Fractured (Part 1) [Jersey]
Posted: 04 Jul 2014, 06:30
--The following transcript was a live chat roleplay--
<Jersey> telepathic message: Peter, are you alright? Text me in reply, I know you can't do it telepathically. Kallista told me what happened and I'm with her now.
<Peter Parkman> [text] A few broken ribs. In the sewers.
<Jersey> telepathic message: Baby, I'm so sorry. I can't believe she attacked you. I just... I thought you two were trying to get along. I'm so confused.
<Peter Parkman> [text] I'm not.
<Jersey> telepathic message: You aren't confused?
<Peter Parkman> [text] No.
<Jersey> telepathic message: Care to explain or are you annoyed with me too for some reason?
<Peter Parkman> [text] I'm not confused as to why she attacked me. She's made that clear to me - she's just a sick individual who sees us as pawns in her private game of chess. I want to believe that she is a liar - that you don't want to stay there with her, that you are angry with her. Are you angry with her?
<Jersey> telepathic message: Kallista said she attacked you for no reason, that she did it because she just doesn't like you. I'm mad at her, but I don't like conflict. She's confused on why I'm not yelling at her.
<Peter Parkman> [text] So am I. Maybe she isn't a liar. I'm not confused about her. I'm confused about you.
<Jersey> telepathic message: I took it back on the yelling. Voice just pitched. I... I am so confused on everything right now.
<Peter Parkman> [text] You stay there and sort out your confusion, then.
<Jersey> telepathic message: My sire, who I love and adore, just attacked the man I'm in love with for no reason other than "I don't like him.". I have every right to be confused.
<Peter Parkman> [text] That's fine, Jersey. I understand completely.
<Jersey> telepathic message: I can't believe this is happening.
<Jersey> After attempting to attack her sire and then proceeding to mindblock her for two hours, Jersey made her way quietly back to the cabin and softly spoke into his mind. 'Peter? Where are you?' She wasn't comfortable in the least with the fact he hadn't answered her while she was speaking to Kallista. She was upset and it was evident even in her tone. When she reached the woods, she ran through the path and chewed on the inside of her cheek.
<Peter Parkman> Peter had got home and had tried to check how severe the broken bones were; he'd stood in front of the mirror that he hadn't got rid of yet, forgetting. He'd pulled up his shirt to try to see how far the bruise had spread, but there was no reflection. In a moment of uncharacteristic rage, his fist had slammed against the glass. The bathroom mirror had shattered - Ellie, who'd been standing by the door yelped and ran. Peter felt awful. The dogs had done nothing wrong. He'd left his phone and wallet and keys on the stand by the door as he'd followed Ellie out to the kennels, where he'd crawled into Hunter's. It was the biggest. The dogs trotted in after him, one after the other, all trying to cram into the space. He huddled in there with them. He couldn't respond to Jersey, and so he waited. She'd find him, sooner or later.
<Jersey> Following his scent quietly as she reached the yard, she pulled her hair back into a low ponytail and went into the house, calling out for him softly and chewed on her bottom lip. After a while, the blonde found him inside one of the kennels and crouched down before sitting down on her knees, setting her palm against the cage as she heard Bear approach her and nuzzle her arm. She turned her head and pressed a kiss to his nose, studying Peter quietly before speaking. "I can't play nurse if you're sitting in there where I can't get you." When she smiled, she winced and sighed before sitting down on the ground completely and pressed her face against the dog's fur. "I tried to attack Kallista. I didn't manage it, but I purposely mindblocked her for two hours."
<Peter Parkman> Peter was huddled in the back corner, his back against the wall, one arm draped over Hunter and the other laying on top of a sleeping KD. Or, she was sleeping until Jersey made her appearance, which stirred all the dogs into excitement. Peter grunted as they moved, and forced him to move, too. "I don't need a nurse. I'm fine," he said. Physically, anyway - he knew the bones would heal. Mentally, however, he was still trying to come to grips.
<Jersey> "Parkman, get that *** of yours out here please before I take the cage apart." She gave him a look that said she'd do it, too. Greeting each dog as they came around her, Jersey hugged Lady around the neck and pressed her face against the dog's fur.
