: Things Left Unsaid :
Posted: 18 Nov 2013, 13:31
--The following transcript was a live chat roleplay--
Keara: She was dressed in one of her usual outfits and was seated on the floor, sketching on a piece of paper with Hannah still tied to the bed. She’d been doing her best to ignore the female, occasionally gagging her just so she could be sure of some quiet time on which to try and focus on her drawings. They were getting better, but then that might have been due to the fact that she was starting to get used to Enver being away. Not that she liked it, but the pain of his absence had lessened, as every passing day was one day less she’d have to wait to see him; not that she knew when that would be. She just trusted him when he had said it would be soon. When she heard the front door open she pulled her laptop round and peered at the security feed. She was more than a little surprised to see Enver there and was so overcome with excitement to see him that she didn’t even notice his attire or lack thereof. She scrambled for her scroll on the dressing table and used it to get downstairs, as the elevator just wasn’t going to be fast enough. Appearing behind him, she leapt on his back and wrapped her arms around him. “Here you are,” she said as she hugged him tightly.
Enver: He waited and it seemed to be forever he was waiting. He promised he would be back tonight. Did she get tired of waiting around for him? Had something happened to her? What if they had killed her? The very thought of that possibility had the male clenching his jaw and fist. But then, there she was, or so he hoped as someone claimed his back for their own personal playground. When she spoke, the fist that was clenched together tightly, lost its grip. "Here I am." He croaked out, while she was still on his back. While the hug should have said a lot for the male, he was greedy. He wanted more and he'd been thinking of it for the better part of half a week at least! He reached around, and felt her arm, which only infused his thoughts and feelings. He spun around in a blur with the aid of the killer ability. "I'm home." He muttered as his other hand slipped under her jaw and moved to claim what was his. Her lips.
Keara: She was smiling to hold him, and not her usual quirky smile, a proper smile, not that he could see it from where she sat. As she held him she started to become acutely aware of the fact that his chest was bare which begged the question as to what, if anything he was wearing? She didn’t have much time to think on that however as he moved with a speed she had not predicted, so that she now sat facing him. His words made her smile but then he surprised her yet again, not only through the way he touched her but through the claiming of her lips. A few seconds passed before she realised what was going on and what she’d in fact likely started and she began trying to pull away. “No!” she exclaimed and struck him across the face with an open hand. The moment it connected with his skin she pulled it back and cupped her mouth with both hands, her legs still round his waist. “Sorry,” she exclaimed softly, conflicted about having hit him. “I…” she reached out with the offending hand and gently touched the area she’d just assaulted. “Sorry.”
Enver: He anticipated this sort of reaction, but it was worth it. More than worth it. While it made him feel a variety of things, amusement, anger and even a tinge of arousal, was it? He growled lightly, from which of the three feelings he wasn't sure, but whatever it was he was feeling it from the top of his head, to his toes. He heard her apologies, but they were lost on him as he chuckled and moved again. This time, her back was on a wall. He was conflicted. He wanted to kiss her, but at the same time, he understood her reaction more or less. "I just missed you." He said quietly, his forehead on hers, as he all but trapped her against the wall as he debated risking kissing her again. The hand that had once been on her back was now against the wall, using it to break as much physical contact as he'd allow in the circumstance to better try and gain control of his desires. "Sorry." He muttered softly.
Keara: She wasn’t sure she’d ever heard him growl before, or if she had perhaps she hadn’t paid much attention but with the distance between them somewhat narrowed compared to normal, this one didn’t escape her attention. She considered it was due to the fact that she slapped him but he was soon laughing at her or the situation or possibly both. The thoughts were still echoing in her mind when she found herself pressed up against the wall, at which point she started to squirm a bit as she now had little to no space to move. When he leant his head on hers she froze and closed her eyes. She didn’t want to slap him again but she wasn’t sure how long she’d be able to stand being held by him. In one way it was nice, as she hadn’t felt him near her in a week but in another way it was scary and made her want to push him away and run as fast she could. Just which reaction it would be she wasn’t sure, her hands having made their own decision to be ready in case, as they now rested on his shoulders.
