Dea's Digital Diary

[Keara Aithne]

*Long period of silence*
Okay.
Right.
I think she’s gone. It’s the 20th May. And I’m super excited.
Okay so yeah. Im like excited a lot recently I know but today is different. It has nothing to do with Robert.
Well.
Okay.
Maybe that’s a lie. I’m doing this for him but it doesn’t involve him. I dunno. Anyways Ric said he’d like help me. Not that I think he can do much but maybe tidy up my mess if I make one but ‘m hoping I won’t. Keara will be super pissed at me if I like let people know I exist and stuff. Should’ve asked Robert to hlp me but he’s got enough going on and I don’t wanna involve the good peeps at Solace.
So yeah. What’s the worst that can happen right? Ric’s gonna observe and he’ll be there if anything goes wrong.
I told him he should consider it like an experiment or something and he went for it. I thought he’d take more convincing but I was wrong. Maybe he just likes doing weird stuff. He is an odd duck. But I kinda like that about him.
Should be interesting.
*goes silent*

[Keara Aithne]

*Sobbing can be heard*
Sure you are that wish you do for this now to do…yes?
Yeah.
Very well. Proceed you may.
*More sobbing*
It’s… the… 25th… May… 2014.
I’m… miserable.
He… I’m… like… too… young… or… some… thing…
I don’t… I never… He said… I like… lied. I never… lied.
No. Lied you did not. Defined he did how he your age would calculate, and answered you did. This your fault is not Deanna. His loss be it shall if se he cannot past the age at which turned you are.
You… think…?
Mmmhmm.
‘Kay… Switch… Off.

[Keara Aithne]

Okay I’m like super confused. He says he needs time. Then he sends me messages. Short messages. But messages. And well… Yeah first he just like tells me he’s been shot. All casual like. I hate that. Anyways. Then he says he loves me and makes a kissing noise. He’s so… I dunno? Whatever he is, it’s like annoying. I’m the child but he’s the one acting all childish.
Keara says I should ignore it. I think she told him off for worrying me cos like saying he’s been shot and not giving any detail sucks. I got another message later saying more about it but like… I think that just made things worse. I don’t wanna think about him with a hole in his head and heart.
*sighs*
Guess I have no choice though. ‘S not like I know where he is or anything. Guess I’ll wait till he wants to see me.
*sighs again*
Keara? Switch it off please?
Oh!
Wait!
I forgot to give a date. It's Wednesday the 28th today.
'Kay. Now.

[Keara Aithne]

Sure you are that record these thoughts you wish too.
Mmm hmm
Okay. Call when finished you are. Next door I shall be.
I… I… I think he… broke up with me.
I mean… I dunno.
He’s fixated on my age.
Keara says I shouldn’t worry and that if he’d let something so inconsequential keep him away from me that he deserves to lose me. I mean, yeah, right. Cos that’s the issue. He doesn’t deserve me. I know it’s the other way around but I guess she wouldn’t side with him, seeing as she’s my sister and all.
I think he likes me though. Still. ‘Cos like he did promise not to date anyone else… Not until he knows how he feels about me. I hope he figures it out soon. I mean I know we have like eternity and such but I kinda of feel like I’m holding my breath now. Not that I need to breathe of course but I that’s what it feels like.
Oh… It’s the 30th May.
*she calls for Keara and the recording is soon ended*

[Keara Aithne]

Do this another day you could. Now this need not be recorded.
*something inaudible is said or done and the recording continues*
Saturday…
31st…
May…
He…
Dead…
Is…
*sobs for a while and then the recording is switched off.*

[Keara Aithne]

*The sounds of a television can be faintly heard in the background*
One week. One week he’s been gone and well… He should be back. Enver said that maybe he’s out and like avoiding me or something. The shocking thing about that is, is that I don’t think he said it to be mean, ‘cos like he quickly followed that by saying something like he might need time to get his head together and such. But I dunno. I kinda think if he had he’d of told me by now. I mean the moment Enver escaped that place he came straight to the Asylum to find K… before he even bothered to go find any clothes from what I was told. God I hope I’m remembering that wrong cos the image of him… Ack… God I don’t need that.
So yeah.
One week.
Barely a word.
Not sure what to make of that really. I mean he has the ability to be in my mind 24/7 and all he does is sing me a couple of songs that show he clearly has issues with me.
I’m too young.
I’m just a friend.
Yeah well if that’s true why doesn’t he f’ing tell me already.
I think he likes Keara more than me. He talks to her all the time. It’s not fair. I can’t gain powers now. I’ll never be more than I am right now. I’m beginning to think I like him way more than he likes me.
Life sucks!
Keara! Switch it off!. I’m done!
Oh.
7th June 2014.

[Keara Aithne]

9th June 2014.
Keara’s been doing some solo thing. And well… I can’t believe I’m gonna actually put this on the record, but… Enver’s not so bad. He’s been pretty decent to me lately. I guess even if Robert is avoiding me and hates me or whatever, he was at least useful in helping me sort of set things right with Enver. I was a bit of an *** to him. I can admit that. Obnoxious might actually be a better word but yeah… I’ll try and be a bit nicer to him from now on. Keara loves him and he is kinda decent to her… Most of the time. I think he’s just a bit clueless at times. I guess I can forgive that.
I wish Robert would talk to me. I don’t think Enver was right. I don’t think he’s back yet. I’m sure he’d of told me if he was. Even if he has no idea how he feels about me. It’s been three days since he spoke to me last. I think maybe he’s avoiding telling me anything ‘cos he doesn’t know how I’d take it. Not knowing is so much worse than anything else. Wish I could tell him that myself.

[Keara Aithne]

15th June 2014.
Keara’s been keeping me busy. I half wanted to get caught in one of those traps the last few times but she wouldn’t allow me to go onto the floor until she’d swept the place. I’m wondering when she’ll let up in these places. Not that I particularly mind right now. Not like I have a life of my own or anything. Robert apparently told her he’s trapped or something. Sounds like an excuse to me. Think he’s hiding down there. Keara offered to send me down there ‘cos she thinks she know how to get me back but he never said if he wanted me there or not and I’m not getting my *** trapped in a place like that for some guy that can’t even be bothered to let me know what’s going on with him himself.
Done you are? Wish I do for a tour of the catacombs to take before the witching hour upon us is.
Yeah I’m done. Thanks.