For Love and Duty (Mirella)
Posted: 22 Apr 2016, 10:49
<Judah>
Pastor Jude sat at his desk in the church, he'd gotten a message from his young cousin Mirella saying she needed his help, and that she would be coming to see him that afternoon. He’d been informed that the young woman was very much with child, though it was being kept on the quiet side and was wondering if his little Firebug might come see him. The man checked his clock, it was 5pm and the last of the after school care children were being picked up, a few of the mothers popping their heads around his open door on occasion to flirt.
He was polite about it, always polite but frankly he was NOT in the mood. He had been married, and now that he was a widow, a young and successful Pastor recently promoted to the senior position and rumour had it his family had money... Well, he was very popular with the single mothers, looking for a man to fill their lives. Today, they were on the agenda, he had cleared his schedule because family called, family needed him.
<Mirella>
Five months. Twenty weeks and three days. With one hand to her back, Mirella made her way to her cousin's office, looking far more tired than usual. Her hair was braided in pigtails, she wore no makeup, and her style of dress was simple at its best. A baggy tee shirt and leggings, with flip-flops. In any other part of the world this'd be completely normal. But this was, after all, Canada, the land of eternal cold.
Being a fire-dancer, Mirella felt the cold all too easily, but it just felt so good right now, as she knocked on the door, ignoring the stares from the other women. Women who likely thought she was just another teen mom. No, this was a family visit. She needed help.
<Judah>
He was out of his chair the second he looked up to see her in the doorway, the young woman looking exhausted, heavy and in need of a seat. He moved to the door, drawing her into a brief embrace, his arm around her urging her inside. Jude lifted a brow at the women outside who looked in on them, "Ladies, have a lovely evening." His voice was pleasant, but a tense edge told them to keep moving, to mind their own business. The door was closed as he led her into the office, the lock flicked and he quickly made her as comfortable as he could in a chair.
The man a seven years her senior, and felt a fierce protectiveness for the young von der Marck. Crouching down before her, catching her gaze he finally spoke to her and her alone. "Sweet Ella, what can I do for you?" He moved his hand towards her stomach hesitantly, letting it hover over the swell of her belly as he waited for approval to touch.
<Mirella>
A slight nod was all the approval she gave as she pulled from her small purse a snack bar, opening one end and taking a tiny bite. She chewed, far too long for just the tiny piece she'd bitten off, and swallowed, before leaning her head back and sighing. "The boyfriend story I've been telling. You know it's a lie, don't you? You can tell?" She took a deep breath, leaning her head back against the wall. "I'm afraid to tell anyone else the truth. I don't...I don't want the information getting to the rest of the family. And I need...I need to find somewhere for my baby to go." Shaking her head, Mirella looked at her cousin, looking both exhausted and distraught at once. "I'm lost."
<Judah>
He slowly closed the gap between his hand and her growing stomach, gently running over the curve of where the growing child within lay. Leaning forward he brushed his lips quickly where his hand had been. "Hello, Baby." The man cooed before he leaned back, lowering onto a knee in front of her, letting her speak her piece. "Yes, I figured as much. You are too... Cagey about it, you know? You can always tell me the truth you know that, don't you Ella? I can keep your confidence, I mean goodness, and it’s part of my job! People come in here all the time just wanting to tell me their secrets, to unload on someone who is supposed to be impartial and unbiased. I can carry the weight for us both, hmm?"
He reached out to touch her cheek, brushing the back of his fingertips against her cheekbone as he stood up. The man when standing at full height was only 5'9" and yet he seemed so much larger as he took his seat behind his desk, pulling out his large leather bound journal, unwinding the strip of leather that held it shut.
He took his role seriously and it showed. The pages of his journal were filled with lineage trees, hand written and random notes, pages of scrawled writing in various states of legibility. He flicked to a blank page and pulled out from a drawer a manila folder, opening it to take out a page that had a recent picture of Mirella at the top along with the year and lines for note taking. "So... Tell me everything, and we'll find a solution."
<Mirella>
Taking as deep a breath as was physically possible, Mirella rested a hand to her belly, before taking another nibble of her snack bar, chewed, and swallowed. "His name is Andrei Petrov," she whispered. "I spent a night with him when his circus was in town. He's a beast tamer." She laughed softly then, her eyes growing wistful. "I invited it. Dad and I had had one of our arguments earlier in the day, and I was feeling rebellious. So, I slept with a man nearly ten years older than myself. And then I found out I was pregnant almost two months after the circus left."
