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Online Journal (Human)
Posted: 25 Aug 2011, 19:58
by Serenity
ooc note:
I am going to use this as something like Live Journal, My Space (I am unsure if you can select who views posts in the note feature of Facebook but if you can something like that as well).
Meaning some Entry's will not be logged for public eye, while others will. If ''turned' I am on the fence of doing one as a vampire pretending to still be human. Also upon the 'turning' I may not have finished this so it could still have some posts added that were 'before' her turning.
I am also not bothered if you really want to leave a comment about it (like you can in other online journals) rather one is vampire or human. I figured it didn't belong in the Fact or Fiction section.
Journal Entries that are listed as Private or Friends Only may one day become Public. However it is not likely to happen, this is the Online Journal of Serenity Ming Ai’Shi (while she was/is human). What is found within this Online Journal is not likely ever to truly be deleted as there are copies.
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-Profile Page-
Name: Serenity Ai’Shi
DOB: Not Listed
Sex: Female
Ethnicity: Multi-racial
Languages: English, French, Chinese
Country: Canada
Religion: Not Listed
Relationship: Single, Not Looking
Looking For: Friends Only
About:
My name is Serenity Ming Ai’Shi, my mother is American and my father is Chinese. My religious views are a mixture of my mother’s Pagan background (a mixture of ancient and new world styles) and my Father’s Chinese background. As such I have a higher understanding of many types of religious backgrounds.
I was a student as Windsor University, where I study Psychology and Sociology that pertain to human nature. My goal is to not only understand the differences between humans of different backgrounds but to help people understand that we are all part of the same world.
I do plan to return to Windsor University, yet at the time I am staying in Harper Rock City, Canada. Where I began to take notes about the people who live here to be used once I return home.
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Journal Entry 6: Religious Cult or Delusional Fans?
Posted: 26 Aug 2011, 11:30
by Serenity
Journal Entry 6: Religious Cult or Delusional Fans?
If what my grandparents taught me is true then they along with father are on the other side. It seems here that there is a religious cult of some sort, for there is whispers of a place called the “Shadow Realm” but I have only heard this in passing while at local hangouts and only ever during the late hours of the night.
That aside I have found myself doing research on this subject and have only found one source that I believe is the result of this religious cult that has taken hold on this city. Though I am unsure why grown adults would choose to believe in a place that has came from an Anime, Game and Manga known as Yu-Gi-Oh. The very thought why a children’s show (in most ways) would start a cult in such an extreme.
I will point out that the Shadow Realm was created for the English (in which case I believe it is simply an American and Canadian censorship) to not show the death of characters within the Japanese version in which actual death appeared. It is my belief that this is where the people in this city have held tight to this belief. Instead of believing that once the body has died it is gone they wish to believe that the body can in some way come back to the living world. In which case I could find a way to speak to those I have lost, however, I sadly fear because they did not believe in this Shadow Realm that they are lost to me in this. I will have to do further research on this matter to know for sure.
This aside, I will explain what I have found about the Shadow Realm of the Yu-Gi-Oh world and in doing so, hope to find a way to understand why there is a religious following of such.
In the English Yu-Gi-Oh plotline, a person who would normally die in the Japanese Yu-Gi-Oh would have their mind or soul sucked into the darkness, which was referred to as the Shadow Realm. Not only could their mind or soul be sucked in but it seems that even the body itself could be taken to the Shadow Realm through ‘portals’. There is nothing I could find to explain what happens there but as the plotline normally has the person being a sort of villain I am left to believe that this is some sort of Underworld for the dead and perhaps not just all dead, but those who could not be saved in this world (like the villains in Yu-Gi-Oh).
My biggest fear however is that I am unable to tell if perhaps these people who have whispered “Shadow Realm” are truly being religious in their beliefs or in truth what I fear is a fan base for Yu-Gi-Oh that has grown so far out of control that there is not chance to draw these people out of their delusions about death.
If it is what I believe then on a psychology level and even a sociology level, I may have found a treasure within this city for the medical journals. It is almost like a cult lives within the city itself and it's members while out in the open are most secretive about who is allowed within their social circle. I hope to find more information about how this city has grown in the way it has where even the doctors and police may know more than they pretend to know.
Journal Entry 11: Just Memory Lapses or Something More?
Posted: 01 Sep 2011, 01:03
by Serenity
Journal Entry 11: Just Memory Lapses or Something More?
I have noticed that within this city, there seems to be a great amount of people with foggy memories or in some cases much like my own, they have a complete memory lapse of up to a couple of hours. If I was not the only one I would have thought perhaps it was simply something truly wrong with me, or perhaps a Depression Memory Lost.
To have you understand why I said it could had been me, I believe you need to figure understand that it has been less than two weeks from the time I learned that my parents and grandparents have died. I will not go into details about how they died (as it was stated in a private blog). However, the state of mind at best was no better than someone who was extremely sleep deprivation.
