Goodnight

[Nastunye (DELETED 2197)]

[[Everything written here is to be taken in the form of Swedish spoken word. The following will be a collection of Viveka's monologues every night before she rests. More often than not, these will be directed at the pendant she wears around her neck, or to Kula.

These monologues do not provide public knowledge for the obvious reason that there is no written evidence to be had. Thank you.]]







I thought I died.

Kula says I did.

I know that I did, but I know that I am alive right now.

It's different, though.

He was Russian.

I know it was a man.

Even if he was pretty like a woman, I know. And Kula says I'm right.

Kula said I was right about a lot of things. Like how Bryant would be blamed for my death and disappearance.

I use to like Bryant before he called me a freak.

I think no one likes me because of Kula.

But I like Kula.

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I know what I am.

No one has to tell me.

Tell me that I have become a vampire.

Kula says vampires are nasty and terrible.

But I think Kula wanted me to be a vampire.

Kula took me there.

I took myself there.

Maybe I wanted to be a vampire, too.

Even though I didn't know they were real.

Kula says that now I don't have to worry about bars anymore.

No more little white pills or scratchy gowns or mean people who don't believe me.

I'm glad I don't have to lie anymore.

Kula says the man that did this to me is a mean man.

But then Kula is happy that this happened.

I think I'm happy.

But I want to go home.

[Nastunye (DELETED 2197)]

I was so happy. When I saw him there. I was just so happy. I hadn't bothered to really seek him out before then.

Every time I practiced my tracking skill, I would use him as my dummy, but I never expected find him.

Once I found him, I never wanted to leave.

When I needed to hunt, I would go hunt. When I felt the need to explore, I would wander around and pick pockets, find pretty things, and sometimes come across wild beasts.

Some I could handle. Some were too strong.

I wonder if he ever comes across creatures he cannot fight.

One day I'll be more like him. I think he's strong. He seems strong.

He's a Russian.

[Nastunye (DELETED 2197)]

I woke up alone.

I wake up alone all the time.

But he was there when I went to sleep.

Maybe he had to eat.

Kula told me to calm down.

I tracked him. I tracked him for a long time.

I didn't even try to fight the mean animals that came near me.

I tracked him.

I couldn't find him.

I tracked him until I got so tired.

Kula made me sleep.

But then I woke up and caught his trail.

But I still couldn't find him.

It took a long time.

I did eventually find him.

Kula says I was happier than ever before.

[Nastunye (DELETED 2197)]

It happened again.

But I found him again.

I like finding him.

It feels good to be near him.