An account of events

[Roderic]

Voice boxes are an impossible part to work with.
It would have been cool though.
My business is doing okay.
I'm not the best at talking to people.
Maybe I should hire someone else to do that for me.

Thing Two is still progressing nicely.
She's still talking to me.
I don't know why.
There are other people in Altaire that are more friendly.
That are nicer.
Saige. She should talk to Saige.
I will introduce them to each other if there is another 'family' thing.
Hate those ******* things.
I'm not dressing up in a stupid costume.

I've been giving my plan more thought.
About fadebeasts and people.
I think I could do it.
One time and someone dies.
It's just sex.
Lots of people just have sex.
But mine has a purpose.
I think I'll give it a go.
Like an experiment.

[Roderic]

Nix said she's proud of me tonight.
I haven't done anything to be proud of.
I haven't made anything new that really sticks out or impresses me much.
I haven't killed that Jai Li chick.
Or Athena.
Or that one Altaire that I know is sleeping with Strix.
Haven't even gone through with my experiments yet.
Still haven't found Juliet either.
I've done nothing of note.
Maybe she's still not right upstairs.

I keep trying to scare Thing Two away, but she doesn't care what I say.
Or do.
I know I'm not a nice person.
It's not like I'm intentionally trying to be mean, but I know I'm not going to have tons of close friends.
And I'm okay with that.

Paige has a project for me.
Something that came out of some vampire or something.
She's dropping it off tomorrow.
I'm sure I can do something with it.

I wonder what Nix meant by that whole new car analogy.
I don't want a new car.
I liked my old one. I was just getting used to it.
How it ran. What it liked.
I should contact Strix.
It's been a while.

[Roderic]

Thing Two and I have been talking more.
It's still awkward.
I don't know what to say to her.
Or to talk to her about.
She's different.

I can tell she was raised in a different environment.
She's more hopeful and optimistic.
She speaks more eloquently too.
Maybe that's why I don't talk as much.
I'm not stupid.
Far from it.

There's a voice in my head again.
Only, I know who it belongs to.
She called me Roddy.
Not very subtle.
I told Thing Two I wasn't going to bother with her, but she's pushing it.
I'm sure it will piss Nix off, but the woman just won't shut up.
Anywhere.

I got around to calling Strix.
She didn't have a lot to say.
I had even less to say to her then to Thing Two.
That's saying something. Without really saying anything.

[Roderic]

Phoenix is like every other woman.
She has a diary.
And it's name is Willy.
She names her diary.

I didn't read a lot of anything in there.
I only had a few minutes before she caught on to me.
She's a very emotional person.
It's foreign. Unfamiliar.
When I was a blood thief she was cold and calculated and was always trying to kill me.
Not that you need emotion to want to kill someone.
But she was cold and calculated and showed no emotion.
In her diary she's angry, sad, happy and other things I'm not really familiar with.

Axel broke up with her.
It was only a matter of time.
It bothers her, but I think it's for the best.
Maybe she'll find someone worth the time of night.
If that's what she wants.
I doubt she will. She should stay single.
Being weighed down by someone else's crap isn't really good for her.

Thing Two referred to herself as Katerina tonight.
I am uncertain how I feel about calling her by that name.
Did she pick it out?
Or does she remember it from her old life?
She should get a new name for her new life.
She doesn't need an alias, just something that she likes.
I still think Aliases are stupid.

Strix is or has slept with almost everyone in Altaire.
She thinks it bothers me, but I don't think it does.
I just don't want to hear about it.
I know she does it. That she'll always sleep around with whoever, whenever.
I don't have any delusions about that, but I don't want to hear about it.
So no. I'm not upset about it.

It was Nix's death/birth day today.
I didn't know it.
If I had, I would have made her something.
I had to go shopping.
I hate shopping.
Mostly because I hate people.
I didn't know what I was looking for, so I told the girl behind the counter it was for someone special's birthday.
She took that as it was my girlfriend's birthday.
And tried to get me to buy an engagement ring.
Even though I told her she's just a girl and it's her birthday.
I smashed her face in to the glass counter that held the rings she was trying to get me to buy.
It's not like she is going to get any stupider.
Then I swiped these cool earrings.
If I had time, I could have made a real set.

[Roderic]

I found out who has been sending me Morse Code.
It took me an hour to figure out what she was trying to say.
Then I rechecked it. Just to make sure.
I was never military. So had to be sure.

Pyper is the culprit.
I don't really mind.
I'm just not sure why she's sending me Morse Code in my head.
Or anything in my head.
Texting works too.
Or a phone call.

Anyways, it seems she might have some projects for me soon.
Some work with some wolf pelts.
I'll take whatever I can get.
Haven't seen many wolves in the places I've wandered.

Calix is agreeable.
I like him more than I did the first time we met.
He wasn't as handsy with Nix.
He seems to want to make strives to meet people and be around.
Good for him.
That's not my thing.

