering will not be an option...those memories would be gone. *sigh* Yes...just wrote that out...that is how frustrated I am at this point. Out of all the habits he had to get addicted to...why was it rituals? Well here is a song that I have found that I can not help but think of him when I listen to it. Let me copy down the words just perfectly.
I love him, Maggie...I will never get tired of saying it. I am not sure if he knows how much he means to me but I would never deny him my feelings should he ask. Hell, he could wake up right now, read these words, and I would tell him that I meant every one them. He has my heart and he has promised to keep it safe. This is just an unplanned obstacle that we will just have to get around.
Okay, I am going to try and get some sleep before he wakes and tells me that he needs more Mooncalf bones for the ritual. I will have to run out and grab those for him even though I know the possible outcome...I support him anyway because the more that forget him...the safer he will be.
Always yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
You have to help me remember. I do not care how annoying that this journal is going to become...you have to help me remember. I am so scared that if my heart was beating it would ache in fear. I am petrified and there is nothing that I can do to stop it. Why have we not come out more about our relationship? Were we protecting others because it was so sudden? A surprise? Seem like a rebound when that simply was not the case? Us falling in love was accidental or I thought so at the time. God, if our families knew then maybe they would help but at this rate...my family will not help as Mother and Robert have been getting into it lately. I love him, Maggie. I will shout it to the tops of the city, let them change directions of their constant lynch mob to harm me instead of him, take a death that is nothing better suited than that of a beggar all because I love him. Please, please, please do not let me forget him.
Maybe I should explain though...You know how Robert is with rituals... Well his current favoured ritual is Unknowing. This is a ritual where the Demi-Fae picks at random who will forget about you. Granted this is a benefit for Robert because the more that forget about him, the safer he will be. Only problem to all of this is the random part...the Demi-Fae could be so cruel and make me forget. He says that he will do all in his power to try and make me fall in love with him again but it just makes me think of all those romance novels or movies where this sort of thing happens. It is not guaranteed to work. Yes, in the books and movies it does but that is all fiction, life does not always work that way. I am trying to be optimistic about this but I am also thinking realistically.
This is where my annoying entries to you are going to come into play. I have this idea but not sure how well it will work that this journal will give us a head start because it will prove that what he says is true unless I just end up lying to myself. Okay...now I am getting paranoid because honestly...I know my own handwriting so it would not be like he wrote this for me to give me false memories. Gah! This really is terrible. Anyway...Robert Pratt...do not let me forget about Robert Pratt.
Out of all the relationships that I have ever had...this is the best one yet. Maggie, you do not even know the full extent of how I feel. I kept it from you because we worried about the wrong people knowing that we were together...using me to harm him. We can not be bothered by that because you are going to help me remember him. Though you know what would be terrible is those that wanted to hurt him and get to him, get a hold of me to use me against him -After- I forget. I would not know what the bloody hell was going on. Oh sweet Jesus...that could ruin this whole remembering bit because what if they got ahold of you and I lost all that I have about him. Maybe I should make copies. There should be a Kinko's in town...right? I will look into this because if I convert this to the computer, I will not believe that I wrote these words...no, has to be in my handwriting so yes...copies, several physical copies. His enemies can not possibly find them all and destroy them. I am more clever than that and I have several places that I can hide them. I still have keys to some DC homes and Isabella's home but that is only for the moment, then there is my place in Beta, Gambat's place, Mother's place, Liam's place (god is that place huge, great for hiding important information), the several Solace buildings, and Robert and I's place. Yeah...there is no way they can find all copies. This will be good. A paranoid idea and action but a good one.
Oh God...I did not even explain how I think it is one of the best relationships yet because of my "I need copies" tangent. I need to learn to stop derailing my own journal. Anyway...everyone knows that my first love ever came as me being a vampire to Jacob Regan. I loved him with all that I could possess at the time. I thought he loved me and he did but not how he should have because of Isabella. Sadly a lot of those that I was in a relationship had a thing for Isabella. Is it sad that I was not trying to compete with my grandsire but did unknowingly? I think that had a lot to do with the betrayal from her...she knew they all loved her and yet...somehow they ended up with me while they still desired her. I sort of gotten used to it. I was always lost in her shadow. I loved Jacob and he loved me but half-heartedly because he wanted Isabella. He called off our engagement, she left her husband Nick Bowstrong and they hooked up. It was expected. I then later fell for Erik Stryker (though the city knew him as Erik von Koln who is now married to his childer, Katya. God I hate her.) That was terrible mix because he constantly cheated on me and one of them...Isabella. Should have known on our honeymoon that it would be a constant issue with him. Oh well...I am over it, he is Katya's problem now.