Enver: He registered her squirming around and was about to put her down when she stopped moving when Enver tried resist kissing Keara again. With her eyes closed and the fact she wasn't trying to smack him silly, Enver decided that giving her another kiss would be alright by her. The hand on the wall caressed the side of her cheek, trailed slightly over her lower lip and made his move. His lips crashed against hers, his hand on the side of her head, the other on her thigh as he kept her wrapped around him. A week without her physical form in his arms had been pure hell and he wanted to have what he missed again, right here, right now.
Keara: Her instincts were still battling it out when his hand brushed across her face, making her skin come alive as it did. Her hands began to apply pressure against his shoulders and then once more his lips were on hers. This time her senses went into absolute overdrive and she accidentally on purpose bit into his lower lip to stop him from going any further. Then with all the strength she possessed she pushed him back as she tried to get her feet back on the floor. In doing so she began to pound against his chest with the side of her closed fists. “Do this you cannot to me.” The tone of her words were odd, as while she was protesting his actions, there was an almost sad whimpering that lay beneath it. She had wanted him home so badly and now here she was pushing him away. She was disappointed in herself as in that moment she no longer had any idea of what she wanted or how to go about getting it.
Enver: He felt the pressure of her hands on his shoulders, but it wasn't enough to stop Enver from showing Keara how damn much he missed her. Not until she bit him, which only wanted him to kiss her more. His body pushed against hers, even as she pushed against him, trying to keep contact with her. It had been too long since he had her in his arms, even if it was just in the daylight hours. The beating on his chest was what made him reel back, frustrated as hell. Her words confused him? Do what? He wasn't doing much of anything! "I just wanted to-" The hold on her slackened, until she was on her feet and the male had stepped back a few feet. "I wasn't going to-" He ran a hand through his hair, mad and confused. "I wasn't going to force myself on you or anything." He growled out as he paced.
Keara: He was pacing, something she frequently saw him do. He was mad at her and she understood that as she was mad at herself too. “I…” she began trying to get him to look at her. “Please…” she moved into his path, her hands on his chest to bar him from walking any further in that direction. “Think that I did not,” she said her eyes searching his. “Think that I never would…Only…” she sighed and her hands fell loose at her sides. “Confuse me you do, and…conflicted I am.” She wanted to explain so badly but she just didn’t know the words to say. She bit her lower lip as her gaze wandered over his bare chest, noting a new scar on his abdomen and another along the inside of his arm. She wanted to run her hand over them to feel the knitted flesh but she didn’t, instead she forced herself to look at the floor, whereupon she finally took note of his attire and a subtle noise in the form of a laugh escaped her lips.
Enver: Confusion. She wasn't the only one. He cleared his throat, looked down at her and nodded his head. Their eyes met for a second before she looked away at the ground his temper slowly subsiding. He wasn't sure why he said what he had, because in the back of his mind, he knew Keara would do this, maybe more, if things had gotten out of control. So he sighed and let his arms drop to his sides at about the time she laughed? What was she laughing at? He looked down to where her eyes were, then realized what was so funny. He must have looked like an idiot! But he didn't want to waste a second seeing her, even if he looked like this. "I didn't stop at the boat. Or anywhere, really." He admitted, chuckling himself. "I had to," He cleared his throat. "Keep my promise. I said I'd come find you."
Keara: As his temper cooled and he laughed, she reached out and took his left hand in her right, her thumb rubbing his fingers gently. Her left hand went to her lips as she could still feel him there and it was the oddest sensation she’d ever felt as her ambivalence surrounding the situation only served to confuse the sensation further. “Time had you proper attire to find,” she gave him her usual smile. “Minded I would not have to wait a few moments longer. A t-shirt in your size I may have…though doubt I do if trousers in your size I could find.” His hand in hers felt almost natural but having said what she needed to, she moved to take it back, her left hand once more playing on her lips.
