Urgh. Going to sleep angry sucks. You wake up angry too. I was kinda hoping anger was more like a hangover. Go to sleep drunk and cloudy headed, wake up fresh as a daisy. Pfft. I wish. Oh well. I think I got all my anger out in yesterday’s belated entry, so I’m just going to go find Ric and see what’s what. I mean things weren’t that bad between us. Maybe this was all I needed. A little time and a little perspective.
I saw Ellie earlier. Before I came back here and started writing all of this. He said I’m being all emo and morose. I guess I was. That’s not me. I need to suck it up and move on. Anyways. I’ve spent enough time writing in here for now. I’m gonna go find Ric. He told me where he was hunting yesterday, so I’m hoping he went back there when he woke. I’m gonna go see.
Found him. Everything’s cool.[/size][/color][/font]
((Also on this page: A childlike looking treasure map. There are no actual landmarks, just random words that seem to follow the dotted line and end in the X that marks the spot for happiness.))
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So what’s new? Well one antagonistic arsehole, saying he doesn’t like antagonistic arseholes. Funny that. Guess he doesn’t like himself that much then. Or wouldn’t if he ever actually thought about it. That was his reasoning for knifing Dillon today. Not jealousy, which I could have understood cos Dillon was being his usual self and actually tried to pull me away from Ric. He’s not usually like that. Dillon that is. I mean yeah he can be a prick but I’ve never seen him act this way before. I’ll have a word with him later. Ric too. I don’t much like watching him use his blade – or my blade rather since I made it for him – on my friend. But yeah. That was it. It was weird. Weirder still though is the conversation we had once Dillon left. I swear I live in the Twilight Zone because I should have been livid with Ricky for what he’d done, instead I’m like putty in his hands because he actually wanted to have sex right there in the tunnels. I mean. WTF!? For all intents and purposes Ric’s a bit of a novice in the bedroom department and yet there he was suggesting we go at it in a public place. I wasn’t expecting that. Didn’t happen though, some chick was creeping nearby. I wasn’t nearly drunk enough to ignore her I can tell ya. So we came home and ended up in the bedroom. Ric actually ruled out sex on his desk. Dunno why, I’m sure it’s possible. He’s just a bit anal about certain things. The sex was pretty spectacular actually. I think he’s finding his grove. At least he didn’t freak out and bolt on me. That’s a step in the right direction. Not that he does that every time, just when things get weird for him. But those times seem to be getting fewer and farther between.
((Also on this page: Ric’s name written in graffiti style.))
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I don’t think I’m doing very well in this new life. I mean Ellie hasn’t said anything about it or anything, neither has Ric but I’m pretty sure I haven’t learned anything new in a while. I mean I didn’t expect to keep improving at the rate I have been forever, I was bound to plateau out at some point. I just didn’t expect such a steep learning curve to drop off quite so quickly. Ho-hum. Not much I can do about it. I’m half tempted to ask Ellie if this is normal. It probably is. Maybe I’ve been too focused on one aspect of my development? I dunno. I’m not gonna drive yourself nuts about it.
((Also on this page: A kid is dragging a little red cart up a hill, toys are falling out the back of the cart but the kid hasn’t noticed and looks quite happy as they continue on.))
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The guys dragged me out. Yeah right. Dragged. Cos I need to be persuaded to go on a night out. I don’t think so. I mean yeah, I don’t accept every invite these nights but I can’t miss out on a night of singing and pratting about now can I. I have kinda been neglecting the guys since I met a certain tall, dark and handsome arsehole, but it’s not like I’ve flaked out on them completely; I show up for rehearsals and gigs and stuff. I work my arse off still on the music side of our friendship. I mean I’ve been pretty inspired recently, and I’m not even talking about the superpower. Though Ellie’s damn good at keeping me at my best. Even if I didn’t love him for any other reason, I’d have to love him for that. He’s a star.
((Also on this page: A sketch of Ellie as a fairy with wings, a tutu and wand.))
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I’m wondering if Ric and I should find a place of our own. A place we don’t tell people about that we can retreat to when we want to be alone. Ric’s kind of a private person, so I can’t see why he wouldn’t want something like that. I kinda need a place with a normal addy anyways. I’ve looked through the real estate pages but I can’t find anything suitable. I don’t think Ric would move or anything and I’m not sure I want us to either. I kinda like our place. It’s not like we’re real estate moguls or anything. We’re not really into possessions as a rule. So… Yeah… I should probably shelves this idea, I mean what we’d do with two places I have no idea. Still - if things go wrong between us, which is possible given my track record – I may need somewhere to go. Going back to Dillon’s would be… bad. I mean yeah, one night every once in a while to get away from Ric, no problem, but moving back in again. I don’t think so. I should ask Ellie what his plans are for the place I used to stay in. I ******* love that place.
((Also on this page: A floorplan has been sketched out. Along with what you’d expect to find is; a studio, two workshops and a man cave.))
