No past...no future?

[Lionsheart Steel]

I'm not sure how long I've been around....In fact I'm not even sure where I come from.
Oh I know I've spent quite a while in a wilderness of sorts with nothing but rats and things to eat.Incidentally dear diary....When did I begin to take my food uncooked?
I can't really remember how I came to find myself amongst people either...but oh what a thrill it gave me to feel their warmth around me....and then came the hunger.Such a vicious hunger.One was never going to be enough!
The first time it happened so suddenly..maybe even instinctively.Oh god now I feel like I'm trying to excuse myself.I've met others,others like me!This place is full of them!I'm told it's nothing to be ashamed of!
Dear diary answer me this then : Why this charade?I suffered a most painful and humiliating beating at the hands of my so-called peers!The reason...Doing the very thing I'm not to be ashamed of! This charade,or to give it the correct term,Masquerade,is not to be breached under any circumstances.The fodder must never know we graze on them.I should feel sickened...but that is past now...I've come to terms with my dietary needs.
The community has educated me...and what a great job they've done too.Every last copper coin I've earned since seems to be going towards tutoring materials.Slowly I will become more proficient in their uses...and then I too shall take my place amidst the learned proffessors of this place.
School's in...there are lectures to attend...lessons to be learned...exams to be graded...and Hell requires it's payment.
I have to go for now dear diary.The darkness is coming again and there are things to be pilfered and prey to be sought! Goodnight.

[Lionsheart Steel]

Dear Diary,
What an eventful week! Firstly it seems that there are some genuinely friendly and indeed helpful vampires amongst the population. A chance meeting with a learned man of sorts has first of all led me to believe I am something he refers to as an...hmm let me get this right...an al-ur-rist..Not sure what it entails but it sounds important at least!! Secondly he managed, from just a pint of blood too!, to define that I am most likely to be a Vedarian? He says this is a bloodline? Okay so it's probably raised more questions than it has answered...but he at least could give me an address! So maybe I can find out something...anything...even a tidbit is better than what I have now! I fully intend to take a hike over to Ainthe Asylum and consult with whomever I find there with a view to finding out more about myself and where I come from.
The next seemingly fortunate event came in the shape of finding some wispy looking guy called Berlion... we talked for a long time..I fell asleep later that night and now even more weird things are happening to me... It's not a bad thing though. In fact..... I'm really quite enjoying it!
I've also met an apparently like-minded group that don't seem to mind me sharing their space... at least they haven't said so. I've spent some time chatting with some of them and I think we're going to get along really well.
Well let's be honest here... It was about time I started having some luck! Maybe now I can buckle down and make myself useful!
Let's hope the next week is as much fun shall we? Night night Diary...

[Lionsheart Steel]

Dear Diary,
It has been so long since I looked you out and put pen to paper but maybe that is a good thing in a way!
I've been so busy! I have been exploring both this town and these strange new skills,I'm becoming quite proficient in sneaking into buildings and finding items of small value which I then take to one of the numerous dodgy shops around the place and swap for other things I find more useful. I have a small armoury of guns and a couple of pleasant enough sharps all paid for with my ill gotten gains. I'm trying my hand at 'hacking' too, a most enjoyable(even though painful) new hobby! It seems everytime i leave the cafe though I get accosted by the law. I'm staying clean in regards to the bounty list though. Yes indeedy. The cellphone that my friend gave me is a very handy tool for checking up on that!
I have a few good reasons for staying moonlit side up though, so yeah...I'll be watching my bounty like a owlet on a daily basis...
Seeya real soon Diary...

[Lionsheart Steel]

Dear Diary,
Oh I know it's been forever since I last dropped by and jotted a note or two onto you...
HA! Yes I'm still Moonlight side up!
I'm still learning and exploring! It would seem there are constantly new discoveries to be made.
Where to start?
I applied and was accepted into Tytonidae! There are some strong characters in there and ladlefuls of knowledge which I'm attempting to ingest so that I can become a useful addition to the faction.
My hacking has gone from strength to strength, Ariadne set a challenge and I seized the chance to run with it, She seems pleased with my effort and I'm glad! Micah gave me a leg-up with some much better hacking software too. This means I can still get on with my crafting as well! I even sold some cameras to a human today, I told them I'm open to trade negotiations too..Let's see if they return for more stuff and if they bring swaps instead of green-backs...I really do need copper pipe!
Aura gave me a job! Don't get too excited, I'm just the janitor but I'll do it well! At last I can earn money without stealing it.
Aaaaaaaaaaand then there's 'Rina!!
Where should I begin? She's helpful and patient(That's sort of how we met!),fun to be around,beautiful,sexy as all hell and possibly the best thing to happen to me since forever became my new life expectancy!
Anyways...I'd better scoot,She'll be home soon and I'd like to be there to greet her after a tough day at the office*Feel free to insert my idiotic grin here*