<Peter Parkman> "No. The worst thing you can do for me right now is make me go out there," he said. She wanted to nurse him, but forcing him out into the wide open space wouldn't work. The cage was nice and square. The measurements were easy, and symmetrical. It was a cacoon of even numbers, and Peter felt safe inside of it.
<Jersey> The telepath pushed her eyebrows together as she sighed and adjusted to sit beside him. "Alright." Jersey set her head softly against the cage, Bear halfway laying on her lap as Lady took the otherside. KD and the others went back to Peter. "How bad is it?"
<Peter Parkman> Peter closed his eyes. How bad is what? His ribs? His head? His heart? He didn't know how to answer that question. "She said you weren't angry. It's like anger was only an afterthought. If deep down you think I deserved it, you just need to tell me," he murmurs. He felt, rather than saw Hunter and others come back to him. He winced only slightly as he rearranged himself so that the dogs could lie beside, with him, on him. He liked to be enveloped by their warmth and the stacatto beats of their little hearts.
<Jersey> "I was mad, and the more she seemed to get amused about everything, I tried to overwhelm her mind... Peter, I'm so sorry. I really am." Jersey watched him wince and softly grasped the metal between them. She didn't like the distance, "No one deserves to be attacked. Not you, well Kallista does but that failed partially on my part because I didn't think to stab her, but... you shouldn't have been hurt."
<Peter Parkman> "So you tried and failed, and you ... blocked her," he said. He wasn't really sure what she meant by it, though he'd read something about it. Could vaguely understand it. "And now what? It's going to be okay if she just takes her anger out on me whenever she feels like it, for no damned reason but to let off steam? I tried to make it work, I offered her an olive branch but she's just thrown that right back in my face," he spat. His fingers clenched into Hunter's fur - not enough to hurt Hunter, but enough to ball his anger into something physical. "Stop apologising, Jersey. What the **** have you got to be sorry about?!" he asked.
<Jersey> "I stopped her from being able to use powers... like summoning the creature she did to break your ribs." Huffing, she leaned forward to listen to him. There was genuine surprise playing across her features until her jaw fell lightly when he said ****. When she found her voice, she was stumbling over her words before she stopped, took a deep breath, "Everything, Peter. I'm sorry my sire attacked you. I'm sorry that I've clearly brought you into something that can't be fixed because my sire hates you and has hated you from the beginning. I couldn't take two damn minutes to tell you that I was alright. That I wasn't alive, but that I was turned so you wouldn't go off at her. I'm sorry she hates you, because I..." She got up, heading into the cabin.
<Peter Parkman> The way Kallista treated Peter was no one's fault but Kallista's. It was his fault in the beginning - a fault that he claimed, that he owned, that he wore. It was bridge that he had walked across and he'd hoped that Kallista would join him, but instead she seemed intent to watch the bridge burn. Jersey had nothing to do with it, and it frustrated Peter that she felt so keenly that it was all her own fault. If he were feeling like himself, he'd have crawled out of that comfortable space and he'd have tried to make it better, to soothe her. But he wasn't feeling himself. And so he slammed his head against the bars and shouted. "WALK AWAY THEN. I'M NOT FOLLOWING YOU." It might sound as if he were a stubborn child, but underneath it all, he was legitimately
terrified of leaving the small, comfortable space.
<Jersey> "Shout at me all you want, you can sit in your cage right until the sun comes up for all I care!" She shouted right back, although it went directly into his head as she refused to speak out loud other than to make quiet insults under her breath. Going into the bedroom, she collected a pair of pajama bottoms and one of his shirts that she liked to sleep in, going into the bathroom and swearing when she saw the mirror. She tensed, thinking about the fact he was yelling and certainly not acting like himself. She considered his OCD and huffed, turning on the hot water to take a shower.
