A Matter of Trust [Raven/Clover]
Posted: 20 Mar 2016, 06:41
<Raven Talius> [t] I don't know if you can read this, but I'm going to be gone for a long while... Especially if I have it my way. Don't come looking.
<Clover/Jesse> [t] No. Stay just long enough to have a chat. And then you can do what the **** you want. Where are you?
<Raven Talius> [t] Clover? That doesn't sound like you. I'm around, just not around in Limbo.
<Clover/Jesse> [t] Yeah. Where are you?
<Raven Talius> [t] I don't feel like talking. I'm irritated.
<Clover/Jesse> [t] Please?
<Raven Talius> [t] Near QZ where I normally am.
<Clover/Jesse> [t] Okay. It's not Clover. It's Jesse. Clover's with me, though, and I know she wouldn't want you to disappear. So this is my last effort to make things right. Please, tell me where you are so we can come and talk to you?
<Raven Talius> [t] I'm outside the QZ barrier.
‹Jesse Fforde› As soon as Raven replied, Jesse headed toward the Quarantine Zone. It was a large area, and the perimeter of it could take a while to traverse. Really, telling them that she was outside the QZ barrier wasn’t much to go on. Jesse sighed, ignoring any other messages coming through on Clover’s phone in favour of talking to Raven first. He paused for a second, considering, before replying.
[t] There’s an abandoned shop on the Western edge. Next to Sanctuary apartments. Meet us there?
The girl had said she didn’t feel like talking, and this could all be a waste of time. She could choose to walk away if she wanted to. She could choose not to meet them. Although it would be easy to summon her (maybe), or track her down, Jesse would prefer if she came of her own volition. After he sent the message, he kept hold of Clover’s phone even as he wound his arm around her waist, pushing a kiss against her temple. He picked up the pace – it wouldn’t take long to get to the abandoned shop. “I’m going to try one last time…” he said, even though he was unsure if Clover even had any idea about what was going on.
<Raven Talius> A sigh caressed her lips as her phone vibrated in her pocket and she checked it to see another message from Jesse. “Bloody Jesse,” she mumbled under her breath and pocketed her phone again. Silently, she began to make her way over to the shop, less than inclined to go. She didn’t understand why he was making such a bloody fuss over this. It was between her and Doc. No one else. She was a loner and that was all there was to it. A handful of steps brought her to the front of the shop and she open the door with her left hand. The woman pushed in through the door and let it closed behind her as her steps echoed upon the tiled floor. Why did he choose here? She wondered before she made her slow way over to a corner and situated her back against it.
She was tired and she highly doubted that there was anything Jesse could say that would change her mind. However, it was for the sake of Clover once again, that she even bothered to show up at all.
<Clover> They went from sitting next to one another to traversing the streets. Clover assumed their change in scenery, and their change of pace, had something to do with the text messages coming through on her phone. Raven. Yes, Raven had been texting. The words had been a jumbled mess, all of the letters looking as if they were only the beginnings of a brand new language. The atmosphere at the party had taken a nosedive, and Raven had walked away, yet again. The girl was always quick to walk away. Clover wondered if she and Jesse were chasing her childe; she hoped that they were chasing her childe. Despite Raven’s sassiness, and her all-around attitude, the woman had something. Why else would Clover have sired Raven? That was the million-dollar question.
“To,” Clo struggled. That was close enough to what she’d heard, and she didn’t try for more. She’d been reduced to a lower level, at least when it came to language. When they reached the shop, Clover opened the door--chivalry wasn’t dead--and looked around the abandoned shop. Spotting Raven wasn’t too difficult. Clover just lifted a hand to wave at the woman.
‹Jesse Fforde› Jesse frowned at Clover, and didn’t attempt any kind of conversation on the way to the abandoned shop. He’d wanted Clover to be there to act as a kind of balm, a witness. Maybe he and Raven could have a proper conversation with Clover present, one that didn’t devolve into argument. She had beat the two of them there, Jesse noticed. Clover had opened the door and he had relinquished his hold on her, shifting away from her once they were indoors. It was a tactic. They were not a united front. He didn’t want Raven defensive before they’d even started.
“I think we should try to just… start fresh, yeah?” he asked. Too much had happened, too many arguments. They hung there like yesterday’s bad news, colouring everything in a negative way. Jesse had thought that he would stop trying. When people walked away, he’d told himself he’d let them. If they gave up on him, then he could just as easily give up on them.
“Just let it all out. Every problem you have. Why did you walk away tonight? Why do you keep telling Clover not to come looking for you?”
