An account of events

[Roderic]

I saw Phoenix the other night.
I hadn't seen her in a while.
I expected more when seeing her.
I wasn't phased.
Not like I normally am when not seeing her for so long.
I saw her twin too.
I didn't even have the urge to attack it.
I didn't talk to it, but I don't talk to a lot of people.

I think spending time with others has made my desire to be near her nonexistentless.
I find myself caring less and less about what is written in some places than others.
I don't believe the same things I once did.
I don't believe it starts and ends with Altaire.
I believe there are others out there.
Others like me.

I have to make plans to spend time with my thing.
I'm not avoiding her.
She has keys to my house and I only go to a few places.
We just never meet up. Or rarely do.
I feel something.
Neglectful, maybe.
Bad?
But I'm proud of her hard work and dedication to this lifestyle.
I don't say these things a lot. Or ever.
But I am.

[Roderic]

My Thing has applied for membership in my faction.
I was surprised.
I did not know she was interested in things like this.
Nix referred her. Apparently.
I have no opinion of her attempt to join.
If she makes it in, it will be because she has earned it.
If not, she could try again if she wishes when she is ready and has more experience.

People are throwing a certain word around lately.
It starts with an L.
I believe people throw it around too casually.
Use it for everything.
I love lettuce.
I love cats.
I love ______ fill in the blank.
I do not believe it when they say it sometimes.
I do not know if I feel the same way towards those who use the word in my direction.
Skylar says it's not a big deal if I don't.
So I'm leaving it alone for now.

[Roderic]

Things in Tytonidae are going well.
I find myself both tolerating and liking more and more people in it.
And becoming more 'social.'

I attended an auction hosted by the faction.
I purchased a gun for Aliyah and a necklace for Skylar at it.
I still have to get the gun to Aliyah.

But speaking of Skylar.
She moved out. Quit working for me and took the dog with her.
My dog. But the thing doesn't like me for some reason and so she's taken care of it most nights.

We did something stupid in a moment where our better judgement was impaired.
I told her such.
She didn't like my answer.
She didn't appreciate that I couldn't or wouldn't say 'I love you' to her.
I don't know why she has to have things her way at the exact moment.

But good ******* riddance.
Now I don't have her stuff in my space.
All her girl products.
I tossed out all the perishable items in the fridge.
I still have to get rid of the non-perishables.
Or have to deal with her 'Skylar' spazz outs.
I think life is going to be a lot different without her around.

[Roderic]

I don't even know where to begin.
A lot has happened in the last two weeks.
Skylar and I are staying married.
And we're having a ******* party to celebrate it.
I'm helping host a party.
Me.
But we have an agreement. If I stay around for a while, I can have five minute breaks away from all the people, if I need it.

The party is tomorrow.
At some pool hall.
Juliet has RSVP'd. Velveteen, Micah, Beverly and apparently Pyper is coming with her.
I thought Beverly was with Katerina, but I guess not.
She's like those commercials.
The Girl's gone wild one.
She should be careful.
Women and emotions are a dangerous combination.
Trust me, I know.

Also, I killed Dillon.
Skylar's best friend.
I hadn't intended on killing him.
Just roughing him up a little bit.
And reminding him that Skylar's mine.
So no more drunk, pity fucks.
Things got a little out of hand.
I've dealt with his **** for months.
And kept my cool.
But when he called her a slut and basically told me I should be thanking him for continually ******* my wife, I slit his ******* throat.
I did have a last minute reservation and teleported him to the hospital's front doors.
He didn't make it. I can't say I'm sad about it.

Finally, marriage is hard ******* work.
Velveteen gave me some advice, but Skylar didn't appreciate me communicating with her.
I don't think Velveteen gave me bad advice. I just think Skylar has too many emotions to recognize my efforts.
Though, maybe I did pick the wrong time to start communicating.
I've been trying really hard though. To figure this stuff out.
I've read things online, asked for advice and opinions. I'm doing a lot of research.
So far marriage is harder than killing someone.
And it never ends.
At least when you kill someone, all your hard work pays off. Because the person is dead.
The end.

[Roderic]

Note:

When someone admits something that isn't good, and is a natural enemy of an entire species, then chastises people for potentially allowing or doing the same thing, you look like a twat.
That is all.

