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Thoughts of a Killer ~ [Niklaus' Notebook]

Posted: 04 Aug 2015, 07:05
by Niklaus
Tuesday, August 04, 2015

Word of the day: JDNPYV

I don't normally do things like this. I really think it's outright stupid and a waste of time, my memory's pretty good too anyway. But I think it's worth being documented; where I used to be and where I am now, how I changed, people I've met, things I've accomplished and the things I still need to do. Every entry will encrypted, I don't need people reading my ****. Safety first and foremost, Niklaus, always. To start with, ever since the Crow got kicked out of power, everything changed. Many left, Leviathan went inactive, our main purpose had been stripped away from us but I know I'll find another use for it soon enough. Maybe some kind of training or raiding group.

Secondly, The Worthingtons. I dedicated my time and hard work in trying to better the lineage as a whole. For a while, it worked out, despite the random retard starting **** every now and then but that didn't stop me. We had people to protect, newbies to help and so on. Then I went on a trip to Romania and came back to a mostly deserted lineage. I knew the drama and ******** would lead people out of the lineage someday and it did exactly that. Some founded their own families, others got adopted and the rest just disappeared, never to be seen again. Survival of the fittest, I guess. That made me re-assess my situation. I gave it my best shot, still got backlash from those who can't seem to grow up and get over things. Bunch of ******* kids, these vampires sometimes, I swear. So I quit, it's a case by case basis now. If I don't like you, you can **** off. If you're new around here, then there might still be a chance for you. Like that Eureka kid, turned by Chad, she was cool and funny at first. Then Chad left and I don't know, she started doing weird, careless ****. I thought she was just messing with me at first but it seems serious, she may need a couple of smacks on the head.

Taking Eureka hunting ended with me turning a kid the other day. Russian chick, pretty chick even but she's pretty crazy. Still wondering how she ended up an allurist, Seraphim seems to be Killer material. She learns fast and pulled some crazy stunt on me about two weeks after her turning, but that's cool. As long as she doesn't start calling me "Daddy", we won't have a problem. I seem to have accumulated quite the number of childes too, maybe this Sire's Virility ritual is getting to me, but I don't really think so. I'm not a serial sire-r of vampires. That's just silly, Klaus.

I caught up with Velveteen and Micah too. After a very long time, Velveteen had always joked about 'adopting' me, for a very long time. I never really accepted because I thought there was still hope for the Worthingtons. That we could someday work beyond our differences and be a force to be reckoned in the city. But now that I think about this, I feel stupid. All we ever did was bicker, there was no unity, no trust, nothing. I still remember when Mortll pulled thing "Let's kill Velveteen stunt" and she got tattled on. She swore to me she never did any such thing, and after a long *** negotiation, she was struck a couple of times but wasn't sent to a trip to the realm. Then I found out she did invite a bunch of people to some conference or whatever and a friend of her own betrayed her. Worthington power, I guess! But anyway, Velveteen mentioned that adoption thing again and I said yes, no question asked. I don't really see her as a sire-figure, more like a long time friend. We'd had our ups and downs but we're still on good terms, I trust her too. She never gave me a reason not to. So Andras is my new home, the banner I fight for now.

Then I got invited to a bounty hit, they needed an extra hitter. Stephanie Wylde. Another friend of mine, who violated the masquerade. She's a cool kid, but the masquerade comes first. It had been AGES since my last hunt but I'm glad to see I didn't lose my touch. Bullet to the heart. I hope she comes back soon, she's a pretty badass chick. Then Velveteen asked if I would be interested to join Tytonidae again. I wasn't sure about it, I remembered my last time there. We had our good times and our terrible times, the latter which prompted me to leave but it's not the same Tytonidae anymore. Hell, I doubt I'd recognize anyone besides a handful of faces, like Every and Dulce. Lelantos, Moriah, Caine, freaking Mercedes, they all left or something. Micah talked me into it too, I figured what the hell, let's give it a try. I got asked tons of questions, about how I'd react and what I'd do in certain situations. I was honest, Niklaus doesn't beat around the bush. I just hope I didn't freak some people off. I know how my mind works sometimes. It's fucked up but I don't care. I do what I gotta do.