<Peter Parkman> Peter glanced upward. The sun would be a problem, he realised now. He tried. He crawled, haphazardly, toward the exit of the kennel. It hurt, and he hissed. He lingered by the doorway. He hovered. He thought about it. Just one step. Just one step and he would be out. But how many steps to the front door? Ten? Twelve? He couldn't remember. He should, but he couldn't. He fell backward, scrambling back to the back of the kennel. He buried the heels of his palms into his eye sockets. He rubbed, hard, until he saw stars. He shouted, at nothing and at no one - the dogs left him there. They thought he was angry at them. And besides, the food was inside, where Jersey had gone.
<Jersey> When she finished her shower and her clothes were changed, she moved cautiously over the glass barefoot before going to clean it up. "I can't believe he broke the -" and then it dawned on her that he'd actually done something violent. She paused in her actions and pushed the dustpan onto the countertop, running outside. "Peter, have you talked to Keara about your OCD? How it's affecting you? You broke the mirror and you said ****. You don't say ****, I say ****. Are you alright?" Her eyebrows pushed together.
<Peter Parkman> Peter's hands were shaking. He clenched and unclenched his fists a couple of time before burying his curled fingers in this lap, drawing his knees up to hold them in place. His forehead rested against his knees and there he sat, curled into a tight ball. He focused on his breathing exercises. He didn't need to breath, but the monotonous rhythm of it helped. He drew in a sharp breath as he heard Jersey coming back out. Stars continued to dance as he squeezed his eyes more tightly shut. "I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm find if I can do ... if I can stick to my routine and my spaces and if I'm not attacked for no reason on the way home and if I can just... if I can just..." he shook his head. He rocked forward, and then back again. He didn't know what he needed to do,
now. He didn't know how to make it go away this time. It had been a very, very long time since it had got this bad. And he couldn't remember.. he'd had pills back then. He doesn't have them now.
<Jersey> Jersey reached into the cage softly, gently grasping his leg and tried to pull him close enough so that she wouldn't have to get in the cage with him. "Baby, listen to me. It's alright." She reached for his hands, giving up before she sat down inside and frowned. In some ways, she was a little scared. "I hate not being able to do anything to help you. And for the moment, I'm pushing aside the anger I have at you for yelling at me. Focus on something. I know you can." She sighed, "Honey, I get shot at when I come home. These days, it's normal because we're vampires. Because there are hunters." She felt strings get pulled in her heart and she watched the man as she fell quiet, entirely clueless on what to do. "Let's get inside, so I can look at your side."
<Peter Parkman> "The hunters have a reason," he groaned, still tight in his ball and flinching when he felt her touch, almost inching away from it. "They think we're monsters and they have a reason. That's different," he said. His teeth grinded, jaw clenched. "I'm trying not to focus on how much I hate her. I hate her. And what you might do if I couldn't control myself the next time I see her," he said. Because he won't be able to. He realised it, then. If he weren't so terrified of the wide world he might have launched himself past Jersey to go search for Kallista, to take his retaliation shot. That was how one dealt with bullies, wasn't it? Show them that you won't be beaten. He shook his head. "I can't."
<Jersey> "If either of you touch the other again, I will knock both of you on your ***. I don't care if I get hurt, I'm done with this. ******* hate each other all you want, but I do not want it to resort to blows." She snapped, baring her fangs at him for once. "I absolutely hate that the man I'm in love with is sitting in a damn dog kennel with broken ribs, unhinging. I absolutely hate that my sire, someone I respect so much had to be so petty to hurt you because she felt like it. It's absolutely pathetic that I have to be the adult in this entire situation and hope for the best that you two will get over whatever the **** goes on between you to keep sane."
There was the snap that Kallista had been waiting for and the telepath leaned forward to press her lips lightly to his forehead. "I'm going to go get the tarp if you insist on sleeping here. I'll sleep with the dogs in our bed. Be miserable." She backed out and got to her feet.
<Peter Parkman> Peter's eyes finally opened. She backed out and got to her feet, again as if she were going to walk away, as if she were going to have the last word on the matter. "That's it? She attacks me and the worst you can do is try to overwhelm her, and call her petty. You can still respect her after being so petty? Nothing goes ON between us. Nothing. Last time there was an interaction between us I was thanking her for doing that ritual. She was being nice. I was being nice. And now this?! What the... And you want to be angry at ME because... because what, I don't deserve to be pissed off at her?! And you want to call me a child after she's acting like... no, whatever. Go away then."