[Roderic]

I saw Aliyah for the first time in months in the city.
I think I made her mad because of what I said about her boyfriend.
I was being honest. Some people can't handle honest at its purest form though.

I haven't seen Phoenix in a while either.
I think married life has kept her indoors.
I hope that doesn't happen to me. I'd rather get divorced first.

Skylar and I are progressing nicely.
Or at least progressing in a positive manner.
She hasn't tried to move out in a while.
That's positive.

She's in this fight with her sire at the moment.
Over something I don't really care about.
I just want the fight to be done.
I don't want to be part of their family.
Elliot's fantasy world isn't for me.
And I'm not going to promise a single thing to anyone I don't know.
Elliot is incorrect in everything he stated against the reason for me to not be in the family, which I pointed out in an email that I sent tonight.
I may have threatened him in that email. Slightly.
I just want Skylar to stop being such a girl and being pissy about something that doesn't even bother me.

I met some guy name Trahir.
He's 'T' for short.
I've seen him twice at Tytonidae oriented things.
I've decided he isn't good with words and socializing either.
But he's good at what counts.
He has my seal of approval.

Also, some guy walked in to the Eyrie tonight.
I wonder how he thought that was really going to end.
I didn't get to use my new sword that Skylar made for me, but all wasn't lost.
It was interesting to see everyone react as quick as they did to defend their space.

[Roderic]

I've been having these weird dreams.
I get a sense of deja vu, when I wake up.
Like I know it, only, I don't.

I went to a fight night.
I didn't fight.
I don't feel like I'm here lately.
I haven't been to the umbra in a long time.
Would the dreams, or whatever they are stop if I go there?
I don't know, but I'm going to find out.
Skylar would understand.
It's for research.

Love is hard to define and quantify.
I came home and told my wife I love her.
I do.
I didn't say it to prove a point or anything, I said it because it's a fact.
No, I don't know how much I love Skylar.
Or what I love her like. Or as.
I just know I do.

[Roderic]

I find myself unsatisfied with most aspects of my life lately.
Or, unfulfilled.
Are they the same premise?

Thing is back.
I think her phone is broke or she changed numbers.
I'll try again tomorrow.

I'm still having these dreams.
I have to go through with my research.
I have to talk to Skylar about this and other things.

[Roderic]

I spent some time with Aeryn tonight.
She gave me a brochure, even though it wasn't needed.
I've used her a lot before and every time she gives me a pamphlet.
I think she's like a hooker. Her services are extremely pricey and not something I've not seen or heard before.
But, I don't know many people who can do certain rituals.

Skylar hasn't said how things are going with Elliot, Lancaster, or whatever his name is.
That could be a 'good,' thing, or a 'bad' thing.
But, just to have a back up plan, I kept the brochure.
I think she would be better off without him. Those two together are like an atom bomb.
When their moods start swinging, it's the girl fight of the century.
I'll pitch her the idea later tonight. I can get her all the things she needs if she wants to go that route.

Hells said something interesting during a Tytonidae meeting.
She talked about wanting to pursue her original desire when joining the group.
What I said then, isn't what I want to do now. I'm not interested in making weapons anymore.
I'm interested in using them to hurt people.
All kinds. Vampires, paladins, sorcerers, humans. Anyone and everyone is fair game.

But, I already do that.
So, now what?
What else can I do to help the faction out other than stab things really hard?
Rituals seem to be covered. Which is fine.
I haven't been able to find anything unique that can be of use to the group in the future
People that can take care of traps are plentiful.
I'm not 'unhappy' with what I do currently, but I feel like I could contribute more.
I just don't know what, or where I can contribute at.
Things for me to ponder about as I continue to grow in my abilities.

[Roderic]

Still having those dreams.
I told Skylar about them.
I haven't really asked her opinion on it though.

Where is Phoenix?
I don't want to be up her *** all the time, or her up mine, but she still can't be honeymooning, can she?

I attempted a raid with Ellie and his carebears.
Skylar enjoyed herself.
I guess this means they kiss and made up.
She wants to find someone else to feed off her.
To see if she likes it or something. I'm not sure. Some experiment.