<Judah>
Judah moved his hand up to his face as she spoke her story, pinching gently at the bridge of his nose, pushing the glasses he wore up against his hair to rest atop his head. "Well... It could be worse. Nearly 10 years your... Love, that would be like sleeping with me. I hope he was worth it, at least." His brows went up, "So I’m assuming he has no idea? You are not interested in contacting him?" Judah squinted at the page, writing down the name of the man and a brief summary of the facts under the name Mirella. "Your dad isn't a bad man, but I don't imagine he's happy right now. Your mum being more supportive? I like Aoife, and I’m sure she will work with you. You mentioned finding a family... You don't want to keep your child?" He yearned to reach out again, to lean over the desk and stroke the swell of belly, to protect woman and child.
<Mirella>
"No, he has no idea. We didn't exchange contact information, that wasn't exactly important at the time. I'd like to tell him, but I don't even know where the circus went next," she said softly. "No, Daddy's not happy. He's calmed down a lot over the last three months, though. Especially after I told him...I'm not ready."
She sighed.
"Mom understands, but she's had me keeping a weekly diary, driving me to my appointments. She's the one who's not okay with me giving up my baby." Another nibble of snack bar, chewed, swallowed. "But I want to keep the child in the von der Marck family. Until I am ready. When I am ready...I want to have my child back." Her eyebrows furrowed together, nose scrunching, in a panicked sort of look. "I'll want to have my baby, my Annabelle or Adam, back."
<Judah>
His sigh was deep, as he wrote down more notes and a few questions, pushing his glasses back into place to ease the tension headache that was threatening. "Alright, sweetheart, alright. Well, we both know I’m pretty good at tracking people down, if I’ve got his name and the circus name I can try to get hold of him... If you are SURE you want that. As for adoption within the family, well, we definitely have options there. We have a few nearby cousins who might be willing to agree, and if not then you've got me. Your..."
He paused to smile at her, looking once more at her belly, the child within already named.
"Annabelle or Adam can stay with my son and his grandparents. They would love a baby around the house, they are ridiculously clucky considering their age." He'd only recently left his boy in their primary care, he had him now for only part of the week, it had become too much without Anna, his late wife's, help. Judah completely understood not being ready, not prepared to do it alone.
<Mirella>
Mirella took a much larger bite of the snack bar, mulling things over as she chewed. Her eyes drifted closed for a few moments before opening as she swallowed, her index finger pressing to the space between her eyebrows for a split second before she lowered her hand to her stomach, setting aside the snack bar. "I can guess what you're going to say, but...I don't want to tie Andrei down here. Not like Daddy tied Mom down. If he comes back to town, ever, I swear I'll tell him. Maybe by then I'll be ready to take care of my baby myself."
Another long sigh escaped Mirella, before she smiled at him. "I don't want to burden your grandparents. Your son can be a handful, if memory serves me well. No, I...I want my child to have the best I can give. Louise and Dennis, I think, would be a good choice. Or Sarah." She named a pair of female cousins, one married, and one widowed, who had had misfortune in the procreation department.
<Judah>
Scoffed at her calling his son a handful, the boy was not yet four and while he was mostly an angel, he was showing signs of his father's cheekiness. "Augustine is a good boy, he just has my genes so I know he’s going to be a handful eventually. I'm just not... You're not ready? Honey, I understand that all too well. With Anna, with both of us around it was easy, but alone? Augie deserves the care of people who can be completely devoted to him; he deserves a mother. Heck, if I ever marry again or shack up with some lovely lady perhaps then. For now? He's better off only spending part of the week with Daddy." His voice cracked slightly, but he cleared his throat and moved right along.
"Louse and Dennis would be good, I think while Sarah wants a child it would not be a good time for her. Take it from a Widower, time is important and Sarah is still young. Lou and Denny boy are older, they are settled and would be responsible."
<Mirella>
"That's why I said can and not is," she laughed, one hand covering her mouth for a moment before the other lifted her shirt, so that her hands could rest on the bare skin of her swelling abdomen. She kicked off her flip-flops, too, finally getting completely comfortable. "Louise it is, then. This is...probably going to sound crazy, but. I have one more request, of you specifically." She took a deep, long breath, exhaling with a shudder. Then, just barely visible beneath the skin, the baby kicked just between her index finger and thumb. She let out a giggle, looking down just in time to catch the bubble of movement. "Did you see that?" she whispered.
<Judah>
Judah nodded at her decision, it seemed the best one for them all currently, he'd help her speak to the couple, to make the arrangements and ensure they understood she wanted the child back eventually. "Of me?" His brows went up in questioning, but before she could speak her request the tiniest flutter of movement happened beneath her fingertips, a kick or wriggle of the baby that was growing within her. Jude rose quickly, moving around to crouch once more near her chair, hands overlapping hers, his larger meaning his fingertips could spread and touch the sides of her bare belly, feeling the light movements. "I saw... I feel it." His voice was a reverent whisper, awestruck as he looked at the young woman and back to her stomach.
