The Hostage Situation

[Prudence]

I just wanted to let ya know that I love ya, baby. Thanks for making this last half year or so amazing, and the last almost year ******* spectacular. I'm so ******* amazed by ya and wonder how I got so lucky.

Please don't leave me. Please stay who you are. Don't change a single ******* thing. It's getting to that point soon. The dreaded first year when the other person leaves, or they go ******* bat **** crazy and I can't even recognize the reasons I fell in love with them.

Please, please don't disappoint me.

I'd threaten ya and say mean things, but the truth is? I'd be really ******* crushed. Please don't crush us. Don't crush my heart either. It's too fragile beneath this bad ***, mean ***** thing I got going on on the outside.

[Nathaniel]

Its been so long since i kept up with this journal thing. I pick it up and read what my wife has written, but I don't ever answer with a post of my own. I guess its time.

Lately its gotten worse. This jealousy. The anger I feel inside when I see her with someone else has become almost ridiculous. It's like a fire simmering inside me that one day is going to explode. One person that I know has been her friend for ages, and for some reason that one and only that one doesn't bother me. Any others infuriate me to the point that I usually get royally pissed, leave the area and go kill things so I don't do or say something I will or won't regret later. I don't want to be the cause of her going away.

Sometimes I think I've already went to far. When I do, it will be all my fault...

[Nathaniel]

It's been forever since I wrote in this thing. Found it today while helping Avi move some **** around. I need to be more with it I guess. Quit letting my hunting interfere with the other things.

One thing I need to write because I am a bad companion is I missed the one year anniversary for our companionship or however you want to call it. I'm not certain how people refer to it. Just know Pru you hold my heart forever and always.

Second thing is while helping Avi I lost my ring momentarily but it has been recovered after a few minutes of tearing apart the house. Sorry about the mess... just remember when you see it I love you.

[Prudence]

Baby, you didn't 'miss' anything. Not like ya fucked off or something. And not like I didn't see ya anyways that night. SO it's not 'missed.' We didn't make a big deal about it, true, but I don't know. I think making a big production out of something that we know is solid is fake as ****. It's like that whole buying big things because a guy has a small penis or something.

Anyways, if it's really bothering you, ya can make it up to me in other ways? ;]

Ya know, I was really mad when I read ya almost lost the ring, but then I remembered what we have. And so what if it got lost? We can get other rings. We know that I'm with you and you're with me and a ring doesn't make it more or less true. I hope that makes sense. What I'm saying is that I love ya with or without the ring, so don't freak out. Won't change nothing for me. You're my husband and mine for forever, ya lucky ********.

:]

Love you lots!

[Prudence]

Thank ya for being nice to Lucifer and saying hi to him. It means a lot to me, babe. I know how ya feel when I sire sometimes, but I hope ya know ya don't need to worry about nothing. I mean, I like everyone I sire, but I love you. I love ya a lot.

Also, I kinda lost my journal. Well, more like one of the dogs found it and chewed it up. So, I'll be starting a new one soon. Sucks cause that's the second one in five years. The last one I lost somewhere-well 'lost.' I sorta burned it and moved on and away from bad **** before I met you.

Also, thanks for being cool as **** with me being in a faction. I really missed being part of a group. I hope that doesn't sound bad. I mean, we're part of something too, but we're a pair and not a group and we do things together, but I like doing the territory things too. I know that's not really your scene, and that's okay, but I'm glad ya support me with that, even though it makes ya worry for me.

I don't know what to do with the money ya gave me. Should we go on a trip or something? I don't think we could spend that much money on a trip-but a trip sounds nice. Maybe we could visit your family again for a couple days. I'll let ya think on it.

I love the **** out of ya.

I know I don't say it a lot, it's kinda hard for me to say it sometimes. But, I wrote it down, and that's not something I can take back now that it's on paper. Words are spoken and then they're gone, but **** on paper stays on it for a long time. It can't be forgotten.