Within the pages of a tattered journal, various aged pages are tucked amongst roughly etched sketches, canvas paged works of the imagination, and half-jot thoughts. An item always kept close to Seiji, a glimpse into his free time.
Even after all this time I still can't get used to writing in it. Oh well. It's been awhile too. Not since Mary, Mother, Father and I were all seperated. Something odd happened recently. My memory is abit hazy, but I kind of remember I was looking around somewhere, and then... nothing. I woke up here in the hospital. They say my amnesia caused me to collapse, and that I'm lucky someone called in for me.
But something feels off. My neck is killing me, and I keep getting nightmares, terrible ones. Between drowning in blood and being ripped apart by these horrible looking creatures. I haven't yet told anyone. I probably wont. I just can't shake this feeling of unease. It's funny, Mary used to tease me so much about how easily I got spooked. She also used to tease me about my choice in writing in here with a quill and inkpot, calling me an old timer at heart, but then she'd always love the look of it after.
God I miss her. I miss all of them, but especially her. I still have the doll she made me carry in my pocket that day. I hope I'm certain she's alright.
On the plus side, after so many years, I finally have two jobs and a number of new friends. Life seems to finally be looking up. Dads charm of always looking to the sky seems to have worked! I just hope my new boss at the cafe isn't upset that I've sort of vanished. I wish I had a good excuse, but my lack of memory sort of but I'll just have to tell him the truth when I call in later. Well, about the not remembering part. Maybe I'll call a few of my new friends and let them know. I don't want to cause any sort of scene of course, but it might be better than them accidently finding out some other way.
I'll call the cafe first, then Sil, Kang, and Jaxon. That sounds about right. But first, a bit of sleep. I'm exhausted. The doctor says it's due to the low blood count. They seemed pretty scared, said they'd nearly considered me dead for a minute there. Even though they say it's the anemia, I've never had it hit this low before, and if anything I'm eating better than I have in a long while. I just don't get it, but the more I try to figure it out the more my neck head hurts. Sleep. I need some sleep.
It's been a little while since I've written in this thing. I guess it's been long enough for a little update. I can almost here my little sister nagging me now for not doing this daily, but I just don't have the time. Or the focus. I had so much work to catch up on after the hospital released me. All the income statements and balances and... well, I do like math at least, so it's not so bad. Still... so tired. It would be easier if I didn't keep waking up in odd places.
The pills the hospital gave me aren't helping. They're supposed to deal with the anemia, but I still feel so dizzy, so tired.. and I'm starting to get worried. The wandering.. is it just because I'm so out of it? Every day, sometimes twice a day now, I'm waking up in weird places. Dizzy. Tired. Weak. I'm taking the pills, but they aren't helping. Maybe I should be taking an extra one? I don't know. If it doesn't let up soon, maybe I should see a doctor. I really hate all those needles though...
The wandering is really messing with work too. I keep losing track of what I'm doing and all that time wasted.. I realized I forgot to call them, my friends, back then. Or did I? My memories all fuzzy now... Really weird, all over the place. I'm terrified, but.. I don't want to make a scene about it. Maybe I should tell Sil. I'll think about it. After a little rest. I finally got all the work done, but my heads spinning. I figured I'd write my thoughts down, before I forget again. I need a way to keep track more then ever.
I'm lonely.
Why did I write that? I guess I haven't seen anyone in awhile. Why though? I just keep forgetting to call. Who? Sil. Call Sil later. Right. I'll call her and.. rest first. After a rest. And the pill again. I hope they work soon. I hardly feel human, I'm so run down. Maybe I'm catching the flu or something.