Another von der Marck, lively and gaining in strength. This was something to be celebrated; she should be treated well, worshipped and loved through her pregnancy. It was no easy task, and Jude couldn't bare the thought of her having to deal with people making her feel guilty. She was young, yes, but it was happening and she deserved all the care they could provide. "Ella..." His voice was low, uncertain as he said her name, the shortened version he preferred. "I will take care of you, I will do everything in my power to make you happy and make sure your child is safe. I love you, both, your child already has a place in my heart."
<Mirella>
Mirella swallowed thickly, tears welling in her eyes and spilling over as the weight of it settled on her, as it did occasionally. The weight of the life she carried within her belly right now swelled within her heart, and she knew she loved her child, all over again. But she knew in the same instant that she was in no way prepared to take care of this baby, this little life depending on her. As Jude spoke, she sniffled and smiled, coughing a short laugh. "I love you too, Jude," she murmured. "You're my favorite cousin, you know that, right? My sisters love you, too, and this baby will love you, I just...I know it. Don't ask how, I just do." Almost as if in response, there was another kick, right against her palm. She coughed another laugh, grinning like mad.
<Judah>
Judah laughed with her, his own throat sounding tight with threatening tears, his brown eyes glassy as he smiled up at his cousin. The man kept the one hand resting lightly over her belly, the other reaching up to cup her cheek. "It will be ok, I will make this ok for you. Just tell me what I can do? What do you need?" He rose up slightly, just enough that he could lean up to capture her lips in a brief, chaste kiss. His lips moved then to her brow, thumb brushing away tears. "Tell me what you need from me, Ella, and it is yours. You know that, it's why you came. Lay your burden down and I will carry it, not by god's grace but by Alaric's. For the name of von der Marck, for our family; I will hold you up."
<Mirella>
Dipping her head slightly into the gentle kisses, so natural, so easy and familial, not even the thought that someone might get the wrong idea crossed Mirella's mind, predominately due to the fact that she knew he'd locked the door. Moments later, the name of the von der Marck ancestor made her gasp, blinking to let another pair of tears escape. She was one of the ones who truly believed, even as her sisters teased her for it.
"I want you there," she said softly. "When my baby's born, I want you there, holding my hand. More than I want Mom or Karin or Caitlin, I want you there. I promise I won't scream at you." Oh, she'd heard the stories from her father, of how raucous her mother had been in labor with her.
<Judah>
There was a moment where that awe hit him again, surprise at her request and other emotions stirring within. He laughed gently, ducking his head to kiss her again, hand moving to tug gently one on of those braids. "You can scream at me if you want, you can hit me or break my hand because it doesn't matter. As long as you and the baby are fine, I’ll be happy. I’d be honoured to be there for the birth, yes. If you..." He cleared his throat, rising up full and taking a step away, rubbing awkwardly at the back of his head, mussing the messy brown hair that was in need of a good cut.
"Ahem. If you want, or if you need someone to act as partner in all this I can do that for you. I can take you to appointments instead of your mother if it's difficult for you, or go to childbirth classes. I went to them all with Anna, and remember some of the stuff.” Thinking of Anna at the height of her pregnancy made him feel simultaneously proud and yet empty, the loss still made him ache if he thought on it too long. He wiped at the corner of his eyes, making sure no tears gave him away.
“When the baby is born if you decide to baptise him or her as most of us are, even those who don't believe, I can do that too." He chuckled nervously, glancing back at her, looking up through his dark lashes. "Who needs a husband when you've got a Jude? Hm? Aaron trusts me, if he knows I’m involved he'll lay off you I hope." He leaned over to write in his book, noting the things discussed, always with the notes. "Hell, I’d marry you if it meant everyone was happier for it." They were far enough away in terms of relation that it was legal, strange perhaps, but perfectly legal and considering their families ridiculously interwoven nature it wouldn't be the first time.
<Mirella>
Taking a few breaths, Mirella settled back into the chair a bit further, one hand gently rubbing over the smooth skin of her belly. Twice daily lotion kept the stretch marks to a minimum, thankfully for her. Her youth helped that too, her skin was still elastic. "I think I'll take you up on all of that," she said gently, smirking at him crookedly. "I know it stresses Mom, and yes, her advice is invaluable, but sometimes it's too much. All of it. This is my time, me." Then her grin grew bigger.
