PG-13 content ahead, y'all. Avert yo' eyes.
italicized = memory
bold = inner dialogue
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2014
"Hey, Fred?"
He remembered looking over his shoulder at the blonde.
"Yeah?"
Fred had looked back at him, annoyed, his brows pinching together. He hated it when he was slung over a shoulder. "Like a sack of flour," he'd say. Baxter would grin at him and continue onwards. Fred would rarely protest it but he'd sulk. His pretty face would darken and his lips would jut out in a pout, nostrils flaring. Sometimes, Baxter would wonder if he did it on purpose because he knew he liked it. Fred was a lot smarter than he made himself out to be. He knew it. Baxter knew it. But they both pretended otherwise.
"Does that rat kid have a car?"
Rat kid a.k.a Thomas From Starbucks a.k.a Fred's co-worker a.k.a the kid that couldn't keep his hands or eyes off of Fred a.k.a rat kid. Mind you, he looked nothing like a rat or even a related rodent. In fact, most people would even consider him handsome in a Hipster Barista kind of way. If Baxter were to be objective about him, he would agree. But as it just so happened, he wasn't. Because rat kid was constantly sniffing around things that didn't belong to him, like his namesake.
This particular evening, Baxter and Fred had dropped by the younger male's workplace to grab a couple of coffees and while Fred was distracted by the winking face one of the other baristas had put on Baxter's cup, Baxter had been watching Thomas. His stony mask remained as the male's dark gaze scoured over Fred's body. He idly, habitually, bobbed the cigarette sitting at the corner of his lips as the rat kid reached out to touch Fred's hair, ruffling the messy locks. He listened quietly as Thomas leaned over to whisper into Fred's ear to make him laugh. He'd smiled wanly to himself and looked away, watching out the large, glass window as a car drove by. A bright red Camry. His fingers were twisting and toying with the lint inside the pockets of his jeans, his ears prickling as he listened to the two talk. He let the gnawing feeling at the pit of his stomach settle. Patience, he urged himself, have some patience...
Fred looked more annoyed now. "Yeah, he's got a green Corolla. 90s." He looked like he was going to slug Baxter in the face. In fact, the older man was anticipating it. But it never came.
"Did he bring it to work?" His footsteps had come to a stop and Fred wormed out of his hold and tossed his coffee out before looking up at him with those big, green eyes. No matter how many times the male scowled or glared, those green eyes always remained doe-like and dewy, glistening.
"Yeah, it's probably around back." he sounded crestfallen as he led the way to the parking lot. Baxter took a sip of his coffee to hide his grin, disregarding the winking face scrawled on with Gerd's marker as he tossed the rest into the bin and followed Fred to the car. It was a hideously grotesque-looking hatchback. How fitting, Baxter had thought of it.
There was a pause when they'd both come to stop next to the car. They stared at each other, both adamant. But Fred knew what Baxter wanted. To an extent, anyways. And Baxter knew Fred knew. Baxter figured that Fred thought he wanted to steal Thomas' ****. And he did. Sort of. The older blonde waited silently until the other male sighed, caving as he wiggled the handle to the back door of the hatchback before opening the door and standing back.
Baxter smiled at him. "After you."
The response had been narrowed eyes and a deep, patient inhale before Fred leaned in to climb inside. No sooner had the male sat down did Baxter slide in and grab the other, pushing him back as he shut the door behind him. "Kendal, why are w-..."
He didn't get to finish his sentence.
Because by then Baxter's lips had already found his pulse, and his hands were already working to strip the male bare. He felt the others neck stretch under his lips as Fred's head rolled back and he felt the male shift under him as he moved to grab the back of the passenger seat to support himself. Baxter slid lower, mouth travelling over the pale planes until he was situated on his knees, head dipping.
"Kendal-SH-it..."
There was a moment of scrambling, of surprise, of long legs thrashing before he felt the fingers sink inside his frosty hair, gripping tight. Each time he moved, the thin fingers flexed and pulled until his scalp was burning pleasantly. Each tug reminded him why he was here. Each murmur of approval reminded him why he was here. Each time the other panted, his breath wafting upwards to fog up the windows, he was reminded why he was here.
He pulled back briefly and flicked his eyes up. It was no longer as subdued as back in Starbucks. There was a hardness in the icy gaze; a cold, hard determination. "Say my name." he demanded, his voice quiet but firm. He bit him lightly. Say it or else.
Fred looked down at him with those doe eyes, red in the face and with a damp brow as his chest rose and fell, like a cornered animal before he pushed his hands into his own hair in frustration and shifted on his seat. "Daddy..." he'd hissed as he was bitten. Baxter smiled faintly before he descended to kiss him once more, prostrating himself over the body of the fallen angel.
Fred's voice pitched in the form of his name. His real name.
He felt Fred flounder and heard his stubby nails scrape at the back of the passenger seat he'd been grabbing onto earlier, threatening to tear the time-old material. His own hands, calloused and worn, lifted to drag over and explore every inch of what was his. He wanted Fred to remember it. More importantly, he wanted…
"Fred...?"
Rat kid.
Fred nearly fell back as the car's door opened. Baxter grinned a little to himself and continued, much to what he imagined was Fred's embarrassment. He'd felt him heat up. He heard his stammering, trying to control his tone which only spurred the older man on further, making Fred's voice hitch again. In fact, he made a show of it for rat kid.
