Broken bonds

[Mortll]

Mortll: Mortll half expected the number that popped up on the buzzing thing in her pocket. She had been feeling nostalgic she guessed something that was happening more and more often lately. She wasn't exactly sure why she had gone through with sending Doc the blood and the pic but it had felt like the right thing to do. She had been relaxing and reading a book while listening to music she turned the current tune playing down as she answered “Hello"

Doc: Hearing her voice as she answered, he smiled, "Mortll. I got your package. Thank you. " He paused, should he ask now...or wait? Maybe she would broach the subject herself. "What is the occasion? Did I miss an important date…?"
She smiled "Well to be honest i think you’ve missed a lot ... but No you didn't Miss a occasion I just got to thinking about you ... her voice trailed off
Doc: "Mortll..." He said, in a soft, yet cautious voice. "What happened?" He wanted to believe her. He did believe her… but something was wrong. there Enzo to consider after all. Had something happened to him? "Have… " He stopped. "Tell me what is going on.. "
Mortll: "I don’t know what’s going on ... I don’t feel anything anymore its gone .... the connection it’s just not there and he’s not here ... So I just don’t know. If he ever comes back Imma kill him but the bond the damn unbreakable bond .... it’s just gone “She sounded a bit confused but her voice was steady She was back to being alone and had been for a long time she was way too used to it. Only Doc could pick up on something like that with her so quickly that something was wrong ... One of the reasons he had been heavy on her mind as of late.
Doc: "****… " He said under his breath. If the bond was gone, that meant Enzo was more than likely dead… and if not dead… he was stuck somewhere he couldn’t get himself out of. "I am sorry." It was three simple words. But he felt every one of them. He knew how this must be killing her. ******* Enzo…why did he have to go alone? "Do you want company?" he was due to fly out the next night. He couldn’t leave without making sure she was alright.
Mortll: "Yeah " she said softly. It was the only word that was needed the only word she could think of ... Her mind really wasn't on Enzo. She had consoled herself long enough that he was gone. Mortll was used to people she cared about disappearing from her life. It happened often. Mortll had pretty much convinced herself that someone had laid a curse on her when she was born that it was her fate to have the people she cared about taken from her. It was a curse to anyone just to care for her. She guessed. Yet she couldn’t help herself and dared to tempt fate
Doc: "Listen... I am on my way. We'll will figure this out. " He disconnected and raked a hand through his hair. It wasn't so much that Enzo was most likely dead, it was that... Mortll didn't deserve this. He tomes to the portal room, and hit the portal to Honeymead. (eye spy poetic license here) He was headed to West Towers, he had concentrated on her, and recognized the cushions and carpet in her apartment. Exiting the elevator on her floor, he knocked on her door. He didn't think it would be proper to simply enter.
Mortll: Mortll slid off the cushion and walked over to the door the tile of the floor feeling cool on her bare feet She opened the door and moved back to let him in...
Doc: Entering without saying anything, he looked at her. She didn't look like she had been crying. Something was off with her however, he could see that. Awkwardly he held his arms open to her. These situations were tough for him. She could get insulted that he thought weak; and that was alright. He could be the bad guy.
Mortll: She eyed him warily her hand went up and ran through her hair. "Um I’m not sure you want me that close right now. She was in an old button-down shirt and a pair of shorts. She plopped down on one of the cushions and crossed her legs, motioning for him to get comfortable.
Doc: "Fair enough... " He wasn't wearing his usual suit. He was in a pair jeans and tee shirt and hoodie. he unzipped the hoodie and took it off. He tossed to toward the door, he wasn't that concerned with it. he was more concerned about her. He sat across from her on another cushion. He didn't say anything. He would let her speak when she was ready.
Mortll: "You know you are probably lucky that nut job you are bound to came back when she did?" She gave him a wry little smile.
Doc: Doc snorted, "Really? And why is that?"
Mortll: "Could be you up and disappeared instead of Enzo ... I seem to have that effect on people ..." She was totally serious. Curses were real living things they were tangible in so many ways. Science would argue otherwise but she knew better. She leaned back looking at him. She had a few things she needed to get off her chest and he was the only person she could talk about them with. She was glad that he had come.
Doc: Doc looked at her, "It isn't you Mortll. It was Enzo. I like him. I do. But he never gave off the ... 'I am in for the long haul' vibe. I tried warn you... but who the **** am I to talk?" He sighed. "Push comes to shove. Enzo was going to keep his word... he did. Then he blew town. I think he knew he wasn't up for it as soon as you accepted. But he didn't have to balls to tell you the truth."
Mortll: She could believe it if it were just Enzo but you take one look at her family even before she became a vampire it was riddled with people disappearing only one that had been there for her was her half mad great grandmother. Then from then on out anyone it seemed she cared about ended up dead the permanent type no chances of seeing them again. "Charles that’s only partly true I needed Enzo .... I used Enzo… yes, I cared for him but I used him. I had to you forced me to. I was honest with him about it ... but that wasn't an issue after we got to know each other. This quest of his this obsession for revenge .... he just wouldn’t let me be a part of it and now he’s gone ... To be honest it is him but I can’t say that this curse of mine didn't play into it as well "
Doc: "You are not ******* cursed Mortll. You want to believe it... fine. Everything that ever goes wrong... you can lay on its door... maybe that gives you some sort of solace. But you are not ******* cursed." He sighed, "How can I make you see this? Maybe... you should look at the other side... that all those people think left you... they all gave you something. You are who you are today, because of them. And you like who you are.
Mortll: She smiled "Yeah, yeah, still doesn’t explain the huge mass of people ... Eternal life my *** seems to be a early grave for over half of us. " she paused looking at him steadily " Do you ever wonder what would have happened if you had chosen Differently?"
Doc: Doc gave her a serious look. "Yes. And you would have ended up hating me. And I didn't want that. I have a wife I can't stay faithful to. I have roaming eye. I am not saying it to be proud of it. I try to be faithful.. it works for a while.. but then.. I don't know.. I get tired of denying myself.. and why the **** should I not.." He sighed. "I like you too much to ever want you to despise me.
Mortll: She laughed I’ve tried hating you look where you're sitting I can't for some reason no matter how pissed off i get at you i just can't .... I don’t know what to do about it either"
Doc: Doc gave her a cheeky grin, "I am pretty hot for an old guy.. "
Mortll: "You aren’t a old guy and well i like what you have ... Still doesn’t answer my question of what am i going to do about it. " She leaned forward "I’ve thought about it a lot ... You weigh on my mind sometimes. "
Doc: "You need to be true to you. You have standards. I respect them. I support them. I think you are right to have them. But I would never be able to hold to them. At some point.. I would let you down. "
Mortll: You don’t know me as well as you think sometimes
Doc: "Maybe I don't.. But remember our agreement.
Mortll: "Yeah " She closed her eyes and took a deep breath she may not have needed to breath but it made her feel better. "I’m starting to think I’m meant to be alone ... I just can't be alone though, Not totally so what do I do about it? Something has to change ... and that is me."