"I think it'd be a bit awkward for everyone involved if we ended up getting married. I mean - sure. It makes sense. But wouldn't my father question the situation?" Her eyebrows quirked up, and she looked honestly a touch smug. Even though her face was still damp.
<Judah>
Her response didn't phase him, he simply wrote it down, hopping up to sit on the desk itself. He pulled the big journal into his lap, along with a smaller diary. "Alright, well you can give me the important dates at some point, such as appointments, classes, and of course... Due date. That one is vital." He scribbled down a reminder in the diary to call Louise and her husband Dennis, to organise a meeting.
"I'll take you home later, so I can speak to your parents. Is that alright?" He smirked at her as she spoke of marriage, "Shut up, I bet they'd LOVE it. Our family is odd. Your parents would probably be a little confused, but they'd just accept it. Everyone always does, don't they? PLUS you are young and while you love me." He spread his hands, indicating himself, "You don't loooove me." He made ridiculous smoochy faces at her, winking.
"I mean I know I’m a hot piece of Pastor backside, but contain yourself, sex demon! I'm a good, religious man! I don't have dalliances or anything of the sort." He tried to look innocent, he did, but that classic Judah grin had him looking like the cheeky prankster he'd always been. "I mean I’ve been married, so that negates that whole sex before marriage deal right?" He waggled his brows.
<Mirella>
She laughed at Jude’s attempt to cheer her up, thinking about their family history. "Yeah, our family's unusual by modern standards, aren't we?" Mirella sighed, pulling her shirt down over her belly again and closing her eyes. She could feel a cry-headache coming on, and suddenly found her brain working on mathematics. Specifically, counting out weeks on a mental calendar. Then she said, very quietly, "June seventh or eighth. Forty weeks from...from the evening of conception, right?" Her eyes opened, looking up to him for confirmation. "I'm pretty sure..."
<Judah>
He shrugged, "Give or take, yes. Your doctor should've given you a date, your mother probably has it written down." He seemed annoyed by this somehow, a brief frown of frustration creasing his features, an unusual look on his face when he wasn't studying something. He didn’t want Mirella to be excluded from things, this was her experience and she should know what was going on. "I'll find out, and we'll start discussing birth plans with your doctor and find you a good midwife, someone understanding who will go along with our wishes." Our wishes, he was taking claim over her, over the child, over his family. They were in this together.
"Are we trying to keep this pregnancy secret? Or are we simply asking the whole world not to tell the child who mommy is until you're ready? Either way it might be challenging, Ella. Not impossible, mind you, just challenging and I’m sure you are up to the challenge. You've come this far!" He pointed to her belly, "If only by accident." He was teasing, trying to get a smile from the girl, to wind her up, as he always did his cousins, never cruelly. He hopped off the desk, going over to the small water cooler he had in his office, filling a paper cup and returning it to her. "We have a lot to do, but trust me, we can do this."
<Mirella>
Taking the water, she took a delicate sip, licking her lips and sighing. Then, with a chuckle, she looked up at him. "August thirty-first was the night I spent with Andrei. I remember that pretty well. And if my counting weeks off is correct, then yes, June seventh or eighth. But always good to double-check with the professionals." She then tipped her head and the cup back, draining the water and breathed a sigh. "Half the local family knows about the baby. I'm sure if we ask them, tell them, let them know I'm not giving the baby to strangers, that one day my little one will come back to me, they'll help. But aside from family? No one will need to know until I'm financially and emotionally able to support my child."
Her hands moved instinctively to her belly as she said those words. "I know we can do this. I plan to be successful in this endeavor." There was steel in her eyes as she looked at him again.
<Judah>
Jude hummed thoughtfully, folding his arms across his chest, one hand lifting to trace back and forth against his lower lip. "Mm, yeah definitely. I believe we'll be able to get them to agree, we can keep the general public out of our business. If your parents agree to our plans, then we can start getting things set in place and organise a meeting with Louise. She loves the family, and she'll want to help especially if it means she gets a few years of raising a von der Marck child."
He shrugged, "In terms of adoption, we need to discuss if it will be a legal arrangement or simply a family agreed one. I would still like contracts written up, just to have records in case. Not that I think they'll disappear with the child, but if they did... Ella, I have a request... If it's a girl? Can we shorten her name to Belle, not Anna?" It was a weak request, really, giving her plenty of room to say no.
<Mirella>
"Paperwork shouldn't be a problem, but also not a major concern. As you said, it's not likely..." Then the last part really hit her. "I'm sorry, I...I thought Annabelle was such a pretty name, I just...I guess I didn't think of..." Her eyebrows furrowed, as her mind settled. "Yeah, yeah, of course we could. Either way, there's a Disney Princess for that." The joke was weak, her smile wavering. She looked about to burst into tears again.
