Sonder [Axel]
Posted: 24 Feb 2014, 14:09
--The following transcript was a live chat roleplay--
<Jesse Fforde> It has been a week since the supposed ‘Fforde’ gathering. I’m growing less and less confident that there is such a thing as ‘Fforde’, and though I am bothered about it, I’m less inclined to throw myself off a cliff as I was. I suppose the moods come and go; but I also suppose that talking to Ursula, Paige, and Renee has given me a sense of purpose. I know I have to talk to Axel. I even told him I wanted to, but he hasn’t made any proactive move to find me. I suppose I’m going to have to track him down. The night is still somewhat early as I pull the phone from my pocket. The raid has finished, and I find myself at a loss. I sit on a bench on a random street, having just fed. I type out the message:
“Would love to have that chat if you’re free to meet.” Maybe if I’m a little more forceful he’ll come out of hiding.
<Axel Rosen> The phone goes off in the dim lit room of the West apartment and he slowly turns his head in the direction of the device. On the ground before him is what used to be a human, can't really call it a corpse anymore. It's got too much flesh missing, to many of its organs pulled out and devoured. His whole body is covered in blood, but at least his eyes are that bright blue again. He moves to grab the phone. The blood smears the luminescent screen as he flicks his thumb over it. His eyes read the text and he thinks for a moment. A chat would be nice, he supposes, the last 'meeting' with his sire left him rather disappointed. Some one so strong, submitting himself to beating after beating for sport. At first it was inspiring until it just got sad.
The blood moves around some more. "Of course... allow me to better prepare myself." He doesn't go into details, leaves that to speculation as to what he means. "Where?"
<Jesse Fforde> The question comes: Where? I glance around. That's the thing about being vampire. The usual spots don't occur. No point going to a nice quiet pub somewhere if neither of us are going to drink. I shrug my shoulders and reply: "True Love." I figure, why not? It's been a while since I've been there. As soon as the text is sent I stand and stretch my arms over my head. I grab the helmet from the seat beside me. The leather of my pants squeaks as I walk, the heavy thud of boots on the pavement alerting others to my movement. Most people veer right around me. That's fine with me. I pull the helmet over my head when I find the bike, throw a leg over, and slam the ignition.
<Axel Rosen> True Love.. the place he wakes up every evening; however, it's not as much as a nightmare that it used to be. It's quiet now and hes gotten rather used to it. It just sort of happens, and most of the time he's summoned back anyway. Axel looks around the room, strips down and looks at the maggots squirm beneath his skin. They wiggle and move then rest some more. He shrugs his shoulders and then makes his way to the bedroom. Darker in here, but he can find clothes. Black, black and more black. Finally making it there, the door opens and he sits down in the chair that he wakes up in.
<Jesse Fforde> It doesn't take too long for Jesse to make it back to his old parlour. He still has the keys to the back door, through which he walks. He flicks the lights--they come to life, surprisingly enough. Dust covers all the surfaces; it's kind of sad, but I know that I've moved on. This is a past that I have let go of. And that's fine. Axel's already there. I shed the leather jacket and leave it hanging over a chair. Underneath I'm wearing an old band t-shirt. I walk around Axel, pulling up a stool. I give a nod. "Axel," I say in greeting. "No shock cages tonight?"
<Axel Rosen> "No. Don't know why someone would just throw one of those things in the sewers." He shrugs his shoulders a little bit but looks at his sire, a bit more receptive to conversation at the moment. Leaning off the chair he cracks his neck and then frowns. "I do apologize for not being able to make it the other night." It's an honest statement. Since then he's talked to Paige and tried to get a hold of Ursa. She's always so busy. As for Renee he's in constant communication with her.
<Jesse Fforde> I cross my arms over my chest, eyes hard as I watch Axel and listen to his explanations. I give a nod. "That's part of the reason I wanted to talk to you," I say after a brief silence. "The only people who showed up to that meeting were your three. The way they were talking - just wanted to let you know they're feeling a bit neglected," I say. There is no judgment in my tone. Just smooth statement, perhaps with a hint of enquiry.
<Axel Rosen> The fact that anyone in that group would feel neglected is remarkable to him, though given the way that Ursula complains, it wouldn't surprise him if she were the major part in this. He keeps this thought to himself but takes the moment to think about Renee. "Renee has been having issues with this voice in her head. Or voices. I fear they've gotten worse. I speak with her daily. Not sure how it goes with her, she tells me nothing more than that she has voices." His shoulders heave. "I do need to make more time to hunt with Paige."