<Jersey> "No, Peter. I wanted to ******* punch her, but I know I couldn't hit her. I can control my anger. I'm not angry at you. I'm angry at her and I'm angry at the entire ******* situation." She turned on him, "You deserve every ounce of being pissed off at her, and the attack on you was three months too ******* late on her end." Grabbing the tarp, Jersey threw it on top of him before heading inside and slamming the door. She pushed the thought into her sire's mind afterwards, letting her heard every word that Jersey had growled before going to the bed and curling up under the blankets.
<Peter Parkman> Peter blinked in the darkness and the silence. He stayed right where he was. At some point, he moved away from the edge of the cage. He wasn't sure he trusted the tarp. What if there were holes in it? But he still couldn't bring himself to leave. He curled up in the middle of the cage. At some point, he was joined by Hunter, the heavy weight of the dog pressed up against Peter's back. And, just before the sun came up and Peter passed out completely, he rolled over to curl into the warmth of the animal, face buried in his fur.
<Peter Parkman> When Peter woke up, it was due to aching pain. No, not just aching, but burning, too. The tarp hadn't been big enough, or had been off kilter, or there was a hole - Peter didn't know how it had happened, but his hand was singed, blistered, burnt. Just a slice of it. It wasn't that bad - no doubt he'd shifted his hand away from the fire of the sun's rays as soon as they'd hit, but it had been too late. The majority of the pain came from his ribs. Still broken, the sharp pain radiating through his torso. He groaned, and Hunter shifted. The dog whined, and started to lick at Peter's face. Peter just laid there, letting the dog lick him.
<Jersey> Once the sun had gone down and the blood was delivered, she gave the delivery man a smile that had been clearly forced before she used her foot to nudge the door shut. "Are you awake?" She called, heading outside and still in his teeshirt. Sometime in the night, she'd forgone the pants and she carefully tugged the tarp off. Seeing his hand, her lips pressed into a thin line because she blamed herself for it, but at that moment, she could care less with her anger.
<Peter Parkman> "No," Peter said. It all came crashing back; the reason why he was in Hunter's home, the reason why his ribs were broken. The whole damned debacle. And he felt like he needed time to gather his thoughts, to try to return to some kind of state of grace. As much as he wanted to throw his arm over Hunter in a bid to coax the dog into lying back down, he instead rolled over and up with a long, low groan. He was sitting. He needed to drink his blood. He couldn't be in this doghouse. He needed to shower, and get dressed. And go about his night as if nothing had happened. Yes, that's how he could fix it. His head was bowed as he looked up at Jersey, eyes hooded and wary.
<Jersey> "I hope you hurt." She replied simply, upset as she whistled for the large dog, "Come on Hunter, dinnertime. Dad's staying out here until he decides otherwise." She set the cup down between Peter's legs once the large dog had moved and went back inside, shutting the door behind her while she went to feed all of the dogs and sipped at her blood. She was still mad at him and at everything that had been said. When the blood was gone, she moved to rinse out her cup as he usually did for her before setting it aside to wait for his and went to continue cleaning up the glass.
<Peter Parkman> Peter sucked back the blood as if it would bolster his resolve and banish his fear. It did neither of these things. He sucked and swallowed as he stared at the wide open doorway and the world beyond. He just had to get back to the house. That was it. That was all he had to manage. Finally, after five minutes, he began the endeavour; it was the hardest that he had done in a long time. In the moment, he thought it was the hardest thing he'd ever had to do. Three times he tried to step out only to fall back. On the fourth attempt he ran. He counted as he ran but he ran. Straight to the cabin, forgetting about his cup. Only remembering once he reached the doorway but shouting away his frustration as he couldn't, just couldn't go back. The front door slammed behind him not in anger, but in haste. He skidded to a halt when he reached the bathroom, only to find Jersey inside, cleaning up the glass. A wail crawled from Peter's throat as his arms went up over his head. "Noooo no, you need to get out. You need to... please..." he paced the paced the small space, shaking his hands, fighting the tremor.