Pastor Jude sat at his desk in the church, he'd gotten a message from his young cousin Mirella saying she needed his help, and that she would be coming to see him that afternoon. He’d been informed that the young woman was very much with child, though it was being kept on the quiet side and was wondering if his little Firebug might come see him. The man checked his clock, it was 5pm and the last of the after school care children were being picked up, a few of the mothers popping their heads around his open door on occasion to flirt.
He was polite about it, always polite but frankly he was NOT in the mood. He had been married, and now that he was a widow, a young and successful Pastor recently promoted to the senior position and rumour had it his family had money... Well, he was very popular with the single mothers, looking for a man to fill their lives. Today, they were on the agenda, he had cleared his schedule because family called, family needed him.
<Mirella>
Five months. Twenty weeks and three days. With one hand to her back, Mirella made her way to her cousin's office, looking far more tired than usual. Her hair was braided in pigtails, she wore no makeup, and her style of dress was simple at its best. A baggy tee shirt and leggings, with flip-flops. In any other part of the world this'd be completely normal. But this was, after all, Canada, the land of eternal cold.
Being a fire-dancer, Mirella felt the cold all too easily, but it just felt so good right now, as she knocked on the door, ignoring the stares from the other women. Women who likely thought she was just another teen mom. No, this was a family visit. She needed help.
<Judah>
He was out of his chair the second he looked up to see her in the doorway, the young woman looking exhausted, heavy and in need of a seat. He moved to the door, drawing her into a brief embrace, his arm around her urging her inside. Jude lifted a brow at the women outside who looked in on them, "Ladies, have a lovely evening." His voice was pleasant, but a tense edge told them to keep moving, to mind their own business. The door was closed as he led her into the office, the lock flicked and he quickly made her as comfortable as he could in a chair.
The man a seven years her senior, and felt a fierce protectiveness for the young von der Marck. Crouching down before her, catching her gaze he finally spoke to her and her alone. "Sweet Ella, what can I do for you?" He moved his hand towards her stomach hesitantly, letting it hover over the swell of her belly as he waited for approval to touch.
<Mirella>
A slight nod was all the approval she gave as she pulled from her small purse a snack bar, opening one end and taking a tiny bite. She chewed, far too long for just the tiny piece she'd bitten off, and swallowed, before leaning her head back and sighing. "The boyfriend story I've been telling. You know it's a lie, don't you? You can tell?" She took a deep breath, leaning her head back against the wall. "I'm afraid to tell anyone else the truth. I don't...I don't want the information getting to the rest of the family. And I need...I need to find somewhere for my baby to go." Shaking her head, Mirella looked at her cousin, looking both exhausted and distraught at once. "I'm lost."
<Judah>
He slowly closed the gap between his hand and her growing stomach, gently running over the curve of where the growing child within lay. Leaning forward he brushed his lips quickly where his hand had been. "Hello, Baby." The man cooed before he leaned back, lowering onto a knee in front of her, letting her speak her piece. "Yes, I figured as much. You are too... Cagey about it, you know? You can always tell me the truth you know that, don't you Ella? I can keep your confidence, I mean goodness, and it’s part of my job! People come in here all the time just wanting to tell me their secrets, to unload on someone who is supposed to be impartial and unbiased. I can carry the weight for us both, hmm?"
He reached out to touch her cheek, brushing the back of his fingertips against her cheekbone as he stood up. The man when standing at full height was only 5'9" and yet he seemed so much larger as he took his seat behind his desk, pulling out his large leather bound journal, unwinding the strip of leather that held it shut.
He took his role seriously and it showed. The pages of his journal were filled with lineage trees, hand written and random notes, pages of scrawled writing in various states of legibility. He flicked to a blank page and pulled out from a drawer a manila folder, opening it to take out a page that had a recent picture of Mirella at the top along with the year and lines for note taking. "So... Tell me everything, and we'll find a solution."
<Mirella>
Taking as deep a breath as was physically possible, Mirella rested a hand to her belly, before taking another nibble of her snack bar, chewed, and swallowed. "His name is Andrei Petrov," she whispered. "I spent a night with him when his circus was in town. He's a beast tamer." She laughed softly then, her eyes growing wistful. "I invited it. Dad and I had had one of our arguments earlier in the day, and I was feeling rebellious. So, I slept with a man nearly ten years older than myself. And then I found out I was pregnant almost two months after the circus left."