I haven't seen or heard much from Phoenix.
Not after the news about Axel and her.
I wonder if she'll go to that place again.
The Umbra.
If she does, I'll follow her again.
I don't mind being in there, but she might want some company.
Even if she says different.
She is just like every other woman.
Still can't believe she named her diary Willy.
That she gave it a name at all.

I wish Juliet was around.
I have a lot of things on my mind.
Things I think she would answer without any real sense of judgement.
She did give me my first, real, legitimate job.
And let me work it how I wanted to work it.
No questions. No nosing around.
She respected my order and methodology.
I know she could help me with the things on my mind lately.
All the questions.

Anyways. I think I'll check on Nix.
Maybe tomorrow.
Sometime this week.

[Roderic]

I caved and talked to Nix.
Mostly because I wanted to apologize for breaking her wing that one night.
It seemed like a good idea at the time.
Even though I know it was logically impossible.
I know a human can't ride an owl.

She confided in me.
I don't know why she told me, but she did.
I didn't know what to tell her.
Or how to make her feel better.
Or what to do.
I never heard that rule before.

I'm confused.
Nix loves Axel. Partly because they had sex.
Along with other things. Other connections they had. Apparently.
But sex connects people deeper than people that don't have sex it seems.

I learned a couple things.
Strix is a pathological liar.
I don't hold it against her.
Everyone has something working against them.
Strix screwed Rev. That's nothing new. I knew that for a while.
It seems Strix also screwed Paige. Again, had my suspicions.
Strix screwed Axel.
Ergo, Strix likes Rev, Paige and Axel?
How can Strix like all these people?
Simple. She can't.

So I went to her work place.
Not to look for her.
To watch how people like her work.
I watched them.
And I learned something.
They all lie.
Each and every single one of them.
"I'll be this." "I can do this for you and only you." "I want you."
They say the same thing to the next guy or girl a few hours later.

I've decided to start my experiments tomorrow.
I have my variables.
Thank you Strix.

[Roderic]

Sometimes I think about Jules. At Altaire events or when I see Saige.
I'm not sure what that means.

I finished the project for Pyper.
It turned out alright. Just have to give it to her.
I'm not even sure it's something that would be up her alley.
Guess we'll see.

I now have three "dolls."
I'll check back in with them in about a week or so.
I'm still not sure how this will work.
How it's supposed to work.

I took Nix to the zoo the other night.
I've never hung out with her by myself.
She's different. Unexpected.
She owes me a lap dance. So does Thing Two.
I doubt I'll ever see one of those owed to me, but the thought amuses me.
Katerina, all proper and modest trying to do a lap dance.
Then Nix, just attempting to do it. I bet her skills are matched with mine in terms of dancing.
I think Thing Two might be the most amusing of the two.

[Roderic]

I told Strix about my research.
She had me concerned. Not worried, concerned.
She made me question if vampires could have children with humans.
Nix assured me that wasn't possible.
Only monsters, the fadebeasts can be made.
If my participants were unlucky enough.

Then Strix started talking about family things.
Parent things.
I'm not sure why.
But she's wrong.
Can you imagine me pushing a stroller around town with a diaper bag of knives and other supplies?
I told her she could have the damn thing if it was possible.
What good is a baby? What use can I get out of one?

I've been challenged to a duel.
Paige. I think it would be an interesting duel.
One of skill.

I hired Pyper to work for me.
My business is doing much better.
Making more.
Not losing money.
I think the other woman was taking from my registers.
I plan on making her my number 4.

[Roderic]

I've been slacking, but for the most part I've not done a lot.
I don't fight with any Altaire's anymore.
It's safer that way.
Can't say I don't miss it.
I'll need to find a new hobby I guess.
I would protect Pyper. Or Thing Two.
I'm wondering if Nix doubts my capabilities.

I hurt Paige about a week ago.
Pretty bad.
I think Nix was mad about it.
She put this no attacking thing in order.
It's not my fault I was challenged.
What did she think I was going to do?
Back down?

I got this Father's Day card in the mail from some woman and place I never heard of before.
I'm not really a dad.
I blame Thing Two.
I don't think anyone else would send me some crap like that.
Is that how she sees me as?
Her dad?
I think we're about the same age.
That's kind of strange.
She means well.
Thing Two.
I just get confused by her a lot.

[Roderic]

Nix gave me something to help with my business.
I've seen positive results.
I'm not sure how it works, but I've not lost any money in at least a handful of days.
I should get her something.
She got me something, so I should get her something back.
I think that is some sort of rule or something.
In the social world.
But I'm sure she has everything she needs.
For the most part.

Pyper texted me and said I'm a wanted man.
I don't think she knows any strippers, so I don't think she knows that they want me.
So the question is, who wants me?
Another one comes to mind.
And what do they want me for?
I've never had issues with cops before, so I can't think it's them either.
Who has Pyper been talking to?