The Ritual (Ambrose + Invite)
Posted: 12 Sep 2015, 01:44
Deagan McNamara found his car where he had left it in the parking lot of the 8th Dimension mall. The beeping noise it made as he clicked the remote to unlock it seemed to echo like a lonely voice over the tops of the other Fords and Hondas and BMWs scattered about. He climbed into the car and sat down heavily. His legs felt like jelly. When he reached out to put the key in the ignition, it slipped from his fingers to land on the floor, resting on the mat next to a forgotten receipt and a gum wrapper. Deagan looked down and realized that his hands were shaking uncontrollably. What the hell just happened in there? he thought.
What had happened was that his dead wife had decided to come back from the dead and join him in the Folklore aisle of McCallahan's Bookstore on the anniversary of her death. At least, to the best of his knowledge that was what had happened. Either that, or I'm going insane.
She had only been there for a few minutes, looking as beautiful as the day he had met her. And she had spoken, telling him that she had some sort of important message for him. And then this beautiful revenant had disappeared as if she were never there. Which she wasn't, he thought. She couldn't have been. But other events had transpired which only seemed to confirm that what he had seen had been a ghost.
He had followed a man out of the store, for no real reason that he could now recall. But when Deagan approached him, this black-haired stranger with ancient eyes had called Deagan McNamara by name, had given him a card with a phone number on it, and had told Deagan that he could explain what had just happened. And then there was the young girl who had followed Deagan from the bookstore out of obvious concern for his well-being, and had told Deagan that she knew him to be haunted somehow.
It was all too much, and the weight of it now seemed to drag Deagan into the leather seat of his Ford Mustang, his "midlife-crisis-mobile" as Emily had always liked to call it. His limbs felt like dead weight as they dropped to his side, and he let out a long, low moan. Deagan had studied folklore for all of his adult life. He had read countless apocryphal tales of ghosts and mysterious strangers who knew more than they rightly should. They were a part of every culture, and, he had always believed, were based primarily on man's desire to believe that death was not truly the end of life, that there had to be more out there that a person could look forward to at the moment of death than just a permanent shutting off of the lights and locking of the doors, more than a Closed sign to hang around one's neck for eternity.
And here now was proof otherwise, proof that perhaps what people had been saying and writing for millenia was real. That ghosts were real. That Emily could still be reached somehow.
The thought sparked Deagan back into some semblance of normal motor function. He reached down, picked up the keys, and started the car.
He was almost home when the voice whispered in his ear.
Don't trust him Deagan.
"Jesus Christ!" Deagan slammed on the brakes, the Mustang fishtailing all over the asphalt before coming to a screeching halt. The street he had been driving on was in a quiet, tree-lined residential neighborhood, low traffic; probably the only thing that kept Deagan from getting rear-ended at that moment. Deagan whipped around to find the source of the voice. He knew it was Emily. It was the same voice from the bookstore. Except this time, there was no vision of her beauty to accompany it. Emily was nowhere to be found in the interior of the car. "Emily, where are you?" He waited, listening, but the silence was deafening. Five minutes later, another car pulled into view in Deagan's rear view mirror. He shifted the Mustang into gear and continued to his house. The voice did not speak again.
That night, Deagan sat brooding in his home office (his "man-cave" Emily had liked to call it) staring into space, a cup of cold tea forgotten on the side table next to the ox-blood leather chair. In his left hand he held the card the stranger had given him. He knew he had to call, that he couldn't pass up this opportunity to learn more about Emily's death and her...undeath? But the warning Emily had given him weighed on Deagan. Don't trust him Deagan.
He felt like he had to talk to someone about what had happened in the mall today, yet he doubted, when the time came, that he should spill all of his secrets to this dark stranger, the man whose eyes hinted at a lifetime of secrets. Deagan had lost most of his friends in the year since his wife's death. He had grown increasingly moody and reclusive, pushing people away in his obsessive search for the reasons and motivations behind Emily's death, and the identity of her killer. The only time the phone rang in the McNamara home these days was due to either telemarketers or Deagan's agent pleading with him to finish what should have been his best book to date, a shining jewel in the crown of Deagan's career as a professional folklorist; Legends of the Loup-Garou.
Deagan decided that the best way to satisfy the compulsive need he was feeling to bare his soul to the stranger, like an itch he couldn't scratch, was to tell his story to someone, anyone, to get it off his chest. Deagan decided his best bet would be to start by emailing a person (he had come to assume it was a woman based on her internet handle) that he had met on an online forum a little over a week ago, the one who called herself music@midnight. Deagan had not stepped into a bar since the night he had found Emily's body. Alcoholism was a family curse, and he didn't trust himself in his current state of mind not to veer sharply in that direction. Corresponding on the internet had served much the same purpose for Deagan as the bartender at the neighborhood pub served for others. A relatively risk free way to share his troubles without the emotional entanglements of an actual relationship. He moved to his computer and began typing:
Today is the one year anniversary of my wife’s death. And her ghost came to see me. It wasn’t some rotting corpse though. It was as if she was alive again, right in front of me. I was only able to see her for a few minutes, and then she was gone again. But she spoke to me, told me there was something important she needed to tell me.
Since her death, my world seems to have been slipping further into madness, and today I think it finally toppled over the brink. I believe you; I believe in your zombies. Do you believe in my ghost? -D.M.
