For once he wasn’t thinking. The short blade was thrust forward between the bones of the neck before his wrist snapped down, popping the Ancient Zombie’s head from its shoulders like a bottle cap. As the supernatural bonds displaced, the corpse dropped into a pile of bones with a clatter before merging with the dust and the decay. With that last enemy slain in a chain of ten or so, the small room at the very back of the Northern Catacombs returned to silence. Nevertheless, Myk’s desperate grip on the knife remained. He stared, dull-eyed, at the wall just a few feet in front of him as the silence buzzed in his ears, fogging his brain. Ordinarily, all this stillness would unease him, but there was nothing to feel and nothing to think about. It wasn’t a sad kind of emptiness or a happy one, it was simply emptiness. There was a void in his heart and in his mind and it was just that – a void.
He knew that it was this stark emptiness within him that had been reflected into his suite at the Ivory Tower when he’d gone on a decorating spree. Whatever wasn’t painted white – like furniture and electricals – was replaced with their white replicas so that the whole space was as blank as he felt, but welcoming change. There were several causes for this feeling, he mused, but each reason complemented the other until he came to the decision that he was fated to be alone. Everyone he came into contact with soon became ghosts – literally and figuratively. Mr Pratt was in the Dark Place. Angele had stopped returning his messages. Creedy had vanished and so had Liam. As for Temperance, although he’d seen her recently, she was off doing her own thing and he didn’t want to intrude on her life with the way that he was. And then, of course, there was Vasik who, after coming to apologise for his sudden departure, made another sudden departure.
Myk had sensed their separation before it had happened and in no way believed he had encouraged it. He never changed his behaviour toward the man, never shut him out, never expressed any sorrow, he just kept the thoughts to himself and hoped he was wrong. But he hadn’t been. Vasik disappeared as predicted and when he returned, he disappeared almost as quickly and strangely as he had come to Myk begging for forgiveness. Myk hadn’t taken to the flowers the man had brought him. He was angry and hurt, and although he loved to play to the man’s fantasies of becoming his
baby doll, he couldn’t deny who he was for the love of that one person; especially when that one person was about as reliable as a chocolate teapot in a heat wave. Myk had shrugged it off when he woke to an empty bed that night, but as much as he tried not to feel it, the more he realised that it was affecting him. He knew he couldn’t shut down, there would be no point in it. Vasik and the others wouldn’t come back and even if they did, what would he care? People were such distractions to his goals… whatever those were. Honestly, he couldn’t even remember.
All too readily Myk became aware of the sounds around him, how the dappling of water crossed the stone, how distant voices rumbled like insects, how footsteps echoed. A breeze stirred, not near strong enough to sway his hair which hung around his shoulders like stalactites, but enough to tease his skin like a cold breath. He heard indistinguishable words in a voice he recognised and pined for. He wanted to turn around, but didn’t. It had been months since he’d last seen that man, and every day he woke with the same intention to get on with his life and couldn’t. So much had happened, so many weird and interesting things which he thought might have changed him at last, might have brought about something new, but then he realised how he’d never be able to step forward when he had one foot still very much lodged in the past. And this whole scene, it was like something he’d lived before…
While the voice he heard continued to haunt him and although he thought he’d be turning around to see nothing but a ghost in the shadows, he turned around anyway. Myk’s grip on the blade wavered as his pewter eyes met the vacant space in front of him, but with a sigh expelled from his empty shell, he returned the blade to its sheath and decided to head for the surface. Really, what was he expecting? How could his mood improve slaying things in a cold, dark and depressing place such as this? His satisfaction wasn’t being reaped from slaughtering the undead anyhow, so perhaps the land of the living would be more prosperous.
He emerged from the sewers covered with ash and speckled with sludge. His clothes and skin felt grimy and the smell was fairly repulsive; like foul earth and day-old garbage. Still, he’d smelt worse and at least he’d cleansed his blade in the water of the sewer streams so it shone from the notch on his belt like a silver dollar. It occurred to him to lose his leather-style slacks and
Rise Against t-shirt in place of some fresh clothes volunteered by sleeping mortals, or perhaps go home and change, but even in dire straits he was easily distracted. Thinking it best to avoid too much attention, Myk had slipped into the alleyways along the buildings and snaked his way to the deserted backstreet of a bar. There, his pewter eyes had uncovered a jewel in the rough, putting a healthy smile back on his red-stained lips.
The jewel, the man, was probably not aware of another presence in the dark because his mannerisms expressed a simple kind of nonchalance that Myk wasn’t entirely used to seeing in earnest. He followed a series of posters to the doors of a building and then walked in. Myk’s head shifted a little to the left before he straightened up, a dark look of intent on his face.
“Well hello, Mr Ripper…”
There was a slight skip to Myk’s steps as he crossed into the streets, pleased at least to walk in the wake of the other Vampire’s scent when no one was around to judge. A little thrill ran through him once he reached the doors of the building, an anxious thought reflecting on the possibility that Ripper had known he was being followed and was about to displace his stalker. Myk pushed the door with force, sending it swinging back into the darkness. He peered in, but to no avail. It felt like he was sticking his head into crushed velvet. There was a soft pressure against his flesh, which he later distinguished as heat, and a strange, muffled sound coming from deep within. No Ripper though. Myk rolled his shoulders and told his feet to move and they did so, bringing him through the narrow, dark corridor that reminded him of sex clubs, before he happened upon another set of doors. Here the heat, the noise, was much more potent. His cheeks felt like they were catching the sun and his whole body felt invaded by the sound – someone singing.
…Love me or leave me, quit me or keep me
Whatever it is you're feeling, I just need to know
Love me or leave me or grip me or free me
I know that you're out of love so say it isn't so…
The lyrics hit him particularly hard and he completely succumbed to the sound. Myk walked into the lounge space, past the Vampire he had followed here originally, and sat himself at a vacant table near the stage where the young woman was singing. He watched her face and movements; the soft creases in her skin as the passion of the song took her, the placement of her hands, the way they trembled, and when the song came to its slow, sombre end, he watched the silver droplet of a tear mark her face. Myk sighed, the weight of his cold breath feeling oddly warm as it pushed through. He empathised, but couldn’t express it like she did. He couldn’t remember the last time he’d cried. His father had mentioned that it was an unusual thing – not to cry – even for a male, but that didn’t exactly encourage him. As sad as he felt, he just didn’t cry, and he wondered, perhaps he could try to be more like this woman who was so passionate. Perhaps he could try this singing thing. Perhaps she'd even help?