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Posted: 25 Oct 2014, 23:22
by Marjani (DELETED 5749)
Week of October 19th
I'm not normally the writing type of person, but I think I'm going to be living for a pretty long time. I think it only makes sense to. In case I forget something. It seems that happens to people. Vampires. It did to some guy that I met in passing last night.
Let's see.
Oh. I died this week. In a not so nice way by a woman named Nishaa. But I'm still alive, so I can't really complain too much. There was another casualty, but I don't really consider it a loss. I don't think anyone else will either.
I'm part of this group called Andras. They call themselves a family, but I've only ever seen about ten of them face to face. So I can't really consider them a family. Not my family. Not when my mom and brother are still alive and blowing up my phone asking me where I've been. I don't even know what to say or do about that except tell them I've been busy with teaching classes.
I'm hosting a thing tonight. It's probably really lame for most of the people in this group of vampires, but whatever. I really don't care. Nishaa and I have something special planned for tonight to motivate them and I just don't mean the cash!
Last night was some Halloween party thing. My mom would kill me if she knew I went. She hates Halloween. Says it's the devil's holiday or something. I remember when I wanted to be a witch in the fifth grade. She smacked me upside my head, told me witches work for satan and sent me to bed without dinner. Imagine what she would think of me now.
I went as a mime and Kapt'n K and Rion were there. I know them the best out of all the Andras. Besides Nishaa of course. Velveteen was there, as was Micah. He's not as scary in person, but I did leave sort of early. I had a class to teach. But the mime thing worked well. Too well. I made a few people laugh. There was someone dressed as some guy from some movie I couldn't reference, but I'm pretty sure my mom would think he worshiped the devil too with the way he dressed. And then there was some guy named Remi there too. He seemed, I don't know the word I'm looking for, but not typical. He didn't seem intimidating. And then there were two people I didn't really meet much of named Echo and Malachai (he's the one that can't remember anything). Rose too along with Abbadon. She doesn't like me, but I really don't give a ****. I'm here to stay and if she needs her ego stroked by Nishaa, then get it. I don't. I am who I am and I do what I want to do and that's where it all lays. I don't need my sire telling me what a good whatever I am.
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Posted: 02 Nov 2014, 02:41
by Marjani (DELETED 5749)
Week of October 26th
Not too much happened this week. I'm better with weapons and am even more lithe on my feet. I think I should do something else, because I'm pretty sure the things I can do now in my dance routines are humanly possible.
There was an auction and apparently the owner or whatever she is, was biased and sold Nishaa to some dumb ***** that tried to kill her before I was around. I'm not happy with any of that. I haven't really talked to Micah before but he better do something about that. It was sneaky ****. Sneaky bitches should get shot.
Then there was this Paladin ***** (like I even know what that is) who attacked someone I don't really know, but said I would help kill her anyways. And I did! I'm pretty sure she's dead. I shot her in the leg and blood went everywhere. On me mostly, and it was nasty as ****. I have to stop and get some spray and wash or something. I hope, hope her blood will come out.
I talked to Every more. She and Kleo gave me some money. Which I'm really grateful for. I've been buying blood bags and the winter season is slow for those who want to learn to dance. So cash gets tight. Winter makes people hibernate or something. It's weird. Asses can still be shaken in the cold. It might be better for you anyways. So dat *** don't get fat over the cold months.
I think some people in the Andras family are cool bitches and then there are just some flat out dumb bitches. I mean, I know they don't know me, but hello. Don't talk about slaves and the treatment of slaves in front of someone who comes from AFRICA. I don't think people think before they just blurt out the **** they think in their heads. And woman as property? Aysel seems really nice and smart, but if anyone treated me as property, I'd kick them in the balls. They wouldn't talk for a few nights.
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Posted: 22 Dec 2014, 03:22
by Marjani (DELETED 5749)
Week of December 21st
I'm behind in entries, but it is what it is. Working two jobs now, so time is a little tight. And with all the work of Kwanzaa coming up, and doing it on my own this year since I have to stay away from momma, it's a little overwhelming. Isaako is great. He's good to me. He protects me like I am one of his and not the other way around.