I met some new people too. Got invited to this wedding a while back, Renee's wedding. This chick freaked out and went all HULK-mode at Quoth and she needed to be calmed down and taken away. Clover is her name, she came with her friend, Kenlie. Kind of a mysterious name and all, Clover, but yeah, she's pretty cool too. I offered to help her figure out why she went into HULK-mode, looks like it has something to do with Quoth too. She's pretty cute too, got those big pouty lips. She asks me weird questions sometimes, which makes me wonder how she rates on the crazy level but she hasn't overstepped her boundaries yet. So, Clover's cool. She sat in my lap once. Maybe deep inside I view her like a daughter. Nah, just kidding. But I don't think she knows how vicious and psychotic I can be too. So far, she's only seen the good samaritan Niklaus. I don't want to scare her off either, it feels nice to help.

I said I'd meet more of the Andras people but I'm not sure how to approach them really. I'm not really the type to go to people and talk to them. My thing is running into them on the streets randomly. That's how I met most of the people I know, honestly. I really should work on that. Charisma's pretty cool, we did say we'd hang out sometime soon too. Helena is super nice too, I ran into her at the library before I joined Andras. There's also Tomi, who for some reason calls me 'newb.' She kinda annoys me sometimes but I like to mess with her in return. There's a looney called Nevaeh, from what I saw and heard, she might actually be...crazy, yeah. Adelita might be my favourite so far, she's such a tease. I like chatting her up on the Andras Crownet. Maybe I need to get her number considering she's supposed to be teaching me some Spanish soon and I'm all down for that. I kinda dig it when she calls me 'Papi', not gonna lie. But I know there's a side of her I have yet to see and I do want to see it.

I also ran into a human in the library, Dhara, she says her name is. She seems to know about vampires and all, I suspect she may have some vampire friends too. She doesn't seem like a threat either, kind of super innocent too. I'll try not to corrupt that one. Then there was this time I was heading to my crypt and found a girl crawling out of a shallow grave. I suspect she might have buried herself by mistake, I took her to my crypt to offer her some blood. Aura Kross, her name is. The city might still have some entertainment to offer after all. I enjoy those weird ways to meet someone, it makes it memorable. I've always been into weird and unusual things so I shouldn't be surprised.

Overall, I don't get angry so easily anymore. I used to shoot first and ask questions later. I thought that was my strength but it wasn't. I'm more calculated now, I have my plan A, B, C, D, etc. I wouldn't call myself a pessimist but I'm virtually ready for anything. It feels good to be in control, control makes me more accurate, deadlier than I have ever been. I'm also a pretty good ritualist now. I ditched hacking, **** hacking. I don't like sitting behind a computer for long. I make traps, firearms and forge swords too. Velveteen gifted me a ******* sweet as hell gun the other day, I can't wait until I like, you know, ******* kill someone with it. I named her 'Venom.'

I nearly forgot. Liza. I have a Liza too now. I enthralled her a while back. Pretty redhead, she likes to game, a LOT, cosplay, dress-up, kind of a nerd really. She's got quite the sailor mouth too. Yelled at me for dropping a bag full of zombified animal parts on her the other day. I laughed. Like, I'm your Master, *****. But she's really helpful though, like a little badass secretary. I gave her a gun and taught her to shoot, I was worried Eureka might try to eat her. Amazingly she's a black belt in Jiu-Jitsu, I believe it is. Them redheads, I swear.

So basically, things I need to do now:

1) Meet more Andras people
2) Mentor the childes
3) Keep an eye on Eureka
4) Learn me some Spanish
5) Try to see if anyone from my old gang is still around
6) Kill ****

Re: Thoughts of a Killer ~ [Niklaus' Notebook]

Posted: 05 Aug 2015, 04:23
by Niklaus
Wednesday, August 05, 2015

Word of the day: PNSVFH

Today was a weird day. I hung out with Liza, she was trying to get me into gaming. I figured I'd be into it, you know? Killing things in games? But I'm not sure how I feel about that yet, I get antsy when I sit down in front of a monitor for too long. Then I logged onto the Andras Crownet, found that there was some argument going on between Velveteen and Adelita. I haven't talked to either of them directly about the matter but it seems like Lita was fooling around on the Docere Crownet and made Velve come off like a fool? I'm not sure what was said there. I tried to defuse the situation, maybe I should've done more, like dragging the Spanish Rose away before she dug her own grave but she kept being a smartass. And well, she got kicked out of Andras. Man, why did it have to be my favourite Andras person?! MY FAVOURITE! I don't blame Velve though, she did the right thing too. There needs to be some kind of discipline. I did some digging and found out who Adelita's sire was, and he doesn't seem to be around. Is what happened to Eureka happening to her too?!

