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She had been tossing and turning for hours before she got up and went to the computer, meaning to just check her emails but in the end bringing up her journal.

Dear Diary...

I did not do as I promised. I DID tell him but... it was not face to face. And not a peep out of him since then. Guess I have no one besides myself to blame. He's such a strong independent person, I suppose I should have known he wouldn't take well to my profession of love.

I should have kept silent. He is not just the man I love. He is also the only person in the world I could have shared with, what I am about to go through.

He wouldn't have judged or offered up opinions. He would have just heard me out and been there, But now I can't even go to him as a friend without worry that he'll think I'm just trying to get his attention.

I got a certified letter the other day. From Paris, France. My stepmother has confessed to... killing my father. Something she had blamed me for. So. I have to go there and figure out what is going on. And help the authorities to find the truth. Under my human name.

Morgan will be coming along with me, I plan to leave right after Christmas. I'll have us fly out first class and do my best to insure she has a lovely trip. It is Paris, after all. At least one of us should enjoy it.

But I won't be telling anyone else.There isn't anyone I feel close enough to to tell. Sure, I have close friends but no one who notices the real me. And let's face it. Most won't even notice I'm gone. Maybe I'll just stay in Paris. Find out for sure if it is true that vampires that die outside of Harper Rock, stay dead.

Feeling out of sorts and super sorry for her self, Alexandrea logged out and went back to bed. The ceiling had been lonely without her attention so she resumed her staring contest with it.

Dear Diary.
Well, it's over. He summoned me over to 'discuss' our relationship but rather than our doing that? He yelled and punched the wall. I stood there literally naked in front of him and he dumped me. Oh sure, he gave me his version of the 'let's me friends' speech. Told me he would always care, that he would have my back.

And then he turned his back, on me. Told me to show myself out and... just left. I was tempted to just wait there and demand that we talk and that he tell me why but let's face it. No one can force that man to do anything. So I left. Took all my things that I had left there over the last couple years and left the key he had given me behind.

I wish I knew why. Is he ashamed of me? He never wanted anyone else to see us together. We never went out in public. And the one time he referred to me as his girlfriend in front of others, he took it back. What did I do???

I loved him. That's what I did. And he couldn't stand that, apparently.

So that's that. Time to suck it up and stop thinking about a man that refused my heart when I offered it to him.

On a brighter note, I went ahead and told Kira about how I have to go to Paris and she's going with me. The company will help and who knows, maybe we might even have some fun while we are there. A girl can hope, right?

Oh yeah... look where THAT just got me...



Alexandrea closed the book and shoved it back under everything in her underwear drawer before marching down the stairs and eating the last of the Ben and Jerry's. Good thing she was a vampire now, otherwise this on again off again on again and now really off for good roller coaster ride Odin had taken her on would have caused Alex to really gain some serious weight.