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Southern Pride
Posted: 14 Sep 2011, 00:08
by Bella Dupree
Dearest Diary,
I must confess that this so called modern time is not to my liking. I feel so out of place. I have few friends and other then the boys I really have no one. My darling Fool-Eater seems to be lost to me. I miss him so much. My heart aches for him and yet I know I can not expect for a man like him to always be around. He needs freedom. My beloved is a free spirit. He has to be wondering the land. Where I on the other hand, I am happy sitting in a chair and reading.
I watch these young ones each night as I stroll the streets. My foot steps fall silently on the side walk as I try to absorb my surroundings. They are so wild and yet so intriguing. I know when they see me they find me odd, that my wardrobe is not what they are use to seeing. But I can not bring myself to dress as these young ones do. I have tried and I felt like a harlot.
Each day I find my powers grow stronger. But who am I to share these happy achievements with? I have not seen Zachariah in what feels like ages. I am alone. Alone in a world with people all around me. As strange as that is. Perhaps I need to try and be a bit more out going. Perhaps I need to try and fit in. But how do I do this when I truly do not have a guide? My dear diary, I pray that things change for me soon. This loneliness is worse horrible. I must say the Shadow Realm was a bit more comforting then what I am feeling now.
Bella E. Dupree
Re: Southern Pride
Posted: 15 Sep 2011, 23:03
by Bella Dupree
Dearest Diary,
Yet another night without my beloved Fool-Eater. I begin to wonder if he is indeed avoiding me. Or perhaps he just found another. My heart is weighted down with sadness as I have these thoughts. I simply adore the man when he is around me. But when he is gone a darkness fills my soul. I don't know if I should move on or continue to wait for him. Goodness I would be happy with just a letter from him. A note even. Just something to give me faith.
I met my grand childe to day. Raphael. A nice gentleman he is. I enjoyed his company very much. I look forward to another chance to speak with him. Mordy, Nicky and Nik are doing wonderful. I have not heard from Jason in some time. I do hope the childe is doing well.
Perhaps I will take a walk and let faith lead me on an adventure. Or maybe I should stop reading so many of those romantic novels.
Bella E. Dupree
Re: Southern Pride
Posted: 23 Sep 2011, 03:24
by Bella Dupree
Dearest Diary,
It feels like the only time I feel close to my beloved Fool-Eater is when I write his name in this book. My heart aches for him and I am to the point where I begin to wonder if I should continue to wait for him. Could it be he has found someone? I shutter at the thought but I must see the reality of this and keep in mind that it is very possible he has. Oh my sweet diary, if that is what has truly happened then I do not know what I will do. Of course I wish him all the happiness. I would never raise a weapon nor would I use my powers to harm him. I just wish that he would speak to me. Write me a letter even. I miss him so.
I will confess I have made a wonderful friend. I dare not write his name for fear if anyone should ever come across my diary. But he is a very nice man, and I do enjoy his company when he has the time to visit. It is nice when he does. He takes my mind off of the heart ache I have. I treasure his friendship and I pray he feels the same about mine. When I am with him I do not feel so old. He does not seem to mind that I am not as knowledgeable with modern time. In fact he takes the time to teach me. I have even learned a form of modern dance because of him. It is an old way of dancing but very enjoyable.
Well my diary, that is all for now. My little family is doing well. Mordy, the sweet boy he is does stop and say hello to me from time to time. Such a nice childe. Nicky and Nik seem to be doing well. But I have noticed that Nik had a few wounds on him. I must remember to ask the dear boy why he has these wounds soon.
Bella E. Dupree