Logs
Posted: 12 Feb 2016, 08:32
12/10/15
A being I never thought once to have existed. Yes, there were rumours about them, the possibility of their existence, these creatures of the night, but I had ignored. Had let it fall on deaf ears.
Now here I am, standing here as the very creature I never thought to have existed...
Is this good or bad? Is this right or wrong? Should I be happy or sad? Confusing. Heh, not like my previous life (do i call it that?) has been any different. Why do these things keep happening to me?
Same old questions. Same old thing. How exhausting. Lords above why won’t you just let me sleep forever?
I had thought that night would be the day I would go, be released from this life, but what is this? What have you given me now? How long more must I suffer before you would be satisfied?
I feel like I might have gone nuts along the process of becoming this creature that I am now. Or maybe it was the opposite. I don’t know. My brain’s definitely been screwed with. I’m feeling strangely calm despite my situation.
I have no reflection, no shadow. How peculiar. Yet, why do I feel a sort of relief, as if this was what I have been waiting for? I guess it’s understandable. My mortal life wasn’t exactly something anyone would like to prolong.
Maybe. Just maybe it was for the better. Guess I’ll have to find out for myself. As usual.
Signing off
Nameless for now…
A being I never thought once to have existed. Yes, there were rumours about them, the possibility of their existence, these creatures of the night, but I had ignored. Had let it fall on deaf ears.
Now here I am, standing here as the very creature I never thought to have existed...
Is this good or bad? Is this right or wrong? Should I be happy or sad? Confusing. Heh, not like my previous life (do i call it that?) has been any different. Why do these things keep happening to me?
Same old questions. Same old thing. How exhausting. Lords above why won’t you just let me sleep forever?
I had thought that night would be the day I would go, be released from this life, but what is this? What have you given me now? How long more must I suffer before you would be satisfied?
I feel like I might have gone nuts along the process of becoming this creature that I am now. Or maybe it was the opposite. I don’t know. My brain’s definitely been screwed with. I’m feeling strangely calm despite my situation.
I have no reflection, no shadow. How peculiar. Yet, why do I feel a sort of relief, as if this was what I have been waiting for? I guess it’s understandable. My mortal life wasn’t exactly something anyone would like to prolong.
Maybe. Just maybe it was for the better. Guess I’ll have to find out for myself. As usual.
Signing off
Nameless for now…