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Awakening after months of sleep, I find myself feeling, an unsettling feeling of displacement. Exiled. I know I had slept too long, who could honestly forgive me for this? I wouldn't forgive myself. Feeling - Something I am not used to, something I did not know I could do. I could tell you the text book definition of Anger, Happiness, Sadness, Love and so on.. But when it comes to experiencing, it overwhelms me, I do not know how to handle it. I thought I could handle anything.

Touching her was like placing my hand around a victims throat, squeezing, watching the life fade from their pupils, the acceptance of death, a light you never would know was there unless you've looked to watch it fade.

Kissing her was like dragging the blade across the flesh, watching the skin crack, revealing what's inside, living components in which sustain ones true self and weaknesses.

The admittance of love, was the feeling of freedom, that boils up from my soul when I remove the knife and stare at the corpse. I did this, this was my power, this is what I could do, that many others could not do.

Dying for you, living for you..I do not know which I would rather do, but I can no longer sleep in fear of what you do to me.

In the hell I created, a kingdom just for myself, in my dreams and the confinements of my skull. It took me so long to admit that she can sustain me. Subdue my urge to kill, to light fires.

The connection of our souls, the binding that completed my human soul, healed it. It made me whole as a vampire with shadows.

I hope it isn't too late for us, my Melody.
Hans Adler Gray

P.S. I will still kill, but not because I need to. I just like it. - Sliver.

It's time to get the Gray lineage back to working order. Melody is still around, but who knows what she's been doing? I am being ignored by family, attempts to say hello to Melody or really anyone for that mattered are proving to be futile. Maybe they will come around. Maybe they won't. As far as I am concerned, if you haven't at least met me? You can't use my name. It's mine to make that decision.

Ive been thinking about siring someone new, someone I can work with. Talk to. Help. It'll be good. I don't see Lamprey much but that's alright, she seems to be doing her own thing, maybe she will come around and hang out, I wouldn't mind some time with her. I wouldn't mind hanging out with Momento either, but what the **** can I do? I'll set my goals and achieve them. If she wishes to join me, great.

Hans Alder Gray
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