He glanced up with those cold, hard eyes, meeting the darker, widened pair. He watched a series of emotions play out over the dark pools; anger, shock and then what Baxter had been waiting for. Heartbreak. He held Thomas' stare the entire time, greedily taking in each shift as Fred stuttered and tried to explain himself. Fred didn't notice the battle that was taking place. Fred didn't notice Baxter's stare; one that spoke loud and clear to Thomas'. I will destroy you, it promised with conviction.
It was a shame really because deep down, Baxter knew Thomas genuinely cared about Fred. And if Baxter had been anyone else other than who he was, he'd have relented his vice grip for Fred's sake. Thomas was the sort to wife'n'life him and keep him happy, and safe. He wanted him beyond the surface, he wanted to fix Fred. Maybe put him in a polo and wear matching v-neck sweaters with him so that when they came out past the white picket fence of their cute, little house in the suburbs with their twin toy poodles, everyone would get giddy over just how damn endearing they were.
But that wasn't Fred. And more importantly, Fred wasn't his.
"You could've used the office." Thomas said finally, red in the face, as he reached past them to grab his cigarettes from the console before he turned away to leave the scene. Baxter grinned again and finally lowered his gaze to finish before he pulled back. He'd hoped, in silence, that Thomas was going to lock himself in the men's room and cry. Fred fell back, panting. And he was beautiful. Reverent, thankful. His eyes were wide, incredulous, in that way Baxter liked them best. The younger male uttered how he wanted to return the favour later.
Baxter smiled, lashes lowering as he moved to sit up on the seat.
"Anything you want."
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2016
Anything you want.
He repeated in his head as the waitress hovered over the side of the booth he was sat at. Anything you want, she'd said to him, anything on the value menu. That was her reply when he asked what the all-day breakfast platter contained. He got the impression she didn't much care for her shitty, likely part-time and likely minimum wage, job. She looked young, freshly out of highschool maybe, working a shitty job to pay for the fake Fendi purse that sat in her locker at the back. Or the fake Chanel logo earrings that hung heavily from each earlobe. She stared at him much like any teenager would stare at an adult. With raging contempt. Impatient that he was even daring to ask such a stupid question.
"I'll just have a small black coffee." Baxter tapped the edge of his phone lightly against the formica table. The girl stared at him in disbelief and then she inhaled deeply, her eyes getting big as she scribbled his order down on her notepad like she just could
not be anymore annoyed by him. "No sugar." he added with a smile. She
nearly rolled her eyes but opted to just turn and stalk off, not wanting her manager Jerry to howl at her again about good customer service.
It wasn't just the service at Interwebz that left much to be desired either. Sitting a few blocks southeast of Coastside station, it was a hole in the wall, an absurdly small café and Baxter had come to learn that most people unanimously agreed that they had likely the worst coffee in all of Harper Rock. He didn't come here for the coffee though. He liked it because it was just a hop, skip and a jump away from the water.
Baxter flipped his phone over and tapped the screen to check the time. He was nearly a half hour early for the meeting. He needed that time to get comfortable, to let his presence spread over the room and take over like creeping fog. Like he owned the place, as shitty as it was.
The first to arrive was Lincoln King. A quick search on the internet would reveal he was the owner of an app called Bitr, designed after Tinder. But Baxter didn't need to do any research, Lincoln had been fairly open about who he was and what he did. In fact, it was one of the first things he'd mentioned to Baxter in their exchanges via CrowNet. Sterling Monsivais, on the other hand, had arrived in a charcoal-coloured Cobra, which had taken Baxter by surprise. Sterling had come off a modest and humble man, especially with the online moniker "I Love Big Books", Baxter had guessed he would've come off less self-assured. It was an intriguing little detail he'd tucked away for the time being.
What started off as a generally well-off meeting quickly soured. To be very fair, Bax had little patience to begin with. He'd come to the meeting in hopes that the two men had a bit of information to give him but as it were, they didn't. And that too would've flown by under the radar if not for the tone in which the men had been discussing the case. It was light. Too light. The men had even begun a bit of banter amongst themselves, and it made Baxter's skin crawl. He hadn't come for a coffee date. He hadn't come for chatter. In fact, he loathed chatter. He'd come to meet them for information on a missing kid.
For a while, he was quiet and he sat back, his posture relaxed and harmless. His expression had even been plain, thoughtful. He watched the two. He tried to be patient and maintain an amicable presence. When minutes passed with no chance of any serious tone settling over the meeting, he finally sat up with a rigid back which he hoped would be the first signal to the men. When that failed, his tone changed. It became less neutral and more grim with the slightest edge to it, enough to hurt but not enough to draw blood.
It was the edge that finally made the men react, though not in the way he'd hoped. But still, they had reacted in a way he
liked. Nervous, fluttery... aiming to please even. They had, inadvertently, given him the upper hand. They had, unknowingly, bowed their heads down to him. No, it wasn't what he'd wanted but it was an extra little something for his efforts. But he wasn't done with them yet.
He smiled and he sat back, doing what he thought he did best, watching them. Watching as they floundered and scrambled like fish out of water, at his very mercy. He dissected them, keeping little parts of their demeanours as mementos. And it was like they
knew. Baxter was willing to let them sit and squirm. He was patient enough when it came to playing his cards. When their tones became apologetic, he finally released the tether he'd had on them and, almost graciously, he thanked them, like he was doing
them a favour. Not because they'd been of any use for his predicament but rather because he'd been entertained for the night. And good entertainment was just so hard to find these days.