Moving/Reflection. (Solo)
Posted: 28 Nov 2011, 00:31
Today I'm leaving town. As my car speeds ahead I see the city wecloming sign in the rearview and I'm not bothered by the site. For too long I lived in that city making acquaintanceship with those that didn't like me. Granted most people hate Private Investigators nearly as much as lawyers. Add in the fact I'm a human poking his nose into the supernatural, worsened matters.
It really shouldn't though...I am just as much of a monster as they are because like vampires...I crave blood. That sweet crimson that sets my insides on edge. Not just any blood though it has to be particular. Those that destroy individuals beyond repair. They're the targets...only their blood will do.
See, I'm a monster and I accept the fact I am one, but when my time is up I will take some comfort in the fact I wasn't as bad as them. Hell, if anything my efforts should be lauded wherever I go, tax and fee free monster extermination.
"You're being whimsical again Danny Boy," My Dark Friend said to me from the passenger seat.
It was hard to explain what My Dark Friend is to me. Several psychological books claim he's a splintered off portion of my psyche. It's quick to simply say he's a part of me, but sometimes I feel like...I'm a part of him.
"Quit thinking too deeply!"
All I know is we are one in the same somehow and I'm the only one that can see my friend. Yes, I'm insane because of it but as quoted by so many bad movies, "There's a fine line between genius and insanity." I' just cross that line more than I care to admit.
Trees and sights whiz past me as I continue my drive going to where my inner urges take me. A new hunting ground is needed, a place where I can flourish and let myself go. Where I can kill freely and in peace, where the burnt corpses I amass are just part of the number instead of the threat flavor of the day.
I heard about Harper Rock thanks to an add on television that boasted the place. Psychobabble rumors on the Internet talked about monsters just like where I was living. The parallels were too similar to ignore and after a while compared numbers, and that's why I'm on my way.
Day fades into darkness before I arrive at the hotel that is to be my temporary home. Like before, I have to start over and I'm okay with this deep down. People aren't attached to me there and likewise me to them, plus I don't feel. Ever since I was young, I've never felt anything but the urge.
My mother died when I was five and ever since then I've been going through the motions of humanity. I am a private investigator because the resources there can funnel into my addiction. This also explains why I never lived lavsihly. Yes, I drive a somewhat nice car but that can be funneled as an addiction expense, just like my tools.
With bags in tow I slip up the stairs knowing my room wasn't going to be great. Places like this never are, they're cheap and take cash up front. A drawback for the owern's silence and acceptance of a name like, "John Smith," is the decore. All of it is very dated, it was new back when Kiss was the hottest band to come out of Detroit and Platform shoes were first sought after.
The door creaks as I open it and as I expected, green shag carpet with a few horrid stains, a television set that still boasts HBO as a selling plus, and there's enough space to call it a room. Quietly as possible, I shut the door and set out my bags on the bed. Within one of them I pull out a delicate leather pouch and unravel it on the television set.
Tools gleamed up at me and I pull one out, the blade practically dances in the light. A slow sigh escapes my lips and for the moment I feel whole again. While I consider myself a monster on some level I'm an artist too. Like a painter or sculptor, I need tools to carry out my work...The five other blades gleam at me and deep down the urge to hold them is almost too great.
"Soon," I whisper to them as much as myself. In a matter of time I will be out there doing what it is I do...and I will be so very happy about it.
It really shouldn't though...I am just as much of a monster as they are because like vampires...I crave blood. That sweet crimson that sets my insides on edge. Not just any blood though it has to be particular. Those that destroy individuals beyond repair. They're the targets...only their blood will do.
See, I'm a monster and I accept the fact I am one, but when my time is up I will take some comfort in the fact I wasn't as bad as them. Hell, if anything my efforts should be lauded wherever I go, tax and fee free monster extermination.
"You're being whimsical again Danny Boy," My Dark Friend said to me from the passenger seat.
It was hard to explain what My Dark Friend is to me. Several psychological books claim he's a splintered off portion of my psyche. It's quick to simply say he's a part of me, but sometimes I feel like...I'm a part of him.
"Quit thinking too deeply!"
All I know is we are one in the same somehow and I'm the only one that can see my friend. Yes, I'm insane because of it but as quoted by so many bad movies, "There's a fine line between genius and insanity." I' just cross that line more than I care to admit.
Trees and sights whiz past me as I continue my drive going to where my inner urges take me. A new hunting ground is needed, a place where I can flourish and let myself go. Where I can kill freely and in peace, where the burnt corpses I amass are just part of the number instead of the threat flavor of the day.
I heard about Harper Rock thanks to an add on television that boasted the place. Psychobabble rumors on the Internet talked about monsters just like where I was living. The parallels were too similar to ignore and after a while compared numbers, and that's why I'm on my way.
Day fades into darkness before I arrive at the hotel that is to be my temporary home. Like before, I have to start over and I'm okay with this deep down. People aren't attached to me there and likewise me to them, plus I don't feel. Ever since I was young, I've never felt anything but the urge.
My mother died when I was five and ever since then I've been going through the motions of humanity. I am a private investigator because the resources there can funnel into my addiction. This also explains why I never lived lavsihly. Yes, I drive a somewhat nice car but that can be funneled as an addiction expense, just like my tools.
With bags in tow I slip up the stairs knowing my room wasn't going to be great. Places like this never are, they're cheap and take cash up front. A drawback for the owern's silence and acceptance of a name like, "John Smith," is the decore. All of it is very dated, it was new back when Kiss was the hottest band to come out of Detroit and Platform shoes were first sought after.
The door creaks as I open it and as I expected, green shag carpet with a few horrid stains, a television set that still boasts HBO as a selling plus, and there's enough space to call it a room. Quietly as possible, I shut the door and set out my bags on the bed. Within one of them I pull out a delicate leather pouch and unravel it on the television set.
Tools gleamed up at me and I pull one out, the blade practically dances in the light. A slow sigh escapes my lips and for the moment I feel whole again. While I consider myself a monster on some level I'm an artist too. Like a painter or sculptor, I need tools to carry out my work...The five other blades gleam at me and deep down the urge to hold them is almost too great.
"Soon," I whisper to them as much as myself. In a matter of time I will be out there doing what it is I do...and I will be so very happy about it.