An account of events

[Roderic]

Athena is back.
She's the most annoying Altaire there is.
I mean most of them aren't worth a lick of salt from what I've seen so far and wouldn't be sad, upset or anything if most of them died and never came back.
But Athena?
She's an obnoxious big mouth that needs a sword slammed in her a few times over.

I hope Juliet doesn't take her back.
Hope seems like a strong word and it probably is.
It'd be stupid of her to take her back.
Single life is finally suiting her.
She got a boat and moved on with her life.

I think she's going to move on to Mexico where her family is from.
I don't like the idea of it. There are only two Altaire's that I tolerate.
Juliet and Phoenix.
But Phoenix keeps pissing me off, so much I want to stab her.
Repeatedly.
I'd be appeased to stab her twin thing. Whatever that thing is as a happy medium.
Anyways, if Juliet is gone, I doubt I'll stick around Harper Rock.
That's not some odd guilt thing that every other person does. It's just how it is.
She's my boss. She's the only one that talks to me besides Phoenix, who most the time I could do without talking to me. We don't talk a lot, but she's said more than a handful of words at me. And she does some thing that makes me move a little quicker. Once I killed a couple guys in the sewers because of Juliet.

To do:
Find out who that woman was who spiked my drink.
Get someone to stab my brain so Juliet can stay out of it.
Stab Phoenix or her dopple.
Try and work on a deal to use Juliet's land. Can't use the river forever. Or the furnace.
Make Canada abolish gay porn.
Better yet, all porn should be abolished in Canada.

[Roderic]

Tonight I woke up after a strange dream. Baby chickens chirping away at me while I slept.
I've never been on a farm before. I've seen chickens in books.
But I never knew how one sounded before.
Until tonight. Until Juliet did something with her mind powers.
Why is she harassing me?
She can't be pissed off over what I said at Athena.
If she is, she should just shoot me and move on already.

So I go hunting. I like to hunt.
I like to make things too from the things I hunt. That's nothing new.
Except I never really hunted animals before.
I meant to make her something horrendous to get her to leave me alone.
Instead I end up walking by some farm and stealing a baby chicken she named Rice.
I'm not even sure how she came up with that name.
Then with the Canadian Goose I shot I made her some stupid earrings.
What the **** is wrong with me?
She's always bothering me and most the time when I see her I resist the urge to stab her, but then sometimes I want to say hey because I think she's being nice.
But in a real annoying way.
I think she likes annoying me too.

So while I've got a few minutes of uninterrupted down time from being mind fucked more or less since Juliet is busy with Rice, I look online and see all these things about Valentine's Day.
Vampires really celebrate that holiday?
I'm not sure what to think.
Maybe it's all a joke.
What about an anti-Valentine's Day thing? Not that I like parties or anything, but wouldn't that be more apt?

[Roderic]

Been seeing more and more of MB lately.
Don't mind much at all.
Don't mind much when she's getting her fix either.
I feel sort of responsible for her.
She wouldn't know about blood thieves if it wasn't for me.
If Nix hadn't of killed me, I still would be a blood thief and things would be a lot different.
I know MB still trusts me.

I think Phoenix wants to kill her.
She asked me a while back if I had a picture of MB.
Why would I have a picture of Brownie?
When I came home that night I realized I didn't have a picture of anyone in my place.
Not even my mom.
I don't know where MB is hanging out at, but I'd never rat her out.
She took care of me. Took me in when I bombed out of college.
Guess it's only right I take care of her for a while now.
Until she gets on her feet.
I don't want Brownie to end up dead.
That's not a clean up job I want to do.

Tonight I was hassle free from Juliet.
I saw her and said a couple things to her, but she didn't send me porn, boy bands or baby chickens in my head.
I think Rice is keeping her preoccupied.
She just needed something to do with her free time.
Now I can go back to uninterrupted work.

[Roderic]

I've come to conclude that this place outside the family area is a lost cause.
People post pretty much anything and make themselves look like idiots.
Just today some girl is making herself look down right dumb and going on about flowers and kittens.
I may have lied and said I wanted to help.
I do want to help.
Help rid her from the city.
We'd all be better off.

Next is this Valentine's Day ****.
If this is the only thing that gets our blood pumping in the month of February, I'm going to hate being a vampire for the rest of eternity.
It's disgusting. And pathetic.
So I decided to express my hate for Phoenix and everyone else in Altaire by sending them anti-valentine's day gifts.
Phoenix got a cat I found that was dead on the side of the road.
Spruced him up a bit, gave him a top hat and a cigar. Tada.
Saige got a dead rabbit I killed myself.
I put him in a coat and gave him a pocket watch.
I got the watch off some guy last week. I don't normally give away my keepsakes from kills, but she'll never know and it makes me smirk inside.
Athena got a box of maggots. No creativity there on my end. Just a simple; I hope you die and these make a home in your carcass message. More or less.
Juliet got a special gift. I spent the better part of a day working on that. It's a one of a kind. I figure she's worth it and being she's my boss, I should send her something a little nicer.

They liked their gifts.
I'm not sure I like that they liked them. Sure, I worked hard on them, but they weren't supposed to like them.
Maybe they're all as fucked up as I am.
Maybe I do have a place somewhere in this vampire world.
No.
I'm sure I hate them.