The last was a reference to something she had written him earlier; that she had seen zombies in the part of town the government had designated the "Quarantine Zone." In the course of their correspondence she had told Deagan several things that he had been incredulous of; now he was inclined to believe them all.
The email sent, Deagan felt better prepared to make the call. Like eating a snack before going grocery shopping, he mused. Deagan once again pulled out the card, picked up his cell phone, and dialed the number...
What had happened was that his dead wife had decided to come back from the dead and join him in the Folklore aisle of McCallahan's Bookstore on the anniversary of her death. At least, to the best of his knowledge that was what had happened. Either that, or I'm going insane.
She had only been there for a few minutes, looking as beautiful as the day he had met her. And she had spoken, telling him that she had some sort of important message for him. And then this beautiful revenant had disappeared as if she were never there. Which she wasn't, he thought. She couldn't have been. But other events had transpired which only seemed to confirm that what he had seen had been a ghost.
He had followed a man out of the store, for no real reason that he could now recall. But when Deagan approached him, this black-haired stranger with ancient eyes had called Deagan McNamara by name, had given him a card with a phone number on it, and had told Deagan that he could explain what had just happened. And then there was the young girl who had followed Deagan from the bookstore out of obvious concern for his well-being, and had told Deagan that she knew him to be haunted somehow.
It was all too much, and the weight of it now seemed to drag Deagan into the leather seat of his Ford Mustang, his "midlife-crisis-mobile" as Emily had always liked to call it. His limbs felt like dead weight as they dropped to his side, and he let out a long, low moan. Deagan had studied folklore for all of his adult life. He had read countless apocryphal tales of ghosts and mysterious strangers who knew more than they rightly should. They were a part of every culture, and, he had always believed, were based primarily on man's desire to believe that death was not truly the end of life, that there had to be more out there that a person could look forward to at the moment of death than just a permanent shutting off of the lights and locking of the doors, more than a Closed sign to hang around one's neck for eternity.
And here now was proof otherwise, proof that perhaps what people had been saying and writing for millenia was real. That ghosts were real. That Emily could still be reached somehow.
The thought sparked Deagan back into some semblance of normal motor function. He reached down, picked up the keys, and started the car.
He was almost home when the voice whispered in his ear.
Don't trust him Deagan.
"Jesus Christ!" Deagan slammed on the brakes, the Mustang fishtailing all over the asphalt before coming to a screeching halt. The street he had been driving on was in a quiet, tree-lined residential neighborhood, low traffic; probably the only thing that kept Deagan from getting rear-ended at that moment. Deagan whipped around to find the source of the voice. He knew it was Emily. It was the same voice from the bookstore. Except this time, there was no vision of her beauty to accompany it. Emily was nowhere to be found in the interior of the car. "Emily, where are you?" He waited, listening, but the silence was deafening. Five minutes later, another car pulled into view in Deagan's rear view mirror. He shifted the Mustang into gear and continued to his house. The voice did not speak again.
That night, Deagan sat brooding in his home office (his "man-cave" Emily had liked to call it) staring into space, a cup of cold tea forgotten on the side table next to the ox-blood leather chair. In his left hand he held the card the stranger had given him. He knew he had to call, that he couldn't pass up this opportunity to learn more about Emily's death and her...undeath? But the warning Emily had given him weighed on Deagan. Don't trust him Deagan.
He felt like he had to talk to someone about what had happened in the mall today, yet he doubted, when the time came, that he should spill all of his secrets to this dark stranger, the man whose eyes hinted at a lifetime of secrets. Deagan had lost most of his friends in the year since his wife's death. He had grown increasingly moody and reclusive, pushing people away in his obsessive search for the reasons and motivations behind Emily's death, and the identity of her killer. The only time the phone rang in the McNamara home these days was due to either telemarketers or Deagan's agent pleading with him to finish what should have been his best book to date, a shining jewel in the crown of Deagan's career as a professional folklorist; Legends of the Loup-Garou.
Deagan decided that the best way to satisfy the compulsive need he was feeling to bare his soul to the stranger, like an itch he couldn't scratch, was to tell his story to someone, anyone, to get it off his chest. Deagan decided his best bet would be to start by emailing a person (he had come to assume it was a woman based on her internet handle) that he had met on an online forum a little over a week ago, the one who called herself music@midnight. Deagan had not stepped into a bar since the night he had found Emily's body. Alcoholism was a family curse, and he didn't trust himself in his current state of mind not to veer sharply in that direction. Corresponding on the internet had served much the same purpose for Deagan as the bartender at the neighborhood pub served for others. A relatively risk free way to share his troubles without the emotional entanglements of an actual relationship. He moved to his computer and began typing:
Today is the one year anniversary of my wife’s death. And her ghost came to see me. It wasn’t some rotting corpse though. It was as if she was alive again, right in front of me. I was only able to see her for a few minutes, and then she was gone again. But she spoke to me, told me there was something important she needed to tell me.
Since her death, my world seems to have been slipping further into madness, and today I think it finally toppled over the brink. I believe you; I believe in your zombies. Do you believe in my ghost? -D.M.
The last was a reference to something she had written him earlier; that she had seen zombies in the part of town the government had designated the "Quarantine Zone." In the course of their correspondence she had told Deagan several things that he had been incredulous of; now he was inclined to believe them all.
The email sent, Deagan felt better prepared to make the call. Like eating a snack before going grocery shopping, he mused. Deagan once again pulled out the card, picked up his cell phone, and dialed the number...