Bless me, Father (Jaeger)
Posted: 17 Dec 2014, 16:12
Penance. The act of confessing to one's sin in the presence of a priest so that one may find forgiveness and redemption in the eyes of God.
The confessional booth stood in the dimness of the church like an ominous threat, reminding Aliyah that she was a sinner...a sinner that must repent with true sorrow in her heart. Without sincerity, it would be nothing and her Gates of Heaven would remain forever closed. At least, that was what her parents had always preached, demanding that she attend confession once a year. There darling daughter, their blessing, could not live a life of sin. But, a darling...she was not.
The thought of her parents drew the blonde to her knees, her blue gaze locked on the screen that would soon separate her from a priest. An image of her parents burned itself in the back of her retinas, drawing an overwhelmingly unexpected round of homesickness. As strictly religious as they were...they were her parents, and she loved them. It had been a few months since she had been home, and for once, that bothered her.
A gruff, but annoying accepting voice suddenly filled the silence, causing Aliyah to jump. "Have you come to confess your sins and beg forgiveness from our Lord, girl?"
Teeth immediately met lip, pushing back all retorts to his question. This was the way it always was...her blatant disregard for her "faith" and disappointment of not only her parents, but the church as a whole. So, instead she nodded silently, aware he could not see. "Bless me, Father, for I have sinned. I am a liar, a betrayer. I have conspired against my own blood and I doubt even your God could save me..." she replied, softly, hands knotting in her lap.
The priest was silent a moment, seemingly considering his words before speaking. It annoyed her, small fires starting at the end of her nerves. "Child, our Father will always offer your redemption if you are willing to seek out and repent. You are here, and that is the start you need."
The fire spread. The cord snapped, and Aliyah let out a bitter laugh. "Are you serious?" she questioned, rubbing at her temples. "That is the biggest crock of **** I have ever heard. Your God is not going to forgive simply because I come and spill my life story to you...some broke man behind a screen.
As soon as her words were out of her mouth, she stood and moved through the pews to the church doors with the calls of the priest behind her. She knew it was a terrible idea to come here. Harper Rock was a swing-through city while on her way to Toronto, and the church doors had seemed like a welcome piece of home. Until she walked in the door only to be met with a feeling of trepidation, an anxiety settling in the pit of her stomach.
With the fresh air now filling her lungs, Aliyah glanced around the streets, looking for a potential place to stay for the night. The sky was quickly beginning to darken, and she despised driving at night. Before she settled down, though, she needed a drink and the club a bit down the street seemed to offer some promise.
As she approached the Necropolis, she frowned. Clubs were hardly her usual scene, the male population liking to assume their wandering hands were welcome. That is, until they found themselves on the ground in the fetal position, anyway.
A smirk settled on her lips as the thought and she pushed her way into the club, moving to the bar immediately, ignoring all other activities around her. As she dropped onto the barstool, she smiled at the bartender. "Could I get a bottle of Redds, please?" The male nodded and a moment later the bottle was before her.
Her eyes closed as she let out a long sigh, raising the bottle to her lips.
The confessional booth stood in the dimness of the church like an ominous threat, reminding Aliyah that she was a sinner...a sinner that must repent with true sorrow in her heart. Without sincerity, it would be nothing and her Gates of Heaven would remain forever closed. At least, that was what her parents had always preached, demanding that she attend confession once a year. There darling daughter, their blessing, could not live a life of sin. But, a darling...she was not.
The thought of her parents drew the blonde to her knees, her blue gaze locked on the screen that would soon separate her from a priest. An image of her parents burned itself in the back of her retinas, drawing an overwhelmingly unexpected round of homesickness. As strictly religious as they were...they were her parents, and she loved them. It had been a few months since she had been home, and for once, that bothered her.
A gruff, but annoying accepting voice suddenly filled the silence, causing Aliyah to jump. "Have you come to confess your sins and beg forgiveness from our Lord, girl?"
Teeth immediately met lip, pushing back all retorts to his question. This was the way it always was...her blatant disregard for her "faith" and disappointment of not only her parents, but the church as a whole. So, instead she nodded silently, aware he could not see. "Bless me, Father, for I have sinned. I am a liar, a betrayer. I have conspired against my own blood and I doubt even your God could save me..." she replied, softly, hands knotting in her lap.
The priest was silent a moment, seemingly considering his words before speaking. It annoyed her, small fires starting at the end of her nerves. "Child, our Father will always offer your redemption if you are willing to seek out and repent. You are here, and that is the start you need."
The fire spread. The cord snapped, and Aliyah let out a bitter laugh. "Are you serious?" she questioned, rubbing at her temples. "That is the biggest crock of **** I have ever heard. Your God is not going to forgive simply because I come and spill my life story to you...some broke man behind a screen.
As soon as her words were out of her mouth, she stood and moved through the pews to the church doors with the calls of the priest behind her. She knew it was a terrible idea to come here. Harper Rock was a swing-through city while on her way to Toronto, and the church doors had seemed like a welcome piece of home. Until she walked in the door only to be met with a feeling of trepidation, an anxiety settling in the pit of her stomach.
With the fresh air now filling her lungs, Aliyah glanced around the streets, looking for a potential place to stay for the night. The sky was quickly beginning to darken, and she despised driving at night. Before she settled down, though, she needed a drink and the club a bit down the street seemed to offer some promise.
As she approached the Necropolis, she frowned. Clubs were hardly her usual scene, the male population liking to assume their wandering hands were welcome. That is, until they found themselves on the ground in the fetal position, anyway.
A smirk settled on her lips as the thought and she pushed her way into the club, moving to the bar immediately, ignoring all other activities around her. As she dropped onto the barstool, she smiled at the bartender. "Could I get a bottle of Redds, please?" The male nodded and a moment later the bottle was before her.
Her eyes closed as she let out a long sigh, raising the bottle to her lips.