Enver: Time? Of course they had time! They were vampires for crying out loud! Didn't she understand? He was battling shouting at her, which wasn't really her fault at all, because she probably didn't know, because he hadn't told her. So all the shouting would be for his own lack of communication. Something he couldn't blame her for. He shrugged, not caring about the shirt of the pants. However, when she moved to take her hand back, he didn't let her. He instead raised it and brushed his lips on the top of it, as per their custom. When that was done and her hand released, he noticed then that his lip was bleeding as there was a faint smear of red on the top her hand. "Remind me never to get on your bad side." He winked at her, his own hand going to his lips to brush the blood away.
Keara: She hadn’t noticed how hard she’d bitten him or that she’d drawn blood, and she was now biting her own lip so hard that that too was in danger of being pierced. The pain kind of helped her though, as it helped to push away the touch of his hand on her cheek and the feel of his lips on hers and she could recall it all with such clarity that it was almost like it was happening all over again. “Enver…” she began when she finally found her words again. “Why did you kiss me so?” A part of her knew it was stupid question to ask but they had an agreement and she had boundaries and he had all too readily crossed them in what she could only imagine was a moment of madness.
Enver: He cleared his throat and let the hand drop once again. It wasn't as if running a hand over it would heal it any. "Why?" His tone sounded baffled as he couldn’t understand why she asked him that. "Because." He said, as if that were the final answer to everything, even though he knew it wasn't. "I wanted to show you." He expanded on the first one word answer, but knew it wasn’t much of an explanation at all, truth be told. Part of him was hoping she'd accept it anyways.
Keara: “Because?” she whispered. “Show me what?” she asked. Again, she should have known, it should have been obvious but to her words were just as effective as actions, especially in a relationship such as this, as that was all she really knew. She and Ven shared a deep affection for one another, deeper than anything she could have described and never once did he seize her the way Enver had.
Enver: "Because." He nodded his head after repeating her. He groaned softly at her question, not sure how to put it in to words. Give the guy a script and he'd knock your socks off. Try and figure out his own life and say what he needed to? Couldn't wing it for the life of him. "That I missed you." He said. "That the last week had been hell not seeing you. The real you." He looked away, his jaw clenching together, then moved to change their discussion on her. "Why does that confuse you?"
Keara: “Understand that I do. Missed you too I did. Confuses me that does not. Much time spent we in each other’s company before. When gone you were, different it all felt. Concentration more difficult for me has been with you there. Sought you out I did for your voice to hear. Confusion within me lies,” she fleetingly placed a hand over her heart as she said the word within. “Confuse me you do too yes…but meant I did that confusion within me you create. Want I do close to you to be but fear also I do to be so close. If sense that makes?”
Enver: He listened then nodded. Even though he wanted to say no. No, he didn't understand. How could she be so excited one second, then so scared the next? Maybe he was being selfish. No, he was being selfish and he knew it, but he had to kiss her. He thought that if he did that, that she would know exactly how he felt and what he thought about when he was in that place. "Is it because of that other guy? Or because I'm an Allurist?" He looked back at her face, wanting to see what was written on it as she answered the questions posed. One, he could work around, the other? Not so much.
Keara: “Why would your path to me matter?” she asked confused as to what role he thought that played in her emotions. “And…mean you Ven?” She went quiet as she pondered that particular question, were her issues because of him, she shrugged slightly as she decided she didn’t think it was because of him either. “Ven and I never this way were,” she admitted without any hint of shame or embarrassment. “Things different were then. Explained that I have. Allowed we were not any other sort of relationship to have. Able then I was though in his arms to rest when awake I was. Though blame I do the accursed realm for state of being now. An effort I am making, does it not show?” She sounded a little hurt in her last question as she really was doing everything that she was capable of.
Enver: He nodded his head at her question. "I know. And it does." He sighed, knowing how far she had come and it meant a lot to him. "I'm sorry. I couldn't think of doing anything else when I saw you." He ran a hand through his hair. "I'm trying." He said quietly. "I was just so god damn happy to see you. Like this." He put his hand down at his side again. "I'm just glad to be back. Back to things being the way they were. Before this happened."