<Raven Talius> Another sigh caressed her lips and her brown hues spied Clover and Jesse who walked through the door. Raven lifted her only hand to return the wave to the two before she slid her hand into the pocket of her leather coat, a coat she wore for appearances sake. Her gaze watched Jesse for a moment and she listened to his words. Why the hell would he want to know? It was then that she knew that she was too tired to argue and a shake of her head was given. “I walked away because I’m tired of fighting with you Jesse, because every time I seem to make a decision you’re there saying no. Clover already thinks that I’m a liar after I told her what happened and I don’t know why you seem hell bent on me not meeting up with Doc later.”
Raven shook her head as she leaned her head back against the wall and closed her eyes. “You and him have no business being in mine and his business. He is willing to give me what I need in spades. I need pain Jesse and you just don’t seem to get that, always making everything personal and about what you want.” The words continued to pour from her lips as if she just had to tell him. “Ever since the first night that I had almost died, everything has been grey until pain came my way and then the world came alive around me.” She paused so then Jesse could let that sink in before she spoke once more.
“I don’t want Clover to come looking for me, because one day I will be killed and it will be my fault. I can’t trust that any of you will handle the situation properly and I can’t trust that when I do need it, that you guys will be there. I can’t trust anyone especially since my twin destroyed that for me. I try to keep family distant because I don’t know how to act as a family and because I don’t want the past to repeat. Everything is just a ******* mess.” The woman shrugged off of the wall and began to pace, her single hand came up to tug through her red and black locks in frustration. “All I want, all I need is pain and Doc can provide that for me. Why can’t you see that? Clover doesn’t have to do a damn thing with me and you can have her full attention. I just need you and the family to stay out of it.” She stopped in her tracks then as she exhaled before she looked back to Jesse. “Just stay out of it.”
<Clover> Clover didn’t need enhanced empathy to get the general feel of the conversation. There was some level of exhaustion, or maybe a touch of resignation. Clo did all she could to read body language, an alternative to deciphering Raven’s jumbled words. She understood her name. She understood small words. What she grasped couldn’t make the picture whole. When Raven closed her eyes, Clover raised her hands and massaged her temples. The open wound on her head still ached, especially when she tried to concentrate too hard, when she was overwhelmed. Raven was saying something important, and Clo didn’t have the mental capacity to understand.
What if Raven was leaving the city? What if Raven decided to kill herself? What if. There were so many scenarios that the dull ache transformed into a steady cadence of throbs. Raven couldn’t leave them. Raven was leaving them. Clover failed as a sire. Again. “Nn,” she tried and failed. Frustrated, she just clenched her fists at her side and watched. She waited. She tried to glean something more from Raven’s behaviors, but there was nothing more. They were both upset. Raven was frustrated. And Jesse was the one left to try and reassemble the pieces, while Clover waited for her wound to mend itself, while Clover felt sorry for herself.
Kaelyn used hugs, and that’s what Clo tried. She didn’t wait to get permission; she didn’t move with hesitation. Clover moved forward and closed her arms around Raven. Please don’t leave me, the hug communicated. Or maybe it communicated the need for patience, some sort of last-ditch effort to stop time and put everything on hold. It was a hug. Clover hadn’t mastered them, so she didn’t know the extent of its powers.
‹Jesse Fforde› Jesse listened – he had calmed down, somewhat, and could now listen with a level of patience. He was prepared for an argument, and had not expected Raven to actually lay everything out on the table for him to examine. The words curled around in his head, his tongue pulling at his bottom lip while he thought of a response. It needed to be a good one; it needed to be a reasonable one. He needed to make his words help Raven to understand why he acted the way he did – and that sometimes, he acted tempestuously. Just like everyone else, he was prone to mistakes.
The sound of Clover’s voice caught Jesse’s attention before he could say anything. Her reaction reminded him that he wasn’t doing this for himself, he was doing it for her. It was his fault that she couldn’t form words right now, that she couldn’t contribute anything more than a hug. And he knew how adverse Clover was to hugs; he knew that it meant a lot. That she was trying, in her own way, to communicate her wants and needs. Jesse nodded.
“I understand how it seems that way,” he started. Yes, he could see how his reactions to Raven might appear selfish. “I also know what it’s like to have one’s trust stomped all over. My own sire tried to make me choose between two things I deeply cared about, and when I chose wrongly, she cut me out of her life completely. Maybe it was the wrong choice, in the end – I chose to give my trust and loyalty to two people who eventually did the same thing. Everything that I did wrong eviscerated every good that I’d ever done. Eventually I realised they didn’t want friends or family, they wanted serfs. When I left them, they reacted in such a way that I would never think of returning. It’s why I’m here, head of my own bloodline, and relying on no one else but myself,” he said, slowly.