But Robert...see...Robert is amazing. He does not have feelings for Isabella and hell, he feels how I do about the Nobles. It is fantastic. He actually loves me. He has a heart of gold that no one truly sees because he keeps it so locked up but he shows me. Trusts me enough to open himself up in such a way that it would leave him vulnerable and yet...he does it willingly every moment of the day that he is with me. Maggie...I love this man more than I have ever loved Jacob and to tell you the truth...that was near impossible, at least a year ago. I love him with every fiber of my being that I would willingly die to keep to himself. There is nothing that I would not do for him just so that he would remain safe and allow me to love him each and every day for the rest of my life. Robert has given me a new hope and a new life and I want to share it with no one but him. Even as he sleeps next to me and write these words to prepare for the worst, I think nothing but the love that I have him. If he wants to try and make me fall back in love with him should I forget him then bring on the challenge because this feeling right here...now and always, I want that every day of my life. He gives me that happiness, joy, and love that I can not see being without it. Oh...he played a song for me the other day (the day before he told me about this ritual issue) and I can not get it out of my head. I know that he will always be there for me. Here...let me get the words for you.
Not Alone
By: Red
Slowly fading away
You're lost and so afraid
Where is the hope In a world so cold?
Looking for a distant light
Someone who can save a life
Living in fear that no one will hear your cries
(Can you save me now)
I am with you
I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you
I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
'Cause you're not
You're not alone
Your heart is full of broken dreams
Just a fading memory
And everything's gone
But the pain carries on
Lost in the rain again
When will it ever end?
It's Hard to believe
It seems so out of reach
But I
(I am here)
I am with you
I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you
I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
'Cause you're not
You're not alone
And I will be your hope
When you feel like it's over
And i will pick you up
When your whole world shatters
When you're finally in my arms
Look up and see love as a face
I am with you
I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you
I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
'Cause you're not
You're not alone
And I will be your hope
You're not alone
And I will pick you up
And i will be your hope
Slowly fading away
Lost and so afraid
Where is the hope in a world so cold?
By: Red
Slowly fading away
You're lost and so afraid
Where is the hope In a world so cold?
Looking for a distant light
Someone who can save a life
Living in fear that no one will hear your cries
(Can you save me now)
I am with you
I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you
I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
'Cause you're not
You're not alone
Your heart is full of broken dreams
Just a fading memory
And everything's gone
But the pain carries on
Lost in the rain again
When will it ever end?
It's Hard to believe
It seems so out of reach
But I
(I am here)
I am with you
I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you
I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
'Cause you're not
You're not alone
And I will be your hope
When you feel like it's over
And i will pick you up
When your whole world shatters
When you're finally in my arms
Look up and see love as a face
I am with you
I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you
I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
'Cause you're not
You're not alone
And I will be your hope
You're not alone
And I will pick you up
And i will be your hope
Slowly fading away
Lost and so afraid
Where is the hope in a world so cold?
I think it is one of the most beautiful songs that I have heard recently. I know this is his way to reassure me that everything will be okay. I believe him but it might take a lot of hard work. I am up for the challenge and maybe this will make us stronger together than what we already are but I am not entirely sure. Telepaths never forget...it is sort of impossible for us but these rituals and how they affect others. This ritual changes the components in ones mind...changing their memories...that is nothing that a telepath can prevent or at least I have figured out because this is beyond our abilities. This is not like a door being closed and hidden away...this is removing memories and that should never be a possibility. There would be no way that I could tap into the memories even with going to the Vathiá, they would simply be lost to me.
Help me Maggie!! Help me remember...you are the only one we have that can help here unless he tells others to help but knowing him...it will just be him and you on this venture of helping me remember or at least helping me fall back in love with him because remembering will not be an option...those memories would be gone. *sigh* Yes...just wrote that out...that is how frustrated I am at this point. Out of all the habits he had to get addicted to...why was it rituals? Well here is a song that I have found that I can not help but think of him when I listen to it. Let me copy down the words just perfectly.
Just A Kiss
By: Lady Antebellum
Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
I'm caught up in this moment, caught up in your smile
I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this, let's just take it slow
Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
No, I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight
I know that if we give this a little time
It'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, no, it's never felt so right
Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No, I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight
No, I don't want to say goodnight
I know it's time to leave
But you'll be in my dreams
Tonight, tonight, tonight
Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright
Oh, let's do this right with just a kiss goodnight
With a kiss goodnight, kiss goodnight
By: Lady Antebellum
Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
I'm caught up in this moment, caught up in your smile
I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this, let's just take it slow
Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
No, I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight
I know that if we give this a little time
It'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, no, it's never felt so right
Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No, I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight
No, I don't want to say goodnight
I know it's time to leave
But you'll be in my dreams
Tonight, tonight, tonight
Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright
Oh, let's do this right with just a kiss goodnight
With a kiss goodnight, kiss goodnight
I love him, Maggie...I will never get tired of saying it. I am not sure if he knows how much he means to me but I would never deny him my feelings should he ask. Hell, he could wake up right now, read these words, and I would tell him that I meant every one them. He has my heart and he has promised to keep it safe. This is just an unplanned obstacle that we will just have to get around.
Okay, I am going to try and get some sleep before he wakes and tells me that he needs more Mooncalf bones for the ritual. I will have to run out and grab those for him even though I know the possible outcome...I support him anyway because the more that forget him...the safer he will be.