<Jersey> telepathic message: Peter, are you alright? Text me in reply, I know you can't do it telepathically. Kallista told me what happened and I'm with her now.
<Peter Parkman> [text] A few broken ribs. In the sewers.
<Jersey> telepathic message: Baby, I'm so sorry. I can't believe she attacked you. I just... I thought you two were trying to get along. I'm so confused.
<Peter Parkman> [text] I'm not.
<Jersey> telepathic message: You aren't confused?
<Peter Parkman> [text] No.
<Jersey> telepathic message: Care to explain or are you annoyed with me too for some reason?
<Peter Parkman> [text] I'm not confused as to why she attacked me. She's made that clear to me - she's just a sick individual who sees us as pawns in her private game of chess. I want to believe that she is a liar - that you don't want to stay there with her, that you are angry with her. Are you angry with her?
<Jersey> telepathic message: Kallista said she attacked you for no reason, that she did it because she just doesn't like you. I'm mad at her, but I don't like conflict. She's confused on why I'm not yelling at her.
<Peter Parkman> [text] So am I. Maybe she isn't a liar. I'm not confused about her. I'm confused about you.
<Jersey> telepathic message: I took it back on the yelling. Voice just pitched. I... I am so confused on everything right now.
<Peter Parkman> [text] You stay there and sort out your confusion, then.
<Jersey> telepathic message: My sire, who I love and adore, just attacked the man I'm in love with for no reason other than "I don't like him.". I have every right to be confused.
<Peter Parkman> [text] That's fine, Jersey. I understand completely.
<Jersey> telepathic message: I can't believe this is happening.
<Jersey> After attempting to attack her sire and then proceeding to mindblock her for two hours, Jersey made her way quietly back to the cabin and softly spoke into his mind. 'Peter? Where are you?' She wasn't comfortable in the least with the fact he hadn't answered her while she was speaking to Kallista. She was upset and it was evident even in her tone. When she reached the woods, she ran through the path and chewed on the inside of her cheek.
<Peter Parkman> Peter had got home and had tried to check how severe the broken bones were; he'd stood in front of the mirror that he hadn't got rid of yet, forgetting. He'd pulled up his shirt to try to see how far the bruise had spread, but there was no reflection. In a moment of uncharacteristic rage, his fist had slammed against the glass. The bathroom mirror had shattered - Ellie, who'd been standing by the door yelped and ran. Peter felt awful. The dogs had done nothing wrong. He'd left his phone and wallet and keys on the stand by the door as he'd followed Ellie out to the kennels, where he'd crawled into Hunter's. It was the biggest. The dogs trotted in after him, one after the other, all trying to cram into the space. He huddled in there with them. He couldn't respond to Jersey, and so he waited. She'd find him, sooner or later.
<Jersey> Following his scent quietly as she reached the yard, she pulled her hair back into a low ponytail and went into the house, calling out for him softly and chewed on her bottom lip. After a while, the blonde found him inside one of the kennels and crouched down before sitting down on her knees, setting her palm against the cage as she heard Bear approach her and nuzzle her arm. She turned her head and pressed a kiss to his nose, studying Peter quietly before speaking. "I can't play nurse if you're sitting in there where I can't get you." When she smiled, she winced and sighed before sitting down on the ground completely and pressed her face against the dog's fur. "I tried to attack Kallista. I didn't manage it, but I purposely mindblocked her for two hours."
<Peter Parkman> Peter was huddled in the back corner, his back against the wall, one arm draped over Hunter and the other laying on top of a sleeping KD. Or, she was sleeping until Jersey made her appearance, which stirred all the dogs into excitement. Peter grunted as they moved, and forced him to move, too. "I don't need a nurse. I'm fine," he said. Physically, anyway - he knew the bones would heal. Mentally, however, he was still trying to come to grips.
<Jersey> "Parkman, get that *** of yours out here please before I take the cage apart." She gave him a look that said she'd do it, too. Greeting each dog as they came around her, Jersey hugged Lady around the neck and pressed her face against the dog's fur.
