Journal of insecurities
Posted: 18 Jan 2012, 17:43
Dear Journal,
I am one fucked up individual. All I want in this new life is one thing and that is my friendship with Wolf back and to be close to my siblings again. Every time I turn around, I screw up. I am trying to focus on my training and show Wolf that I want to be like him. I admit I am jealous of how popular he is but no matter how upset I get I never 100 percent turn my back on him. I will always til the day I am gone for good, have his back. I just wish he would help me out more. I am not the strong individual that he is and I require guidance from time to time. Why is it that he puts all his other affairs above his childer and someone that I thought he cared about like a brother. I guess its because Im such a failure and he is so ashamed to even be in my presence.
Onto my sibling Lyonel. We were very close when we first met and were almost inseparable and had fun times together but it seems like you hate me now. If I could go back and do things over I would because I miss our fun times together.
I never felt comfortable hanging out with people and meeting new people thats why I tried to stay so close to Wolf and my siblings but I have made a couple new friends.
Well I have gotten things off my chest for today atleast. Until next time
I am one fucked up individual. All I want in this new life is one thing and that is my friendship with Wolf back and to be close to my siblings again. Every time I turn around, I screw up. I am trying to focus on my training and show Wolf that I want to be like him. I admit I am jealous of how popular he is but no matter how upset I get I never 100 percent turn my back on him. I will always til the day I am gone for good, have his back. I just wish he would help me out more. I am not the strong individual that he is and I require guidance from time to time. Why is it that he puts all his other affairs above his childer and someone that I thought he cared about like a brother. I guess its because Im such a failure and he is so ashamed to even be in my presence.
Onto my sibling Lyonel. We were very close when we first met and were almost inseparable and had fun times together but it seems like you hate me now. If I could go back and do things over I would because I miss our fun times together.
I never felt comfortable hanging out with people and meeting new people thats why I tried to stay so close to Wolf and my siblings but I have made a couple new friends.
Well I have gotten things off my chest for today atleast. Until next time