Maybe she just needs a new Daddy, a Papi, someone to take care of her. I can do that, I hope it won't get weird though. I'm still counting on her to teach me some Spanish. Every and Velve thinks Google Translate is the **** but I think it's unreliable as ****. I don't even like using translators but when I do, I tend to go for Bing Translator. I had to use it a little too, when Lita started saying sweet things in Spanish to me. I learned that 'AquĆ­' means "Here" too today. So anyway, I need to pay this chica a visit, see what's going on. I hope she makes it back to the family someday, I don't know if an apology from her to Velve is going to work out yet, I'll need to find out what was said on that Docere board. I don't know Lita that well but she seems cool and I'm not going to let her go crazy like Eureka did (I still need to stalk the redhead to see if she's been misbehaving lately too). Be her Daddy, Niklaus. Even a grown woman needs a Daddy sometimes. BE HER PAPI!

Re: Thoughts of a Killer ~ [Niklaus' Notebook]

Posted: 09 Aug 2015, 20:24
by Niklaus
Sunday, August 09, 2015

Word of the day: IVSNQZ

Things got pretty weird as **** lately. Firstly, Adelita got kicked from Andras as I already said, long story. Then weirder things started happening. Micah and Every were sparring or something and... Every ended up accidentally killing Micah. I really don't think she did it on purpose, it's Every, she's pretty sweet and loves Micah. **** like that happen, I totally get it but that wasn't all. Velve ended up killing Every in return and for some reason she doesn't seem to think Micah's spirit is off wandering in the realm. "Micah's right here with me, calm your ****", she said. Considering Micah's a Killer, he does leave his physical body behind too. At first, I thought it was a prank, that maybe Velve was screwing with us all but... nope. She honestly thinks Micah's just sleeping or something.

I fadewalked for the first time the other day to look out for Every and Micah and did find them too, along with Velve. So I really don't get why she isn't accepting the fact that Micah's gone for a while but hey, he'll be back real soon! Maybe we should do an intervention for her, like.. get a couple of people in the family, jump her and put a bag on her head. We'd get her mindblocked, restrained and talk some sense into her. I'm pretty sure she like off'd Every in a hardcore way or something. Poor girl couldn't even talk in the shadow realm. I wasn't sure how fadewalking worked but I think I got the gist of it, I ate some spirits, wandered around, found some dead people lurking there. It's not as bad as you think, it's just a weird and creepy place. But hey, I'm a weird and creepy person when I want to be too. But I wouldn't hang out there for long, there's pretty much nothing there.

Concerning Lita, I learned more about her. She told me she has done bad things before she was turned, and even after. I appreciate her honesty but hey, we all do bad things. If I told her the things I did and like to do, I'd probably spook her. I don't want to freak her out, she's cute and the way she rolls her Rs when she talks is absolutely sexy. I had to tell her about that too, "I dig the way you talk, gurl."

So the things I have to do now are pretty much like:

1) Talk to Velveteen, see if she's doing better now. I know Mal and a lot of people already talked to her. I just don't know how to approach her about it. I'm kind of insensitive and don't do emotions, like at all. So the whole "I know what you're going through is pretty much irrelevant, I don't.

2) Hang out more with Lita. I like talking to the girl and considering right now is a TERRIBLE time to bring her up with Velve, I'll concentrate on getting to know her better.

3) Sell some of my loots. I've collected WAY too many stuffs lately. I got zillions of zombified animal parts too. While I give away a lot of things to people who need it in Andras, I'm still left with a lot of **** I don't really need in the short term. I've been taking a break from doing that Sire's Virility ritual on myself because apparently it might make me turn into some kinf of octo-daddy serial sirer. I DID sire a couple of people since I first had it done to me too, by Micah.

4) Catch up with some friends and see how the childes are doing. I haven't heard from Clover in a while. She did ask me for help pretty recently then nothing at all. She didn't die too, did she? Seraphim's been pretty quiet too lately. I'll see how she's doing and if she needs anything.

5) Perhaps meet some new people. I like picking new brains, I can't help it.

Re: Thoughts of a Killer ~ [Niklaus' Notebook]

Posted: 18 Aug 2015, 19:01
by Niklaus
Tuesday, August 18, 2015

Word of the day: NSTBVJS

Like I said, I had a great time with Adelita the other day, we got to talking and knowing more about each other. I got to know about who she was and what she did before Harper Rock and I shared things back in return, things that I haven't told anyone in a long time. I could have made it up but I wouldn't lie to my mami when she's been totally honest to me. We -hung- out for quite a while and I liked it a lot, I think she liked it too. I'll definitely be seeing more of her soon, I like the invisible deal of some sort that I have with her. She inspires me all the time and I do the same back, every day. Maybe I'll bring her up with Velveteen soon, I think the whole Every shooting Micah in the head and Every getting killed by Velve situation calmed down now. I'd like to see Lita reintegrated back into Andras, she's my favourite, after all. We all have a favourite.