<Peter Parkman> "No. The worst thing you can do for me right now is make me go out there," he said. She wanted to nurse him, but forcing him out into the wide open space wouldn't work. The cage was nice and square. The measurements were easy, and symmetrical. It was a cacoon of even numbers, and Peter felt safe inside of it.
<Jersey> The telepath pushed her eyebrows together as she sighed and adjusted to sit beside him. "Alright." Jersey set her head softly against the cage, Bear halfway laying on her lap as Lady took the otherside. KD and the others went back to Peter. "How bad is it?"
<Peter Parkman> Peter closed his eyes. How bad is what? His ribs? His head? His heart? He didn't know how to answer that question. "She said you weren't angry. It's like anger was only an afterthought. If deep down you think I deserved it, you just need to tell me," he murmurs. He felt, rather than saw Hunter and others come back to him. He winced only slightly as he rearranged himself so that the dogs could lie beside, with him, on him. He liked to be enveloped by their warmth and the stacatto beats of their little hearts.
<Jersey> "I was mad, and the more she seemed to get amused about everything, I tried to overwhelm her mind... Peter, I'm so sorry. I really am." Jersey watched him wince and softly grasped the metal between them. She didn't like the distance, "No one deserves to be attacked. Not you, well Kallista does but that failed partially on my part because I didn't think to stab her, but... you shouldn't have been hurt."
<Peter Parkman> "So you tried and failed, and you ... blocked her," he said. He wasn't really sure what she meant by it, though he'd read something about it. Could vaguely understand it. "And now what? It's going to be okay if she just takes her anger out on me whenever she feels like it, for no damned reason but to let off steam? I tried to make it work, I offered her an olive branch but she's just thrown that right back in my face," he spat. His fingers clenched into Hunter's fur - not enough to hurt Hunter, but enough to ball his anger into something physical. "Stop apologising, Jersey. What the **** have you got to be sorry about?!" he asked.
<Jersey> "I stopped her from being able to use powers... like summoning the creature she did to break your ribs." Huffing, she leaned forward to listen to him. There was genuine surprise playing across her features until her jaw fell lightly when he said ****. When she found her voice, she was stumbling over her words before she stopped, took a deep breath, "Everything, Peter. I'm sorry my sire attacked you. I'm sorry that I've clearly brought you into something that can't be fixed because my sire hates you and has hated you from the beginning. I couldn't take two damn minutes to tell you that I was alright. That I wasn't alive, but that I was turned so you wouldn't go off at her. I'm sorry she hates you, because I..." She got up, heading into the cabin.
<Peter Parkman> The way Kallista treated Peter was no one's fault but Kallista's. It was his fault in the beginning - a fault that he claimed, that he owned, that he wore. It was bridge that he had walked across and he'd hoped that Kallista would join him, but instead she seemed intent to watch the bridge burn. Jersey had nothing to do with it, and it frustrated Peter that she felt so keenly that it was all her own fault. If he were feeling like himself, he'd have crawled out of that comfortable space and he'd have tried to make it better, to soothe her. But he wasn't feeling himself. And so he slammed his head against the bars and shouted. "WALK AWAY THEN. I'M NOT FOLLOWING YOU." It might sound as if he were a stubborn child, but underneath it all, he was legitimately
terrified of leaving the small, comfortable space.
<Jersey> "Shout at me all you want, you can sit in your cage right until the sun comes up for all I care!" She shouted right back, although it went directly into his head as she refused to speak out loud other than to make quiet insults under her breath. Going into the bedroom, she collected a pair of pajama bottoms and one of his shirts that she liked to sleep in, going into the bathroom and swearing when she saw the mirror. She tensed, thinking about the fact he was yelling and certainly not acting like himself. She considered his OCD and huffed, turning on the hot water to take a shower.
<Peter Parkman> Peter glanced upward. The sun would be a problem, he realised now. He tried. He crawled, haphazardly, toward the exit of the kennel. It hurt, and he hissed. He lingered by the doorway. He hovered. He thought about it. Just one step. Just one step and he would be out. But how many steps to the front door? Ten? Twelve? He couldn't remember. He should, but he couldn't. He fell backward, scrambling back to the back of the kennel. He buried the heels of his palms into his eye sockets. He rubbed, hard, until he saw stars. He shouted, at nothing and at no one - the dogs left him there. They thought he was angry at them. And besides, the food was inside, where Jersey had gone.