<Jesse Fforde> I nod again. I sigh as I glance toward the floor; as my gaze slides to the front window, before returning to Axel. "I'm not the best sire myself. I know that much. I've been going through some heavy **** and I was a bit preoccupied. I have no ******* clue where the rest of them are. I messaged Abigail a few times, but she's being... evasive. The others I haven't seen in months. I half think it's because I didn't take the time to look for them, to make sure everything was okay. Just wanted to chat to you, to let you know. So the same thing doesn't happen to you. Mistakes don't have to repeat themselves," I say.
<Axel Rosen> The statement almost stuns the male at a part of him he might recognize as his 'core'. This creates a look on his face that he can't even dismiss and is probably easy to read. "I haven't seen Abigail in a while. I can't even sense any of them anymore." He frowns, because he has tried. His hands go into his pockets. "I understand..." He nods his head and then takes a breath. He needs to be more aggressive when it comes tos peaking to his childer.
<Jesse Fforde> "Good," I say, canting my head to the side a little as I watch Axel. Is he being agreeable just for the sake of being agreeable? Will he actually follow through? I have to assume that he will. I have to have that kind of faith. In the mean time, I'll be sure to keep in contact with the three women myself, just to be sure. There are other things I could talk to Axel about, too, but it's not my place. I clear my throat. "How's everything else?" I ask. This is as good an opportunity as any to check in. I'm striving to be better in all aspects of my life - maybe if I strive to be positive, the yawning, suicidal darkness might **** off.
<Axel Rosen> Everything else. That's a rather broad discussion topic, and he's not sure what to say. Where to start, is probably the best. His fingers dig into his leg, not drawing blood, but messing with it. He frowns and then has to ask, "Where would you like me to start?" He would ask the same thing, but Jesse did ask first.
<Jesse Fforde> My brows furrow into a frown. It sounds as if Axel has quite a few things on his mind. I haven't bothered asking because I assume he'd go to Phoenix for help these days. A state of affairs that I have learned to come to terms with. But I am concerned. I give a shrug. "I've got all night. Start where you want," I say.
<Axel Rosen> The idea that he would got exclusively to Nix about things isn't even something he's thought of. "Where to start is hard because most of it is personal distaste." Another shrug rolls from his shoulders. The list of things is rather long, but still they're little things that serve no importance.
<Jesse Fforde> Personal distaste. Nothing else, no clues. My jaw tightens, and my fingers flex even though my arms are still crossed over my chest. I take an unneeded breath, and release it. "I'm the last person who's gonna push you to talk about your problems," I say. I can't. I'd be a hypocrit, if I did that. The amount of people I pissed off because I refused to tell them what was wrong? "I'm not forcing you. Just showing an interest, is all."
<Jesse Fforde> It has been a week since the supposed ‘Fforde’ gathering. I’m growing less and less confident that there is such a thing as ‘Fforde’, and though I am bothered about it, I’m less inclined to throw myself off a cliff as I was. I suppose the moods come and go; but I also suppose that talking to Ursula, Paige, and Renee has given me a sense of purpose. I know I have to talk to Axel. I even told him I wanted to, but he hasn’t made any proactive move to find me. I suppose I’m going to have to track him down. The night is still somewhat early as I pull the phone from my pocket. The raid has finished, and I find myself at a loss. I sit on a bench on a random street, having just fed. I type out the message:
“Would love to have that chat if you’re free to meet.” Maybe if I’m a little more forceful he’ll come out of hiding.
<Axel Rosen> The phone goes off in the dim lit room of the West apartment and he slowly turns his head in the direction of the device. On the ground before him is what used to be a human, can't really call it a corpse anymore. It's got too much flesh missing, to many of its organs pulled out and devoured. His whole body is covered in blood, but at least his eyes are that bright blue again. He moves to grab the phone. The blood smears the luminescent screen as he flicks his thumb over it. His eyes read the text and he thinks for a moment. A chat would be nice, he supposes, the last 'meeting' with his sire left him rather disappointed. Some one so strong, submitting himself to beating after beating for sport. At first it was inspiring until it just got sad.
The blood moves around some more. "Of course... allow me to better prepare myself." He doesn't go into details, leaves that to speculation as to what he means. "Where?"
<Jesse Fforde> The question comes: Where? I glance around. That's the thing about being vampire. The usual spots don't occur. No point going to a nice quiet pub somewhere if neither of us are going to drink. I shrug my shoulders and reply: "True Love." I figure, why not? It's been a while since I've been there. As soon as the text is sent I stand and stretch my arms over my head. I grab the helmet from the seat beside me. The leather of my pants squeaks as I walk, the heavy thud of boots on the pavement alerting others to my movement. Most people veer right around me. That's fine with me. I pull the helmet over my head when I find the bike, throw a leg over, and slam the ignition.