I met another girl, Aviana in the Quarantine Zone. She seemed to have issues and I taught her how to aim and shoot better. She's pretty new and cool too, I offered to help her out when she told me she didn't really have a sire figure. This doesn't make me her Daddy, no but it's always nice to see a fledge improving and getting good at vampire stuffs; like killing things. I want to turn her into a beast, well not literally but I offered her to come practice her firearms skills at my private shooting range. I made and acquired a couple of new guns and swords too, I might just give her a pair of those. I collect way too many guns and they all need to be serviced regularly. I'd rather give some of them away to those who need it, it's the right thing to do.

I participated in my first Tytonidae hunt last night too, the target was some Aris Dragonhart or something. Wasn't that hard to find, he was inside cedar court, chilling on the grass there. Terrible idea to hide, dude. When Megalodon found his decoy in bullwood, I thought "Oh, this one might be smart. I bet he's good at hiding." but nope. It wasn't a disappointment though, cause I got to try Venom for the first time and she delivered for sure, heart shot. Venom is totally my favourite gun right now. The name is fitting too. VENOM.

So plans for this week: Hang out more with Adelita, hit up Aviana for some chit chat and training. Also try to get in touch with Velve to see what she thinks about the Lita situation, or maybe I should wait, she's probably still 'catching up' with Micah. And I don't like to find myself in awkward situations.

Re: Thoughts of a Killer ~ [Niklaus' Notebook]

Posted: 27 Sep 2015, 05:16
by Niklaus
Sunday, September 27, 2015

Word of the day: PJFXBS

It's been a while but new and weird things happened. I shouldn't really be surprised since we're in Harper Rock, after all. Velveteen invited me to the Eyrie the other day for a meet and greet kind of thing. I'm not sure she knows how I feel about trees. Tree-houses are fun and all when you're a kid, sure, but so many people and things up there really doesn't sound appealing to me at all. I always told her how messed up **** would get if it all fell down one day but I might have underestimated how solid a ******* tree could be. I found out that trees are pretty badass after that experience.

Anyway, I went there and I think was early since I was alone there on that common floor. Just walking around until I found some kind of shard by the ritual altar. It wasn't a common shard, this one glowed and for some reason I just took it. Little did I know that this act would start something no one could actually predict. Nishaa was the first person who joined the party, and she pretty much stole the shard from my bag. Then Every, Dulce and Roderic arrived and for some reason, EVERYONE could sense that shard and wanted it, needed it again. It was like some kind of invisible force pulling you towards it. At first it was pretty tame, people trying to steal it off each other and running away then **** started getting crazy. I'm fairly certain now that the more you stayed in contact with that damn shard, the crazier you got. People started to get stabbed, shot at and I might have fucked up the Eyrie elevator too to limit everyone's movement. Well... to be honest, the elevator got utterly destroyed and ended up having to be replaced completely, woops.

The party got bigger when Blake and Reanna came by too. Nishaa was probably the one who ended up holding on to the shard the longest, then Every, then Reanna. They knew the terrain and all the hiding places so I tried to level the field by.. killing the shopkeepers and gathering as much resources as I could. It was a terrible thing to do, I hear they had been working at the Eyrie for a long time but they had something I needed at the time and it seemed perfectly fine to kill them then. The shard might have had something to do with that, to be honest. Roderic and I teamed up since the girls were being too good at keeping the shard. I ended up setting Reanna's hut on fire to drive her out of it too, another thing that might have been too extreme but I didn't hesitate to do it back then.

For some reason, no one including myself ran out of the Eyrie. I don't even know why but it was as if the shard wanted its holder to stay inside. Perhaps it drew its power from something inside the Eyrie, maybe the tree itself? It was a whole lot of frustration and took hard work and strategy but eventually I got the shard back and Every came after me. I really wasn't going to let her have it and then it struck me, the craziest idea I've ever gotten by far. I let her watch as I swallowed the shard, yes, I swallowed it. They kept stealing it away from me so it made sense then, right? But as soon as I ate it, everything just went back to normal. The shard stopped affected us, all of us but our memories and everything we did were still there with us.