<Judah>
Judah moved his hand up to his face as she spoke her story, pinching gently at the bridge of his nose, pushing the glasses he wore up against his hair to rest atop his head. "Well... It could be worse. Nearly 10 years your... Love, that would be like sleeping with me. I hope he was worth it, at least." His brows went up, "So I’m assuming he has no idea? You are not interested in contacting him?" Judah squinted at the page, writing down the name of the man and a brief summary of the facts under the name Mirella. "Your dad isn't a bad man, but I don't imagine he's happy right now. Your mum being more supportive? I like Aoife, and I’m sure she will work with you. You mentioned finding a family... You don't want to keep your child?" He yearned to reach out again, to lean over the desk and stroke the swell of belly, to protect woman and child.
<Mirella>
"No, he has no idea. We didn't exchange contact information, that wasn't exactly important at the time. I'd like to tell him, but I don't even know where the circus went next," she said softly. "No, Daddy's not happy. He's calmed down a lot over the last three months, though. Especially after I told him...I'm not ready."
She sighed.
"Mom understands, but she's had me keeping a weekly diary, driving me to my appointments. She's the one who's not okay with me giving up my baby." Another nibble of snack bar, chewed, swallowed. "But I want to keep the child in the von der Marck family. Until I am ready. When I am ready...I want to have my child back." Her eyebrows furrowed together, nose scrunching, in a panicked sort of look. "I'll want to have my baby, my Annabelle or Adam, back."
<Judah>
His sigh was deep, as he wrote down more notes and a few questions, pushing his glasses back into place to ease the tension headache that was threatening. "Alright, sweetheart, alright. Well, we both know I’m pretty good at tracking people down, if I’ve got his name and the circus name I can try to get hold of him... If you are SURE you want that. As for adoption within the family, well, we definitely have options there. We have a few nearby cousins who might be willing to agree, and if not then you've got me. Your..."
He paused to smile at her, looking once more at her belly, the child within already named.
"Annabelle or Adam can stay with my son and his grandparents. They would love a baby around the house, they are ridiculously clucky considering their age." He'd only recently left his boy in their primary care, he had him now for only part of the week, it had become too much without Anna, his late wife's, help. Judah completely understood not being ready, not prepared to do it alone.
<Mirella>
Mirella took a much larger bite of the snack bar, mulling things over as she chewed. Her eyes drifted closed for a few moments before opening as she swallowed, her index finger pressing to the space between her eyebrows for a split second before she lowered her hand to her stomach, setting aside the snack bar. "I can guess what you're going to say, but...I don't want to tie Andrei down here. Not like Daddy tied Mom down. If he comes back to town, ever, I swear I'll tell him. Maybe by then I'll be ready to take care of my baby myself."
Another long sigh escaped Mirella, before she smiled at him. "I don't want to burden your grandparents. Your son can be a handful, if memory serves me well. No, I...I want my child to have the best I can give. Louise and Dennis, I think, would be a good choice. Or Sarah." She named a pair of female cousins, one married, and one widowed, who had had misfortune in the procreation department.
<Judah>
Scoffed at her calling his son a handful, the boy was not yet four and while he was mostly an angel, he was showing signs of his father's cheekiness. "Augustine is a good boy, he just has my genes so I know he’s going to be a handful eventually. I'm just not... You're not ready? Honey, I understand that all too well. With Anna, with both of us around it was easy, but alone? Augie deserves the care of people who can be completely devoted to him; he deserves a mother. Heck, if I ever marry again or shack up with some lovely lady perhaps then. For now? He's better off only spending part of the week with Daddy." His voice cracked slightly, but he cleared his throat and moved right along.
"Louse and Dennis would be good, I think while Sarah wants a child it would not be a good time for her. Take it from a Widower, time is important and Sarah is still young. Lou and Denny boy are older, they are settled and would be responsible."
<Mirella>
"That's why I said can and not is," she laughed, one hand covering her mouth for a moment before the other lifted her shirt, so that her hands could rest on the bare skin of her swelling abdomen. She kicked off her flip-flops, too, finally getting completely comfortable. "Louise it is, then. This is...probably going to sound crazy, but. I have one more request, of you specifically." She took a deep, long breath, exhaling with a shudder. Then, just barely visible beneath the skin, the baby kicked just between her index finger and thumb. She let out a giggle, looking down just in time to catch the bubble of movement. "Did you see that?" she whispered.
<Judah>
Judah nodded at her decision, it seemed the best one for them all currently, he'd help her speak to the couple, to make the arrangements and ensure they understood she wanted the child back eventually. "Of me?" His brows went up in questioning, but before she could speak her request the tiniest flutter of movement happened beneath her fingertips, a kick or wriggle of the baby that was growing within her. Jude rose quickly, moving around to crouch once more near her chair, hands overlapping hers, his larger meaning his fingertips could spread and touch the sides of her bare belly, feeling the light movements. "I saw... I feel it." His voice was a reverent whisper, awestruck as he looked at the young woman and back to her stomach.