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Okay. So is it odd that more often than not we seem to trade invitations? It’s not the first time I’ve asked him to do something, only for him to tell me he expects me to go with him somewhere on another night. And yes. He’s still at it. Telling me, rather than actually inviting me. I think it’s just who he is. I’m not gonna bother getting my panties in a twist about that anymore. So yeah. Oh. His thing. Nix’s wedding. Apparently her and Blake are getting married in like a week’s time. They must have organised that pretty quickly cos I recall Ric asking a few weeks back if it was normal for people to get married after only 5 months of dating. I know he’s a bit inept when it comes to dating stuff but I’m sure I’ve made it clear to him already that each relationship is different. Just because his sire gets married after 5 months, doesn’t mean everyone does. As far as I can tell Ellie and Pi have been together for a lot longer than that and they aren’t married. I mean they’re committed to one another, they even wear rings now, but they don’t have the pieces of paper that says they are legally man and wife. Not that people should require something like that. I mean I get it. But I don’t get it. At least it’s never been something I’ve wanted. I never was that little girl playing dress up with a tablecloth for a veil and a handful of wildflowers picked from the garden. I was more the, jumping up and down on the bed playing air guitar kind of girl. Much to everyone’s disappointment. Oh well. I am who I am. Ain’t no changing that.
((Also on this page: A picture of a young girl dressed as a bride with teddies as her guests. The groom looks to be a rather bored little boy, probably one the girl has conned into playing dress up with her.))
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So… we went to this party yesterday a Super Bowl thin, not that any of us - Ric, Ali and I - were that interested in the sport side of it. Kind embarrassing how that came about actually, Ali coming with us that is but it was probably more embarrassing for her than it was for us. Anyways we’re going to ignore the obnoxiously loud sex and move straight to the weird part; Ric’s mood. It’s not the first time I’ve seen him like that and I love it. I do. He has this really silly side that’s super cute and super honest. Only I’m not sure why he gets like that? It’s like he’s feeding off my energy or something only, he’s not like this every time I get drunk. So… I dunno. Maybe I have some superpower I don’t know about that augments his personality. I hope not. That would suck. I wouldn’t want that much control over him. And then… Why would get headaches and stuff the next day? It makes no sense to me. I’d say he’s drunk but he doesn’t drink, he can’t. And even if he did, why would he get hangovers when I don’t? Metabolism maybe. I dunno. I guess people are different in that aspect normally anyways. I should start keeping track of these moods and what we’ve done in the days that lead up to them. See if we can find the cause.
((Also on this page: two contrasting scenes side by side, it’s the same scene, one seen through beer goggles, the other being more realistic.))
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Charlie’s a real honey, I should probably plan a night out with her to catch up and ****. She always thinks of me. Probably because she works on her own projects too. I dunno. She’s just super sweet and always drops off any spare blades she has for me to play around with. I wish I had something to give her in return but I really don’t deal with firearms and traps and stuff. God. Can you imagine me working on traps? Now there’s a recipe for disaster. I’d probably blow myself up or something.
((Also on this page: a woman is tinkering with some sort of circuit board and in true cartoon style it has exploded causing her face to blacken and scorch marks can be seen all around her.))
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Can you over prepare for something? Maybe? I’m not sure. Ric’s either super efficient, super excited or super paranoid. And if I have to choose, I’ll go for door number three. I mean he’s thinking of packing for our weekend away already. He’s definitely a doomsday prepper. It’s kinda cute really. I have my very own little doomsday prepper. I used to make fun of the people on that show, I mean the world ending seemed pretty ridiculous. Only now I’m through the looking glass. Okay so maybe I’m mixing stories or metaphors or what have you but the world is definitely a much more dangerous place than I ever realised. I’m still not convinced the world is gonna end or anything but there’s probably a little method in their madness.
((Also on this page: a globe sits on a workbench. An adult can be seen in the background with his back to the bench. A small child can be seen sneaking up to the globe with a raised hammer, readying it to smash the world into pieces.))
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NOTE: Sky has Healthy Complexion
So… I got Ric to agree to us getting a double bed to replace his single. He’s not great at change, at least I don’t think he is. He seemed to have a hard time figuring out where I fit in in his bedroom so I expected him to put up more of a fight but he didn’t. I sent him a few links to some pretty nice beds but in the end he said it was ladies’ choice; so of course I chose the kinkier option, the one with the headboard we could tie each other too. I’m not even sure he’s into that kinda thing. But it’ll be nice to have the option in case he is. They say lightning doesn’t strike twice but I’ve broken two of his “nevers” already so anything’s possible. I’m gonna order the bed now. Hopefully we’ll get it by the end of the month.
((Also on this page: a floorplan of Ric’s/their room showing how much room they’d have once the bed was in. There’s also a small sketch of the bed with its slatted, wooden headboard.))
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