<Clover/Jesse> [t] No. Stay just long enough to have a chat. And then you can do what the **** you want. Where are you?
<Raven Talius> [t] Clover? That doesn't sound like you. I'm around, just not around in Limbo.
<Clover/Jesse> [t] Yeah. Where are you?
<Raven Talius> [t] I don't feel like talking. I'm irritated.
<Clover/Jesse> [t] Please?
<Raven Talius> [t] Near QZ where I normally am.
<Clover/Jesse> [t] Okay. It's not Clover. It's Jesse. Clover's with me, though, and I know she wouldn't want you to disappear. So this is my last effort to make things right. Please, tell me where you are so we can come and talk to you?
<Raven Talius> [t] I'm outside the QZ barrier.
‹Jesse Fforde› As soon as Raven replied, Jesse headed toward the Quarantine Zone. It was a large area, and the perimeter of it could take a while to traverse. Really, telling them that she was outside the QZ barrier wasn’t much to go on. Jesse sighed, ignoring any other messages coming through on Clover’s phone in favour of talking to Raven first. He paused for a second, considering, before replying.
[t] There’s an abandoned shop on the Western edge. Next to Sanctuary apartments. Meet us there?
The girl had said she didn’t feel like talking, and this could all be a waste of time. She could choose to walk away if she wanted to. She could choose not to meet them. Although it would be easy to summon her (maybe), or track her down, Jesse would prefer if she came of her own volition. After he sent the message, he kept hold of Clover’s phone even as he wound his arm around her waist, pushing a kiss against her temple. He picked up the pace – it wouldn’t take long to get to the abandoned shop. “I’m going to try one last time…” he said, even though he was unsure if Clover even had any idea about what was going on.
<Raven Talius> A sigh caressed her lips as her phone vibrated in her pocket and she checked it to see another message from Jesse. “Bloody Jesse,” she mumbled under her breath and pocketed her phone again. Silently, she began to make her way over to the shop, less than inclined to go. She didn’t understand why he was making such a bloody fuss over this. It was between her and Doc. No one else. She was a loner and that was all there was to it. A handful of steps brought her to the front of the shop and she open the door with her left hand. The woman pushed in through the door and let it closed behind her as her steps echoed upon the tiled floor. Why did he choose here? She wondered before she made her slow way over to a corner and situated her back against it.
She was tired and she highly doubted that there was anything Jesse could say that would change her mind. However, it was for the sake of Clover once again, that she even bothered to show up at all.
<Clover> They went from sitting next to one another to traversing the streets. Clover assumed their change in scenery, and their change of pace, had something to do with the text messages coming through on her phone. Raven. Yes, Raven had been texting. The words had been a jumbled mess, all of the letters looking as if they were only the beginnings of a brand new language. The atmosphere at the party had taken a nosedive, and Raven had walked away, yet again. The girl was always quick to walk away. Clover wondered if she and Jesse were chasing her childe; she hoped that they were chasing her childe. Despite Raven’s sassiness, and her all-around attitude, the woman had something. Why else would Clover have sired Raven? That was the million-dollar question.
“To,” Clo struggled. That was close enough to what she’d heard, and she didn’t try for more. She’d been reduced to a lower level, at least when it came to language. When they reached the shop, Clover opened the door--chivalry wasn’t dead--and looked around the abandoned shop. Spotting Raven wasn’t too difficult. Clover just lifted a hand to wave at the woman.
‹Jesse Fforde› Jesse frowned at Clover, and didn’t attempt any kind of conversation on the way to the abandoned shop. He’d wanted Clover to be there to act as a kind of balm, a witness. Maybe he and Raven could have a proper conversation with Clover present, one that didn’t devolve into argument. She had beat the two of them there, Jesse noticed. Clover had opened the door and he had relinquished his hold on her, shifting away from her once they were indoors. It was a tactic. They were not a united front. He didn’t want Raven defensive before they’d even started.
“I think we should try to just… start fresh, yeah?” he asked. Too much had happened, too many arguments. They hung there like yesterday’s bad news, colouring everything in a negative way. Jesse had thought that he would stop trying. When people walked away, he’d told himself he’d let them. If they gave up on him, then he could just as easily give up on them.
“Just let it all out. Every problem you have. Why did you walk away tonight? Why do you keep telling Clover not to come looking for you?”
