MONDAY AUGUST 31 2015
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I'm going to start this fresh. Because fresh new life and all.
I don't even know if I'm allowed to write everything down. Which is one of the frustrating things. I don't know whether to be really angry and ******* sad, or whether I should be deliriously happy. Who wouldn't want to live forever? And have like, superpowers?
But I kinda don't know anyone. I'm supposed to give up everything and everything I know because I'm supposed to be keeping all these secrets that I never asked for in the first place. I'm not supposed to see my family anymore. Only phone calls and video chats. They live in the same ******* city, for crying out loud! What's to stop me from accidentally running into them on the street?
I texted Pluto, to meet him. I know I'm not supposed to but I miss the **** out of him. If Velveteen finds out, I'm going to tell her I just ran into him. It couldn't be helped.
I should hate her. I really should. She killed me because I'd seen too much and brought me back to life because I suppose she didn't want to kill me. Which is kinda contradictory, but I feel chosen somehow. I feel special. Which is probably egotistical of me, but it helps. It helps me to come to terms with my fate. But she's pretty cool.
I haven't met many of the others. I got some welcomes on an online thing but maybe I need to be proactive and hunt some of them down. Because **** this noise, not being able to see my old friends and family. I'm not used to being alone. I need people around me.
Anyway. Until next time.
~Dias
I don't even know if I'm allowed to write everything down. Which is one of the frustrating things. I don't know whether to be really angry and ******* sad, or whether I should be deliriously happy. Who wouldn't want to live forever? And have like, superpowers?
But I kinda don't know anyone. I'm supposed to give up everything and everything I know because I'm supposed to be keeping all these secrets that I never asked for in the first place. I'm not supposed to see my family anymore. Only phone calls and video chats. They live in the same ******* city, for crying out loud! What's to stop me from accidentally running into them on the street?
I texted Pluto, to meet him. I know I'm not supposed to but I miss the **** out of him. If Velveteen finds out, I'm going to tell her I just ran into him. It couldn't be helped.
I should hate her. I really should. She killed me because I'd seen too much and brought me back to life because I suppose she didn't want to kill me. Which is kinda contradictory, but I feel chosen somehow. I feel special. Which is probably egotistical of me, but it helps. It helps me to come to terms with my fate. But she's pretty cool.
I haven't met many of the others. I got some welcomes on an online thing but maybe I need to be proactive and hunt some of them down. Because **** this noise, not being able to see my old friends and family. I'm not used to being alone. I need people around me.
Anyway. Until next time.
~Dias