I've always been the kind of person who sees silver linings, even in the worst scenarios so I did just that. Instead of seeing it as a mess that damaged my relationship with faction members, I chose to call it a bonding experience. People got hurt, sure, but no one died, right? Like Mr Chow would say, "But did you die?" In the end, despite the mess and damage dealt to the Eyrie - I think it strengthened the faction as a whole. I'm pretty sure murder was on everyone's mind but no one actually crossed that line. Everyone should be glad they survived a shard this powerful, I don't think many outsiders could manage that. If that shard was active and out there in the city, a **** ton of vampires would be dead already, I'm certain of that.

I was wondering if there was going to be any adverse effect from.. you know, eating a shard but so far, nothing. Definitely a good thing. It's probably somewhere inside me still, I didn't bother trying to take it out since I haven't felt any discomfort or anything. I'm not sure how or why the shard stopped affecting everyone, maybe stomach acids or whatever neutralize them? I have absolutely no idea but I've been researching them after that incident. There's no doubt that the shard was special in nature, it glowed after all. Not a dull glow, but almost like something inside it was alive and burning, like it was radioactive or something. It pulsed and you could literally sense where it was - pretty much why no one managed to successfully hide it.

The lesson I learned is that there's so much out there that we don't know about. Creatures and objects we don't know exist that could **** us up majorly. But I'm not worried about it, we can handle it. I'm not being cocky, just realistic. It's been four years already for me and I'm still improving myself in every ways possible. Learning and adapting are processes that truly are never over, at least not for our kind. Before the shard thing, there was the Siren issue - something I really don't want to get into. Especially when Tomi was involved in it and **** got really weird. I found out now that other people got affected by the Siren, if it's really what the creature or whatever is. But again, I'll find it eventually and there'll be sweet payback.

Right now it seems we're not just in a high alert situation, especially after the fractures popping around the city just a while back. But honestly, I like the suspense. It keeps me motivated and on my toes, no one likes idleness and monotony. To finish, the best news I have is that I enchanted my favourite gun to be unbreakable - Venom. So if I'm going to get a reason to use her, I'll be more than glad to do it. Shooting people and things has never been so much fun. Until next time. Klaus, out.

Re: Thoughts of a Killer ~ [Niklaus' Notebook]

Posted: 21 Oct 2016, 04:18
by Niklaus
Friday, October 21, 2016

Word of the day: ISHFYW

It's been a long, long time. I almost forgot about this.

Today, I killed Mortll. There's only so much **** I can take before I resort to violence. I was nice, I stayed out of **** because I respected the Worthington lineage, even the ones I didn't like, like just those two fuckers really. I believed it was good thing to this new diplomatic Niklaus, the one who only stabbed and shot things when that really needed to be done.

I do not believe I started anything out of boredomness either. You don't **** with me, I ignore but... she had to call me out. "You don't have the balls to **** with me", she said. Is that right? Am I the kind of person who just talk smack and not back it up? No, I am not. I was going to let it go but she had to call me out. Well enough is enough, this is the moment I embrace what I am.

I'm not a difficult person. This could have been resolved a long time ago. I am not one for bad blood, I do not hold grudges. Look at Malachai, we used to shoot and stab each other because we hated each other. But we're men, we're adults. So we figured our **** out and I have his back now as I know he has mine.

She tried to run but I knew where to go, I knew what to do. One in the back, for being a ***** and running away when you could have come right at me. Then one in the head, because you deserved it. I was alone when you ran off towards safety, I didn't bring anyone because this was personal. I could have, it would have guaranteed a higher chance of success but I know what I am capable of and this gun, I trust the most. Venom. My most prized, indestructible gift from the lovely woman that I dedicate this kill to.

I dedicated this kill to Velveteen. Because she has always been here for me, even when we had our issues. I saved Mortll from her wrath once, back when that ***** started **** she couldn't handle and Velveteen wanted her dead. But I was a proud Worthington back then, I wasn't going to let one of our own die, even if she ******* annoys the piss out of me. She was hit but not killed, I felt proud, I was a Worthington. Then I found out she was guilty about what she was accused of, that I was lied to, I felt stupid, I felt betrayed. I was pissed, never trust again.

This is how you fix one wrong. She should have died back then but she didn't. So, this time, she had to go. You do not **** with my sire, adopted or what not. From this day onwards, I will always embrace what I am. I will never forget what I am and neither will you.

I am a Killer.