Another von der Marck, lively and gaining in strength. This was something to be celebrated; she should be treated well, worshipped and loved through her pregnancy. It was no easy task, and Jude couldn't bare the thought of her having to deal with people making her feel guilty. She was young, yes, but it was happening and she deserved all the care they could provide. "Ella..." His voice was low, uncertain as he said her name, the shortened version he preferred. "I will take care of you, I will do everything in my power to make you happy and make sure your child is safe. I love you, both, your child already has a place in my heart."
<Mirella>
Mirella swallowed thickly, tears welling in her eyes and spilling over as the weight of it settled on her, as it did occasionally. The weight of the life she carried within her belly right now swelled within her heart, and she knew she loved her child, all over again. But she knew in the same instant that she was in no way prepared to take care of this baby, this little life depending on her. As Jude spoke, she sniffled and smiled, coughing a short laugh. "I love you too, Jude," she murmured. "You're my favorite cousin, you know that, right? My sisters love you, too, and this baby will love you, I just...I know it. Don't ask how, I just do." Almost as if in response, there was another kick, right against her palm. She coughed another laugh, grinning like mad.
<Judah>
Judah laughed with her, his own throat sounding tight with threatening tears, his brown eyes glassy as he smiled up at his cousin. The man kept the one hand resting lightly over her belly, the other reaching up to cup her cheek. "It will be ok, I will make this ok for you. Just tell me what I can do? What do you need?" He rose up slightly, just enough that he could lean up to capture her lips in a brief, chaste kiss. His lips moved then to her brow, thumb brushing away tears. "Tell me what you need from me, Ella, and it is yours. You know that, it's why you came. Lay your burden down and I will carry it, not by god's grace but by Alaric's. For the name of von der Marck, for our family; I will hold you up."
<Mirella>
Dipping her head slightly into the gentle kisses, so natural, so easy and familial, not even the thought that someone might get the wrong idea crossed Mirella's mind, predominately due to the fact that she knew he'd locked the door. Moments later, the name of the von der Marck ancestor made her gasp, blinking to let another pair of tears escape. She was one of the ones who truly believed, even as her sisters teased her for it.
"I want you there," she said softly. "When my baby's born, I want you there, holding my hand. More than I want Mom or Karin or Caitlin, I want you there. I promise I won't scream at you." Oh, she'd heard the stories from her father, of how raucous her mother had been in labor with her.
<Judah>
There was a moment where that awe hit him again, surprise at her request and other emotions stirring within. He laughed gently, ducking his head to kiss her again, hand moving to tug gently one on of those braids. "You can scream at me if you want, you can hit me or break my hand because it doesn't matter. As long as you and the baby are fine, I’ll be happy. I’d be honoured to be there for the birth, yes. If you..." He cleared his throat, rising up full and taking a step away, rubbing awkwardly at the back of his head, mussing the messy brown hair that was in need of a good cut.
"Ahem. If you want, or if you need someone to act as partner in all this I can do that for you. I can take you to appointments instead of your mother if it's difficult for you, or go to childbirth classes. I went to them all with Anna, and remember some of the stuff.” Thinking of Anna at the height of her pregnancy made him feel simultaneously proud and yet empty, the loss still made him ache if he thought on it too long. He wiped at the corner of his eyes, making sure no tears gave him away.
“When the baby is born if you decide to baptise him or her as most of us are, even those who don't believe, I can do that too." He chuckled nervously, glancing back at her, looking up through his dark lashes. "Who needs a husband when you've got a Jude? Hm? Aaron trusts me, if he knows I’m involved he'll lay off you I hope." He leaned over to write in his book, noting the things discussed, always with the notes. "Hell, I’d marry you if it meant everyone was happier for it." They were far enough away in terms of relation that it was legal, strange perhaps, but perfectly legal and considering their families ridiculously interwoven nature it wouldn't be the first time.
<Mirella>
Taking a few breaths, Mirella settled back into the chair a bit further, one hand gently rubbing over the smooth skin of her belly. Twice daily lotion kept the stretch marks to a minimum, thankfully for her. Her youth helped that too, her skin was still elastic. "I think I'll take you up on all of that," she said gently, smirking at him crookedly. "I know it stresses Mom, and yes, her advice is invaluable, but sometimes it's too much. All of it. This is my time, me." Then her grin grew bigger.
"I think it'd be a bit awkward for everyone involved if we ended up getting married. I mean - sure. It makes sense. But wouldn't my father question the situation?" Her eyebrows quirked up, and she looked honestly a touch smug. Even though her face was still damp.