[Lionsheart Steel]

11th July,

Okay so now this gets weird, I'm happily minding my own business a while ago and some clever guy starts telling me this stuff..says it'll help with illusionism?(Is that even a word?) So anyway I listen to what he has to say and well to be fair I thought he was just chatting crap at me to be honest. However it seems I can do things I couldn't do before... I walked into the lounge whilst 'Rina was away and bumped into myself sitting at the computer as if hacking! I'm keeping it on the downlow right now, because to be fair I'm not entirely sure how I did it.
Then again a couple of weeks ago some other weirdo claimed to be able to tell me how to develop telepathic abilities. Now I find myself with more abilities I hadn't had before. I need to be careful though.. 'Rina and I are getting along so well.. I'm really glad She let me stay at Alpha in her place.. I really want to take her out. Well we've been out. I mean out as in on a date. A proper date. With a view to more maybe?
And then along comes this telepath thing and 'bang' I couldn't help but try to talk at her with it....Not sure but I think I freaked her out a little, She says it probably takes some getting used to, having people talk without moving a muscle. I'll be way more careful in future. Not sure how long getting used to it takes but I'll refrain for now at least. I sent her a pendant that i saw in the gift shop. I hope it's her kind of thing.
Okay well...time to go and find more stuff to steal. Seeya soon.

[Lionsheart Steel]

Dear Diary..

Alright...I'm coming to terms with the fact I'm really rubbish at keeping a diary!
In my defence however...I have been participating in the raid that never ends since, well, since it decided it was never going to end!
During the raid one of my colleagues, Every, has decided that I fail miserably at fighting and has given me numerous thrashings with her training sword. I can tell you here that I keep referring to it as Ev's pointy stick, which seems to infuriate her and ensures I get another sound beat down.
I will work on my technique and skill set, these are valuable lessons I'm learning, even though it's all in the name of fun. I must also have a word with my Fisherfriend too, Get some pointers on what skills will help an allurist become more useful with a weapon.
The raid has had it's plusses though in other ways too. Rina and I have been spending an enormous amount of time together and it hasn't made her head for the hills. We're having a date this evening. No-one else knows about it. Mainly because I have something I have to do and I'm choosing the date to do it. If only you could wish me luck......
Okay well, here goes.....

[Lionsheart Steel]

Dear Diary,

Much is happening in my life at the moment. We had our date, Karina and I. I was incredibly nervous but I think the Port helped to steady my nerves. Our relationship has developed beyond anything I could have envisaged a few months ago and our passion burns with an intense, intoxicating white heat that only something that is right can have. I wanted Her to know that I feel this way on every level of my being and for that reason I decided there had to be a date and I had to do something very traditional that allowed Karina the option to make Her own decision freely. It felt good to make the romantic gesture and to do it from the heart although I will readily admit I feared that I might wake from this dream or worse still I'd misunderstood and misconstrued all that had gone on between us and Rina might yet have said no.
I guess I'm far luckier than I could ever have imagined ... Not only did She say yes but I now also have a night that I shall remember fondly for all eternity.

On a darker note, sadly due to my spur of the moment decision to have our date, I neglected to tell one of the most important people in my life, AuraMum, about my plans and am now wondering if I will ever be able to make amends for the hurt I have caused Her.
I shall work at it,

Seeya soon...

