An account of events

[Roderic]

I've been getting the run around on a lot of things lately.
It's not hard to tell someone to **** off.

Anyways. I took Phoenix advice and initiated conversations with Pyper.
I'm still working on how to solve a few personal issues.
I've not been successful.

[Roderic]

Pyper and I resolved our issues.
I gave her a key again.

I've started a new crafting idea.
Key rings of animals made from the bones of animals I killed.
I'm not good at little details yet, but I plan to keep on it.
Perfect it.
Pyper says people will buy it since it is unique.
We will see.

I think I have an idea on where to take one of my dates.
Maybe Nemesis or Velveteen.
Nemesis hasn't gotten back to me, so Velveteen might be the first one I make plans with and carry them out.

Pyper wants to make a mask for me.
For Halloween.
Phoenix said dates are not required but welcomed.
Depending on who it is.
It would be pointless to bring an Altaire since they will be there.
I don't think I'll bring anyone.

[Roderic]

The bars are on the windows.
I meant to see what would happen last night.
But I fell asleep on the couch.
And woke up in the cave again.
I'll have to try tonight.
See if Thing Two is around.
Or Pyper.

Maybe even Simone.
Though, she's been off lately.
Coming too close inside my space.
I don't like it.

Pyper made a vampire.
His name is Ethan.
She's always talking about him.
And worried about him.
She has grown attached to someone she doesn't know quickly.
I wonder if that is what most vampires do.
When they make more like them.

I've finished another bone key chain, this one in the shape of a mountain lion.
It seemed easier to whittle than the deer.
I think the antlers are something I need to focus on for the next one I make.
They didn't turn out as good as I had hoped.

There is this auction going on.
I've thought about entering.
To socialize.
But I'm not keen on sharing private things about me.
We'll see.
Socializing hasn't been overly successful anyways.

[Roderic]

I don't think Renee really knows what she's getting in to.
Not really.
But I'll make her a doll.
There's enough potentials out there.
Blonde hair, blue eyes.
Simple order.

I talked to Pyper last night.
I have to research some things.
I decided to just ask Nix.
She should know.
Maybe I should ask Calix and Monique.
They seem to know how these things work.
I have to come up with an answer tonight.

I slept in my room last night.
But I still woke up in the cave.
The bars were unsuccessful.
I need some assistance.
Thing Two did not show up like I expected her to.
Maybe I could ask Pyper.

I decided to join the auction.
A way to be social.
Plus, I get cash for hanging out with them.
I see it as a win-win.

[Roderic]

I finished Renee's doll. As promised.
Slightly disappointing.
It's hard to find a natural blonde.
Or a blonde that hasn't done something to her hair.
I think she'll like it.



Found her on the ritzy side of town.
Her arm had to be stitched up from where I let her bleed out.
I would have done the neck.
It's quicker.
But the doll would have been severely damaged.
I hope she doesn't mind the small incision on the left wrist.

[Roderic]

I'm trying very hard not to piss Phoenix off.
Simone has overstepped a boundary.
It is not her place.
To be in my space.
To be in Pyper's space.
In our space.

I don't understand her words. Or her actions.
She pulled away.
Pulling away is a generally seen as a negative response to an action.

My projects sit there.
Because of Simone. Pyper is no where to be found.
Not in her apartment, not at work or in my apartment.
Maybe I can stab Simone subtly.
Without Nix knowing.

[Roderic]

We are too alike.
We are not experienced.
We are not social.
We are not affectionate.
These things that are lacking do not make couples, Simone says.

But Pyper had accepted these things about me.
I accepted them too.
We talk. To each other. I do not see why we have to be more social than that.
With others.
We are not experienced, but we are learning.
Adapting.
And we are not affectionate, but we show our appreciation for the other in other ways.
Being alike means we think the same on things that are important and enjoy doing the same things.

These things are not good enough it appears.
Not in Simone's world.
For Pyper. I think she means.
I do not know how to be other things.
This is who I am.
Who I have always been.

[Roderic]

I have more things.
Two in about a twenty four hour time period were made.
They are worthless.
If I see them, I will probably take the life I afforded them.
I have enough worthless things.

I promoted Thing Two to Thing One.
Per Nix's suggestion.
It makes sense.
She may not be the first thing I made, but she is the most worthwhile one.
A curious creature to study.
I find our conversations fruitful as of late.
She is agreeable to my attempt at socialization
Even welcomes it.

I believe Pyper has become comfortable with the idea of us being a pair and not a couple.
I still want to stab Simone for meddling, but if Pyper has accepted her ideas and is happy, then it is what it is.
Pyper knows what Pyper wants or what she doesn't want.

Someone told me we have souls.
I wonder if this is true.
I was never on the religious boat.
Even when I was human.
Never gave the idea of souls much thought.
I'll ask around.
But I think she's in denial about what she is.
What she has become.
What we've all become.

[Roderic]

I'm taking a survey.
About souls.
No two answers are the same.

I personally think it's like a bed time story your parents told you when you were a kid.
If you behave, you get good things coming to you in the end.
For being good.
Who defines good?
What defines good?
It's all ********.

The more I think, the more I'm confused.
I don't understand the difference between pair and couple.
Isn't a couple a pair?
This might not be for me.
Maybe I should take a survey on this too.

This week was interesting.
I ran in to Nix. I temporarily pissed her off because neither one of us expected to see the other there.
I think that was why.
I think we're good now.

I helped kill someone named Reganleif last night.
I should probably back up a little.
I've applied to a faction known as Tytonidae.
Nix was in this group, then not in it. She's back in it again.
We ran in to the other Monday night.
Last night, this Reganleif individual said too much.
About a lot of things. About Nix too.
So killing her wasn't really a second guess in my mind.

Then there's this Skylar chick.
Most the time she's annoying.
Then she does something that surprises me.
After she says something I think is impossible or stupid.
She's the one who thinks we have souls.
Who started my survey on them.

I hung up my cuts tonight. In my closet.
I haven't heard anything from my chapter in about a year.
Only from some prospect named Kenlie.
I don't know anything about her.
I don't know if Ven is even alive anymore.
Or Lyonel.
Any of them. I assume they're all dead.
Or moved and uprooted the chapter somewhere else.
Now I've just got a simple, plain leather coat.
It's not the same, but wearing something that doesn't exist doesn't really mean anything.

[Roderic]

Momma Bear's back in town and hanging at the old clubhouse.
Up to her old antics.
Good to see.
Thought she was dead.
I might have missed her.
Or just missed her smart mouth.
It was probably that.

Went to some party.
A costume one.
Dressed as a Devil in Disguise.
Then played Truth or Dare.
I had to kiss Blake.
It was pretty damn awkward. Mostly because I just stood there and did nothing.
Why would I?

The auction ended.
Skylar won me. I won her.
We started making plans.
For our servitude.

I know the difference between a pair and a couple.
Pairs are friends. Couples aren't.
Pairs have too many similar interests.
They are sometimes best friends.
Just because I know these things doesn't mean I know what it means for Pyper and me.
Maybe we are too alike.
Maybe we're best friends.
I've never had a best friend before.
I don't know what to do with one.