Always yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
-X- HENRY CRAVEN -X-
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Re: Diary of the Sweetheart
Maggie~
I should let you know that I took my own advice. Know how I had thought that I should go to Kinko's and copy my journal and hide it. I did that. I will stop by each day, copy the new pages and fill in the books while mailing out the new sheets to those that are holding copies safe for me. Which so far would be Hamlet and Isidora. I do not know how this will affect me should I fall victim to his ritual. I am taking all precautions possible.
There is a good thing to come out of today...Robert is out of ingredients for the ritual. This buys me time. I can get the copies out to a few more friends and explain the situation. The Light of Lux is shining on me right now. Blessing me with the time to get this all worked out and accomplished in preparation. The only ingredient he really needs right now is flowers. Blueheart flowers...that is all he needs. I have gotten him most of everything else. This is supposed to be a good thing but why do I dread it so much. On top of that...Hamlet got me thinking. I know that it is not true but there is always that small hint of 'what if' that comes to mind. He asked: "What if he wants you or Pi or anyone else to forget?" It can not be true...I mean why tell me each day that he loves me and that he would fight to keep me, make me fall in love with him again, and then do that whole 'happily ever after' that does not honestly exist in reality. I have no reason to not believe Robert but that is the problem...doubt is a terrible, terrible emotion. It is one that is full of darkness and Darkness is the last thing we need right now.
I do worry, Maggie but I love him so whether Robert is telling me the truth or he is doing as Hamlet suggested...I am here to stick it out through thick and thin. I promised him that I would so I have no intentions of going anywhere. We may not progressed our relationship to something more serious than what we are but there is nothing wrong with making promises and keeping them as if we are more serious...right? Oh god...negative thoughts...I need to stop because this is not helping.
Everything will work out perfectly. I know it will. Lux would not bring us together if this was not meant to work. This is just an obstacle that we will need to get through. We can get through anything, I know that we can. See...optimistic thoughts! I have faith, hope, and trust in him and Lux. We will be kept safe. Though this is making me feel tired from the rollercoaster of emotions...I am feeling as if I am being drug through the mud...completely exhausted but I keep moving, keep visiting family and friends to protect what we have while I run his errands for his ingredients for the rituals. I will be glad when I can rest but that will be when we are guaranteed to be safe so that we can live a peaceful life.
I think I am going to try and rest now before I need to run out and get more items and pray that I can find his flowers. I only have a few hours that I can nap, I have to keep moving as this is important and I would do anything for this man.
Always Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
I should let you know that I took my own advice. Know how I had thought that I should go to Kinko's and copy my journal and hide it. I did that. I will stop by each day, copy the new pages and fill in the books while mailing out the new sheets to those that are holding copies safe for me. Which so far would be Hamlet and Isidora. I do not know how this will affect me should I fall victim to his ritual. I am taking all precautions possible.
There is a good thing to come out of today...Robert is out of ingredients for the ritual. This buys me time. I can get the copies out to a few more friends and explain the situation. The Light of Lux is shining on me right now. Blessing me with the time to get this all worked out and accomplished in preparation. The only ingredient he really needs right now is flowers. Blueheart flowers...that is all he needs. I have gotten him most of everything else. This is supposed to be a good thing but why do I dread it so much. On top of that...Hamlet got me thinking. I know that it is not true but there is always that small hint of 'what if' that comes to mind. He asked: "What if he wants you or Pi or anyone else to forget?" It can not be true...I mean why tell me each day that he loves me and that he would fight to keep me, make me fall in love with him again, and then do that whole 'happily ever after' that does not honestly exist in reality. I have no reason to not believe Robert but that is the problem...doubt is a terrible, terrible emotion. It is one that is full of darkness and Darkness is the last thing we need right now.
I do worry, Maggie but I love him so whether Robert is telling me the truth or he is doing as Hamlet suggested...I am here to stick it out through thick and thin. I promised him that I would so I have no intentions of going anywhere. We may not progressed our relationship to something more serious than what we are but there is nothing wrong with making promises and keeping them as if we are more serious...right? Oh god...negative thoughts...I need to stop because this is not helping.
Everything will work out perfectly. I know it will. Lux would not bring us together if this was not meant to work. This is just an obstacle that we will need to get through. We can get through anything, I know that we can. See...optimistic thoughts! I have faith, hope, and trust in him and Lux. We will be kept safe. Though this is making me feel tired from the rollercoaster of emotions...I am feeling as if I am being drug through the mud...completely exhausted but I keep moving, keep visiting family and friends to protect what we have while I run his errands for his ingredients for the rituals. I will be glad when I can rest but that will be when we are guaranteed to be safe so that we can live a peaceful life.
I think I am going to try and rest now before I need to run out and get more items and pray that I can find his flowers. I only have a few hours that I can nap, I have to keep moving as this is important and I would do anything for this man.
Always Yours,
Elizabeth Constance Llewellyn-Croft
-X- HENRY CRAVEN -X-
~ His Eternally ~
~ His Eternally ~
Lizzie: #FFFFBF
Chelsea: #FFBFFF
Chelsea: #FFBFFF