Re: ♪ Let it all out ♪ (Closed)
Posted: 31 Dec 2015, 00:11
I down a few mouthfuls of my beer while Myk talks. I'm not being rude, it's just the best time to drink. Right? Keeps me quiet at least. Myk seems to be doing well keeping up though. Can't fault the guy on the conversational front.
I gotta say, what he says shocks me a bit. I mean I figured him for the free spirit type and all, but he's sounding down on relationships in general. I gotta wonder if he's been burned in the past. Me. Nope. Never been burned. Well, unless you count that week away from Ric immediately after we got married, cos man that sucked donkey balls. I was ******* catatonic is what I was. Thank **** he came and got me. I can't imagine where I'd be right now if he hadn't.
I shudder at that thought and hope Myk doesn't notice. I'm not sure I wanna explain about my marriage and go into detail about it with a guy I just met. I could. I so could, and it's not like me to keep my mouth shut but, yeah, no. Not gonna talk about that. Didn't happen. yep. Selective amnesia is what I'm imposing on that little event.
He changes tact and starts talking about friendships. Man I'd live and die the guys. Unless Ricky kills them, then all bets are off. I don't know what it is about that guy but I'm pretty damn sure he could guy me and I'd still wanna **** him the moment I healed. I should have left his *** when he killed Dillon. Didn't though, of course.
Still ******* hurts though. I grimace as I bring the bottle to my lips and chug down another couple of mouthfuls. ****, love is weird.
I kinda join the conversation again when I'm asked about Ric and I. How long have we been together. Hmm. What day is it? No, not what day, what's the date? I do a few quick calculations. Married just under a month. And together... well that's a tricky bunny that one. I'd say six months. Ric, Ric might say four. Wow. I guess that ain't long but then again, when you know, you know. Right? ****, I knew drunk.
"Well married, just under a month. So that ain't long. And there was a week in there where we kinda weren't together, even if we were married and ****. Don't ask."
I don't wanna go into the specifics. Wait. Did I already tell him? How many beers have I had? did I drink before I came out. ****. I should go home before I go all out blonde or something and forget where the **** I live.
"But we met not long after I got vampified. So... six months. Though Ric would tell ya it's probably closer to four cos I kinda didn't tell him we were dating at the start. He was kind of a flight risk, so it was best not to spook him."
I say that like it explains something. it really doesn't. You've kinda gotta know Ric and know that he's pretty much socially inept to understand how you can date someone for two months without them noticing. ****. I'd moved in with him before we had that conversation. Poor Ric. Ha! Poor Ric my arse. He should thank his lucky stars he met me.
My phone pings. There's no ringtone, no vibration, so I know it's a text. I root it out of my pocket and look up at Myk. guess I have to cut this little chat short.
"Sorry hun, gotta bail. The guys need me."
I don't explain what they need me for. It's not really any of his business and for once I don't feel like running my mouth. I do however hand Myk my phone.
"Put your digits in there beautiful and give yourself a missed call. We'll keep in touch."
I stand up and down my drink, readying myself to leave. I have to grab my guitar case and check the area around me a second time before I go, else I'll forget something. I never do, but it's habit. ****. Maybe this is an OCD thing I picked up from Ric. Is OCD catching? Maybe. I already knock in even numbers and ****.
I gotta say, what he says shocks me a bit. I mean I figured him for the free spirit type and all, but he's sounding down on relationships in general. I gotta wonder if he's been burned in the past. Me. Nope. Never been burned. Well, unless you count that week away from Ric immediately after we got married, cos man that sucked donkey balls. I was ******* catatonic is what I was. Thank **** he came and got me. I can't imagine where I'd be right now if he hadn't.
I shudder at that thought and hope Myk doesn't notice. I'm not sure I wanna explain about my marriage and go into detail about it with a guy I just met. I could. I so could, and it's not like me to keep my mouth shut but, yeah, no. Not gonna talk about that. Didn't happen. yep. Selective amnesia is what I'm imposing on that little event.
He changes tact and starts talking about friendships. Man I'd live and die the guys. Unless Ricky kills them, then all bets are off. I don't know what it is about that guy but I'm pretty damn sure he could guy me and I'd still wanna **** him the moment I healed. I should have left his *** when he killed Dillon. Didn't though, of course.
Still ******* hurts though. I grimace as I bring the bottle to my lips and chug down another couple of mouthfuls. ****, love is weird.
I kinda join the conversation again when I'm asked about Ric and I. How long have we been together. Hmm. What day is it? No, not what day, what's the date? I do a few quick calculations. Married just under a month. And together... well that's a tricky bunny that one. I'd say six months. Ric, Ric might say four. Wow. I guess that ain't long but then again, when you know, you know. Right? ****, I knew drunk.
"Well married, just under a month. So that ain't long. And there was a week in there where we kinda weren't together, even if we were married and ****. Don't ask."
I don't wanna go into the specifics. Wait. Did I already tell him? How many beers have I had? did I drink before I came out. ****. I should go home before I go all out blonde or something and forget where the **** I live.
"But we met not long after I got vampified. So... six months. Though Ric would tell ya it's probably closer to four cos I kinda didn't tell him we were dating at the start. He was kind of a flight risk, so it was best not to spook him."
I say that like it explains something. it really doesn't. You've kinda gotta know Ric and know that he's pretty much socially inept to understand how you can date someone for two months without them noticing. ****. I'd moved in with him before we had that conversation. Poor Ric. Ha! Poor Ric my arse. He should thank his lucky stars he met me.
My phone pings. There's no ringtone, no vibration, so I know it's a text. I root it out of my pocket and look up at Myk. guess I have to cut this little chat short.
"Sorry hun, gotta bail. The guys need me."
I don't explain what they need me for. It's not really any of his business and for once I don't feel like running my mouth. I do however hand Myk my phone.
"Put your digits in there beautiful and give yourself a missed call. We'll keep in touch."
I stand up and down my drink, readying myself to leave. I have to grab my guitar case and check the area around me a second time before I go, else I'll forget something. I never do, but it's habit. ****. Maybe this is an OCD thing I picked up from Ric. Is OCD catching? Maybe. I already knock in even numbers and ****.