<Raven Talius> Another sigh caressed her lips and her brown hues spied Clover and Jesse who walked through the door. Raven lifted her only hand to return the wave to the two before she slid her hand into the pocket of her leather coat, a coat she wore for appearances sake. Her gaze watched Jesse for a moment and she listened to his words. Why the hell would he want to know? It was then that she knew that she was too tired to argue and a shake of her head was given. “I walked away because I’m tired of fighting with you Jesse, because every time I seem to make a decision you’re there saying no. Clover already thinks that I’m a liar after I told her what happened and I don’t know why you seem hell bent on me not meeting up with Doc later.”
Raven shook her head as she leaned her head back against the wall and closed her eyes. “You and him have no business being in mine and his business. He is willing to give me what I need in spades. I need pain Jesse and you just don’t seem to get that, always making everything personal and about what you want.” The words continued to pour from her lips as if she just had to tell him. “Ever since the first night that I had almost died, everything has been grey until pain came my way and then the world came alive around me.” She paused so then Jesse could let that sink in before she spoke once more.
“I don’t want Clover to come looking for me, because one day I will be killed and it will be my fault. I can’t trust that any of you will handle the situation properly and I can’t trust that when I do need it, that you guys will be there. I can’t trust anyone especially since my twin destroyed that for me. I try to keep family distant because I don’t know how to act as a family and because I don’t want the past to repeat. Everything is just a ******* mess.” The woman shrugged off of the wall and began to pace, her single hand came up to tug through her red and black locks in frustration. “All I want, all I need is pain and Doc can provide that for me. Why can’t you see that? Clover doesn’t have to do a damn thing with me and you can have her full attention. I just need you and the family to stay out of it.” She stopped in her tracks then as she exhaled before she looked back to Jesse. “Just stay out of it.”
<Clover> Clover didn’t need enhanced empathy to get the general feel of the conversation. There was some level of exhaustion, or maybe a touch of resignation. Clo did all she could to read body language, an alternative to deciphering Raven’s jumbled words. She understood her name. She understood small words. What she grasped couldn’t make the picture whole. When Raven closed her eyes, Clover raised her hands and massaged her temples. The open wound on her head still ached, especially when she tried to concentrate too hard, when she was overwhelmed. Raven was saying something important, and Clo didn’t have the mental capacity to understand.
What if Raven was leaving the city? What if Raven decided to kill herself? What if. There were so many scenarios that the dull ache transformed into a steady cadence of throbs. Raven couldn’t leave them. Raven was leaving them. Clover failed as a sire. Again. “Nn,” she tried and failed. Frustrated, she just clenched her fists at her side and watched. She waited. She tried to glean something more from Raven’s behaviors, but there was nothing more. They were both upset. Raven was frustrated. And Jesse was the one left to try and reassemble the pieces, while Clover waited for her wound to mend itself, while Clover felt sorry for herself.
Kaelyn used hugs, and that’s what Clo tried. She didn’t wait to get permission; she didn’t move with hesitation. Clover moved forward and closed her arms around Raven. Please don’t leave me, the hug communicated. Or maybe it communicated the need for patience, some sort of last-ditch effort to stop time and put everything on hold. It was a hug. Clover hadn’t mastered them, so she didn’t know the extent of its powers.
‹Jesse Fforde› Jesse listened – he had calmed down, somewhat, and could now listen with a level of patience. He was prepared for an argument, and had not expected Raven to actually lay everything out on the table for him to examine. The words curled around in his head, his tongue pulling at his bottom lip while he thought of a response. It needed to be a good one; it needed to be a reasonable one. He needed to make his words help Raven to understand why he acted the way he did – and that sometimes, he acted tempestuously. Just like everyone else, he was prone to mistakes.
The sound of Clover’s voice caught Jesse’s attention before he could say anything. Her reaction reminded him that he wasn’t doing this for himself, he was doing it for her. It was his fault that she couldn’t form words right now, that she couldn’t contribute anything more than a hug. And he knew how adverse Clover was to hugs; he knew that it meant a lot. That she was trying, in her own way, to communicate her wants and needs. Jesse nodded.
“I understand how it seems that way,” he started. Yes, he could see how his reactions to Raven might appear selfish. “I also know what it’s like to have one’s trust stomped all over. My own sire tried to make me choose between two things I deeply cared about, and when I chose wrongly, she cut me out of her life completely. Maybe it was the wrong choice, in the end – I chose to give my trust and loyalty to two people who eventually did the same thing. Everything that I did wrong eviscerated every good that I’d ever done. Eventually I realised they didn’t want friends or family, they wanted serfs. When I left them, they reacted in such a way that I would never think of returning. It’s why I’m here, head of my own bloodline, and relying on no one else but myself,” he said, slowly.