Keara: She was glad to hear that he thought she was making an effort. She knew she could probably force herself to do more but it still honestly scared her to be this close to another person. He’d kissed her and to her it was as if they had skipped a step, as she was still unable to wrap her arms around him. Or was she? She hadn’t had any issue when it came to jumping on his back, though in her mind that was more of an attack than anything affection orientated. Though…there was one way to test that theory. “Wish to try something I do,” she stepped closer to him. “Though if attack you I do, sorry for that I am.” She tentatively placed her arms around him and as she lay her hands on his back, and pressed herself against him, she was quite clearly shaking.
Enver: He laughed at her words. Not because he was laughing at her, but the idea of them doing anything without her attacking him wasn't something he thought about. It seemed inevitable to him, not that he minded much, or at all. He wasn't sure what she was going to try, so he just stood there as she wrapped her arms around him. One of his arms went around her out of instinct and familiarity, until she started shaking. His other arm moved from his side and up, so that his hand could brush against her cheek, hoping that would comfort her in some mannerism. "This is nice." He said, even if it was awkward to have someone trembling in his arms. But making a big deal about might have had her retracting her experiment. "Good, even."
Keara: It wasn’t an entirely unpleasant experience, once more she was quite conflicted by the experience. She’d wanted him near her all week and now they were almost too close. For most the state of his undress would have made things worse but Keara paid no attention to the fact that she had her cheek pressed to his chest. The hand that he used to comfort her had quite the opposite affect though and she slapped at his back and turned her face to the other side in protest. In fact as she hugged him now, she was subconsciously digging her nails into his skin.
Enver: The biting of her nails in his skin almost made him think that she wasn't ready. It was a strong reaction and unexpected, used to her slapping him in some form or another. But, he wanted this. There it was again, that selfish streak in him. And in his mind, she needed this. The hand on her cheek dropped away, because he had no choice and pressed it against her back, fighting her with every ounce of strength he had in him. "This is nice." He said again, even if his hold was more forceful then before. "It's just a hug."
Keara: “I know,” came a breathless sounding reply, her nails pressing deeper as he tightened his grip upon her. She closed her eyes and tried to get herself to calm down but no matter what she thought it didn’t seem to stop and so she was soon struggling against his arms. She growled as she tried to push him away from her.
Enver: His arms almost slacked off from around her when he felt her nails push in against him, but he held on to her. That was, until she started moving all around, making the marks in his back grow bigger and deeper. "God damn it." He growled out, more so from the pain then the fact she was wanting to get away from him. An arm dropped, but only to try and find one of her arms with his hand, so he could pull it away from his back. "Trust me." He moved his hand up the length of hers to find the hand that connected to it and twined their hands together. "I'm not going to hurt you. Or leave you. Not if I can help it." He rested his chin against the side of her head, struggling to keep her there in his arms.
Keara: It wasn’t until his hand sought hers that she became aware of what she’d been doing, which made her freeze once more. She knew she should continue to pull away from him, push him away from her but she didn’t. He still wanted her there and that was enough to settle her as she tried to figure out what exactly it was that she was doing. She couldn’t bring herself to speak and so she spoke to him via an equally familiar manner when she connected to his mind. ‘That not my fear is. Fear only I do for relationship that unfamiliar is to me. Fear increased is, by fact that know I do not, how any other way to be.’ As much as they confused one another, Keara always did her best to make herself as easy to understand as possible, even if that did mean voicing things she’d rather keep to herself.
Enver: He laughed when he heard her thoughts, which again, almost had him dropping his hands from around her. "It's sort of unfamiliar to us both, yeah?" He grinned wide at that. "So, I'm kind of in uncharted waters myself." He wouldn't go in to further detail than that, but this sort of relationship wasn't like any other he'd been in on a few levels. "Maybe it's best not to be how everyone else is or what's typical. So long as you're being yourself. Which I like. Otherwise we'd not be here, yeah?" His chin found the top of her head and rested there.