[Lionsheart Steel]

16th August 2013

Dear Diary,
I've given up trying to find out my identity ... my original identity that is.
Well, it makes sense really ... afterall, I doubt that I'm much of the person I was before my 'turning'.
It's time to come to terms with who I am becoming and to that end I've decided to change my name (whatever the hell it was) to Lionsheart Steel. Rina said it sounded 'solid' when I told her ... this only caused us both to start with the innuendos and much giggling ... So it stays!
Shock! Horror! Who would have thought it? I have a childe! Eleanore. An Allurist too. She listens to what I'm teaching her and goes from strength to strength. I put her in the Hunting grounds and whenever I look in on her, She just asks "Have you got any bullets for my dwarf gun so I can kill stuff?" Perfect! I already have a job lined up for her later.
There's been a few hunts recently and it appears both my swordsmanship and marksmanship are both improving, It's my guess the play-fighting and constant training is paying off.
I took a hut in the Eyrie too recently. No real reason. I don't need one. I live at Alpha with Rina. She has a hut in the Eyrie too ... and other property. It was just a whim, I'll most likely decorate it in a most distasteful manner. I certainly don't have a designers eye! At least now though I have somewhere safe and sound to keep you in Diary!
AuraMum seems to have calmed down a lot. Rina and I have had a wedding gift each from her a few days ago.
She also introduced me to Stefano too. Then this evening I had a gift delivered. A beautiful time piece! I'm going to keep it somewhere safe. It looks expensive and I'd hate to lose it.

Anyway, I'd better scoot. laterzz

[Lionsheart Steel]

25th August 2013

Dear Diary,

What a strange week this has been, my childe Eleanore got lost in the city whilst on a training exercise after losing her map copy.
I found her a couple of days later, she was in a sorry state. I wouldn't have recognised her had it not been for the new gun I'd so proudly gifted her days earlier at our last meeting.
Ree and Elle had an introduction that I would much rather have come under happier circumstances, however they seem to have gotten on very well and that has been a good point.
Elle's training has been suspended and the childe has been placed under lock and key in my private abode whilst we heal her to a state where she's capable of fending off at least a small attack. Judging by the punishment the Fae gave her, I feel rather proud that the girl got away with her life. I found a survivor in her I think.
In more upbeat news again, I managed to bag the titles, Duchess and Duke of Gullsborough for myself and Ree!
I have set what I believe are firm but fair rules. However I do have to take up objections with the self-proclaimed Otter King and subsequently have given him a verbal shot across the bow ... let us hope that is suffice shall we?
Ree and I are to be attending the Queen of Tulipranny's Ball. I can scarcely wait .... It's been too long since She and I socialised proper!

Oh well... must scoot, Laterzzz

[Lionsheart Steel]

*Blows the dust off the small black book as he pulls it from it's long-time resting place*
"Bloody hell, it's been quite some time since i felt a need to make an entry into you hasn't it?"
*Turning the pages he read through a few of the previous entries before he arrived at the next available empty page... He took an unneccessary breath and began to put pen to paper*

30th July 2015.

Dear Diary,

It's been a long time my old friend. Much water has passed under the bridge and yet I haven't felt the need to resort to writing it down to clear my thoughts.
I was certain I had this new beginning all worked out. The last few days have have given me pause for thought. Things have happened this week that make me doubt my suitability as a sire.
Eleanore, who had seemed to be making good progress in her training, was actually having a harder time than I had thought. A couple of weeks ago she came to me and told me that after a fadebeast attack... (in my very own brand new showroom I might add!) she'd found herself attacked by a human hunter. Instead of delving further, I just put it down to a run of bad luck. That, it would seem was my first mistake. My second mistake was not checking in with her on a more regular basis. It's not unknown for me to get so wrapped up in my daily routine of crafting, forging and pilfering that I'm often out of the loop with many my wife and childe included for days at a time.
By the time it came to my attention that she'd gained a bounty, for multiple incursions it would seem, the hunt was already on. My only solace came in the thought that at least it would be quick and relatively pain free as my colleagues in Tytonidae dispatched her to the shadow realm.
Don't get me wrong... I'm not holding myself wholly responsible. Oh no. Not by a long chalk.
You do the crime.... you do the time. I'm just acutely aware that had I spent a few minutes a day.. even just an appraisal from time to time... things may well have been very different.
Hence my digging you out, you little black bound conffessional.
I know when I write it down and reason it out, I usually manage to make more sense of it all.

It has been a long time coming... but I believe this was my wake up call, so you can expect your pages to be seeing the light of day a little more often again in future.
One thing this experience has taught me: We're always learning, it's what we choose to do with that knowledge that can define us.

Anyways, enough of my rambling for now, I must scoot!