I gave gifts early. They were important to me; to them. To Jesse, Velveteen, Micah and Every. They were at the bonfire. I left early because I promised Isaako we would do something for the holidays.
There is a man in the sewers. He always puts gates up and Every says they're good things. I thanked him once, in sign language, but I don't think he understood. I want to say those two simple words for his kindness. Even in whispers. But I can't. I'm afraid.
Marjani Another PC Very difficult Reactionary/ Awareness Wendigo Whisper thank you for the gates Failed
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Posted: 01 Feb 2015, 20:02
by Marjani (DELETED 5749)
Week of January 25th
I am still unable to speak to the man who opens these gates in the same location nightly. I think I should stop resting there before he thinks me a charity case or something. I'm not, I just like the location for feeding a hunting zombies. It's really nice. I did decide to move tonight.
I miss you. I didn't think I would miss you just because we are connected, but I do. I know where you live, but I don't want to pry or insert myself into your life. I'm your sire. I should be stronger than you, for you, but I don't feel stronger. Or act it either. I liked the red dress you gave me and the attempt at dancing. No one has tried to wiggle their way into my world like that. No one has put forth the effort to do that. I appreciated it.
I still want to go home. To Africa. I will speak with Izzy to see if he'll come with me. I don't care what everyone says about the risk. It has to be done. For closure. I could never do it as a human. I do not want to be a victim anymore.
I will try, or die trying.
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Posted: 19 Mar 2015, 00:42
by Marjani (DELETED 5749)
Week of March 15th, 2015
I had what was probably the most interesting week of my entire vampire existence. Which is probably pretty sad. The first interesting (not so much, I'm thinking this with sarcasm), was that I had a feeding mishap. There wasn't anyone around but her, but she still labeled me as something not natural. I try so very good to be good for Nishaa. I hope she doesn't find out.
I tried to say something to that guy again. I try to almost every week, but can't. I just can't bring myself to talk. My mouth opens because I do want to say thank you, as I doubt he knows sign language, but when I open my lips, they crack and I take a breath in and run away after bringing my hand to my mouth quick and bringing it back down to my open palm. I don't think I'm scared of him, he's really nice, but I just freeze up and choke on my own saliva. I'm a mess.
I sorta hit on Nish. She screwed some guy. Ewww. Double ewww. Why anyone would ever want to touch that. No. Never. Ever. Ever. I had to put her on the straight and narrow. On the right path again. I think she's a really nice woman, very pretty and strong and has some amazing characteristics. She's very self-sacrificing, she loves the people in the family and she's rambunctious. Which is kind of fun and crazy. But crazy fun. Not creepy, serial killer crazy. Even though she likes killing things, Every said. I don't see her as a serial killer. Those people are mental. I don't think Nish is mental. Every offered some suggestions, because I want to do something nice for Nishaa, but I'm a little unsure of her suggestions. I don't like killing things. I don't know anything about weapons. And I'm sure I'm way out of Nish's league. Or, she's out of my league. I think Nish has had a lot of experience in things I haven't. And I don't know if she really is in to the dating thing either. Maybe I shouldn't have said anything.
And lastly, I have no idea where Izzy is. I haven't seen or heard from him in a while. I tried summoning him a couple times, but I couldn't. It made me a little sad.
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Posted: 19 Mar 2015, 00:57
by Nishaa
My dearest Chocolate Delight.
- From my experiences of being a sire. Childe come and go. You have to let them do their own thing. Mine have disappeared, aside from you. You are still around, for some reason. Have faith in your childe. Isaako is fine, I am sure. Do not worry. You worry too much.
Now onto the subject of me, you seem to have written quite a fair bit of about me. I am crazy. I grew up in an asylum, not something I share with most people. I murdered my little brother when he was only six. Do not think me as cute, and cuddly. I am the exact opposite, and wish not to sugar coat that **** either. Killing is a release, as well as sex. Don’t tell anyone I am nice, or self-sacrificing. I have a reputation to uphold, *****.
I don’t have much luck when I come to women, they seem to die on me – or vanish on me. So, if you really do like me – and want to make something of it. Then come out and say it.