Enver: Getting out of this place had been easier than the other times. A trick he had learned thanks to one of the guides a few months back. He was out at the morgue and his first reaction was to let her know he was back. Only, he realized just how naked he was because he was getting stares from some guy down the block. Like coming back naked wasn't a masquerade break in itself. Only further proof of the reason why the bounty system was flawed, in his mind. However, those thoughts could wait. He needed clothes and quick too. The male ducked into the Morgue, riffled through a lost and found box and found a pair of shorts. They weren't shorts that would do him any justice either. They were short as hell and barely fit him. Enver thought he heard them rip on the side as he pulled them up around his waist. "Whatever." He muttered, tossed the shirts around, being one was a kid's shirt and the other was some blouse and decided to just go around town in shorts. Once outside, he took a running jump over the river, then headed to where he was sure she'd be. She knew he was coming back and that she would be the first one he would look for. The male who was now sporting a few new scars pushed open the home door, set off the sensor and called out her name hoarsely. "Keara?"This RP is set on Sunday 17th November 2013 in Aithne Asylum.
Keara: She was dressed in one of her usual outfits and was seated on the floor, sketching on a piece of paper with Hannah still tied to the bed. She’d been doing her best to ignore the female, occasionally gagging her just so she could be sure of some quiet time on which to try and focus on her drawings. They were getting better, but then that might have been due to the fact that she was starting to get used to Enver being away. Not that she liked it, but the pain of his absence had lessened, as every passing day was one day less she’d have to wait to see him; not that she knew when that would be. She just trusted him when he had said it would be soon. When she heard the front door open she pulled her laptop round and peered at the security feed. She was more than a little surprised to see Enver there and was so overcome with excitement to see him that she didn’t even notice his attire or lack thereof. She scrambled for her scroll on the dressing table and used it to get downstairs, as the elevator just wasn’t going to be fast enough. Appearing behind him, she leapt on his back and wrapped her arms around him. “Here you are,” she said as she hugged him tightly.
Enver: He waited and it seemed to be forever he was waiting. He promised he would be back tonight. Did she get tired of waiting around for him? Had something happened to her? What if they had killed her? The very thought of that possibility had the male clenching his jaw and fist. But then, there she was, or so he hoped as someone claimed his back for their own personal playground. When she spoke, the fist that was clenched together tightly, lost its grip. "Here I am." He croaked out, while she was still on his back. While the hug should have said a lot for the male, he was greedy. He wanted more and he'd been thinking of it for the better part of half a week at least! He reached around, and felt her arm, which only infused his thoughts and feelings. He spun around in a blur with the aid of the killer ability. "I'm home." He muttered as his other hand slipped under her jaw and moved to claim what was his. Her lips.
Keara: She was smiling to hold him, and not her usual quirky smile, a proper smile, not that he could see it from where she sat. As she held him she started to become acutely aware of the fact that his chest was bare which begged the question as to what, if anything he was wearing? She didn’t have much time to think on that however as he moved with a speed she had not predicted, so that she now sat facing him. His words made her smile but then he surprised her yet again, not only through the way he touched her but through the claiming of her lips. A few seconds passed before she realised what was going on and what she’d in fact likely started and she began trying to pull away. “No!” she exclaimed and struck him across the face with an open hand. The moment it connected with his skin she pulled it back and cupped her mouth with both hands, her legs still round his waist. “Sorry,” she exclaimed softly, conflicted about having hit him. “I…” she reached out with the offending hand and gently touched the area she’d just assaulted. “Sorry.”
Enver: He anticipated this sort of reaction, but it was worth it. More than worth it. While it made him feel a variety of things, amusement, anger and even a tinge of arousal, was it? He growled lightly, from which of the three feelings he wasn't sure, but whatever it was he was feeling it from the top of his head, to his toes. He heard her apologies, but they were lost on him as he chuckled and moved again. This time, her back was on a wall. He was conflicted. He wanted to kiss her, but at the same time, he understood her reaction more or less. "I just missed you." He said quietly, his forehead on hers, as he all but trapped her against the wall as he debated risking kissing her again. The hand that had once been on her back was now against the wall, using it to break as much physical contact as he'd allow in the circumstance to better try and gain control of his desires. "Sorry." He muttered softly.
