"O, Brother, Where Art Thou?" - [Alexander Dysis]
Posted: 03 Dec 2014, 21:26
I deserve a break, she reaffirmed to herself as she prepared to lock up the studio early to be greeted by a wall of cool air and a subtle breeze that would have pulled goosebumps from her skin.
She’d been stuck in the studio for what felt like years, working tirelessly on commission after commission, creating pieces to sell “off the rack” whenever she hit a block with the pieces sought. Each day, she’d get up, shower and get ready for the day ahead of her. A cup of coffee was brewed on a timer, going off and freshly made as she’d leave her bathroom, picking it up as she did her collapsed cane and keys, footsteps carrying her to a doorway. The same hand daily—left, carrying the cane—clasped the cold door knob and turned it, descending out into town. Stopping just before it, she used the key to feel around for the lock, the satisfying click as it disengaged was heard and she’d moved through it to, closing it behind her. And, where did that lead her?
Her studio: her home for around twelve hours daily, committed to her art.
A little too committed at this moment in time.
When was the last time she’d gone out in the world? When was the last time she’d lost track of time doing something she loved? Reading in the sun at the park on a lonely, forgotten bench? Sitting near the docks to listen to the water lap at the shoreline while people walked passed, their conversations and the scuffing of soles on the pavement washing in and out, as though on the current itself? When had she taken a day to herself, let Aurelia run the shop on her own? Was that not the reason for moving to Port Arthur in the first place, the separation from the constancy of her art to allow herself a mental breather?
How had she gotten so wrapped up in it without noticing?
That was all about to change.
The sounds of Skylar Grey crooning over her speakers drown out anything and everything while she tried to wrap her mind around this latest piece. It was a piece born in turmoil, something to get out the inner frustration she was feeling at her lack of a life, but what was left unsaid. Something to try and work through it and break free of the block she currently found herself in.
Nimble fingers trailed over the piece as it stood then, trying to find where she wanted to take it, trying to feel where it would naturally flow next.
It wasn't her usual sort of piece. No, they normally were realistic, something of a subject that she was meant to immortalize in clay. This...this was different. It was something she couldn't quite place, the lines within its abstract form at war with each other. There was a definite connection between the two figures depicted, but then there was something else. Something coming between them? She wasn't sure, allowing her hands to work as they needed while her mind drifted over the conversation they'd had and how it'd ended.
As the song swelled, her annoyance did with it, and the hands that had been molding something instead started to tear the piece apart, whatever clay was unlucky enough to be caught in her grasp becoming nothing more than a smushed semblance of whatever it once was. But that wasn't enough. Oh no, this needed more than to be squeezed to death. Her hands punched into it, tore into it, threw a few bits here or there to hear the satisfying splat against other tables, and some of the wall. She didn't care that she'd have to explain it eventually; She was more than done with that piece.
Getting up from her bench, she went to wash her hands, slamming the faucet on and off, along with the towel finding itself thrown haphazardly across the room. It was…oddly satisfying to create a piece only to destroy it on a whim and had her feeling much better. Happier, in fact. The contentment she felt at destroying it, though, was her cue to get out of the studio and go for a walk. Without much ado, she gathered up her coat and hurried up the stairs to her apartment. Rex met her at the door, sniffing her legs and nuzzling into the palm of her hand as she gave the pup some much-needed affection.
“You and I are going for a walk,” the woman cooed at her, the dog’s bark and quick retrieval of the leash proof enough that she wanted to go on this walk as much as Verity did.
Leash secure, cane in hand, she left Veil Towers following the familiar path to the park. Why did she always go to the same place? It was perfectly situated in the midst of the chaos of the city, a happy blip forgotten on the proverbial radar that allowed her to remain connected while simultaneously disconnected. She could still hear the traffic as it zoomed past, the honk of horns reverberating off of the buildings that surrounded the oasis. She could hear the water of the river, lapping at the banks not far off. It was the perfect marriage of the wanted solitude she craved without having to become a hermit to find it.
As if reading her mind, Rex stopped at the same worn bench she’d been stopping at since the move. Were it a more pliable surface, there’d surely have been the wear and tear of her indent left upon its cracking and splintered planks.