<Jersey> When she finished her shower and her clothes were changed, she moved cautiously over the glass barefoot before going to clean it up. "I can't believe he broke the -" and then it dawned on her that he'd actually done something violent. She paused in her actions and pushed the dustpan onto the countertop, running outside. "Peter, have you talked to Keara about your OCD? How it's affecting you? You broke the mirror and you said ****. You don't say ****, I say ****. Are you alright?" Her eyebrows pushed together.
<Peter Parkman> Peter's hands were shaking. He clenched and unclenched his fists a couple of time before burying his curled fingers in this lap, drawing his knees up to hold them in place. His forehead rested against his knees and there he sat, curled into a tight ball. He focused on his breathing exercises. He didn't need to breath, but the monotonous rhythm of it helped. He drew in a sharp breath as he heard Jersey coming back out. Stars continued to dance as he squeezed his eyes more tightly shut. "I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm find if I can do ... if I can stick to my routine and my spaces and if I'm not attacked for no reason on the way home and if I can just... if I can just..." he shook his head. He rocked forward, and then back again. He didn't know what he needed to do,
now. He didn't know how to make it go away this time. It had been a very, very long time since it had got this bad. And he couldn't remember.. he'd had pills back then. He doesn't have them now.
<Jersey> Jersey reached into the cage softly, gently grasping his leg and tried to pull him close enough so that she wouldn't have to get in the cage with him. "Baby, listen to me. It's alright." She reached for his hands, giving up before she sat down inside and frowned. In some ways, she was a little scared. "I hate not being able to do anything to help you. And for the moment, I'm pushing aside the anger I have at you for yelling at me. Focus on something. I know you can." She sighed, "Honey, I get shot at when I come home. These days, it's normal because we're vampires. Because there are hunters." She felt strings get pulled in her heart and she watched the man as she fell quiet, entirely clueless on what to do. "Let's get inside, so I can look at your side."
<Peter Parkman> "The hunters have a reason," he groaned, still tight in his ball and flinching when he felt her touch, almost inching away from it. "They think we're monsters and they have a reason. That's different," he said. His teeth grinded, jaw clenched. "I'm trying not to focus on how much I hate her. I hate her. And what you might do if I couldn't control myself the next time I see her," he said. Because he won't be able to. He realised it, then. If he weren't so terrified of the wide world he might have launched himself past Jersey to go search for Kallista, to take his retaliation shot. That was how one dealt with bullies, wasn't it? Show them that you won't be beaten. He shook his head. "I can't."
<Jersey> "If either of you touch the other again, I will knock both of you on your ***. I don't care if I get hurt, I'm done with this. ******* hate each other all you want, but I do not want it to resort to blows." She snapped, baring her fangs at him for once. "I absolutely hate that the man I'm in love with is sitting in a damn dog kennel with broken ribs, unhinging. I absolutely hate that my sire, someone I respect so much had to be so petty to hurt you because she felt like it. It's absolutely pathetic that I have to be the adult in this entire situation and hope for the best that you two will get over whatever the **** goes on between you to keep sane."
There was the snap that Kallista had been waiting for and the telepath leaned forward to press her lips lightly to his forehead. "I'm going to go get the tarp if you insist on sleeping here. I'll sleep with the dogs in our bed. Be miserable." She backed out and got to her feet.
<Peter Parkman> Peter's eyes finally opened. She backed out and got to her feet, again as if she were going to walk away, as if she were going to have the last word on the matter. "That's it? She attacks me and the worst you can do is try to overwhelm her, and call her petty. You can still respect her after being so petty? Nothing goes ON between us. Nothing. Last time there was an interaction between us I was thanking her for doing that ritual. She was being nice. I was being nice. And now this?! What the... And you want to be angry at ME because... because what, I don't deserve to be pissed off at her?! And you want to call me a child after she's acting like... no, whatever. Go away then."