I’ll give it a go, if you do not die, or vanish on me – because I’m cursed. Get quit hiding behind a journal, that you left in my apartment and come find me.
Nishaa. X
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Posted: 27 Mar 2015, 01:37
by Marjani (DELETED 5749)
Week of March 23rd, 2015
Nishaa found you, but I put you some place safe for now. She can't find you again.
I have given great many things thoughts. I remember my mother telling me something when I was a little girl. She said she heard it from her mother, who heard it from hers. "If you want to go faster, go alone. If you want to go farther, go together."
I have been going at this alone for many months. But I do not know who to ask so I can go farther. I like Every, but she is very, very busy. Everyone in Andras is very, very busy. With other things. Outside of Andras. They talk about things that I don't really know or understand. Kleo has been very, very nice too. But she isn't the same from first time we meet. I see her flame dwindling. People don't like her. I like her very much. She has been very nice to me.
I want to go farther. There is no need to go faster. This life is endless. I do not want to race towards something that is nothing.
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Posted: 31 Mar 2015, 01:22
by Marjani (DELETED 5749)
Week of March 30th, 2015
Nems texted me today. Nemesis. She is a very kind person. She say I should not change. That Andras needs more people like me in it. That the others are not like me. I say to her I notice these things and that maybe I am not being a good vampire since everyone else is like the way I notice.
I do not understand why everyone has to be so guarded, angry and protected. I am so very happy to be here. Alive. I should be more angry and maybe not happy. I have seen a lot of tragedy in my life, but I am alive. Was alive. No, I am very much alive even if I am a vampire and I am so happy I am still here and not rotting somewhere in Africa.
But I think Nishaa is embarrassed by me. Because I am not like everyone else. She seems so natural around the others. So happy. I think I bring her shame because I say things at her "Twin." She is a very angry person and is always ready to shoot people. Always telling Nishaa to be careful whenever we talk. And Nishaa likes the violence. To hurt people. I do not shoot people. I do not want to shoot people. I do not want to hurt people. I would never hurt Nishaa either. I do not understand why Nishaa has to be careful around me. I like Nishaa so very much. You do not hurt the people you like. I think Nishaa wishes I was more like everyone else in Andras. Nems say I should not change, but I think Nishaa might be happier if I did change.
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Posted: 02 Apr 2015, 09:56
by Marjani (DELETED 5749)
Same week
I got hurt in the sun yesterday. Nishaa say to me to not play with fire because I will get burned. I tried to touch her and stay with her. Cuddle with her. She manhandled me, but I didn't mind. Then she ran off. Where I don't know. I didn't try to play with fire. I just lost track of time. I wish she would stay sometimes. Or come back.
I got her a make your own voodoo doll. I don't know if she likes it. But I thought it could help her relieve some much tension. It's a commercial one. Not a real one. But I thought it was funny. And good gift for her.
I saw that man again. He nodded to me in the sewers. So I went back and he opened another gate. He is a very nice man. I thanked him again, without words and went on. He doesn't try and have conversation which is okay. I do not mind. I have nothing to say to a stranger. But he doesn't attack me or tell me to leave, so he must not mind me resting there.
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Posted: 11 Apr 2015, 20:24
by Marjani (DELETED 5749)
Week of April 5th, 2015
Nishaa is sad. Upset. It bothers me a lot. She feels very strongly about Every. Every is nice, but I don't know her like Nishaa does. Not to get upset about anything. I'm only upset that Nishaa is upset. So I try and make her feel better by drawing in her journal. Let her know I care. That I am still here.
I wonder if she is in love with Every.
I met Nemesis face to face the other night. At a last minute get together for the family. She kissed my cheek. It was a strong greeting. I didn't know how to react, so I waved. I feel stupid. It took me by surprise. There were a lot of weird questions asked. I think no one understood my answer. Or I am as Nemesis says. Different. Like she once was. I think she's nice, anyways.
That man who does the gate talked to me. In the way I talk. In the way I communicate. I know he can talk, but I appreciated the effort. Not many people take the effort. Teddy, my brother refused to learn sign language until I was almost fifteen. Men are stubborn like that. Like our father.