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External Hard Drive
Posted: 22 Jun 2011, 02:35
by Lucas (DELETED 191)
June 21st 2011.
Woman. Dear god can I not find a decent one? Am I destined to run into girls who cannot read my hints. A gentle touch, a compliment and hint that I wish to see them more; I guess not. Kacee mistook my slow actions for a brotherly touch, oh well. She was someone I thought I could see myself with but who gives a flying **** now. I left her standing in her apartment door after our little dispute and I didn’t even want to see her. I went running, running seems to help a lot but I can only do so much before I get bored. I've managed to get into her head, I know most of her past and her intentions with this other guy she was with. I’m not good at expressing my feelings so i’m just going to give up now.
My Beauty is back, I have a life to live serving her. I am her Beast after all, she’s seen my darker side and accepts it. She is the only woman I can count on. I can only try so hard to be a gentleman in the eye of the public.
L
Re: External Hard Drive
Posted: 23 Jun 2011, 19:29
by Lucas (DELETED 191)
June 23rd 2011.
I met my new brother today, he seems quiet. Not that I am complaining or anything but the apartment is full of noise and laughter; I hope he can bust open from his shell long enough to talk to us otherwise Nicky and I are going to crack his shell for him.
Mother seems glad to be back, I’m not going to complete admit I missed her but boy did I ever. I can only go so long and remain sane without seeing her for a short period of time. To have her back in my arms in great, she feels the same as she did the last time I held her. I must remind myself to get her some more tea
REMINDER: Buy Bells more tea.
Kacee and I haven’t spoken, my days are mostly quiet without her being around but I get more done without her words in my ear. I haven’t missed her like I thought I would which is a plus but I do find myself wondering how many other men there were or there still is. Good luck to them if they don’t know about each other. With her trying out her new flirting abilities who knows what other beings she’s lured closer. I don’t think I’ll be patching things up with her anytime soon, family meetings should be interesting.
L.
Re: External Hard Drive
Posted: 24 Jun 2011, 19:06
by Lucas (DELETED 191)
June 24th, 2011
I saw Reyna today and I’m glad I have a FRIEND like her around. She is smart and beautiful and one hell of a listener. Another female I can trust my with secrets, I hope she doesn’t backstab me like someone else would shall remain nameless. I'm not so sure why it's completely out of the norm for a male to have a female friend and not have sex. Sorry but I don't just dip my spring roll into any soy sauce. PASS.
No females have caught my eye yet, I haven’t slept with anyone nor do I plan to. It will take a lot of building trust for me to even think about getting close to someone physically. There is no bitches and hoe’s in my agenda anytime soon.
I still need to get Bells tea
**SECOND REMINDER** Buy Bells her sweet tea.
I think I might go running tonight, maybe catch a snack along the way if you catch my drift. Another succulent neck to feast upon and a satisfied belly to hold me over until morning.
STOP OFF AND BUY BEAUTY TEA - I hope I can, I hope I can, I hope I can remember.
L.
Re: External Hard Drive
Posted: 27 Jun 2011, 23:05
by Lucas (DELETED 191)
June 27, 2011
The girl Kacee came to see me, oh joy. I’m the monster for getting angry and wanting nothing to do with her. She admitted to knowing my hints when we spoke of this ******** situation before and suddenly now I’m in the wrong. Go figure. My I want to get to know you more go down hill and it’s my fault I wasn’t clearer with my emotions or intentions. My fault again, bad, bad Lucas. Shame on me.
She can sleep around and I’m expected to be the better person and just forgive and move on after a week, go figure it’s my fault again. Because I’m cold and bitter towards the woman who sleep with another it’s my fault. Well hot damn I’m just a huge asshole now aren’t I. At least I can’t be called a slut, or the ‘other woman’ She confessed Sebastian was sleeping with another while with her, low standards I say and on a high point she can’t reach me again. I went to Zachariah moments after I shut the door in her ignorant face and asked for permission to remove her from my cell. He of course said yes. I don’t think I’ve felt more joy. The bitterness from my rejected proposal and this crazy ******* **** just all came out. She pushed my buttons and gave me a reason to hate woman all over again.
Snakes they are, slimy, worthless, lying snakes. She was caught up in the moment of her new form and I’m suddenly the man on his high horse for having control. I should get Bells to slap my hand. I’m so bad.
On a good note, Reyna and I are talking more, she came over while I was unpacking and suddenly the packing stopped and a conversation broke out. Oh another thing, Kacee said I kissed Reyna, who ever she is getting her information from needs to shut their mouth because they are spewing nothing but lies. She helped me get back on track and after unpacking a few more boxes we watched a movie.
I ran into a girl on the street, I admit I might of been a bit scary at first but she is wearing on this old cold soul. She is the sweetest girl and when she stutters I can’t help but smile on the inside. We are going to get tea together, the poor thing hurt her ankle and I will be the one to attend to her ever whim if needed be, not anyone else but me. I adore the young thing already, but I won't admit it yet.
Time to jog.
L.
Re: External Hard Drive
Posted: 28 Jun 2011, 15:46
by Lucas (DELETED 191)
June 28th, 2011
Sebastian and I got drunk! **** yes we did. Snakes with tits is a wonderful saying brought across by my new bro, Sebby! I hope he knows she’s lying right to his face. She had no feelings, I beg to differ.
Kacee Docere (21/06/2011 11:14:58 AM): I have't even said I wanted a relationship with Sebastian. We shared some heartache, that doesn't make people fall in love.