[Doc]

Doc: He raked a hand through his hair. "There has been a lot of change lately. More to come too… if I am successful." He looked at her. "Maybe you need a cause? Something to focus on .. that isn't you...?" It was what he did. Didn’t it show the number of businesses he started? And now Vampire Politics

Mortll: "I have that I run a Faction and control a good portion of the city keeping it out of the hands of gangs ... I need something more personal. I need to focus on me more and not everyone else I need to do what I want ... Thing is I know what I want, I just haven’t figured out how to get it yet ... but I’m starting to and part of that is letting go of rigid ideas of what a relationship is supposed to be."

Doc: Doc gave her a long look. He wanted to tell her she was rebounding. That she would regret this. He wanted her to realize she needed to give herself time to grieve. But that could also be the wrong thing to say, because she could get pissed at him for not 'listening' to her. No, he had to tell her. "Mortll. You're hurt. You're angry. But you need to take some time to grieve. You do not need to up change who you are … because you are hurting.

Mortll: Thing was she wasn't hurting ... and she wasn't changing who she was. If Doc knew half the things she had done and gotten herself into ... She had only told him parts of things hadn’t ever told him the details. He wasn't the first bound person she had a affair with. She had friends with benefits before. "I’m not hurt nor angry .... You have seen me hurt and angry .... Does this look like it ?" She eyed him levelly and calmly. "If you are worried about hurting me like that again Don’t be ... I wont give you the chance. I can't trust you like that ever again. You only get that chance once. Just ask Zo ... she might see it differently than I do ... but she had the same chance you did once upon a time and now we are still friends ... and occasionally more but that ship has sailed no matter how many times I sleep with her "

Doc: He lifted an eyebrow, and surveyed her evenly. "You do not look like it. No. But you cannot go through something like this, and it not affect you somehow. Maybe it hasn't hit you fully yet. Maybe you expected this to happen with Enzo; and you think you are ... over it. I don't know. But I still think you need time. And fortunately for both of us... I am leaving for Italy tomorrow. I will be gone for two weeks. I am going to be researching our history. So when I get back... if you still feel the same… we can discuss it then. If you do not bring it up... then I will know you changed your mind.