<Axel Rosen> True Love.. the place he wakes up every evening; however, it's not as much as a nightmare that it used to be. It's quiet now and hes gotten rather used to it. It just sort of happens, and most of the time he's summoned back anyway. Axel looks around the room, strips down and looks at the maggots squirm beneath his skin. They wiggle and move then rest some more. He shrugs his shoulders and then makes his way to the bedroom. Darker in here, but he can find clothes. Black, black and more black. Finally making it there, the door opens and he sits down in the chair that he wakes up in.
<Jesse Fforde> It doesn't take too long for Jesse to make it back to his old parlour. He still has the keys to the back door, through which he walks. He flicks the lights--they come to life, surprisingly enough. Dust covers all the surfaces; it's kind of sad, but I know that I've moved on. This is a past that I have let go of. And that's fine. Axel's already there. I shed the leather jacket and leave it hanging over a chair. Underneath I'm wearing an old band t-shirt. I walk around Axel, pulling up a stool. I give a nod. "Axel," I say in greeting. "No shock cages tonight?"
<Axel Rosen> "No. Don't know why someone would just throw one of those things in the sewers." He shrugs his shoulders a little bit but looks at his sire, a bit more receptive to conversation at the moment. Leaning off the chair he cracks his neck and then frowns. "I do apologize for not being able to make it the other night." It's an honest statement. Since then he's talked to Paige and tried to get a hold of Ursa. She's always so busy. As for Renee he's in constant communication with her.
<Jesse Fforde> I cross my arms over my chest, eyes hard as I watch Axel and listen to his explanations. I give a nod. "That's part of the reason I wanted to talk to you," I say after a brief silence. "The only people who showed up to that meeting were your three. The way they were talking - just wanted to let you know they're feeling a bit neglected," I say. There is no judgment in my tone. Just smooth statement, perhaps with a hint of enquiry.
<Axel Rosen> The fact that anyone in that group would feel neglected is remarkable to him, though given the way that Ursula complains, it wouldn't surprise him if she were the major part in this. He keeps this thought to himself but takes the moment to think about Renee. "Renee has been having issues with this voice in her head. Or voices. I fear they've gotten worse. I speak with her daily. Not sure how it goes with her, she tells me nothing more than that she has voices." His shoulders heave. "I do need to make more time to hunt with Paige."
<Jesse Fforde> I nod again. I sigh as I glance toward the floor; as my gaze slides to the front window, before returning to Axel. "I'm not the best sire myself. I know that much. I've been going through some heavy **** and I was a bit preoccupied. I have no ******* clue where the rest of them are. I messaged Abigail a few times, but she's being... evasive. The others I haven't seen in months. I half think it's because I didn't take the time to look for them, to make sure everything was okay. Just wanted to chat to you, to let you know. So the same thing doesn't happen to you. Mistakes don't have to repeat themselves," I say.
<Axel Rosen> The statement almost stuns the male at a part of him he might recognize as his 'core'. This creates a look on his face that he can't even dismiss and is probably easy to read. "I haven't seen Abigail in a while. I can't even sense any of them anymore." He frowns, because he has tried. His hands go into his pockets. "I understand..." He nods his head and then takes a breath. He needs to be more aggressive when it comes tos peaking to his childer.
<Jesse Fforde> "Good," I say, canting my head to the side a little as I watch Axel. Is he being agreeable just for the sake of being agreeable? Will he actually follow through? I have to assume that he will. I have to have that kind of faith. In the mean time, I'll be sure to keep in contact with the three women myself, just to be sure. There are other things I could talk to Axel about, too, but it's not my place. I clear my throat. "How's everything else?" I ask. This is as good an opportunity as any to check in. I'm striving to be better in all aspects of my life - maybe if I strive to be positive, the yawning, suicidal darkness might **** off.
<Axel Rosen> Everything else. That's a rather broad discussion topic, and he's not sure what to say. Where to start, is probably the best. His fingers dig into his leg, not drawing blood, but messing with it. He frowns and then has to ask, "Where would you like me to start?" He would ask the same thing, but Jesse did ask first.
<Jesse Fforde> My brows furrow into a frown. It sounds as if Axel has quite a few things on his mind. I haven't bothered asking because I assume he'd go to Phoenix for help these days. A state of affairs that I have learned to come to terms with. But I am concerned. I give a shrug. "I've got all night. Start where you want," I say.
<Axel Rosen> The idea that he would got exclusively to Nix about things isn't even something he's thought of. "Where to start is hard because most of it is personal distaste." Another shrug rolls from his shoulders. The list of things is rather long, but still they're little things that serve no importance.
<Jesse Fforde> Personal distaste. Nothing else, no clues. My jaw tightens, and my fingers flex even though my arms are still crossed over my chest. I take an unneeded breath, and release it. "I'm the last person who's gonna push you to talk about your problems," I say. I can't. I'd be a hypocrit, if I did that. The amount of people I pissed off because I refused to tell them what was wrong? "I'm not forcing you. Just showing an interest, is all."