<Judah>
Her response didn't phase him, he simply wrote it down, hopping up to sit on the desk itself. He pulled the big journal into his lap, along with a smaller diary. "Alright, well you can give me the important dates at some point, such as appointments, classes, and of course... Due date. That one is vital." He scribbled down a reminder in the diary to call Louise and her husband Dennis, to organise a meeting.
"I'll take you home later, so I can speak to your parents. Is that alright?" He smirked at her as she spoke of marriage, "Shut up, I bet they'd LOVE it. Our family is odd. Your parents would probably be a little confused, but they'd just accept it. Everyone always does, don't they? PLUS you are young and while you love me." He spread his hands, indicating himself, "You don't loooove me." He made ridiculous smoochy faces at her, winking.
"I mean I know I’m a hot piece of Pastor backside, but contain yourself, sex demon! I'm a good, religious man! I don't have dalliances or anything of the sort." He tried to look innocent, he did, but that classic Judah grin had him looking like the cheeky prankster he'd always been. "I mean I’ve been married, so that negates that whole sex before marriage deal right?" He waggled his brows.
<Mirella>
She laughed at Jude’s attempt to cheer her up, thinking about their family history. "Yeah, our family's unusual by modern standards, aren't we?" Mirella sighed, pulling her shirt down over her belly again and closing her eyes. She could feel a cry-headache coming on, and suddenly found her brain working on mathematics. Specifically, counting out weeks on a mental calendar. Then she said, very quietly, "June seventh or eighth. Forty weeks from...from the evening of conception, right?" Her eyes opened, looking up to him for confirmation. "I'm pretty sure..."
<Judah>
He shrugged, "Give or take, yes. Your doctor should've given you a date, your mother probably has it written down." He seemed annoyed by this somehow, a brief frown of frustration creasing his features, an unusual look on his face when he wasn't studying something. He didn’t want Mirella to be excluded from things, this was her experience and she should know what was going on. "I'll find out, and we'll start discussing birth plans with your doctor and find you a good midwife, someone understanding who will go along with our wishes." Our wishes, he was taking claim over her, over the child, over his family. They were in this together.
"Are we trying to keep this pregnancy secret? Or are we simply asking the whole world not to tell the child who mommy is until you're ready? Either way it might be challenging, Ella. Not impossible, mind you, just challenging and I’m sure you are up to the challenge. You've come this far!" He pointed to her belly, "If only by accident." He was teasing, trying to get a smile from the girl, to wind her up, as he always did his cousins, never cruelly. He hopped off the desk, going over to the small water cooler he had in his office, filling a paper cup and returning it to her. "We have a lot to do, but trust me, we can do this."
<Mirella>
Taking the water, she took a delicate sip, licking her lips and sighing. Then, with a chuckle, she looked up at him. "August thirty-first was the night I spent with Andrei. I remember that pretty well. And if my counting weeks off is correct, then yes, June seventh or eighth. But always good to double-check with the professionals." She then tipped her head and the cup back, draining the water and breathed a sigh. "Half the local family knows about the baby. I'm sure if we ask them, tell them, let them know I'm not giving the baby to strangers, that one day my little one will come back to me, they'll help. But aside from family? No one will need to know until I'm financially and emotionally able to support my child."
Her hands moved instinctively to her belly as she said those words. "I know we can do this. I plan to be successful in this endeavor." There was steel in her eyes as she looked at him again.
<Judah>
Jude hummed thoughtfully, folding his arms across his chest, one hand lifting to trace back and forth against his lower lip. "Mm, yeah definitely. I believe we'll be able to get them to agree, we can keep the general public out of our business. If your parents agree to our plans, then we can start getting things set in place and organise a meeting with Louise. She loves the family, and she'll want to help especially if it means she gets a few years of raising a von der Marck child."
He shrugged, "In terms of adoption, we need to discuss if it will be a legal arrangement or simply a family agreed one. I would still like contracts written up, just to have records in case. Not that I think they'll disappear with the child, but if they did... Ella, I have a request... If it's a girl? Can we shorten her name to Belle, not Anna?" It was a weak request, really, giving her plenty of room to say no.
<Mirella>
"Paperwork shouldn't be a problem, but also not a major concern. As you said, it's not likely..." Then the last part really hit her. "I'm sorry, I...I thought Annabelle was such a pretty name, I just...I guess I didn't think of..." Her eyebrows furrowed, as her mind settled. "Yeah, yeah, of course we could. Either way, there's a Disney Princess for that." The joke was weak, her smile wavering. She looked about to burst into tears again.