And there she sat, listening to the sounds of the world passing her by, enjoying the warmth of the sun as it poked through the flurried clouds, as Rex laid her head in her lap and snuggled up to her.
Perfect.
She’d been stuck in the studio for what felt like years, working tirelessly on commission after commission, creating pieces to sell “off the rack” whenever she hit a block with the pieces sought. Each day, she’d get up, shower and get ready for the day ahead of her. A cup of coffee was brewed on a timer, going off and freshly made as she’d leave her bathroom, picking it up as she did her collapsed cane and keys, footsteps carrying her to a doorway. The same hand daily—left, carrying the cane—clasped the cold door knob and turned it, descending out into town. Stopping just before it, she used the key to feel around for the lock, the satisfying click as it disengaged was heard and she’d moved through it to, closing it behind her. And, where did that lead her?
Her studio: her home for around twelve hours daily, committed to her art.
A little too committed at this moment in time.
When was the last time she’d gone out in the world? When was the last time she’d lost track of time doing something she loved? Reading in the sun at the park on a lonely, forgotten bench? Sitting near the docks to listen to the water lap at the shoreline while people walked passed, their conversations and the scuffing of soles on the pavement washing in and out, as though on the current itself? When had she taken a day to herself, let Aurelia run the shop on her own? Was that not the reason for moving to Port Arthur in the first place, the separation from the constancy of her art to allow herself a mental breather?
How had she gotten so wrapped up in it without noticing?
That was all about to change.
The sounds of Skylar Grey crooning over her speakers drown out anything and everything while she tried to wrap her mind around this latest piece. It was a piece born in turmoil, something to get out the inner frustration she was feeling at her lack of a life, but what was left unsaid. Something to try and work through it and break free of the block she currently found herself in.
Nimble fingers trailed over the piece as it stood then, trying to find where she wanted to take it, trying to feel where it would naturally flow next.
It wasn't her usual sort of piece. No, they normally were realistic, something of a subject that she was meant to immortalize in clay. This...this was different. It was something she couldn't quite place, the lines within its abstract form at war with each other. There was a definite connection between the two figures depicted, but then there was something else. Something coming between them? She wasn't sure, allowing her hands to work as they needed while her mind drifted over the conversation they'd had and how it'd ended.
As the song swelled, her annoyance did with it, and the hands that had been molding something instead started to tear the piece apart, whatever clay was unlucky enough to be caught in her grasp becoming nothing more than a smushed semblance of whatever it once was. But that wasn't enough. Oh no, this needed more than to be squeezed to death. Her hands punched into it, tore into it, threw a few bits here or there to hear the satisfying splat against other tables, and some of the wall. She didn't care that she'd have to explain it eventually; She was more than done with that piece.
Getting up from her bench, she went to wash her hands, slamming the faucet on and off, along with the towel finding itself thrown haphazardly across the room. It was…oddly satisfying to create a piece only to destroy it on a whim and had her feeling much better. Happier, in fact. The contentment she felt at destroying it, though, was her cue to get out of the studio and go for a walk. Without much ado, she gathered up her coat and hurried up the stairs to her apartment. Rex met her at the door, sniffing her legs and nuzzling into the palm of her hand as she gave the pup some much-needed affection.
“You and I are going for a walk,” the woman cooed at her, the dog’s bark and quick retrieval of the leash proof enough that she wanted to go on this walk as much as Verity did.
Leash secure, cane in hand, she left Veil Towers following the familiar path to the park. Why did she always go to the same place? It was perfectly situated in the midst of the chaos of the city, a happy blip forgotten on the proverbial radar that allowed her to remain connected while simultaneously disconnected. She could still hear the traffic as it zoomed past, the honk of horns reverberating off of the buildings that surrounded the oasis. She could hear the water of the river, lapping at the banks not far off. It was the perfect marriage of the wanted solitude she craved without having to become a hermit to find it.
As if reading her mind, Rex stopped at the same worn bench she’d been stopping at since the move. Were it a more pliable surface, there’d surely have been the wear and tear of her indent left upon its cracking and splintered planks.
And there she sat, listening to the sounds of the world passing her by, enjoying the warmth of the sun as it poked through the flurried clouds, as Rex laid her head in her lap and snuggled up to her.
Perfect.