[Roderic]

I don't remember a time in my life when I was scared.
A little unsettled? Maybe.
Scared?
Not that I can remember.
Until I went there.
To that place to find Nix.
She told me to chill out, and I played it off.
I can't explain what it was that made me scared.
Maybe because I had no idea where or what the **** this place was.
Maybe because I couldn't find my way out for about two ******* weeks.
Or maybe because the things I saw and thought in there weren't a definitive truth.
The best I can explain that place is utter and pure chaos.
Maybe madness suits it best.

So why do I feel compelled to return there?
I barely go in to work since I found I can find my way in that place.
Juliet hasn't noticed, or she just doesn't care, because I get paid each night.
Maybe I should quit.

But I hear the song of chaos in my head each night I'm awake and walking the streets.
I've heard it before, but this time it's almost deafening.
Part of me is afraid if I go there, I might not come back one night.
The other part of me doesn't care.

[Roderic]

I think I got fired, but I'm not sure.
Juliet said it was severance pay.
I don't know what that means.
So I looked it up in a dictionary.
I didn't want to leave my job.
I liked working there.
Working for Juliet.
With Juliet.

I should go to Mexico.
I'm pretty sure that's where she went.
Told me as much when we hung out that one time.

She told me to take care of Nix and Saige.
Take care of someone? Take care of two someones?
I wonder if she ever figured out how I take care of people.
I don't think she'd want me to take care of Saige like that.
Nix is a lost cause. She's like a cookie that's just been baked.
All gushy, warm and gooey because she's banging Axel.
Axel killed the Nix I knew.
The one that was a cold, calculating *****.
I liked her. I made friends with her when I was a blood thief. Sort of.
That Nix is long gone. And now so is Juliet.
I don't know what to do.

Juliet said I was a good friend.
I don't think I've ever been called a friend before by someone.
Not even by Brownie.
I didn't even do anything to be called that by her.
I hope she'll be back soon.
What am I supposed to do for a job?
I can't work at the local McDonald's or something comparable to that.
I had a good arrangement at Juliet's Black Adder.

I'll give her a week, then I think I'm going to go to Mexico.
Maybe Saige can come with too.
And Rice.
What a stupid name for a bird.
Maybe it's stupid. I don't know. Not like I ever had a pet and had to name one.
Maybe give her a few days. A week might be too long.

[Roderic]

February 17, 2014

I'm not cut out for taking care of someone, or two someones.
Juliet is going to come back home.
I'm going to go to Mexico and bring her back.
Even if I have to bring her back kicking and screaming.
Or in a body bag.

I'm not going to kill her.
But I'm sure I could overtake her.
Don't really want to hurt her.
Might need to stop at a few places and pick up some things.
Wonder how drugs work on vampires.
Guess we'll see.

Nix isn't going to like me going to Mexico, but it's already set in stone.
I have to break the trip up because I can't go in the sun anymore since Nix unintentionally sired me.
Damn, I wish I could find a cure for this condition.
So it'll take me just under a week to get to Mexico.
There's got to be an easier way, but I can't take an airline. Too much of a paper trail.
But I've got to go. Juliet put too much responsibility on my plate with looking out for Saige and Nix.
And I want my job back.
Screw the money. I would work for half of what she paid me.
Because I liked what I did.
What I do.

When I get back I'm going to open up a store.
With Juliet's help, she'll make me rich.
No one even cares about patients that are crazy.
The true crazy ones. The ones no one visits.
This is why I need Juliet to come back. I'll work for her and for me.
We'll both make good money doing what we like to do.
Phoenix will just have to understand.
She will when she sees Juliet again.

[Roderic]

I didn't find Jules.
I didn't even manage to leave the city.
Got jumped by a gang of punks.
Not just any punks.
Punks I used to know.
I'll collect my debt from them soon enough.

It bothers me I didn't find Juliet.
It bothers me to fail.
I've not failed before.
Except for finding a cure.

But now I'm not sure I want to find a cure.
Humans don't want me hanging around them anymore.
But neither do most vampires.

Nix says it's been months since I was gone.
There's new people to meet.
I don't know why she tries to get me to meet new people.
I only meet people with the intent to kill them.
I don't think she would be happy if I killed the people she likes.
I'll meet one. Maybe two. I can handle one or two people.
No one is going to be like Juliet.
I don't mean that in some way.
The way you're thinking.
She was nice, gave me a job and taught me one or two things.
I don't think she's going to come back any time soon, or at all.
I guess I should meet one or two people. Maybe they aren't all that bad.

[Roderic]

Nix has been talking about me.
I don't know why.
I wonder what she's told them.
I wonder what she all knows.
Someone I don't know says she's trying to pimp me out.
I've never heard someone say that before.
So I looked it up.
She thinks I need some modifications or something.
Nix thinks I need to improve something. About me.
I don't think she knows me enough.
I'm not sure I like being talked about.

[Roderic]

Who the hell is Strix?
No, really.
Her name is Phoebe I guess.
I'm not sure why everyone feels the need to take fake names.
There must be thousands of Phoebe's in the world.
I don't think I've ever seen a woman that was so assertive.
Sure, Nix can come across like that, but this is different.
I don't know what to make of her.
I think she's kidding.
I hope she's kidding.
I should ask Nix.
I have to ask Nix.