Keara: She wasn’t sure she’d ever heard him growl before, or if she had perhaps she hadn’t paid much attention but with the distance between them somewhat narrowed compared to normal, this one didn’t escape her attention. She considered it was due to the fact that she slapped him but he was soon laughing at her or the situation or possibly both. The thoughts were still echoing in her mind when she found herself pressed up against the wall, at which point she started to squirm a bit as she now had little to no space to move. When he leant his head on hers she froze and closed her eyes. She didn’t want to slap him again but she wasn’t sure how long she’d be able to stand being held by him. In one way it was nice, as she hadn’t felt him near her in a week but in another way it was scary and made her want to push him away and run as fast she could. Just which reaction it would be she wasn’t sure, her hands having made their own decision to be ready in case, as they now rested on his shoulders.
Enver: He registered her squirming around and was about to put her down when she stopped moving when Enver tried resist kissing Keara again. With her eyes closed and the fact she wasn't trying to smack him silly, Enver decided that giving her another kiss would be alright by her. The hand on the wall caressed the side of her cheek, trailed slightly over her lower lip and made his move. His lips crashed against hers, his hand on the side of her head, the other on her thigh as he kept her wrapped around him. A week without her physical form in his arms had been pure hell and he wanted to have what he missed again, right here, right now.
Keara: Her instincts were still battling it out when his hand brushed across her face, making her skin come alive as it did. Her hands began to apply pressure against his shoulders and then once more his lips were on hers. This time her senses went into absolute overdrive and she accidentally on purpose bit into his lower lip to stop him from going any further. Then with all the strength she possessed she pushed him back as she tried to get her feet back on the floor. In doing so she began to pound against his chest with the side of her closed fists. “Do this you cannot to me.” The tone of her words were odd, as while she was protesting his actions, there was an almost sad whimpering that lay beneath it. She had wanted him home so badly and now here she was pushing him away. She was disappointed in herself as in that moment she no longer had any idea of what she wanted or how to go about getting it.
Enver: He felt the pressure of her hands on his shoulders, but it wasn't enough to stop Enver from showing Keara how damn much he missed her. Not until she bit him, which only wanted him to kiss her more. His body pushed against hers, even as she pushed against him, trying to keep contact with her. It had been too long since he had her in his arms, even if it was just in the daylight hours. The beating on his chest was what made him reel back, frustrated as hell. Her words confused him? Do what? He wasn't doing much of anything! "I just wanted to-" The hold on her slackened, until she was on her feet and the male had stepped back a few feet. "I wasn't going to-" He ran a hand through his hair, mad and confused. "I wasn't going to force myself on you or anything." He growled out as he paced.
Keara: He was pacing, something she frequently saw him do. He was mad at her and she understood that as she was mad at herself too. “I…” she began trying to get him to look at her. “Please…” she moved into his path, her hands on his chest to bar him from walking any further in that direction. “Think that I did not,” she said her eyes searching his. “Think that I never would…Only…” she sighed and her hands fell loose at her sides. “Confuse me you do, and…conflicted I am.” She wanted to explain so badly but she just didn’t know the words to say. She bit her lower lip as her gaze wandered over his bare chest, noting a new scar on his abdomen and another along the inside of his arm. She wanted to run her hand over them to feel the knitted flesh but she didn’t, instead she forced herself to look at the floor, whereupon she finally took note of his attire and a subtle noise in the form of a laugh escaped her lips.
Enver: Confusion. She wasn't the only one. He cleared his throat, looked down at her and nodded his head. Their eyes met for a second before she looked away at the ground his temper slowly subsiding. He wasn't sure why he said what he had, because in the back of his mind, he knew Keara would do this, maybe more, if things had gotten out of control. So he sighed and let his arms drop to his sides at about the time she laughed? What was she laughing at? He looked down to where her eyes were, then realized what was so funny. He must have looked like an idiot! But he didn't want to waste a second seeing her, even if he looked like this. "I didn't stop at the boat. Or anywhere, really." He admitted, chuckling himself. "I had to," He cleared his throat. "Keep my promise. I said I'd come find you."
Keara: As his temper cooled and he laughed, she reached out and took his left hand in her right, her thumb rubbing his fingers gently. Her left hand went to her lips as she could still feel him there and it was the oddest sensation she’d ever felt as her ambivalence surrounding the situation only served to confuse the sensation further. “Time had you proper attire to find,” she gave him her usual smile. “Minded I would not have to wait a few moments longer. A t-shirt in your size I may have…though doubt I do if trousers in your size I could find.” His hand in hers felt almost natural but having said what she needed to, she moved to take it back, her left hand once more playing on her lips.