Mortll: "Fair enough as you like to say " Her mind was made up or she wouldn’t be talking to him at all about it. He probably already knew it ... he just needed time to absorb it himself. She knew once it was out there. There would be no taking it back. It would become awkward between them so she had been damn certain this was what she wanted ... She had been certain for quite some time now. The ball was in his court, it was up to him what he wanted to do with it .

Doc: He looked at her. "Do you want to see what I can find out about Enzo while I am gone? He was headed to Italy, yes?"

Mortll: "He was in London last I heard from him He could be anywhere by now and no I don’t .... That’s a rabbit hole you need to stay out of .... Don’t go to their home turf and start a war by yourself .... That’s just stupid."

Doc: "War? **** that ****. I am a friend... asking about him... cause I haven't seen him. But if you say no... then no it is. I will be pretty tied up with research while I am there. "

Mortll: "They know he’s a vampire ... They know I’m a vampire ... you want to be next in line go asking questions ... Then I can lay you on my curse too "

Doc: "You are not cursed." He frowned, "You think they killed him?"

Mortll: "I don’t know I no longer sense him and the bond is broken ... So my guess is its possible but I wont say yes ... after all you wrote your hag a obituary and she popped up again "

Doc: Doc grinned. "That was a ******* nightmare..." He then laughed. "Her face... " He laughed some more. "She was not happy..."

Mortll: Mortll grinned “She was quite sour. That woman should put on a Magic act or write a book on how to Disappear and reappear at the wrong moment"

Doc: "She does do that well.. always turns up at the worst possible time."

Mortll: "Well maybe you will get lucky and this supposedly unbreakable bond will disappear ... What are you going to do if the bond goes away and she comes back? Still treat her as a wife even though she apparently just toys with you as a husband ... your word can only go so far ... when the other person always breaks theirs. "

Doc: "If she breaks it... It is done." He was adamant. "Short of her dying ... outside of Harper Rock... I don't know how it is broken."

Mortll: "Its happened before without dying ... I
don’t know how it was done and was supposed to be impossible ... I doubt they fully understand it either just that they wanted it to happen."

Doc: "Yes. Blake and… Zoey… no one could say why it broken. Maybe it has to do with the persons themselves? Maybe their subconscious hate for it… dissolves it?"

Mortll: "If that were the case yours would have dissolved long ago "

Doc: "See that's where you would be incorrect. I prefer to just ignore it and her… for the most part."

Mortll: "And this is why she goes bat **** crazy and tries to run you over with cars and **** "

Doc: "That's her issue… " He grinned "But… yes..."

Mortll: "That’s never the way to get your attention now is it. Mortll smiled and her eyes flashed. They were reptilian at first then turned into blue orbs of a feline as the transformation took place and suddenly there was a large black cat sitting on the cushions in front of Doc instead of the woman that was there moments before she yawned and stood on all fours walking the short distance to him and laid down her massive head on his lap. Her mind reached out and touched his " Well if you can't stroke one pussy tonight maybe just a little behind the ears?"

Doc: Doc grinned at her, "Fair enough... " as he stroked the feline. He wanted to tell her how sorry he was, but then again...he wasn't sorry. He had a feeling that Enzo wouldn’t work out. Maybe it was better this way. For her to have it gone. But then again, how did that happen? Zoey… now Mortll...

Mortll: She stretched out enjoying the feeling of his hands running through her fur. A deep growling purr started to rumble out of her throat before she knew it a rough sand paper tongue had started to lick his other hand. No way could she have gotten away with this in human form. It was one thing she liked about cats.

Doc: At the sound of her purring, he pulled at her ear teasingly when she licked his other hand. He had always had an affinity for felines. He needed to be careful. This could come back to bite him in the ***, especially if she had regrets later. He rubbed the side of the felines face, grateful that she couldn’t see his face.

Mortll: Mortll didn't know if cats could smile but she was in her mind’s eye. She suddenly rolled over on her belly and turned placing 2 huge paws on Docs shoulders pushing him backward on the cushions with her weight. She licked his cheek as she purred on top of him.

Doc: Getting pushed backward onto the cushion, He didn't fight her. "I am guessing you want me to stay the night. I will… but just to sleep. I have a big night tomorrow and I need my head on straight. The one time I don't need to be distracted is now."

Mortll: Mortll curled up next to him. She didn't know if this was the right thing to do ... she really didn't care she just knew for right now it was and in the long run they would see. She closed her eyes and the transformation slipped away. It was just her laying there next to him.

Doc: Doc rolled on his side, and put his arm around her and pulled her closer. He said nothing, there was nothing really left to be said. The trip was good timing. It would force him to give the time she needed, because he really didn't think she knew what she was letting herself in for.