There was nothing quite like a wakeup call. Time to get your *** out of bed you lazy piece of ****! Sean would have claimed it had been the hallucination that had shoved him out of bed, though while asleep he had simply rolled off the bed himself. As he laid on his back, upon the floor, staring up, his eyes had caught sight of familiar hallucination. It was always so vividly real for him, the man who shared the likeness of his face/body shape, sound of his voice and nothing more. Groaning, Sean would roll over onto his side. His hands would press over his face, and up through his hair, so it stood up funny. He needed a haircut, he needed a shave, he needed a countless number of things that all required some motivation. Apparently his subconscious was taking it to a new level. Bringing up the figment of his mind that always got to him in ways.
He couldn’t even recall how many nights had passed, how long he had been held up to himself. Depression was a twisted dark thing, one that had been gripping a tight hold on Sean as of late. So much had happened, and so much of his paranoia feared it could get worse. Things out of his control, and it scared him. Seeing Jersey that night… there had been so much blood. That had been paired with amazing news, that Jersey and his sire were engaged. He was happy for the two of them, though scared as well by what the consequences had been. Why had it happened? Why wasn’t everyone happy about such news? Then Keara had been killed, but she was back now, yet Sean was still shaken by it all. He had tried a few times to contact Luc, but never had luck. Maybe he had run her off? His world had been spinning around him, and for the time it had felt best to keep to himself.
Now get up, and get ready. It’s time to head out and get to item hunting. You want to be a productive member of the line, time to stop ****ing around. Sean knew the words to hold truth, he needed to get it together but he would not acknowledge the delusion. He had been out once already tonight, though that was only to take Charlie out to do his business. After that, he had been content with heading back to bed. Tonight was time for a change, he needed to get back to living. Getting ready (pulling on clean cloths and brushing his teeth and other such things). Walking in a daze, his feet took to the sidewalks of the city. Pulling a half pack of cigs from his jacket, he would light up as he walked along, his eyes lingering over the buildings, looking for a good one to search for loot.
He couldn’t even recall how many nights had passed, how long he had been held up to himself. Depression was a twisted dark thing, one that had been gripping a tight hold on Sean as of late. So much had happened, and so much of his paranoia feared it could get worse. Things out of his control, and it scared him. Seeing Jersey that night… there had been so much blood. That had been paired with amazing news, that Jersey and his sire were engaged. He was happy for the two of them, though scared as well by what the consequences had been. Why had it happened? Why wasn’t everyone happy about such news? Then Keara had been killed, but she was back now, yet Sean was still shaken by it all. He had tried a few times to contact Luc, but never had luck. Maybe he had run her off? His world had been spinning around him, and for the time it had felt best to keep to himself.
Now get up, and get ready. It’s time to head out and get to item hunting. You want to be a productive member of the line, time to stop ****ing around. Sean knew the words to hold truth, he needed to get it together but he would not acknowledge the delusion. He had been out once already tonight, though that was only to take Charlie out to do his business. After that, he had been content with heading back to bed. Tonight was time for a change, he needed to get back to living. Getting ready (pulling on clean cloths and brushing his teeth and other such things). Walking in a daze, his feet took to the sidewalks of the city. Pulling a half pack of cigs from his jacket, he would light up as he walked along, his eyes lingering over the buildings, looking for a good one to search for loot.