Enver: Time? Of course they had time! They were vampires for crying out loud! Didn't she understand? He was battling shouting at her, which wasn't really her fault at all, because she probably didn't know, because he hadn't told her. So all the shouting would be for his own lack of communication. Something he couldn't blame her for. He shrugged, not caring about the shirt of the pants. However, when she moved to take her hand back, he didn't let her. He instead raised it and brushed his lips on the top of it, as per their custom. When that was done and her hand released, he noticed then that his lip was bleeding as there was a faint smear of red on the top her hand. "Remind me never to get on your bad side." He winked at her, his own hand going to his lips to brush the blood away.
Keara: She hadn’t noticed how hard she’d bitten him or that she’d drawn blood, and she was now biting her own lip so hard that that too was in danger of being pierced. The pain kind of helped her though, as it helped to push away the touch of his hand on her cheek and the feel of his lips on hers and she could recall it all with such clarity that it was almost like it was happening all over again. “Enver…” she began when she finally found her words again. “Why did you kiss me so?” A part of her knew it was stupid question to ask but they had an agreement and she had boundaries and he had all too readily crossed them in what she could only imagine was a moment of madness.
Enver: He cleared his throat and let the hand drop once again. It wasn't as if running a hand over it would heal it any. "Why?" His tone sounded baffled as he couldn’t understand why she asked him that. "Because." He said, as if that were the final answer to everything, even though he knew it wasn't. "I wanted to show you." He expanded on the first one word answer, but knew it wasn’t much of an explanation at all, truth be told. Part of him was hoping she'd accept it anyways.
Keara: “Because?” she whispered. “Show me what?” she asked. Again, she should have known, it should have been obvious but to her words were just as effective as actions, especially in a relationship such as this, as that was all she really knew. She and Ven shared a deep affection for one another, deeper than anything she could have described and never once did he seize her the way Enver had.
Enver: "Because." He nodded his head after repeating her. He groaned softly at her question, not sure how to put it in to words. Give the guy a script and he'd knock your socks off. Try and figure out his own life and say what he needed to? Couldn't wing it for the life of him. "That I missed you." He said. "That the last week had been hell not seeing you. The real you." He looked away, his jaw clenching together, then moved to change their discussion on her. "Why does that confuse you?"
Keara: “Understand that I do. Missed you too I did. Confuses me that does not. Much time spent we in each other’s company before. When gone you were, different it all felt. Concentration more difficult for me has been with you there. Sought you out I did for your voice to hear. Confusion within me lies,” she fleetingly placed a hand over her heart as she said the word within. “Confuse me you do too yes…but meant I did that confusion within me you create. Want I do close to you to be but fear also I do to be so close. If sense that makes?”
Enver: He listened then nodded. Even though he wanted to say no. No, he didn't understand. How could she be so excited one second, then so scared the next? Maybe he was being selfish. No, he was being selfish and he knew it, but he had to kiss her. He thought that if he did that, that she would know exactly how he felt and what he thought about when he was in that place. "Is it because of that other guy? Or because I'm an Allurist?" He looked back at her face, wanting to see what was written on it as she answered the questions posed. One, he could work around, the other? Not so much.
Keara: “Why would your path to me matter?” she asked confused as to what role he thought that played in her emotions. “And…mean you Ven?” She went quiet as she pondered that particular question, were her issues because of him, she shrugged slightly as she decided she didn’t think it was because of him either. “Ven and I never this way were,” she admitted without any hint of shame or embarrassment. “Things different were then. Explained that I have. Allowed we were not any other sort of relationship to have. Able then I was though in his arms to rest when awake I was. Though blame I do the accursed realm for state of being now. An effort I am making, does it not show?” She sounded a little hurt in her last question as she really was doing everything that she was capable of.
Enver: He nodded his head at her question. "I know. And it does." He sighed, knowing how far she had come and it meant a lot to him. "I'm sorry. I couldn't think of doing anything else when I saw you." He ran a hand through his hair. "I'm trying." He said quietly. "I was just so god damn happy to see you. Like this." He put his hand down at his side again. "I'm just glad to be back. Back to things being the way they were. Before this happened."