Lucas Scott (21/06/2011 11:15:19 AM): It creates a bond that leads to it... Trust me
Kacee Docere (21/06/2011 11:15:35 AM): Why?
Lucas Scott (21/06/2011 11:15:48 AM): Thats how Jennifer and I started.
Kacee Docere (21/06/2011 11:16:01 AM): Do you understand what -my- heartache was that night?
Lucas Scott (21/06/2011 11:16:14 AM): No, please enlighten me.
Kacee Docere (21/06/2011 11:16:19 AM): You.
Lucas Scott (21/06/2011 11:16:48 AM): *he grunts* So if we were together and I was gone for a day you'd go kiss other men to help fill that heartache?
Kacee Docere (21/06/2011 11:16:57 AM): It wasn't because you were gone.
Kacee Docere (21/06/2011 11:17:46 AM): It was because every time I got close to you, touched you or smiled, what I got back was a sweet guy humoring someone he saw as a child, not a woman. All this talk about someone snatching my heart felt more like a hint that it wouldn't be you.
Lucas Scott (21/06/2011 11:19:08 AM): It has only been maybe 2 1/2 weeks since jennifer rejected me flat out. I'm not just going to explode and blurt out everything I am feeling. That is why I wanted to get to know you.
Oh **** my sideways baby is something I wouldn’t bluntly say to a woman. Forgive me for trying to be a man. When I went to leave the first time the truth came out.
Kacee Docere (21/06/2011 11:31:46 AM): *followed behind him* I don't trust him at all Lucas.
Lucas Scott (21/06/2011 11:33:08 AM): *Put his hands out defensivily* Don't Kacee. Please... You said goodbye just let this be goodbye. *He closes his blue hues not wanting to see her* Just let me head home.
Kacee Docere (21/06/2011 11:34:20 AM): *frowns* Fine. I spent 23 years alone...I can stay that way. I don't need ******* pity or love or any of that nonsense. Hell, I don't even need the stupid sex that does nothing but ruin anything. If you want to go Lucas, go.
Petty love, that exactly what I offered her. Of course Because our pasts were the same that’s obviously what it needed to be called. I’m glad a week is long enough for someone to be completely angry.
Kacee Docere (27/06/2011 6:33:13 PM): I still believe you had a good reason to be angry...it was a dumb thing but there is a big difference in being angry and being hateful and shutting someone out.
Kacee Docere (27/06/2011 6:33:28 PM): I wouldn't expect the all perfect Lucas to know that though.
Lucas Scott (27/06/2011 6:33:39 PM): Because its normal to be angry and act all chipper around the person who brought it on you
Kacee Docere (27/06/2011 6:34:10 PM): Because it is normal to be angry and not carry that around forever.
Lucas Scott (27/06/2011 6:34:21 PM): Its been a week kacee
Lucas Scott (27/06/2011 6:34:22 PM): really
Lucas Scott (27/06/2011 6:34:30 PM): thats not forever my darling, thats a few days.
Lucas Scott (27/06/2011 6:40:48 PM): I was honest with you
Lucas Scott (27/06/2011 6:40:53 PM): I said I was angry, and I walked away
Lucas Scott (27/06/2011 6:41:06 PM): Want a broadway musical?
Kacee Docere (27/06/2011 6:41:22 PM): I don't want anything from you.
Lucas Scott (27/06/2011 6:41:30 PM): Then why did you come here
Kacee Docere (27/06/2011 6:42:32 PM): Because I obviously had a stupid moment.
Lucas Scott (27/06/2011 6:42:54 PM): Yup, you did. ANother one next to the mistake you had with sebastian apparently.
Kacee Docere (27/06/2011 6:43:48 PM): He wasn't a mistake, the timing was. Though the more you talk, the more I realize that you were never worth a minute of my time, you are far more of a mistake than he could ever be.
I’m the mistake, a male, a MAN simply walking away because they are angry over the fact a girl they liked slept with another. Please, give me a break. I told Sebastian she said if she knew she would of kissed me with all the emotion she felt behind it. Does that sound like love to you? Oh, I think so. Sebby thinks so too. She lies, and lies... AND LIES. But she’s outta my life now, and if I tell sebby everything hopefully she’ll be out of his. He’s a good boy that Sebby and seeing my new pal hurt well that’s doesn’t fly right.
I'm just venting, she really made me angry. Now, now I can't even really talk to Garnet, they are room mates. I lost someone I rather enjoyed being around due to some man tossing volleyball. I wanna girl I can trust not to fool around on me.
Kacee Docere (27/06/2011 6:17:32 PM): *sighs and presses her head back against the wall* Lucas. You were my safe place. I could flirt and tease so comfortably with you because I -knew- you wouldn't move fast or rush things. I didn't sleep with Sebastian because of you.
Yes, yes she did. Liar.
SNAKES WITH TITS – That a boy Sebby... Let it out, you’re finally seeing what I have been all this time.
Drink it up tonight too bud, drinks on me tonight.
L.
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Sebby and I have drinks planned tonight, we made a pack to not mention her name anymore. If he stays with her so be it. I'm happy for him that he found someone but his love life doesn't involve me, unless... He wants me but I don't swing that way, at all. A mere memory that will soon matter not for I live today with a clean slate.
I went to visit Reyna, me being her alarm clock in the mornings went to do my duty of waking her up but sadly her eyes were already open. She's a wonderful friend, and she has a great sense of humour that I enjoy. Her hugs made me smile, but I won't let that be known to anyone but myself.
I started fresh only a few weeks ago and now, I am doing so again. I gained a friend, a brother.
L.