<Jersey> "No, Peter. I wanted to ******* punch her, but I know I couldn't hit her. I can control my anger. I'm not angry at you. I'm angry at her and I'm angry at the entire ******* situation." She turned on him, "You deserve every ounce of being pissed off at her, and the attack on you was three months too ******* late on her end." Grabbing the tarp, Jersey threw it on top of him before heading inside and slamming the door. She pushed the thought into her sire's mind afterwards, letting her heard every word that Jersey had growled before going to the bed and curling up under the blankets.
<Peter Parkman> Peter blinked in the darkness and the silence. He stayed right where he was. At some point, he moved away from the edge of the cage. He wasn't sure he trusted the tarp. What if there were holes in it? But he still couldn't bring himself to leave. He curled up in the middle of the cage. At some point, he was joined by Hunter, the heavy weight of the dog pressed up against Peter's back. And, just before the sun came up and Peter passed out completely, he rolled over to curl into the warmth of the animal, face buried in his fur.
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The Next Night…
The Next Night…
<Peter Parkman> When Peter woke up, it was due to aching pain. No, not just aching, but burning, too. The tarp hadn't been big enough, or had been off kilter, or there was a hole - Peter didn't know how it had happened, but his hand was singed, blistered, burnt. Just a slice of it. It wasn't that bad - no doubt he'd shifted his hand away from the fire of the sun's rays as soon as they'd hit, but it had been too late. The majority of the pain came from his ribs. Still broken, the sharp pain radiating through his torso. He groaned, and Hunter shifted. The dog whined, and started to lick at Peter's face. Peter just laid there, letting the dog lick him.
<Jersey> Once the sun had gone down and the blood was delivered, she gave the delivery man a smile that had been clearly forced before she used her foot to nudge the door shut. "Are you awake?" She called, heading outside and still in his teeshirt. Sometime in the night, she'd forgone the pants and she carefully tugged the tarp off. Seeing his hand, her lips pressed into a thin line because she blamed herself for it, but at that moment, she could care less with her anger.
<Peter Parkman> "No," Peter said. It all came crashing back; the reason why he was in Hunter's home, the reason why his ribs were broken. The whole damned debacle. And he felt like he needed time to gather his thoughts, to try to return to some kind of state of grace. As much as he wanted to throw his arm over Hunter in a bid to coax the dog into lying back down, he instead rolled over and up with a long, low groan. He was sitting. He needed to drink his blood. He couldn't be in this doghouse. He needed to shower, and get dressed. And go about his night as if nothing had happened. Yes, that's how he could fix it. His head was bowed as he looked up at Jersey, eyes hooded and wary.
<Jersey> "I hope you hurt." She replied simply, upset as she whistled for the large dog, "Come on Hunter, dinnertime. Dad's staying out here until he decides otherwise." She set the cup down between Peter's legs once the large dog had moved and went back inside, shutting the door behind her while she went to feed all of the dogs and sipped at her blood. She was still mad at him and at everything that had been said. When the blood was gone, she moved to rinse out her cup as he usually did for her before setting it aside to wait for his and went to continue cleaning up the glass.
<Peter Parkman> Peter sucked back the blood as if it would bolster his resolve and banish his fear. It did neither of these things. He sucked and swallowed as he stared at the wide open doorway and the world beyond. He just had to get back to the house. That was it. That was all he had to manage. Finally, after five minutes, he began the endeavour; it was the hardest that he had done in a long time. In the moment, he thought it was the hardest thing he'd ever had to do. Three times he tried to step out only to fall back. On the fourth attempt he ran. He counted as he ran but he ran. Straight to the cabin, forgetting about his cup. Only remembering once he reached the doorway but shouting away his frustration as he couldn't, just couldn't go back. The front door slammed behind him not in anger, but in haste. He skidded to a halt when he reached the bathroom, only to find Jersey inside, cleaning up the glass. A wail crawled from Peter's throat as his arms went up over his head. "Noooo no, you need to get out. You need to... please..." he paced the paced the small space, shaking his hands, fighting the tremor.