Keara: She was glad to hear that he thought she was making an effort. She knew she could probably force herself to do more but it still honestly scared her to be this close to another person. He’d kissed her and to her it was as if they had skipped a step, as she was still unable to wrap her arms around him. Or was she? She hadn’t had any issue when it came to jumping on his back, though in her mind that was more of an attack than anything affection orientated. Though…there was one way to test that theory. “Wish to try something I do,” she stepped closer to him. “Though if attack you I do, sorry for that I am.” She tentatively placed her arms around him and as she lay her hands on his back, and pressed herself against him, she was quite clearly shaking.
Enver: He laughed at her words. Not because he was laughing at her, but the idea of them doing anything without her attacking him wasn't something he thought about. It seemed inevitable to him, not that he minded much, or at all. He wasn't sure what she was going to try, so he just stood there as she wrapped her arms around him. One of his arms went around her out of instinct and familiarity, until she started shaking. His other arm moved from his side and up, so that his hand could brush against her cheek, hoping that would comfort her in some mannerism. "This is nice." He said, even if it was awkward to have someone trembling in his arms. But making a big deal about might have had her retracting her experiment. "Good, even."
Keara: It wasn’t an entirely unpleasant experience, once more she was quite conflicted by the experience. She’d wanted him near her all week and now they were almost too close. For most the state of his undress would have made things worse but Keara paid no attention to the fact that she had her cheek pressed to his chest. The hand that he used to comfort her had quite the opposite affect though and she slapped at his back and turned her face to the other side in protest. In fact as she hugged him now, she was subconsciously digging her nails into his skin.
Enver: The biting of her nails in his skin almost made him think that she wasn't ready. It was a strong reaction and unexpected, used to her slapping him in some form or another. But, he wanted this. There it was again, that selfish streak in him. And in his mind, she needed this. The hand on her cheek dropped away, because he had no choice and pressed it against her back, fighting her with every ounce of strength he had in him. "This is nice." He said again, even if his hold was more forceful then before. "It's just a hug."
Keara: “I know,” came a breathless sounding reply, her nails pressing deeper as he tightened his grip upon her. She closed her eyes and tried to get herself to calm down but no matter what she thought it didn’t seem to stop and so she was soon struggling against his arms. She growled as she tried to push him away from her.
Enver: His arms almost slacked off from around her when he felt her nails push in against him, but he held on to her. That was, until she started moving all around, making the marks in his back grow bigger and deeper. "God damn it." He growled out, more so from the pain then the fact she was wanting to get away from him. An arm dropped, but only to try and find one of her arms with his hand, so he could pull it away from his back. "Trust me." He moved his hand up the length of hers to find the hand that connected to it and twined their hands together. "I'm not going to hurt you. Or leave you. Not if I can help it." He rested his chin against the side of her head, struggling to keep her there in his arms.
Keara: It wasn’t until his hand sought hers that she became aware of what she’d been doing, which made her freeze once more. She knew she should continue to pull away from him, push him away from her but she didn’t. He still wanted her there and that was enough to settle her as she tried to figure out what exactly it was that she was doing. She couldn’t bring herself to speak and so she spoke to him via an equally familiar manner when she connected to his mind. ‘That not my fear is. Fear only I do for relationship that unfamiliar is to me. Fear increased is, by fact that know I do not, how any other way to be.’ As much as they confused one another, Keara always did her best to make herself as easy to understand as possible, even if that did mean voicing things she’d rather keep to herself.
Enver: He laughed when he heard her thoughts, which again, almost had him dropping his hands from around her. "It's sort of unfamiliar to us both, yeah?" He grinned wide at that. "So, I'm kind of in uncharted waters myself." He wouldn't go in to further detail than that, but this sort of relationship wasn't like any other he'd been in on a few levels. "Maybe it's best not to be how everyone else is or what's typical. So long as you're being yourself. Which I like. Otherwise we'd not be here, yeah?" His chin found the top of her head and rested there.