Now I know you will state that part of the effects that can happen when one is sleep deprivation is of course memory lapses and malaise ( for those who do not know what this means, it means a general feeling of being unwell). Which would had been a perfect reason if this memory lapses did not happen at other times.
This first time however, I do recall leaving the airport and trying to figure out where I was. I can recall going towards someone, a shadowy figure in my memory, but afterwards I cannot recall how I ended up across the city. I most likely would still be wandering around lost had it not been for that kind woman who mistook me for a friend of hers and showed me kindness. Sadly my second account of my memory lapse comes shortly before we said farewell. I do not recall how we parted ways only waking up in a hotel room feeling the depression washed away. This was followed by the one time I was the mall and ended up on the other side of town. Lucky I now had a good idea how to get back to the hotel.
So it is for this reason I do not believe it is a simple case of a Depression Memory Loss mainly because that is during a time when one is depress and hence is having difficulty making decisions; which I did not lack after meeting that woman. It is also a lack of concentration and as you can see I have no problems with my concentration (no more than normal for any human being), and I am not having any problems remembering things that were once familiar, actually that is one of the things that I wish sometimes I could forget. No it has not been hard at to even focus, so there is no chance that I am making any new memories.
This has sadly left me to believe that there is indeed something else in play. Something that actually the Doctors of this city know about and are simply not telling anyone who isn’t allowed to know. For this reason I have taken the time to get a full medical exam, just to be sure that there is nothing wrong with me. To make it very simple, there seems to be no other factors in play, there is no head injury, there have been no strokes, and there are no diseases within my system at all. It seems that there is no drug being given to me that is causing this either.
I believe that what is going on in a new form of chemical warfare in this city. I am very worried what the scientists are trying to achieve. However it could very well explain several things. However if this is a form of Stachybotrys or perhaps even Chaetomium it would explain several of the things I have noticed within this city. For example, there seems to be sensitivity to the sun by some within this city, there is of course the issue with memory lost and the fact that some of those within this city are what I would believe have some sort of mental deficiencies which can all be explained if they are using a form of this mold. However, there are many things that do not add up. So I am force to take the time to try and figure out what is going on with this memory lost.
Do hope it not a form of chemical warfare. However I cannot deny that it may explain many things I have noticed in this city. I can only hope that in my case the worst that will happen is the memory lapses if it gets any worst I will be force to pick up and return to Windsor.
Journal Entry 13: The Mythos
Posted: 01 Sep 2011, 02:08
by Serenity
Journal Entry 13: The Mythos
I grew up in a place where tourists was very common, those most of the attractions in Windsor where places like the Art Gallery, Little Italy, the site of conflict during the War of 1812, and of course parts of the Underground Railroad main entry point. I could go on and list other locations. However, that will take away from what this blog is about.
The point is I should be use to people gathering together in shall we say packs, sometimes pushing and even trying to catch a feel. However I was expecting in a town that is not seemly a tourist attraction. There isn’t anything to see here. There is some historical places or at least I believe them to historical places, have not found a single soul as of yet who can tell me such a thing.
For the most part it is the stories about vampires that truly get me. My hometown and even my grandparents and father’s birthplace in China have stories about mystical beings. Spirits, Angels, Demons whatever you wish to call them can be found all over the world. It is no surprise that even in this city there is a story about such things.
A story about madman named Cobb, dead of course. Who performed experiments, not very sure about what they are. The stories change from time to time. Sometimes he’s a demon who came from hell to gather the souls of lost to be used in the army at the end times. Sometimes he’s a vampire who lost his mind from being the very last vampire before he took his own life.
Then of course my favorite is that he a necromancer, someone who could summon the dead, the people here felt he was a solider of the devil and of course they thought they had killed him but when they went to bury him he was gone. It’s said that followers came and got him, and buried somewhere where no one could find him again. For the day he would rise again and destroy the bloodlines of those who had killed him.
I do not have much faith in these stories but it makes sense in a way that some whisper things in this city. If they truly believe in the mythos then who I am to judge? I believe in many things that others would find irrational but these are the stories that the people grew up with and the stories that I grew up are the ones that truly put faith even if it is blind faith.
I do know however that people the people grew up with these stories that they have this belief that there safety in numbers and you rarely find anyone alone in this city. It bothers me some because I am alone this city and this city seems to be built on the fact that you should not be along because the spirits of those six vampires that were murder here haunt these streets. That if you look closely you can see them wandering the streets.
Mind you have not seen any vampires as of yet. Though I have noticed that there are those who could fall under idea of vampires; however, believe that these are just people who have gotten too far into the idea of Ann Rice and that Twilight woman. Suppose I shall be very worried if I ever see anyone glittering in the sunlight. That however is for another blog.
In the mean time, if you come to Harper Rock City. Stay in a group; do not wander off on your own. After you do not wish to be cursed by the six vampires who spirits still roam these city streets.